This is my story ♥

This is my Story ♥ (All my hopes, dreams and whatevers) Anthea Elaine Bonifacio An.the.a [an-thee-uh] Noun A female given name: from a Greek word meaning “flowery.” Filipina. Engineering student. Self-proclaimed Artist. Music Lover. Frustrated Drummer. Anime Obsessed. Noob DOTA Player. ★ "Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice." nuffnang_bid = "f84830eb0818957974718ac375a6cb60";

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I used to be alone but not lonely. Now I am both.

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For her, the ocean was more than a dream, it was a place she needed to visit to find herself. And when she returned to the city, you could see the Sun in her eyes, the wind in her hair, and taste the infinite salt on her lips. #paradise

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Absolutely. Emotions are complicated and they certainly don't make sense all of the time. However, that doesn't mean that any feeling is wrong or that we should judge ourselves for feeling them. Being sad is okay sometimes, and trying to push our feelings away simply because we don't understand them often makes us suffer more in the long run.

[antheaelaine]

I hold it true, whate'er befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most; 'Tis better to have loved and lost Than never to have loved at all.

Alfred Lord Tennyson

[antheaelaine]

Gusto kong makahanap ng Popoy sa buhay ko. Pero kailangan ko muna maging isang Basha. Mapagpasensya. Mapagpatawad. Marunong magtiis. Mapagmahal. Marunong mag-antay. Hindi basta-basta sumusuko.

[antheaelaine]

One of my goals has always been to be the stupidest person in the room so I can surround myself with crazy smart people I can learn from.

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contemplate

[kon-tuh m-pleyt, -tem-]

verb (used with object), contemplated, contemplating.

1.to look at or view with continued attention; observe or studythoughtfully:to contemplate the stars.

2.to consider thoroughly; think fully or deeply about:to contemplate a difficult problem.

3.to have as a purpose; intend.

4.to have in view as a future event:to contemplate buying a new car.

verb (used without object), contemplated, contemplating.

5.to think studiously; meditate; consider deliberately.

[antheaelaine]

A computer is a stupid machine with the ability to do incredibly smart things, while computer programmers are smart people with the ability to do incredibly stupid things. They are,in short, a perfect match.

[antheaelaine]

"You know you've read a good book when you turn the last page and feel a little as if you have lost a friend"

-Paul Sweeney

Wow, I hadn't realized I just finished reading the book in a week despite the busy schedule. I guess I got too attached to it except for the fact that I barely have any idea what to expect from the book from the beginning. Heck, I don't even know it's the best selling, seriously! I just picked a random book and I didn't get disappointed. It turned out to be my instant favorite! :D

[antheaelaine]

I’m feeling so lazy today. I didn’t even go to work. Whyyyy???

Procrastination at its finest. I need some motivation to work tomorrow.

[antheaelaine]

If at first you don’t succeed; call it version 1.0

[antheaelaine]

Friday Night | 08-14-2015

8 Cuts Burger, Greenbelt

Happy that we finally meet each other. I guess it has been a year since the last time we’re complete. At least I have some time to chill after all these dramas lately. Hahaha. Looking forward for another time together with the four of us COMPLETE! Haha :D

[antheaelaine]

It Happened Again

I’ve finally proven that my instincts were right. What I saw that might happen actually did happen now.

Then I ask myself why do I have to experience something like this all over again? Maybe not the same degree of hurt, sadness and loneliness but it is almost the same concept. Although it’s a little bit easier to accept today. Well, good for me because I don’t have to cry for things like this. Not today. This did not come as a surprise since I already have some hunches about the situation. Although it’s sad sometimes that I have to feel again that I’m alone.

Maybe I don’t miss the person. Maybe I just miss the feelings he gave me. The feeling that I am not alone. Feeling that I have someone I can talk to almost any time of the day even for some random thoughts. I miss having those kinds of conversations with someone. I miss smiling like an idiot when I am riding a public transportation when I’m reading those silly messages. I miss feeling that I am special.

Just when thought that maybe, just maybe, he can be the one. When I already let my guard down and starting to trust someone, then came a time that he gives me a reason not to trust him.

I wanted to say so many things. So many thoughts are actually running through my head right now. But I guess this is not important anymore. I should start moving on and let go of the past for it is meant to stay just a part of my past. Not a part of my future.

I wanted to be mad at you for being too flirt and giving me false hope. For saying the things you don’t truly mean. For playing with my feelings. For being too selfish that you make me hold on when in fact you’re already starting to hold on to someone else.

But then I realized that maybe God has a better plan. Maybe we’re just meant to meet at some point in time. Maybe you’re a part of my lesson. And maybe instead of feeling bad, I should be thankful to God for taking me away to the wrong people because I deserve someone better. Someone I can trust. Someone that God planned me to be with.

[antheaelaine]

Soon this feeling will fade away...

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Pansin ko lang, nagiging suki ako ng Tumblr kapag may pinagdadaanan ako. Hahaha

[antheaelaine]

Huhuhuh. Ang ganda ng trailer. Interested akong mapanood ‘to! Di ko alam kung bakit pero may something at feel ko yung emotions ng bawat scene. I hope this series won’t disappoint me.

[antheaelaine]

I admit, I’m not okay...