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don't give up

Did we all have the same childhood

i hate living with bpd. its something i’m never gonna get out of. I’m experienced enough with depression to know that theres an out, even when it doesn’t feel like it, but BPD is a personality disorder—its ME. I cant escape being me. no matter what type of meds or therapy i try, i’m always gonna struggle with it. i’m always gonna be self obsessed and jealous and clingy and abusive and manipulative and self destructive and so fucking terrified of people leaving me. I CANT ESCAPE MYSELF.

#bpd #actually borderline #living with borderline #borderline personality disorder #i am a fool for thinking i could change #m speaks

is not being hospitalized when you need to be a form of neglect? asking for a friend

#emotional incest #emotional neglect #bpd #like i was showing really clear symptoms of depression #and anxiety #like life debilitating ones #i missed like 3 weeks of school #and no one helped me #does that count as neglect?#i was a minor whennit happened btw. a teem #*teen #m speaks

oh my god why do i lose every friend i make why do i drive people away why are my moods so fucking unstable why does everyone leave why do i obsess over every interaction i have why do i split for no fucking reason I HATE HAVING BPD AND I GOTTA LIVE WITH THIS SHIT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I HATE THIS SHIT. ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO LIVE WITH. ITS A MIRACLE I HAVEN’T KILLED MYSELF YET!

#bpd #actually borderline #borderline pd #never been hospitalized tho lol #even tho i //REALLY// should have been #negelct is fun lol #anyway #m speaks

bl0w-m3

Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

cluster-b-culture-is

bpd culture is feeling like your fp hates you because they aren’t messaging you daily anymore, or because they stop messaging after you say something and your brain immediately rationalizes that you did something wrong. it’s your fault. you did it again.

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unbearable-swagger

I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

bpd-culture-is

BPD culture is being terrified of growing too attached to someone because you're afraid you'll scare them off or hurt them like you've done with others before

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