Anneliese Morgan

HP AU Next Gen Roleplayer | Ballerina | Ilvermorny Alumni

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So...

Tumblr has decided my page both exists and does not all at the same time. I know that this issue has happened to other people on the site and thought, perhaps, they might fix it. They haven’t. So, I am moving pages so I can interact with my friends the way I would like to and the way I need to as well. 

This may cause some other things tied to this account to move as well so if you get friended by a look-alike page... It’s me. Not a poser. Not a creeper... just me.

I’m sorry if this is annoying to anyone but I really do not know what else to do. And believe me when I say it's way more annoying for me to have to do this.

Please, be patient while I shuffle things around. 

Thanks,

Anna

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The state of my messages and likes currently

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Olaf has never been more relatable....

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Restless Cheezit

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Tired Potato Chip

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Anxious thin mint

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Who is your celebrity crush?

Charlie knows...

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Are you a cuddler?

I am.

I love a good cuddle. :)

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For Charlie

It’d been a long day. No, Anna thought to herself, it’s been a long December, and it had been. There was no real sugar coating it. Nutcracker season had beaten her and her emotions were running away with it. It didn’t help that the high that had been November wasn’t anywhere to be seen. Charlie and her weren’t on the same wavelength and it made the ring on her finger feel heavier. A little voice ringing faintly in the back of her head that she wasn’t really worthy of it if they weren’t ok. And she couldn’t say if they were but what she could say was something felt broken and she didn’t know what to do with that. 

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Charlie spent the majority of his day in meetings he didn’t want to be in; discussing matters he didn’t fully have answers to. It was hard to convince others of an idea when you weren’t certain of the direction yourself, but that was the situation Anna’s stunt had put him in.

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The seconds ticked away while Anna watched him after she’d spoken. His body language was tense and her intuition told her that he didn’t really want to do this any more than she did. Yet, the wake of silence felt like a cut, intentional or not, she felt it, and as it lingered she watched words flash behind his dark eyes that he didn’t say out loud that spurred flames in her that she was happy to find were still there. Fight was good. She wasn’t so far gone after all.

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Charlie didn’t know whether to laugh or shake his head in severe disappointment at her choice of words. Three years of being together and she still didn’t get it. All that ‘talking’ and ‘sharing’, but she still didn’t see it. It was almost laughable; that is, if it wasn’t so frustrating.

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Never had words cut her so deeply. She stood in the wake of his feelings about her in that moment and couldn’t help but feel like she was suddenly going to drown in them. Every part of her wanted to just fall to the ground and sob but she held the ugly cry in as best she could even as he turned away from her to finish what he said. Anna couldn’t say what hurt worse: what he had to say or the fact he couldn’t even look at her while he said them.

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Anna’s reaction was pretty on par to what he’d expected, and subsequently wanted to avoid. Though he hadn’t been particularly gentle about airing his anger, he’d been gentle in the past when he’d tried to broach this subject, but in the end nothing ever seemed to change.

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The flood gates now open Anna felt her body shake with the tears that stemmed from a guilt that she knew he was right. Even if she had a compelling argument for the actions she’d taken over the last few months they were moot, if only because it didn’t go towards his main argument: that she’d ignored his feelings. Instead, they were only excuses and explanation of her choices that at the end of the path showed only that he was right so they crumbled to ash before they could escape. 

She couldn’t look at him but despite the show of tears and the sound of her weeping she still tracked the sound the old floorboards creaking as he moved towards the wall. Anna breathed a shuddering breath in as she tried to contain her emotions enough to let him speak, if he was even willing too. Eventually, the calm beats of defeated Irish tones drifted towards her and she began to still. She had no right to the calming effect even though the words stung she needed to hear them for their worth and she couldn’t do that if she sobbed through them. Breathing in and out she eventually looked over to his frame pressed against the wall, his knees up and his curly head bobbed downward looking as defeated as she felt. 

A misplaced memory of when they’d started mirrored in her mind. He’d been broken by his friends and the circumstance they’d found themselves in at that time, and she’d offered him comfort. Now, she was the one causing the pain and she wasn’t certain if comfort was an option. Anna lifted her pink sweater sleeve to her eyes and made a motion to dab the water way from her eyes and cheeks pulling it away to see the light color tainted with eyeliner. In spite of the motion the tears clung to her eyes but they stilled enough to not fall. 

She zeroed in on his final plea before proceeding to retrace over the rest. She had listened to the words he’d written but she hadn’t internalized them as she should have. Anna knew well enough that art was an extension of ones-self and yet she hadn’t taken the time to ingest the struggle painted in the poem. Never had she felt like such a failure to someone she loved. She hung her head in shame once more and stood for a moment in silence mulling over the truths the moment exposed. Without thinking on the motions she moved slowly like one fighting to walk through deep still water, until she made her way to sit beside him. Once on the floor she let her instincts take over, for better or worse, and gently lowered her head to his shoulder, another ‘I’m sorry’ stuck in her throat. It was fine, she realized because she’d said them and a repeat didn’t fix the situation. 

The blonde licked her lips and let out another shuddering breath, “I can do better.” The words caused her throat to close rejecting what could have followed as the composure she’d gained risked breaking once more. She pushed it down, “I didn’t mean to lose sight of you… Of what matters most to me.” She paused as she attempted to navigate her thoughts while she spoke. “I know anything I can say about why I made a choice for you is just an excuse. So I won’t do that.” 

Anna bit her bottom lip and looked towards her knees feeling a well of things that she’d been struggling with since coming back to New York. She couldn’t tell if this was the right moment to open up about her own struggles, if anything it certainly didn’t feel like it was the correct time. All of it would just fall under the thing she’d just said she wouldn’t do. Instead she found herself stuck in a loop of silence until she finally spoke the one truth in the mess of her head that she knew beyond everything else, “You are the most important thing in my life. Clearly, I have done a terrible job showing that but it’s true. I can do better. I can be more mindful… I can listen. I can do and be what you need me to be.” Anna fell silent her mind running past that spot but unable to speak more. 

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For Charlie

It’d been a long day. No, Anna thought to herself, it’s been a long December, and it had been. There was no real sugar coating it. Nutcracker season had beaten her and her emotions were running away with it. It didn’t help that the high that had been November wasn’t anywhere to be seen. Charlie and her weren’t on the same wavelength and it made the ring on her finger feel heavier. A little voice ringing faintly in the back of her head that she wasn’t really worthy of it if they weren’t ok. And she couldn’t say if they were but what she could say was something felt broken and she didn’t know what to do with that. 

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[charlie-mcavoy]

Charlie spent the majority of his day in meetings he didn’t want to be in; discussing matters he didn’t fully have answers to. It was hard to convince others of an idea when you weren’t certain of the direction yourself, but that was the situation Anna’s stunt had put him in.

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[anneliese-morgan]

The seconds ticked away while Anna watched him after she’d spoken. His body language was tense and her intuition told her that he didn’t really want to do this any more than she did. Yet, the wake of silence felt like a cut, intentional or not, she felt it, and as it lingered she watched words flash behind his dark eyes that he didn’t say out loud that spurred flames in her that she was happy to find were still there. Fight was good. She wasn’t so far gone after all.

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[charlie-mcavoy]

Charlie didn’t know whether to laugh or shake his head in severe disappointment at her choice of words. Three years of being together and she still didn’t get it. All that ‘talking’ and 'sharing’, but she still didn’t see it. It was almost laughable; that is, if it wasn’t so frustrating.

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Never had words cut her so deeply. She stood in the wake of his feelings about her in that moment and couldn't help but feel like she was suddenly going to drown in them. Every part of her wanted to just fall to the ground and sob but she held the ugly cry in as best she could even as he turned away from her to finish what he said. Anna couldn't say what hurt worse: what he had to say or the fact he couldn't even look at her while he said them.

Her throat tightened uncomfortably against the pain of it and a few tears escaped as she watched his back. Never before had she been accused of being selfish. It wasn’t a word that she’d ever been tied to so securely. If anything when people defined her she was securely placed in the opposite side of that spectrum. Sure, she could be forward, perhaps she took things too far when she wanted to help others but it didn’t come from a place of self-gain. Or perhaps, she just missed that it did. 

Anna looked down unable to keep the sound of a sob escaping her lips. Her hands instantly flew to her mouth as though that would help stop the reaction. That she’d be able to be cold and beat it down with her own will when she knew she’d never been that strong when it came to having a handle on her own emotions if they got whipped up. 

But the truth was she hadn’t done it for selfish reasons. She’d played his song to their friends. The hope had been that’d he’d see the reactions as positive and allow him to begin a conversation about it with people that could actually guide him on the right path. She hadn’t even thought of it as it becoming a race to finish, no she’d just wanted to help push the door to the possibility he’d already been mulling over for the last few months. Encouragement. That’s what she’d been going for because he didn’t seem to respond to what she’d already been offering him on her own. 

She didn’t understand how it spurred so far past that in a matter of weeks if he didn’t want it to. She hadn’t gone to his record executives. She’d just shown their close group of friends. But the motives didn’t matter if it’d just managed to hurt and hinder than to help. She’d wounded him and apparently had been for ages. 

Anna dropped her hands back to her side and felt her ring slide down her finger slightly with the motion. It felt heavy on her finger and she twirled it around fighting the thought that if he felt so slanted maybe she didn’t deserve it and what it stood for, at all. She felt woefully awful and couldn’t help but question why on earth he would consider her his “favorite person,” his back turned away from her she felt isolated and untouched by that sentiment. Yet, she also realized that if she couldn’t say anything he was just going to walk out the door and she really would be alone. Potentially, forever. 

She choked back the sobs and croaked out, “I’m sorry.” She breathed in a rattled breath that fought her tears. “I just wanted to help,” she said pathetically as she tried to wipe her eyes. “I didn’t mean to be hurtful. That wasn’t my intention. I don’t mean to dismiss your feelings.” Anna swallowed trying to keep her throat from closing the words off with tears, “I didn’t think…” She breathed a jagged breath, “I just…” she shook her head and looked back down knowing she wasn’t going to win the battle against her sobs and with a final “I’m sorry,” which she knew all too well meant nothing in that moment she just was left to cry. 

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Nikolas 2020: Sorry...

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Ezra 2020: I'll Miss You

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Sara 2020: You're a Cute Derp

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Anneliese 2020: Come Back Inside It's Cold

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For Charlie

It’d been a long day. No, Anna thought to herself, it’s been a long December, and it had been. There was no real sugar coating it. Nutcracker season had beaten her and her emotions were running away with it. It didn’t help that the high that had been November wasn’t anywhere to be seen. Charlie and her weren’t on the same wavelength and it made the ring on her finger feel heavier. A little voice ringing faintly in the back of her head that she wasn’t really worthy of it if they weren’t ok. And she couldn’t say if they were but what she could say was something felt broken and she didn’t know what to do with that. 

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[charlie-mcavoy]

Charlie spent the majority of his day in meetings he didn’t want to be in; discussing matters he didn’t fully have answers to. It was hard to convince others of an idea when you weren’t certain of the direction yourself, but that was the situation Anna’s stunt had put him in.

Keep reading

[anneliese-morgan]

The seconds ticked away while Anna watched him after she’d spoken. His body language was tense and her intuition told her that he didn’t really want to do this any more than she did. Yet, the wake of silence felt like a cut, intentional or not, she felt it, and as it lingered she watched words flash behind his dark eyes that he didn’t say out loud that spurred flames in her that she was happy to find were still there. Fight was good. She wasn’t so far gone after all.

Finally, he motioned for her to speak. Anna breathed in a contemplative sigh in an attempt to locate what even to say. She frowned, “We used to talk,” she began after a moment. “When things got hard we talked it out and it would work out but we haven’t been and this,” she moved her hand to gesture between them, “isn’t currently working.” The words hurt to say out loud but she realized once she had said them that it needed to be acknowledged. That it wasn’t a white flag but more a declaration of war that she wasn’t ready to let things die. They had made a commitment and she wanted to do it right. If they couldn’t find the foundation then proceeding would just lead to more grief and neither of them deserved that. Neither of them wanted that. They wanted what they’d had and she knew they could get there but that meant making a few cracks so they could spackle it back together… together. 

She nodded to herself realizing that maybe this was the next right thing to do for them and proceeded, “You barely look at me, and I can’t stand it. I realize I’m not around as much as I should be and when I am, I’m a veritable zombie, and because of those things I am beginning to genuinely doubt what I want for my future, because I am finding it hard to see how we’re supposed to be us if we are always busy. I am always busy… ” Anna paused and licked her lips, “because what I really want is us and I don’t feel like we ever really took the proper time to figure out what the heck that is without schooling being in the way. And I think that’s my fault.” 

Her blue eyes began to well up at the admission, “I also know Christmas sucking was my fault too. Between the Nutcracker and no Christmas with your family and the fact that I know you’re mad that I pushed with your music... ” She sniffed as tears began to fall but she carried on, “I just…I’ve messed it all up, and I’m sorry.”