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partners keep telling me they see jax if she wasnt a asshole art and just go oh thats my wife, that me im the wife glendpdujwbelfo

and yea i would wear all those outfits love and need that hairstyle and just everything lines up

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quote from myself while melting in a good way

“im a cinderblock trying to swim”

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you every talk and just cant get a word so you just instinctively use a image in your head?

yea… so i was sitting on the reading a comic when walked in and like who the fuck just does that? you dont just do that?!

meanwhile in my head:

yea… so i was sitting on the

reading a comic when some guy walked into the

and like who the fuck just does that? you dont just do that?!

[aris047]

honestly at this point see a game be called cinematic is a instant huge red flag to me

very positive rated but the few negative ones are just “yea looks great and all but there is no actual gameplay”

would you be happy to buy a game but only get a video? because i wouldnt be

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can you feel your own heart beat?

it feels loud

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you know something is wrong with a story when all the side characters are unintentionally more interesting then the mc

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i don’t think anybody is immune to disliking a group for things they cant control

especially if someone is raised with it

so we have to try and see where we do that and fight it

yes i can dislike a person individually for things i know about them or just because i don’t vibe with them but disliking someone i don’t know anything about? for things they cant control? i don’t want that

so i keep trying to work on it and i have gotten really far with it

ask why people got into the situations they are in instead of assuming its their fault or that they are not trying

self discovery can be rough but seeing something you don’t want and ignoring it is a problem

changing is one of the hardest things one can do but please try to change to become who you want to be

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if a mind reader every wants to fluster me all they got to do is tell me they can read my mind and then call me cute cuz ill spiral myself into melting to the point my mind is just the intense feeling of being flustered

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talking to myself and thinking of something but not knowing how to verbally describe it and just…

IM TALKING TO MYSELF I KNOW WAT I MEAN

i can literally just read my mind

i dont have to go looking for words to explain myself to myself

words are made to share the mind to others

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so excited to get vr

already got such sensitive phantom sense/touch and it triggers so hard even while on pc

im gonna melt so hard from all the pats

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thinking about how much of a mindmolten mess i would be if my partners could read my mind

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[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

23 is the dumbest of ages.

Not really early 20s… not mid twenties either.

Just kinda… existing.

But maybe every age feels like that.

Everything is liminal, between the half remembered past and the unknown future.

Maybe I should just… enjoy being 23.

[aris047]

yea it be like that

honestly been spending the last 5 min figuring out how old i was again

after reaching 21 i have just kinda gave up on tracking wat age i am as 0-21 every birthday brought something but after 21? uhhh adult plus uhhh?? well you already can do everything so age stops mattering, when i was 17 i was excited about becoming 18 because it changed things but after 21 everything is just the same but a number goes up every ones in a while

from here on out its all liminal

just spend your time in a way that matters to you. after all turning 24 wont suddenly give that to you

i hope this helps with your worries, we care about you *big hugs*

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sitting my ass down on the kitchen floor at 2am cuz my fuck ass took a little too much insulin before bed and now i have to drink the juice that was already too sweet for my tastes before i got diabetes and that i now react to like a shot glass filled with vanilla extract and im on my 17th intake of this horror to my mouth

i felt sick from the diabetes but now i feel sicker from that stuff but at least my body isnt breaking itself down anymore

[somanyjacks]

I don't know who needs to hear this, but if the phrase "self care" doesn't resonate with you, try calling it "system maintenance" and see if that clicks.

[wormsslime]

[somanyjacks]

Reblogging to add amazing tags from @meta-theory

#this both makes things more fun and also is a really good analogy#because there are four types of system maintenance and that makes the term much more exact than the nebulous ''self-care''#and therefore much more helpful to those of us who uhhh struggle with nebulosity#for anyone curious the four types are:#1. corrective (to fix current problems)#2. preventative (to avoid future problems)#3. adaptative (to re-adjust to any changes)#4. perfective (to work towards a better system)#I really like this idea I'm gonna make a checklist

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writing a entire paragraph long post just to discard it because i had to just write those emotions out

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so many oc’s and ideas and drawing claw at my mind to get out yet my hands dont even follow my own will

sigh i should practice art more

i want to pull things off that are way above my current capabilities