please do not read if hearing about eating disorders is harmful to you!!!
but I've really been struggling lately and I'm making the choice to try to get better. I've had disordered eating since I was 11 and just as soon as I left for college did it spiral into a full blown eating disorder. I went downhill very quickly and my health hasnât been the best.Â
if anybody could offer any advice to help me push myself to recovery would be so so helpful. I have tried to up my calories these past couple weeks, but I am truly terrified of upping them anymore. I'm stuck eating 1200-1300 and I know thatâs a huge step, but it is simply not enough. I still am obsessed with tracking everything and constantly am thinking about food. I simply cannot bring myself to eat anymore than that.
if anybody has any advice as to help me get into a good mindset about all this please let me know because I am going into this alone. I'm not able to get any help from my parents or doctors, so I need to have enough strength to do this myself.Â
if you are struggling too or not eating more than 1200-1300 calories please get help because spiraling so fast has been the worst thing that has ever happened to me. this ruined me. please know that your body deserves love and nourishment the way it is. I love you all














