My emotional mind

On a lifelong journey to get better

[anotheremotionalmind]

I'm not done missing you yet.

-M.N@anotheremotionalmind

[anotheremotionalmind]

“It’s not always about doing what you want, it’s about doing what you need.”

My therapist told me this a week ago, and suddenly I’ve been going for a walk, making food, taking showers and going grocery shopping. Not that it has been easy at all. But it’s something that I feel like I need to do, to be a better me.

And I gotta say this, my nights hasn’t been as depressed as when I used my days staring into the wall thinking about life.

[anotheremotionalmind]

Listen, I know that when you're young things seem so big, every little thing that happens feels like the end of the world.

Being young is a struggle, you don't really know who you are and you have to keep up with all these physical, mental and environmental changes while at the same time you experience how cruel and shocking the real world is for the first time.

But my tip: don't take shit too seriously, that's one of the things I regret the most, letting my thoughts consume me when it was probably something I couldn't even do anything about.

You might be in a bad situation but remember that it is temporary, every situation is temporary, things will get better.

I know you didn't ask for this advice and I'm sorry if it soynded too patronizing but if it's not useful for you, maybe it is for someone else. It's just you're posts seemed like very angsty tumblrish things that I would have posted years ago, and I just wish someone would have told me something like this idk.

-m

Thanks for your advise and kind words, m.

The world is a cruel place, with beautiful moments, I try to appreciate every small beautiful moment.

But when you run around with so many thoughts, you forget to breath.

I just needed a safe place where I can breath, write my poetry and thoughts down.

[anotheremotionalmind]

I guess I was just another bump on the road, 

A traumatized matter who you left 

with no note.

- anotheremotionalmind

[anotheremotionalmind]

I am aware that I am broken.

A broken soul.

But when he holds me

I feel like

One Day

I will be someone

Who is not

So cold

Who is not so

Distant.

[anotheremotionalmind]

So when it all gets blurry once again

I will try to remember the way he looked at me

His eyes were filled with empathy

[anotheremotionalmind]

He touches me in ways dreams feel like

The problem is just that

It’s dreams.

[anotheremotionalmind]

I’ve been played so much, I’ve created my own character.

-anotheremotionalmind

[anotheremotionalmind]

I feel like I’m the person you use to get over another, I’m the person you use to heal yourself.

I will literally give you everything you want and say what ever you want me to say, just to satisfy you.

Just for you to push me away when your ego is high enough.

[anotheremotionalmind]

I guess I was no more worth than for a couple of days.

[anotheremotionalmind]

For so long I’ve been confused about what is right and what is wrong,

What’s good and what’s evil,

My whole life I’ve fought for not being in a box,

Then it hits me.

I try to put everything and everyone in a box around me,

I do not want to keep it simple anymore,

I sure am not a simple person,

Nor have I ever been a simple person,

Ever.

I am non-binary

And you shall be a beautiful soul in my eyes,

Never a gender,

Ever.

Don’t put me in a box,

Let’s crawl out of it together.

I love you.

Forever.

[anotheremotionalmind]

But when I look at my doctor

I try to show what I feel

Why can’t they look right in me

Can’t you see

I’m not there yet

I can’t scream

[anotheremotionalmind]

I scream as loud as I can

Why won’t you hear me

I’m stuck between walls and my mind

Can’t you see me?

I scream as loud as I can

But I’m stuck in my head

Can’t you hear me?

I guess the voices in my head isn’t loud enough

[anotheremotionalmind]

And finally I’m in his arms again

The black eyes tell me nothing more than history

They tell me Broken memories.

I will forever stay by his side

But I wonder if he knows

Let me breath one more time

Before my feelings shows.

[i-j0s]

[anotheremotionalmind]

Just a reminder that time doesn’t exist.

Read that again.

Time doesn’t exist.

And read that one more time.

TIME DO NOT EXIST, IT IS SOMETHING HUMANS INVENTED TO CONTROL US

READ THAT ONE MORE FUCKING TIME

[dg-fragments]

Update

Hello guys,

So, I have finally published a book. It was something I wanted to complete in 2020 and I am happy to have been able to do that. I'm super grateful to those who pushed me to get it done. It's titled as "Conversations inside my head" and is available on Amazon, in both formats, Kindle e-book as well as Paperback. The book is divided into 5 sections and also contain some pieces which I have only written exclusively for the book! ^^

It can be found from the following link:

Conversations inside my head [Fragments, DG] on Amazon.com. *FREE* shipping on qualifying offers. Conversations inside my head

I'd be super delighted if you guys would check it out and let me know if there's any feedback. =)

Also, if anyone needs help with their own self-publishing process, I am more than happy to help and pass on my learning. ✌️

Yours,

DG

[anotheremotionalmind]

HELLO DEAR FRIENDS!

My dearest friend, the first one I got to know through this app, the most amazing person!

Has published the first book!

I am beyond proud.

@dg-fragments