A body that no longer acts as it used too. Becoming a broken husk of itself. - A poem on surrounding my feelings with my chronic pain.
My body rejecting the very existence of itself,
Aching and twinging in lighting strikes of pain,
Violently skipping along my body as each zap digs in deeper,
Carving itself so deep into me until it can’t be ignored.
For this overwhelming pain is of my own doing,
I feel it’s my own karma- come to pay me a visit,
Lashing spikes of burning pain in my joints,
Reflecting the very same sensation, I use to inflict,
With a blade made to sharpen a tool; that creates magnificent art.
It will be tainted with the sins that were lingering on my finger tips,
Aching to infect everything I touch,
Now the marks on my body are an ugly amalgamation,
A twisted summary of all the rotten, vile hatred I held for myself.
How can I ever be content with myself again?
When my foolish, impulsive actions- could be why my body falls me so much,
Perhaps this is the punishment that has been thought fitting,
Or maybe I prefer a much worse fate.
Hi, hello! So my chronic pain has gotten worse recently especially this last month. That paired with my chronic fatigue has not been fun. Therefore, I decided to write this poem to help get my feelings out. Probably not the best but I wasn’t too focused on writing well.