with my family.

𝚂𝚂𝙰 𝙼𝙰𝚃𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚆 𝚂𝙸𝙼𝙼𝙾𝙽𝚂.      written by saga.   est.  may  2017. ( temporary activity notice )

[armyprofile]

𝐈𝐅 𝐈 𝐋𝐈𝐕𝐄❟  𝐈 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐍❟  𝐈 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐊𝐘 𝐈𝐍 𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍. 𝐈 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐁𝐄 𝐀 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐎.    independent, private, selective matt simmons of criminal minds. adored by saga.

[armyhoned]

probably surprising to no one, but this blog is now an archive. i’ve wanted a restart for a long time, and my seeming inability to turn off beta on this account looks like a good sign. when i have an internet set-up that doesn’t have sessionbox and can do more than ½ mbps, i’ll relaunch this blog—until then, my continued adventures can be found on @empirefire and @gallowshade… though the latter is suffering from sessionboxless life too, but still. catch u on the flip side.

[armyhoned]

oh and i’m always down for discord things. matt muse isn’t dead, hit me the hell up.

[armyhoned]

probably surprising to no one, but this blog is now an archive. i’ve wanted a restart for a long time, and my seeming inability to turn off beta on this account looks like a good sign. when i have an internet set-up that doesn’t have sessionbox and can do more than ½ mbps, i’ll relaunch this blog---until then, my continued adventures can be found on @empirefire and @gallowshade... though the latter is suffering from sessionboxless life too, but still. catch u on the flip side.

[preciousdark]

the straight and narrow has snakes in the shadow  /  and the shade where you sleep is formed by the gallows  /  where a man with an arrow was hung by the shallow  /  little boys, little boys, little boys who became what they feared.    —     mumu ft. critical role and misc fandoms.   ©

[armyhoned]

so uh. psa i guess that one (1) of my accounts getting tumblr beta’d completely broke sessionbox for all of them. also if you get beta’d on an account you’re using sessionbox on, you need to log in to that account on a non-sessionbox tab in order to get the option to opt-out of beta.

[armyhoned]

 @theystories​ said:  " don't worry , i've got you . " from rossi :3c

          he’s been closer to death once, twice, that’s not what’s new---it’s how much his control over his own fate was stripped from him that presses into his skin as needles, just beyond where he can feel it enough to make sense of it. instead, all he has is uncertainty, adrenaline-fueled fight or flight washing off his veins making him almost stumble, close enough to rossi for the man to notice, comment on it:  for the first time, make matt aware of his presence again.  it’s fine,  his lips spill out without a sound between still steadying breaths, a small, dismissive hand gesture with one hand follows:  true, in the narrowest definition---the misstep is fine, little but sign of a mind still trying to find its way around a body that would rather not keep itself up and continue walking to a car.

             but only that is fine. matt doesn’t notice that he’s stopped, or the hand he’s put on dave’s shoulder, until the silence has hang for long enough for him to realise he seems ready to say something.  ( it’s the furthest thing from the truth, but he can try. )     “  thank you.  ”     too weightful to be a response to the other, closer to a confession than an answer:  the voice of someone who’s spent hours thinking about the impact of other people in his life and kindness and help he won’t be able to return if he doesn’t live.     “  for---a lot.  ”

PROTECTOR / PROTECTEE STARTERS.

[storyofmychoices]

[techkittena]

🗣️ but from armyhoned who's logged in on the wrong account

send me 🗣️ for incorrect quotes of your muse and mine ! @armyhoned

[sassycassi]

underrated criminal minds friendships- (4/?)

》matt simmons & david rossi《

[armyhoned]

@theystories​

[musingmemes]

protector / protectee starters

“no. you can’t go, it’s too dangerous.”

“it’s not dangerous. i’ll be fine.”

“i’m not going to let anything happen to you.” 

“you can’t keep me safe from everything.”

“just be careful.” 

“i’m always careful.”

“you’re going to get yourself hurt.”

“i won’t get hurt, i promise.”

“i won’t let them hurt you.”

“you can’t save me from this.”

“please try and stay out of trouble.”

“if anything happened to you…” 

“i’m not sure how to keep you safe.”

“i’m not going to let you out of my sight.”

“this is the only way to keep you safe.”

“you can’t keep an eye on me twenty four seven.”

“everywhere you go, i go.”

“it’s not your job to protect me.”

“it’s my job to protect you.”

“don’t worry, i’ve got you.”

“no one will hurt you as long as i’m breathing.”

“you don’t understand how dangerous this is.”

“please come back in one piece.”

[armyhoned]

hey. i hate to have to ask for money here, especially knowing i’m far the only one who’s struggling, but the social support offices fucked me over by paying me €260 less than i’m due and it will take weeks before i can do anything. my first priority is getting money for food and the rent that’s due first of march, as i’m in a new apartment rented by an impatient landlord and already was weeks late paying for this month for this exact same reason even if i didn’t know what the issue was at the time, and i’m fucked if i lose this flat. the fact that my working laptop is bust and i can’t do commissions to help myself either is certainly not helping.

if you are able to help at all, my paypal info with my deadname on it, unfortunately is  PAYPAL.ME/ALTERNATEUS  or  [email protected] not, i appreciate a signal boost.

[armyhoned]

wanting to be happy about the positives of cm ending vs knowing that once the show goes off the air, finding people willing to roleplay in the last few seasons is gonna get even more difficult and even fewer people will watch for long enough to get to know matt.

[theystories]

featuring muses from :       criminal minds        +         fallout III    &    IV       +    fandomless original characters

                                                                                 insp . psd .

[armyhoned]

katesgotabow replied to your post: tumblr could i get my activity page back thanks.

I don’t think I @ you anywhere, just tagged in posts.

yeah but like. i can’t see reblogs or replies unless i happen to spot them on the dash which is the primary concern here.

[rewrotethestars]

drunk!emily

[armyhoned]

tumblr could i get my activity page back thanks.

[armyhoned]

going slightly against my earlier headcanons about the matter, i’m starting to lean more and more to the idea that ben simmons wasn’t really a good dad. i’ve talked a lot on this blog about how i view mi-young to have been the stronger influence in matt’s life—most of what makes him great comes from his mother, and his mother’s influence i used to attribute mostly to ben’s death and mi-young being matt’s link to his korean and asian identity, but as the season has progressed, i’m starting to get the idea that ben wasn’t entirely faultless either.

matt certainly doesn’t view him as a bad man, doesn’t seem to be particularly traumatised by his father—and yet, there’s a distinct lack of his presence in both shows, he’s only mentioned once and even that in direct relation to matt’s mother and not him, and when kristy comments on the crib colour matt chose being  ‘ daddy issues red ’, it almost looks like it cut… a little bit deeper than it was intended to, a little bit deeper than a joke that boils down to  ‘ if our child grows to hate you this crib colour will be the reason why ’  should, especially as matt can’t really excuse his apparently insecurity at the phrase with being a new dad.

i could name something about the father of almost every other bau member—a fun fact, profession, hobby, first name—and yet has never mentioned him in the mainshow. never compared himself to him, never shared his father’s wisdom;  for a character who is so largely defined by his writers by his fatherhood, that sure feels like an oddity.

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