OKAY hi hello I'm making a pinned post finally! I'm Jay (she/ her) and I've been on tumblr since the dawn of time. I reblog a bunch of seemingly unrelated stuff for my friends and I talk a lot about my OCs so watch out
Art Blog: blujaydoodles
Nude Art Blog: blujaynoodles
Tags
me - depictions of me. in theory, selfies; in practice, mostly, like, pictures of beetles
about me - posts that are about me, sometimes even literally
my art - exactly what it says on the tin
tagged for me - posts that made my friends think of me :3
husband - tumblbuddies - irl frens - my FRIENDS!!! 💖💕
this has been kitty talk - look at my little bitty kitties (my kitties)
spider, spiders - to block if you hate spiders, to peruse if you love them (you're welcome)
OCs and other tags under the cut!
Blorbos
One of these days I'll put together a nice orderly About page for each of my little guys. For now, here's a bunch of tags (insp tags are mostly reblogs; name tags are mostly art, asks, or other original posts). These are not all of my blorbos, just the most usually mentioned
Indigo - indigo insp - gnome pirate circle of stars druid
Benny - benny insp - human knight
What's With The Gnomes
elyss and june - fengling and june - felix and mel - benny and edel - simon and felix - ship tags 😌
I just think they're neat!! This is primarily about the dungeons and dragons race, specifically in 5e which is the edition I'm playing and am familiar with. I love them a lot and I have a lot of Thoughts™ and I make it everybody's problem. But also, honorable mention to fairytale garden type gnomes, because I do vibe with being six inches tall and having tea with field mice
gnome stuff - vibes, aesthetic, and worldbuilding thoughts for DnD gnomes
gnomeposting - posts about the jolly little fellows with the pointy hats
look at my gnomes boy - a semi-joke tag for art of my gnome OCs
worldbuilding - thoughts and reblogged resources for worldbuilding, gnome specific and otherwise
one of the things that makes autism a disability (and why some of us choose to label it as such rather than an “alternate neurotype”) is the stress.
part of autism is just being incredibly stressed. overstimulation? stress. holding a conversation? stress. something happening to our schedule? stress. people talk about how often autism is recognized and diagnosed via our stress responses (like meltdowns) because it is just so common to see autistic people stressed because of lack of accommodations to how our brains work.
and this matters because stress kills. stress causes a lot of health issues, or it can trigger pre-existing ones by making certain chronic conditions flare up. i once had a psychiatrist very unhelpfully tell me i “just need to manage my stress” when the stress i was describing was things i could not avoid in neurotypical society and can’t “just get over”. i can do “self care” all i like but i cannot at the very base level change the way my brain inputs information and reacts accordingly.
i only learned this year that loud noises aren’t physically painful for other people. i have lived 34 years in a world in which my friends and family regularly physically hurt me at random just by shouting, and i thought everyone else just thought i was kind of a wimp for not dealing with the pain as well as they did.
like. loud noises physically hurt. it’s like a static shock from my ears to my spine that doesn’t stop until the volume goes back down. i thought we all agreed that ‘that’s too loud!’ and covering our ears meant ‘ouch!’. turns out i’ve been dealing with a stressor almost no one else has, my whole life, alone.
autistic people have to keep functioning through debilitating levels of stress that no one else in their life acknowledges or helps them with. it’s no wonder that their most visible ‘tells’ are breakdowns.
Made a shield bug stencil :)
After the first test I had to go back and thin out the ties in the body and round out the eyes a lot more, and I'm very pleased with it. Dunno what I'll put it on.
when looking at the ways dracula as an original text differ with the experience of dracula daily, these letters between mina and lucy is where the differences first arise. if you read the book as published by bram stoker, you finish the johnathan in the castle arc before flashing a bit backwards into the letters to set up the whitby arc. with the dracula daily format, we leave johnathan right as he realizes that he is trapped and actively in danger to see his loved ones completely unaware of the danger he's in. the contrast here, while less straightforward from a plot standpoint, heightens the horror of the castle. there is no one coming to his rescue, and those who know of his absence suspect nothing yet.
Well. So my dear @gnometheartist recruited me for their crew on school tall ship. I made myself little cosplay but...no one there recognized it(one piece is not a thing at my country ×_×)
Sk I have atleast this lovely photo from @s-u-w-i :D
i love living in england because i can just pick critters up. i know for a fact you aren't gonna do shit to me. found a Bug in my house and picked that dude straight up with my bare hands, put him outside, THEN googled what he was. scariest animal you can encounter while out in the woods is badger minding his business. top tier fuckass country nothing ever happens here
was walking my dogs in a field full of long grass and took a pic for my overseas friend. she said "the grass is so long, aren't you worried about snakes?". my brother in christ i have never worried about snakes in my entire life. not once. there are two (2) snakes here and they're called mark and john and i've never met them, they might not even be real. best worst place i love it
one of the funniest conversations I ever had with my ex was when they were still getting used to Celsius and asked me "what's 20 degrees?" and instead of converting it, I said "it's the highest your dad will ever let you set the thermostat and when you say you're cold he tells you to put on another sweater, we're not made of money" and they went "oh, 68"
the fact that this reference was that fucking precise was something they went on to tell people about for years.
"it would be so good if it was good" will haunt you but "it's extremely good, except for the one or two parts which are so bad it's genuinely kind of insulting" will straight up drive you insane
one has you making posts like "okay but if the author UNDERSTOOD the POLITICAL IMPLICATIONS of the story they were telling, and leaned into it, it would actually be a really interesting exploration of..."
the other has you pacing your bedroom at one in the morning going "why. why would you ever in a million years do it like that. genuinely what possible thought process was involved. was she possessed by a fucking ghost or something."
it’s good for you to look at things that make you lightheartedly say “ew” while snickering like a little kid and then carry on. i say this genuinely. it will shift your knee-jerk reaction towards things that mildly disgust you away from fear
sometimes it’s bugs. sometimes it’s a funny-looking doll at an antique store. sometimes it’s bad art that you made.
and sometimes it’s someone else’s food preferences. sometimes it’s a weird-but-normal thing that human bodies do. sometimes it’s someone else’s kink.
obviously, be respectful, and keep the reaction in your head when you’re in public. but the sooner you can separate disgust from fear, the sooner you can show empathy
