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The most intriguing aspects of using psychedelics therapeutically to me stems from the theory that brain regions impacted negatively by addi
Easy to read research and promising medical treatments for psychedelics potential and my personal hopes for reversal of long term negative neurological impacts of crystal meth
The universe is unfolding as it should.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams it is still a beautiful world.
Strive to be happy.
“Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darkness of other people.”
— Carl Jung
Hello darkness my old friend
Neon Signal: Astronaut’s Cosmic Message
“If you break someone and they still wish you the best, you’ve lost the greatest thing for you”
— Unknown
Hello family and tweaker friends reblog if your set and ready to make some clouds .pm if you need some good shards
I wish I could at this moment but currently in the business of unfucking myself and the mess I’m in. Don’t listen to the voices in your head they are only in your head
I posted this 6 years ago. My life looks nothing like it was. I am grateful to be alive and I am blessed to be free from the grips of this terrible poison that plagued my past with wreaked havoc and mayhem wherever I went….unfortunately I still do at times.
The truth is I lost my fucking mind, and I’m lucky to be lucid. Today, I did significant research and realize that the detrimental issues I cause when I act out (yell, react react) from many of my thoughts, feelings, and behaviors are a consequence of structural changes in the brain, and neurological changes that may never improve and increase my risk of cognitive decline or deficiencies. Not to mention the neurotoxic effects or damaged receptors.
I’ve been so ashamed to say that I cause so many problems with people these days and have since a pretty distinct point when I was using. It’s fucking awful, I have had to reframe my paradigm so many times and keep doing it so I don’t beat myself up, lash out and cause more problems, or just negative energy elimination.
The few close friends and family I have were so worried about me. They don’t want to get anymore calls or texts or worries about me slamming ice in my arm. It’s crazy how much I don’t want to go back and it’s crazy how fucked up I probably am from that time.
My wife left me because of how I was treating her, and how out of control I became. I just needed her to talk to me. That’s it. She never saw me when I was in that madness but she has been negatively impacted by the choices I made years ago, and that’s not fair or right to her (I did expect her to be there for us to work through this) that I have decided to take the direction of quantum mechanics into consideration because I don’t accept that I am stuck like this forever.
I will get better. I have been getting better. Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. Don’t use meth.
“If you don’t get what you want, you suffer; if you get what you don’t want, you suffer; even when you get exactly what you want, you still suffer because you can’t hold on to it forever. Your mind is your predicament. It wants to be free of change. Free of pain, free of the obligations of life and death. But change is law and no amount of pretending will alter that reality.”
—
Socrates
(via purplebuddhaquotes)
The Law of impermanence is simple to grasp, difficult to apply. Just when I think that I’ve become okay with accepting something I find myself right back where I started mentally. The struggle is real, and while I think I know it’s becoming evermore evident that what I think I know I don’t know for sure, and that’s just how it is always. Nothing is certain, and I have to remain vigilant in remembering not to delude myself as I have been a master of denying myself that freedom from being a prisoner of my own mind
“Switch your mentality from ‘I’m broken and helpless’ to ‘I’m growing and healing’ and watch how your life changes.”
— Unknown
Working on shifting my perspective for my current living situation. It sucks I feel hindered as fuck in this halfway house, and I’m ready to blank on half the dipshit pussy ass virgins that reside here. Thank god im not homeless though. Thank god im not still in jail and my felonies are about to be dismissed. Thank god im alive, and my stay here is incredibly temporary. As frustrated as I’ve felt lately I have to be grateful for the love and support I have, and the abilities addiction has given me to make a bright side out of my dark moments. If nobody’s told you today I love you and everything is going to be alright.
“Always be kinder than you feel.”
— (via purplebuddhaquotes)
Trying to climb over this wall I seem to keep running into. Sporadic spells of depression from the lack of dopamine, levels of regret and guilt regarding the wreckage of the past, and deaths I have yet to fully process. Despite doing everything I’m supposed to do at this point I’m fucking struggling right now is what it boils down to, and by striving to leave a positive footprint on the relationships I have right now and be available to the best of my ability for anyone else who is struggling seems to relieve a little bit of this inner turmoil.
Description of my current situation is terrible, terrifying, and tragic. Once again I perpetuate a reality of self destruction, deprivation, and loss of respect for myself. I’m losing my mind, body, and spirit. I’m ready to snap due to extra circumstances that points need to be made, but I’ve been trying to leave that part of me behind. I’ll never settle for less because I am worth it, and if nobody can see the sadness behind your smile theyre not to be trusted with the brilliance within your brain
“Sometimes people will hear you better if you speak with a voice of compassion instead of authority. They long to be understood more than lectured.”
—
Dodinsky (via purplebuddhaquotes)
Are you there?
Its Me, Misunderstood.
Lost, looking for found.
Lonely, surrounded by people.
Alienated, far out of this world.
On my high horse no more, I knocked myself down.
Are you there?
Its Me, Confused.
I’m looking for understanding, trying to sort through insanity.
Where’s my peace of mind?
Where’s my piece of mind?
Are you there?
It’s Me. Disheartened.
All I’ve found is lost, courtesy of misunderstanding.
Voices in my head Part #idfk
Don’t listen to the voices in your head they’re only in your head. The past week I’ve experienced a series of flashbacks that have really been fucking my head up. The resurgence in symptoms is caused by an increase in noradrenergic activity commonly associated with high levels of stress. This shit fucks me up so bad. Things my nightmares are made out of being whispered in my head and I need it to stop. I got some crazy pills from the doc today to knock the voices out till they pass. If they were to go on much longer I’d rather just shoot dope til I fucking died. Hanging on to the edge of this roller coaster trying my damnedest not to fall out
#inspiration #love #meaning #conciousness #life #story
Most of my life has become a story people wouldn’t believe, somewhere in the shadowlands where surreal fantasy quickly turns to vivid nightmares. I don’t seem like the type of dude that would not only step in half the shit I’ve covered my shoes in, much less be able to wash the dirt off my soul clean
Something I don't think we talk enough about in discussions surrounding AI is the loss of perseverance.
I have a friend who works in education and he told me about how he was working with a small group of HS students to develop a new school sports chant. This was a very daunting task for the group, in large part because many had learning disabilities related to reading and writing, so coming up with a catchy, hard-hitting, probably rhyming, poetry-esque piece of collaborative writing felt like something outside of their skill range. But it wasn't! I knew that, he knew that, and he worked damn hard to convince the kids of that too. Even if the end result was terrible (by someone else's standards), we knew they had it in them to complete the piece and feel super proud of their creation.
Fast-forward a few days and he reports back that yes they have a chant now... but it's 99% AI. It was made by Chat-GPT. Once the kids realized they could just ask the bot to do the hard thing for them - and do it "better" than they (supposedly) ever could - that's the only route they were willing to take. It was either use Chat-GPT or don't do it at all. And I was just so devastated to hear this because Jesus Christ, struggling is important. Of course most 14-18 year olds aren't going to see the merit of that, let alone understand why that process (attempting something new and challenging) is more valuable than the end result (a "good" chant), but as adults we all have a responsibility to coach them through that messy process. Except that's become damn near impossible with an Instantly Do The Thing app in everyone's pocket. Yes, AI is fucking awful because of plagiarism and misinformation and the environmental impact, but it's also keeping people - particularly young people - from developing perseverance. It's not just important that you learn to write your own stuff because of intellectual agency, but because writing is hard and it's crucial that you learn how to persevere through doing hard things.
Write a shitty poem. Write an essay where half the textual 'evidence' doesn't track. Write an awkward as fuck email with an equally embarrassing typo. Every time you do you're not just developing that particular skill, you're also learning that you did something badly and the world didn't end. You can get through things! You can get through challenging things! Not everything in life has to be perfect but you know what? You'll only improve at the challenging stuff if you do a whole lot of it badly first. The ability to say, "I didn't think I could do that but I did it anyway. It's not great, but I did it," is SO IMPORTANT for developing confidence across the board, not just in these specific tasks.
Idk I'm just really worried about kids having to grow up in a world where (for a variety of reasons beyond just AI) they're not given the chance to struggle through new and challenging things like we used to.
I think this is an incredibly important post for a lot of reasons. You have to write a bad book in order to learn how to do something. You have to suck at playing an instrument before you can improve.
Struggling is part of the process, and I've had a lot of people argue with me that it shouldn't be who fail to see the point. When you replace an composer with an AI music generator, an artist with an AI-generated image, or an author with an AI-generated fanfic, you are missing out on the critical, fundamental experiences humans need to learn and grow. You are robbing yourself of essential skills you need as a person.
AI is not like a calculator, or a synthesizer, or a prompt generator. It's not a tool to aid in your process of understanding or creating something. It is replacing your ability to learn things, and that is going to do so much damage if you let it.
What you meet in another being is the projection of your own level of evolution.
Ram Dass
Suffering is inevitable, misery is optional.
Acceptance is the Answer, to all my Questions.
Acceptance presents opportunities for solutions to replace problems.
Be the change you wish to see, and lead by example.