Open Minds
Anthion was worked up. For days after seeing Solan he was rushing around the castle, looking up recipes trying them out of Alleâs family members. It was like he was alive again and Anthion didnât know if he liked it or if he was lost in his need to win approval from both Solan and Alle.
He had bee so focused on reading that he almost ignored the sound of Alleâs footsteps from the hallway. When she entered his lab, he looked up and felt his heart be pulled towards her. No matter the rest of the week, just seeing her confirmed that he would always love her.
âAlle-Dear.â He said closing the cookbook he was scanning. âDone with your meetings?â
âFor right now.â She had one of her small smiles, the smiles that Anthion knew were the kindest things her mouth could express. âI wanted to see how you were doing. Youâve been keeping busy since you saw Solan.â
Her saying his name was a strange musical moment. Alle had a lighter voice, one that sounded young until you realized her vocabulary was that of an old woman. Anthion loved that about her, it reminded him of his life as an elf. Maybe that was one of the many factors that caused him to fall in love. Her voice reminded him of home.
âWell I do have a dinner party to plan and I am not making something pedestrian for either of you.â He felt the smile crawl onto his lips. Much of his pride had changed from being a powerful monster to being a man who wanted to leave no doubt in his future mates mind. âBoth of you deserve that. Also, itâll be your first time in Eversong, I have to show off.â
âIt will also be the first meal youâve made since youâve seen Solan.â She moved around him and Anthion could swear she was meaning something with her words.
It would be the first meal he had made him in too long. Anthion felt his heart hurt a little and he didnât know how he was going to balance his feelings. The moment he heard Solan was alive old gaping wounds were ripped open and he didnât know how to deal with them. The wounds only stayed open as he had spoken to the man. Everything he said was enough to cause Anthion to remember the life they almost had. A life where he would still be alive. It would only be a life without Alle.
His conflict was one that only time was going to tell what he really felt.
âYes.â He said looking to the cookbook and not her corn flower blue eyes. âI am nervous about a few things. I-I would like to ask you something Dear. I want to tell you before I say too much. I love you. Youâre the first woman I have ever fallen in love with.â He let out a small breath. âYouâre the only woman Iâve ever considered marrying.â
Alle finished her circle around him to stand beside him at his desk. One of her warm hands covered his cool one. Her touch was something he had earned and the simple act, while no longer new still amazed him.
âI know. And I am yours.â She moved so she could set on the edge of the table, holding his hand in hers. âI never had a doubt about that.â
âWhat if, I still had feelings for Solan?â
The words were out and Anthion felt a small rush of panic as he said them. The panic demanded he fill the empty space not wanting to wait for her response. âI donât want you to think that this is because of anything you did. Itâs a lot of old memories that I am having a hard time trying to navigate and I-I donât know how to handle my feelings. Sanâlayn were made to have our possessive and territorial feelings boosted. I am lost in what Iâm doing. I donât even know how the living me would have handled th-â
Alleâs hand moved from his hand to his cheek, the warmth kissing his skin. âStop it. Youâre working yourself up again.â Her voice stayed calm and as he looked up to her eyes he saw there was no resentment, no anger. âDo you want to restart your relationship with him?â
âI donât know.â Anthion said it honestly. âI have old feelings I canât shake, and I donât want to ruin who we are.â
âYou canât ruin who we are.â She rubbed her thumb over his cheek. âI donât care if you have feelings for him. I see it as a good sign, youâre feeling parts of your former self.â
âNeither of us want to hurt you.â He looked up to Alle, and seeing her calm, his fear pulled away. âHe doesnât know I have these feelings; I did warn him I would probably flirt with him. It just, comes out of me.â
Alle paused and for a moment Anthion wondered if she was going to tell him to not flirt with Solan. She leaned down and kissed his cheek a small serene smile fixed on her. âI could tell, you were nearly gushing with approval of him when we spoke. I donât mind you showing your affection. Iâm only territorial if a woman was involved. Solan sounds like a lovely man, I donât have any reason to feel like he would steal you from me. If instead he reminds you of your former days, brings a bit of your past to your present, then good.â
âWhy are you so alright with this?â Anthion asked his voice quiet in the wonder he felt. âWomen of my race are possessive and donât want their mate sleeping around. Or thatâs how itâs been. Solan has dealt with that. I couldnât go thr-â
âIâm not an elf.â Alle said clearly. âIâm going to die one day Anthion. I am very aware I am mortal, and you will outlive me. Solan is someone you loved, and he is going to out live me. If there are lingering feelings, I would rather the two of you be friends and remember that romantic bond. Then after Iâm gone, he can comfort you. You will need someone to comfort you and I am not possessive enough to think you should die alone.â
The truth of her intentions hit Anthion like a brick wall. âAlle. Donât, donât mention your death.â
âI will die. Itâs going to happen. I delayed it enough with my time in the Forest and Iâm grateful for that. But you need to understand.â She rested her forehead to his and he could feel her heartbeat under her skin. âI will not see you dead when I die. Donât make me the reason you leave this world. Donât leave your children, our children alone.â
The truth was just the way Anthion would see it. It was the true Alle that hid under the woman who acted regal and older than her physical years. This was the reason he fell in love with her, why he thought her family followed her. She had this selfless knowledge that humans did not normally have. It made her wise, but it also made him aware just what she knew.
âYou know I was going to die after you passed, didnât you?â
âI did.â Alle pulled away her shoulders rising and falling. âAnd I donât want you to die when I die. You are I will have children who will need your comfort and love. Keep your connection with Solan. At least when Iâm gone the two of you can keep each other safe. So please, flirt, Iâll laugh and watch you fall all over yourself.â
He was careful to rise from his seat, not wanting to push Alle away. His movements were slow as he wrapped his arms around her, giving her ample time to run if need be. âYouâre unlike any woman Iâve ever known.â
Her warm arms moved around him and he could feel her steady heartbeat. The steadiness was always the clue to how she really felt. Alle could hide her emotions, but she couldnât hide it internally. If she was jealous, he couldnât sense it. If she had doubt, he couldnât tell. It meant one thing. She was fine, and she meant every word she said.
âI do hope Iâm unlike the other women youâve met. They donât need to survive what Iâve lived through.â She said it quietly her head resting on his shoulder. âI want to ask one favor.â
He stilled as he imagined it was going to be something akin to what he was used to. She would tell him not to talk about Solan to her, or one of the many other ruleâs others put on their loved ones. âAnything?â
âIf anything changes, you tell me first. No more pretending everything is alright.â She looked up her smile small but honest. âIâll probably be alright with it.â
Leaning down he kissed her, it was a soft kiss, one of many they were now experts in. Anthion never thought Iâd feel as grateful as he was right then. While he was still figuring out his emotions, it was good to know he wasnât going to destroy anything by accident.
((Mentions: @allebeithlochâ and @alas-wardââs new side alt. This scene already happened, but I really wanted to share Alleâs growth over the year.))





















