feast when you can

& dream when there’s nothing to feast on emery // they/he/she // 22

[argonphoenix]

[inkskinned]

Every day I handle more money than I will ever make. Every day.

At the start of my employment, my boss showed me videos of people stealing, and we both had a chuckle about it. How silly they were! There was a camera overhead, and it’s not to watch the shoppers. See, we can’t actually stop shoplifters. They get away with it maybe nine out of ten times. But we, who are watched and tallied and witnessed? We are always caught.

At first it was hard to hold one hundred dollars bills. An amount I had never seen before. An amount that didn’t exist in my household. It’s normal now. Here is something that is not for me.

“What the hell, I’ll take another,” says the man, pondering our 200 dollar watches. What the hell. Total comes to 580 and not even a flinch in his face. I have been working for 11 hours today and made only 110 dollars. It will go to my rent. Today I work for free, it feels. When I get my check, I will have 35 dollars left for food and saving.

The six hundreds he hands me go into the cash register. For a moment, I imagine having money. Then I put it away, counting out his change.

I know for a fact we sell our products for double what they are worth. That I could be making commission. That they could hand me those 580 dollars and change my life and not even mark the difference in their checkbooks. He’s not the only sale they make today, but I am the reason they made it. He’s not the only one spending 600 dollars, but if I hadn’t spent two hours with him telling me about his life, he wouldn’t have spent any. I go home. I don’t own a watch.

I have watched and rewatched a video on how to make salmon four ways. My shopping list is always the same. Pasta. Rice. Tuna. If I can afford butter it was a good week. I dream of the world I will never walk in, where I can throw the best fish fillet in the cart with a shrug. I hold hundreds in my hand and look up at the camera. I put them under the cash drawer.

I go to work. I scrap together my savings. I eat my bowl of rice slowly. My manager takes a paid week off from work just for his birthday. He owns a yacht. 

I’m not worth the cost of a watch.

[inkskinned]

i wrote this while i was working at orlando’s walt disney world parks.

i was part of their college program. i moved to the state for it. they legally owned the building i was living in and still charged me rent. i ostensibly was being charged to work for them. it was a 2 bedroom apartment and they placed 6 adult women in it in forced triples.

as many as one in ten disney employees have experienced homelessness while working for the company. despite huge efforts to unionize, strike, or otherwise demand fair treatment; disney has refused to increase employee quality of life.

disney admits publicly that a good portion of their success is because the employees (“cast members”) are dedicated, passionate, and selfless. this is never reflected in pay. even “face” characters (ie those that are princesses etc) make barely above a minimum wage.

at the time that i worked there, i made $8.50 an hour. at one point i was asked to create a human shield around a bag because a bomb dog had alerted to it. for eight fucking dollars an hour.

i now work a very cushy office job. i have bought the salmon and cooked it all four ways.

i go to the store. i am nice to the person behind the counter. she looks up at the camera while she counts out my change. there is nothing fundamentally different about her and i.

we are both worth more than the watch, anyway.

[eebie]

[estrogenesis-vaporeongelion]

the staccato trumpet trills from the end of TANK! but they just keep going

[estrogenesis-vaporeongelion]

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[rose-blumen]

Visit Original Link

I have been prepared for this moment for like 2 months

[estrogenesis-vaporeongelion]

holy shit i am in tears

[koobiie]

i feel strongly about this

[ailurinae]

[agentsecret24]

Adding to this. A word to any youtubers reading this. Never under any circumstances bake the captions into the video, especially if you censor/change any words. Because then you're not doing it for accessability, you're doing it because it's what everyone else is doing and it's an eyesore on the video.

[4o4-tales]

What if someone were to, hypothetically speaking of course, burn in captions because they're a graphic design nerd who just likes picking the font and timing for their captions?

[agentsecret24]

That's more on the artsy side which is more than fine by me.

(my main issue is with people who use the default premire auto captioning preset where they just send it and don't even screen it)

Youtube does actually support font and colors in the captions as proof by this video which uses it as a Kareoke track (obviously you need to turn on CC to see it)

This video was really what opened my eyes to this kind of thing.

I also found this video on how to do it.

[agnesmontague]

ive invented (note: dubious claim) something i call the bear diet which is mostly fruits and vegetables with fish as the main protein source and something like once a month you eat a few hyperprocessed foods of your liking because that is when you, the bear, raid a dumpster in the suburbs

[stellarskyes]

after the hyperprocessed foods, do you take tranquilizers to simulate getting captured by animal control and returned to the wild?

[agnesmontague]

i would settle for melatonin gummies but well. knock yourself out

[ndnbutch]

the author’s thinly veiled nothing #notwriting #straightupnotwritingit

[unyieldingsilence]

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[mechanicalriddle]

dogs are always putting their ass next to your ass while you sleep

[mechanicalriddle]

illustration

[benevolentpsychosis]

party games as a genre are doomed to fail until we standardize a guest pass system for online play. Imagine if you were playing a board game irl and everyone who wanted in had to buy their own copy. That's ridiculous. The genre peaked when couch co-op was still supreme and now Dokapon Kingdom has been on steam for years but it doesn't matter cuz it's like $40 a person or some shit and nobody wants to do that

[pjackk]

when will you hit menopause pjac

Im never hitting pause on men

[kosmogrl]

[uesp]

Pictured: An unused dog model found in the Redguard game files.

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[nobrashfestivity]

George Shiras, Among the first nighttime photographs of animals, 1906

[jetcorax]

had to add more

[magneatio]

[pansyfemme]

i love headcanoning old men as ftm. like considering fandom loves to equate being transmasc to being young no one will probably agree with me but i look into his eyes and see the wisdom only a post-menopausal man could provide

[tomarrymorrt]

I don’t think anything could possibly describe Voldemort better than the phrase ‘a post-menopausal man’ because he is that. that is him.

Voldemort is ftm in my mind for the sole reason that he NEEDS to experience menopause. It’s character development idk what to tell you.

[pansyfemme]

read another book

[rabbitkinglune777]

drew my fursona as two rap albums I like

[rabbitkinglune777]

albums are:

DAMN by Kendrick Lamar and IGOR by Tyler the creator! go listen to rap it's awesome

[rabbitkinglune777]

with the rap discourse that happened here, instead of arguing I wanted to draw two albums that make me want to create art and that I also relate some of my struggles too. both beautiful pieces of work

[herpsandbirds]

Authors set out to correct under-representation of female sounds – and found some surprising revelations

When we hear the beautiful call of a bird from a high bough, we’re told it’s likely to be a male – singing for territory, or belting out tunes to woo a female. But as the annual dawn chorus reaches a crescendo this spring, a new guidebook is urging us to think again – and turn our ears to the hidden world of female birdsong. The songs, sounds and sights of female birds have historically been overlooked in field guides and sound archives. In 2016, just 0.01% of the bird sounds in the global Xeno-Canto sound library were labelled female. Another sound archive was just 0.03% female, according to a 2018 study. But the new book – The Sound Approach to Birding 2 – aims to correct this under-representation and properly explain female birdsong. Female birds sing for territorial displays, to ward off other females and to attract extra males, according to Lucy McRobert, a writer and researcher who studied the issue for the guidebook. The book comes with its own library of 300 sounds from 200 species, accessed via web or app. The clips are drawn from the larger online archive of Sound Approach, a birdsong project founded in 2000 with confirmed recordings of females for 41% of species found in the Western Palearctic, a biogeographical region encompassing Europe, north Africa and most of the Middle East...

Read more: https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2026/apr/19/hidden-world-of-female-birdsong-book