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please do not read if hearing about eating disorders is harmful to you!!!

but I've really been struggling lately and I'm making the choice to try to get better. I've had disordered eating since I was 11 and just as soon as I left for college did it spiral into a full blown eating disorder. I went downhill very quickly and my health hasn’t been the best. 

if anybody could offer any advice to help me push myself to recovery would be so so helpful. I have tried to up my calories these past couple weeks, but I am truly terrified of upping them anymore. I'm stuck eating 1200-1300 and I know that’s a huge step, but it is simply not enough. I still am obsessed with tracking everything and constantly am thinking about food. I simply cannot bring myself to eat anymore than that.

if anybody has any advice as to help me get into a good mindset about all this please let me know because I am going into this alone. I'm not able to get any help from my parents or doctors, so I need to have enough strength to do this myself. 

if you are struggling too or not eating more than 1200-1300 calories please get help because spiraling so fast has been the worst thing that has ever happened to me. this ruined me. please know that your body deserves love and nourishment the way it is. I love you all

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🦷uranus notes🦷

-i find that people with uranus in the 12th almost always have conservative family or family with different beliefs than them.

-those with uranus in the 10th are in their element when going to protests or organizing social justice activities.

-venus conjunct uranus people are very magnetic and are often get involved with all sorts of people.

-mercury-uranus aspects seem to always know what to say to get people’s attention. they often say things just to get a reaction.

-those with uranus in the 3rd love to talk about their weird interests. they make sure that people know their weird quirks and ideas.

-positive sun-uranus aspects are known for being a little strange, but they own it and are loved for it.

-people with uranus in the 2nd have a weird relationship to their self-worth. they almost love and hate themselves at the same time.

-uranus in the 5th loves unconventional or maybe even frowned upon activities. they have fun by doing a lot of things that other people would be to afraid to do.

-moon-uranus often have a fluctuating relationship with their mother. they will go through phases of having a good relationship and then having big falling outs.

-jupiter-uranus aspects make somebody with an absurd and unconventional sense of humor. you will either hate or love them for it.

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🌀astrology notes: degrees basics🌀

-a planet at 0 degrees should be thought of as the purest expression of that sign. it has just been born and hasn’t been shaped by outside influences. where you have a planet in 0 degrees really shows a powerful energy of yours and where you will be the most inventive

-a planet at 29 degrees has went through all the other degrees and has grown into what it’s learned from the other degrees to get where it is now. a planet at 29 degrees will be mature and hard-headed in their sense of right and wrong

-at the degree your sun is at, you may have a defining moment or something important will happen at that age. for example, my sun is at 20 degrees, so i could get into a car crash, get into a serious relationship, move away, etc. when i’m 20 years old

-a pitted degree is a depression or hole in the ego of the planet. the pitted degrees vary with each of the 12 signs. these degrees can block you from figuring out your full potential dealing with the planet.  they can also symbolize misfortune

-elevated degrees are the opposite of a pitted degree. they show the high points or peaks of the planet. no matter the planet, the energy from it will turn beneficial. these degrees also vary with each sign and represent an increase in fortune

-critical degrees are the most important degrees of each modality. you may have trouble expressing this intense energy properly, but if you work through these hardships, the power that you possess with those planets will be insurmountable.

cardinal critical degrees: 0, 13, 26

fixed critical degrees: 8, 9, 21, 22

mutable critical degrees: 4, 17

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🔅astrology notes🔅

-those with saturn square part of fortune may have some bad karma (maybe from a past life)

-pisces mars can victimize themselves and not even realize it. they just have that mentality

-your ascendant persona chart’s ascendant should be thought of like a second ascendant

-7th house sun/moon/mercury can fall into a very negative head-space if their relationships aren’t to their definition of perfection

-somebody with 8th house in gemini might be very closed off emotionally because of their fear of intimacy

-having pluto in the 1st house can make somebody seem intimidating

-venus in the 2nd house might be scared of being seen as unattractive or awkward

-lilith in the 4th house may feel as if they never had a ‘place’ at home

-those with jupiter in the 4th house could have been spoiled as a kid

-somebody with moon square pluto can see right through somebody’s facade

-people with chiron to venus aspects are the biggest culprits of downplaying pain and ignoring their problems

-negative jupiter to saturn aspects can hold somebody back from happiness or their ability to fully enjoy things

-sagittarius placements are quick to cut people off and often end relationships unexpectedly

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🌼astrology and speaking notes🌼

-while 2nd house has to do with the tone and sound of the voice, 3rd house has to do with self-expression and speech. look to what lies in those houses and what planets are affecting those houses

-mercury in taurus people have a voice that others could just listen to for hours. they're most likely talented in singing too

-those with libra mercury struggle to be heard and often have a gentle tone or a soft voice

-gemini ascendant/mercury/venus tend to mimic other people's voices

-if saturn has a lot of influence in your chart you may be a little hoarse or have a serious tone

-people with mercury square pluto sometimes sound bitchy and standoffish

-those with sagittarius mars speak forcefully and roughly

-pluto in the 3rd may have a deep or distinctive voice

-aquarius placements often have neutral tones and may even sound monotone

-virgo mercury/acsendant may have a soft voice and speak very quickly

-people with mercury to jupiter aspects have loud and intense voices

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🍌unfavorable aspects🍌

-those with moon square midheaven often are torn between the opinions of others and listening to their emotions

-somebody with sun square moon has so much tension within themselves and their personality

-negative chiron to midheaven aspects may be held back by their pain. they become unsuccessful in their career if they cannot overcome these blockages

-sun square pluto often has a hard time letting go of negative thoughts. They will undermine their own happiness in fear of getting their hopes too high

-a person with mercury square lilith has little faith in themselves and can easily convince themselves that they are unwanted

-somebody with moon square venus is deeply insecure about their feelings and is sometimes saddened by the thought of love

-people with mars square saturn often can be overly aggressive and mean

-sun square chiron struggles with self expression and often has low self esteem

-those with venus opposite part of fortune will often self-sabotage and often expects the worst

-venus square neptune is incredibly self-critical and assume that people think the worst of them

-somebody that has mars square neptune can be rude or mean to people but justify it to themselves

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🐞astrology notes🐞

-you are drawn to those with placements the sign your 8th house cusp falls on

-those with many 7th house placements are often thought to be ‘copiers’

-gemini risings are incredibly forgetful

-capricorn and aries placements can sometimes become enraged if somebody orders them around

-a virgo rising’s biggest pet peeve is feeling useless

-people with positive mars to saturn aspects take sex seriously and can be very cautious of who they sleep around with

-moon opposite saturn can feel like they're a burden and/or extremely lonely

-moon sextile mars can make somebody extremely good at handling conflict  because of how well they can get their point across

-mars in the 11th house is the biggest humanitarian and will fight any injustice

-pisces venus people can sometimes have the highest expectations in relationships

-those with saturn in cancer will suppress their wants and emotions in fear they will seem needy or whiny to others

-people that have sun trine neptune constantly seem like they’re having an identity crisis

-those with sun to pluto aspects mainly just listen to themselves and their gut feelings

-mars square uranus may have explosive anger and sometimes the most random things can trigger it

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🍬astrology and humor🍬

-having saturn to moon aspects makes you much more calculated and serious.

-sun to jupiter aspects make for constant joking and general loudness

-pisces in the 3rd/5th makes for random or sometimes depressing humor. a lot of people may not really understand their jokes

-mars to jupiter/mercury aspects can have a more agressive way of expressive their humor. they are very teasing and are definitely the type of people to watch 'fail compiliation' videos

-jupiter in the 3rd/5th makes you incredibly silly or you may express your humor in an immature way

-jupiter in gemini thinks it's hilarious when things go wrong

-cancer placement humor is dramatic and crazy in a good way. they sometimes have the best comedic timing

-mercury square jupiter makes for somebody who tries really hard to be funny, but never really hits the punchline right

-moon square jupiter creates an oversharer with self-deprecating humor

-jupiter in the 10th laughs about themselves and almost self-sabotages in order to crack a joke

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⭐️synastry notes⭐️

-personal planets in somebody else's 8th house (especially mars or venus) can make the 8th house person obsessive over the planet person

-those with venus/mars aspects have a lot of sexual chemistry

-with many mercury aspects comes good communication and deep/stimulating conversations

-having positive sun to venus aspects creates mutual attraction and a supportive relationship

-moon conjunct ascendant causes hypersensitivity and the ability to affect each others moods drastically

-negative mercury to mars aspects can lead to arguments. the mars person may be impatient and force opinions onto the mercury person

-having moon in the 2nd house will base the relationship on emotional satisfaction rather than romance. the 2nd house person could be possessive of the moon person

-mercury in the 11th house will bring open communication and a sense of companionship

-sun conjunct jupiter indicates generosity and sharing. you both tend to hype each other up

-having sun in the 1st house brings infatuation. the 1st house person sees the sun person as the best thing that's ever happened to them

-venus/moon conjunct saturn aspects can cause the saturn person to be controlling of the venus/moon person

-saturn square mercury can cause both people to fight for power or dominance over the other

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☁️astrology observations☁️

-virgo moons can be loud and outgoing, but will always keep a part of themselves hidden

-somebody who has any scorpio/aries/taurus energy tends to be okay with making themselves uncomfortable

-people sometimes think too highly of or are intimidated by people with multiple capricorn placements

-capricorn 4th house can signify a loss of childhood or lots of responsibility

-taurus moons really enjoy spending their money

-people with positive moon or venus aspects have the biggest heart and so much capacity to care about others

-aquarius placements can be the biggest hypocrites

-those with earth energy can be quick to cut people off if they threaten their sense of security

-your mercury and/or jupiter aspects reveal your sense of humor

-people who have more jupiter energy are lucky or usually rely too much on luck

-libra/virgo moons seem to stress over the silliest things, but they really just want everything to be the best it can be

-people with 12 house stelliums can have a 'dead inside' kind of vibe

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astrology notes/observations

-those with leo placements are often “theater kids” or otherwise creative people

-taurus risings tend to blend into the background because of their reserved, observant nature

-those with moon to jupiter aspects can find that their emotions are consuming. every feeling is to the extreme

-people with pisces moons can be seen to stir up problems out of nowhere

-aries placements are more reserved than they are made out to be

-harsh saturn aspects give you a feeling of restriction in that part of your life

-aquarius placements can be very judgmental in effort to make themselves seem cooler

-gemini moons make the funniest people

-harsh mars to neptune aspects can lead somebody to be quite tired in life and can become incredibly unmotivated

-you can almost sense that somebody has 8th house placements. it’s not always easy to pin-point, but something about them is slightly sinister

-pisces suns can be way louder and extroverted than they’re made out to be

-virgo risings make amazing leaders. they may come off as nit-picky, but they really just want everybody to the best that they can

-mars to uranus aspects can cause you to hide all the little things that upset you, until you explode

-capricorn placements can be the biggest know-it-alls

-having a lot of sagittarius energy can make you perceived as standoffish