Streams of thought in the mind are intense when I let them flow.
In the last few days I've had like a shit load of inspiration and a few nightmares..
Some content is decent..
The rest is really emotionally turbulent.
Some of it's bizzare and almost like flashbacks to other dreams that the brain seems to be filling the gaps with content..
I feel like most of the content is scrap emotional reactions to old damage anyway like nightmares and trauma.
Some of it I could maybe work into something at some point but it mostly seems negative. Only a few parts of it I think other people might enjoy.
Subconcious Is just scrambling away from thoughts of suicide atm so it's doing anything it can to maintain some sort of control.
Sometimes the imagination gets ahead of me and I have to spend hours slowing it down and correcting whole scenarios and situations that it invents for a narrative filler.
I feel like the emotional content even if I could make it something entertaining it would be mostly traumatic.
All my thoughts and feelings are sad and sort of just not what other people feel.
So I feel like the stories would be lost on people and misunderstood as something other than what I intend them to be.
