BEAUTY & TERROR

30 | progressive TX jewess | psych ward class clown | trying my best to be good.

[cyberxbattalion]

[brianvoisin]

[hexjulia]

so hard not to become the most annoying person on earth if you're a little excitable and just learned a little about a topic literally no one around you has any interest in

[thedreadpiratecam]

microdosing hell by being awake and literate

[prompts-in-a-barrel]

"You don't know me. I'm not the same person anymore."

"That's okay. I'll get to know you again."

[californiannostalgia]

[kiefbowl]

the most important virtues for the young woman are as follows: time theft, selfishness, orgasms, irreverence to authority, sacrilegious behavior, a questioning mind, and eating regular meals.

[littleplasticthings]

Gyromorphosis, 1954

[puppygirldick]

[orcbara]

too many stories about turning yourself into a monster as a metaphor for pretending to be something you aren't and losing yourself in the process. not enough stories about turning yourself into a monster as a metaphor for choosing to openly embrace yourself even if it's strange to other people

[stellarsarah]

shrek (fiona’s perspective)

[thoughtcascades]

i think being too understanding has wasted more of my time than being angry ever did

[animentality]

[stellarsarah]

i’m alive btw

[stellarsarah]

The good news is that being off weed makes me feel like I have more hours in a day.

The bad news is that being off weed makes me feel like I have more hours in a day.

[shinimasu-deactivated20130526]

[foone]

t shirt that says "my body is NOT a machine, I wish it was, I could fix it"

and the back says "I own many screwdrivers"

[stellarsarah]

*banging on the walls of a tesseract, staring at my past self* you feel like shit because you're not eating enough! EAT MURPH

[stellarsarah]

CW - weight management talk

I am on what is for all intents and purposes a medically-managed cut right now (hips/knees/ankles have been hurting more lately but I also gained a bit of weight when I joined my band, and these are likely related so my doc and I decided to try this before throwing more pills or PT at the problem) and it's nothing crazy. It's largely exercise-focused, and my deficit is only enough to lose half a pound a week if that. I am only very loosely tracking this and I don't always eat at a deficit on a heavy lifting day.

I don't know if it's that I'm 31 now or what, but I genuinely have no fucking clue how I used to maintain enough of a deficit to lose 2-3 lbs in a week AND also do long strenuous workouts on top of that. Yesterday, my deficit was that of like two pieces of fruit and I'm still so cranky this morning. Granted, we went and saw 3-hour long movie last night at 10pm in a city 30 min away when I am NOT a night owl, but still.

I haven't intentionally tried to lose weight since I got k-holed during colon surgery and saw god and my fucking lort I can't believe I used to do this shit for the love of the game. No wonder so many of y'all were annoyed with me for so long lmfao