but don't worry about that.

arrow ★ 30+ ★ any pronouns ★ lesbian

[aroceu]

📌 brief intro + resources

arrow, any pronouns, 30+ lesbian, chinese-american. writer, web developer, poster, commenter, reader, fan, fujoshi, pervert. and your beautiful mutual. in spirit if not in actuality. terfs fuck off!

a handful of my load-bearing pieces of information include: i experienced four divorces simultaneously in 2009 (my parents'; my ex girlhood bff's and mine; panic! at the disco; super junior), i was a very active as a youth group/worship team leader/summer camp counselor at my old church from ages 13-19, my ex girlhood bff and i have the same first name, i taught myself how to read when i was 4 because i memorized all the books that were read to me, i decided to become a writer when i learned the alphabet, my first fannish website was quizilla, and i dropped out of college three times. none of this is important, but now you know.

i make things sometimes! you might find them useful or interesting:

sexy times with wangxian tag generator (my most infamous creation)

bad buddy prompt generators

the rest of my prompt generators (includes tropes, kinks, sets, lyrics)

masterlist template for neocities/indieweb (also here)

ao3 css for neocities/indieweb

multi-filter rec list template (also here)

fannish neocities/indie website-making list of resources (also here)

writing tools that i made for myself (pomodoro writer, markdown/html to rich text converter) that you can also use or fork

cool posts:

(bad buddy) korn and pat top surgery comic by my friend ling

(bad buddy) patpran's matching outfits

(the good place) eleanor shellstrop meta

(ted lasso) jamie tartt, first & last episodes

well it IS my tweet

(the social network) was nothing real?

(writing meta) when you're a writer (a post about necessity)

(american dragon jake long) jake/rose parallels

[valtsv]

i love the part of making art where you feel like you need to go missing

[exitwound]

when whitman said “i contradict myself. i am large… i contain multitudes” and wilde said “what are you? to define is to limit” and sumney said “i insist upon my right to be multiple”

[existential-celestial]

and ashbery said “accept yourself as numerous”

[soracities]

and when mahmoud darwish said “I am besieged by contradiction” and when lewis carroll said “I knew who I was this morning, but I’ve changed a few times since then”

[pregamerituals]

RPF is Beautiful and Important

[rhlpixels]

PREPARE FOR TROUBLE 🌹💅

[zephyr-the-artist]

AND MAKE IT DOUBLE 😈🗣️🔥

[grilledpeachh]

[telomeke]

[ID–

Two screenshots of Tia Mason (Instagram linked here, Facebook linked here). Tia is wearing a knitted beanie, with sunglasses, dreadlocks and nose piercings, and is speaking outdoors against a background of forest greenery, smiling while saying:

Trying again is an act of rebellion. Never trying is an act of submission.

End ID.]

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[versegm]

The secret to a peaceful tumblr experience is that every once in a while you gotta be deeply fucking cringe on main so only the strong will keep following you.

[veryluckyclovers]

[slaygentford]

guys having a cold this week has led me to reading a bunch about religion idk. but im curious about this population of tumblrinas

I consider myself

follower of an organized religion

"recovered" follower of an organized religion, now atheist or agnostic

spiritual -- there is one single organizing universal force

spiritual -- polytheistic, wicca...

spiritual -- "there's vibes out there but idk what"

culturally religious (whatever this means to you)

atheist

agnostic

more than one of these

other

Remaining time: 6 hours 41 minutes

obv this is rough and informal but these are the categories that have come to mind after my silly little deep dives...

[release-the-sheep]

just witnessed something devastating

guy on the subway with one ear pierced, little gold hoop. other guy on the subway very quickly and subtly googling "which one is the gay ear". it is not the gay ear. visible disappointment on his face as he puts his phone away.

[laterkiss]

i have [gestures vaguely] my tendencies

[graceebooks]

i’m just having fun. hatred is involved but i’m just having fun

[luna-azzurra]

If you're a new writer and you're asking yourself "is this too personal, is this too much, will people think this is weird" that feeling is the exact location of your actual voice. The stuff that makes you want to close the laptop is the stuff nobody else could write. The safe version is always worse. Always. I have never once read something and thought "this would have been better if it was a little less honest." go further. It's always go further.

[futurama]

i had sex w/ giratina O_o

[flowerbleedme]

My incredibly bleak philosophy of compassion is that we should all pity each other horribly and practice an according amount of kindness.

[flowerbleedme]

I asked for a pastry at the coffee shop. When I raised my card up to pay, he simply said "you're good." and waved it away. I wondered why. I wondered what made him think I deserved to have my order be free. Sparing me those two dollars.

Sitting down at the table, I remembered the scars on my arm. The universal signifier of "This Kid Needs Help." Maybe his kindness was only out of pity. He saw those and assumed there was some great misery and wanted to offer me some relief. It's generally good to be kind to people who are hurting. But I wasn't hurting that bad.

The thing is, there is some great misery. People generally aren't doing that great. There is a great misery within me and within him and within everyone, and some people notice the pain, some people express it, others don't. But we all suffer from something.

It doesn't matter if someone seems to deserve some relief. Everyone needs it. Everyone is suffering constantly. Some more than others, but still. This Kid Needs Help applies to everyone.

Thirty minutes later, I went to get a second pastry, intending to pay and leave a tip this time. It was the same cashier. As he reached to grab it for me, I saw scars on his arm.

But it doesn't really matter. He'd deserve a tip anyway. Because it's never just us hurting.

[cor-ardens-archive]

The Long, Sexist History of ‘Shrill’ Women, William Cheng | The Gender of Sound, Anne Carson | An Oresteia, tr. Anne Carson | Heroines, Kate Zambreno | Monteverdi’s Unruly Women, Bonnie Gordon 

[cyberpunkpavlichenko]

Ever think about how white supremacy constructs a racialized discourse of physical strength and intelligence that places white people as the median? This is how they discuss this:

Black people and Native Americans are intellectually weaker than whites but stronger than them.

Jews and Asians are physically weaker than whites but intellectually stronger.

Which places white people right in the middle physically and intellectually. Adds an odd/interesting note to white supremacy’s claim of white supremacy. They’re claiming a supremacy of averageness and of balance between opposing forces.