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A Crown of Ash and Plum Blossoms Part 1

Summary:

Five years after the Third Poppy War, Nezha sits upon the Dragon Throne burdened by ghosts he cannot escape. The Republic is finally at peace, but memories of war, betrayal, and the people he failed to save continue to haunt him.

When his mother forces him into a political betrothal with the mysterious Princess of Velarion, Nezha expects nothing more than another duty to endure. To him, Velarion is a kingdom of cowards—an isolated nation that hid behind its mountains while the rest of Nikara burned.

Princess Y/N quickly proves him wrong.

Behind her graceful smiles and perfect diplomacy lies a secret powerful enough to change everything Nezha thought he knew about the war. As old enemies emerge from the shadows and forgotten truths come to light, he discovers that Velarion's silence was never born from fear—but from sacrifice.

And Y/N may be carrying a burden far heavier than his own.

What begins as resentment slowly evolves into reluctant understanding, stolen conversations beneath moonlit balconies, and a dangerous attraction neither of them expected. But with kingdoms watching, enemies closing in, and a power capable of destroying nations hidden within her veins, love may become the very thing that breaks them both.

Because some storms are not meant to be survived.

And some people are worth burning the world for.

💌 Pairing: Nezha x f!Reader

🖋️ Word Count: Ongoing

📍 Setting: Post–Third Poppy War Nikara | Dragon Republic & Velarion

🚨 Warnings: War trauma, graphic depictions of violence, political conflict, death, grief, PTSD, mentions of torture, mature themes, explicit sexual content (18+), emotional distress, and slow-burn romantic tension.

It had been five years since the Third Poppy War ended, with Nezha now seated on the throne of the Dragon Republic. Yet, the passage of time had done little to dull the memories of Nikara’s battlefield. To him, the war felt like yesterday. He still saw it all—Kitay’s last breath, his brother’s mutilated body served as a twisted offering, and her eyes. Her eyes, once ablaze with fury and conviction, now haunted him, dimmed by betrayal and pain. Even thinking her name sent a sharp pang through his chest.

Seated at the head of the table, flanked by his mother and two advisors, Nezha struggled to focus as they debated alliances, military reforms, and political strategies.

“You know what I think it’s time for?” his mother said, her tone casual as she delicately picked at her food. General Yi and Lee Kim, the political advisor, both paused, awaiting Nezha’s response. When he didn’t react, she repeated herself, her voice sharp. “Nezha, do you know what I think it’s time for?”

Snapping out of his reverie, Nezha blinked. “What?” he asked, his voice flat.

“Marriage,” she announced, her words cutting through the room like a blade.

Nezha’s glare was immediate. “Marriage?” he echoed, incredulous.

“It’s an excellent idea,” Lee Kim chimed in smoothly. “Uniting with another strong republic could solidify Nikara’s stability.” General Yi nodded in agreement.

Nezha’s temper flared. “We have border disputes, famine, and political unrest, and you’re concerned about marriage?” he snapped. “Marriage is the last thing on my mind. And after everything—” His voice faltered, her image flashing through his mind.

His mother’s voice grew cold. “This isn’t about what you want. It’s about the Republic. You need a successor.”

“I can appoint one,” Nezha countered.

“Blood carries more power,” she retorted, her patience thinning.

“I refuse,” Nezha growled, his voice low and dangerous.

“If I may,” Lee Kim interjected cautiously. “It’s not just about succession. The people need to see their leader ensuring the Republic’s future. Uncertainty breeds instability.”

Nezha leaned back in his chair, rolling his eyes. “I’m the leader of the Republic. That should be enough.”

“It isn’t,” his mother snapped. “Did you think your rule would end with you? This is non-negotiable. I was going to let you choose, but if you insist on being obstinate, we’ll decide for you.”

The room trembled as Nezha slammed his fists on the table. “What part of ‘no’ don’t you understand?” he snarled, his voice venomous.

His mother remained unfazed, rising to her feet with a regal calm. “You will marry. The decision has been made.” She swept out of the room, leaving Nezha seething and his advisors too stunned to speak.

Over the following weeks, Nezha’s mother worked tirelessly with Lee Kim to select his betrothed. Nezha ignored their efforts, though he knew resistance was futile.

When the decision was made, she burst into his study, her tone triumphant. “Congratulations, my son. You’re to be married.”

Nezha barely had time to react before she left. General Yi, sensing the storm brewing, discreetly scooted his chair away as Nezha sent the documents on his desk flying in a fit of rage.

The announcement of his betrothal did little to soften Nezha’s mood, but what truly shocked him was the identity of his bride-to-be.

Her name was Y/N, a princess from the Velarion Republic—a secluded and enigmatic nation nestled in the mountains, untouched by the chaos of the Poppy Wars. Their isolation, while strategic, was a source of disdain for Nezha. Cowards, he thought bitterly. What could his mother possibly gain from aligning with them?

Fuming, he stormed into her office. “Out of all the republics, you chose the weakest?” he demanded. “How the hell is this supposed to strengthen our line?”

His mother sighed, unbothered by his outburst. “The Velarion Republic is far from weak. Just because you know little about them doesn’t make them inferior.”

“They’re mysterious because they hide,” Nezha scoffed.

“And that mystery is their strength,” she countered. “Do you think it's a coincidence that no one dares challenge them? Their location alone makes them impenetrable, but there’s more to it than that. Something powerful lies within their borders, and for years, your father and others sought to uncover it.”

Nezha paused, her words gnawing at his pride. It was true—no one had dared to approach the Velarion Republic, not even during times of desperation. Their defenses were legendary, bolstered by rumors of treacherous cliffs, volatile weather, and an almost supernatural force that repelled outsiders.

“And now, they’ve agreed to an alliance,” his mother pressed. “That means something has changed. Either they’re in trouble, or they see an opportunity. Either way, we must seize it.”

A grand ball was planned to celebrate the betrothal. Nezha despised the idea, certain it would attract few attendees. Yet his mother was confident leaders from across Nikara would come, drawn by the allure of Velarion’s secrets.

As preparations continued, Nezha couldn’t shake his unease. The Velarion Republic was a puzzle he didn’t trust, and now he was being forced into their game. Whatever lay ahead, he vowed to uncover the truth—even if it meant defying his mother’s plans.

It was the night of the ball, and Nezha was livid.

Draped in ceremonial armor and brocade robes, he sat stiffly at the center of the throne room, shoulders tense and jaw clenched, radiating disdain. His golden eyes swept the room, narrowed with disapproval as nobles and dignitaries from across the continent mingled, laughed, and drank as if the blood of war hadn’t just been washed from their hands five years ago.

The room was filled with light and opulence—crystal chandeliers hung overhead, casting glimmers across polished marble. The scent of incense clung to the air, and the sound of strings swelled through the chamber. Nezha hated it all. The false cheer. The show of wealth. The political theater.

He had no desire to meet the princess of Velarion. To him, this entire spectacle was a waste—an elaborate performance masking the machinations of ambition.

Then, a hush fell across the hall as his mother rose from her seat beside him, her silk robes glinting in the light. She lifted her hand and the musicians stopped.

“It is with great honor,” she announced, voice clear and regal, “that I welcome Princess Y/N of Velarion to the Dragon Republic. We are privileged to host her this evening as our esteemed guest—and as a symbol of the alliance between our great nations.”

The great bronze doors at the end of the hall swung open.

A ceremonial procession entered—Velarion's royal entourage. Courtiers in layered robes of deep indigo and silver marched in rhythmic steps, flanking priests, musicians, and servants who carried lavish gifts. Ornate boxes of rare jewels, scrolls of silk embroidered with imperial crests, and exquisitely forged weapons were brought forward and offered with deep bows—tribute to the Dragon Republic, tokens of goodwill and silent power.

Then, as the hall watched with bated breath, a solitary figure stepped into view.

She was cloaked in a breathtaking kimono dyed in the rarest shades of midnight blue and moonlit cream, patterns of phoenixes and cascading wisteria shimmering beneath the torchlight. A sheer veil obscured her face, draped elegantly from a golden hairpiece studded with sapphires. Behind her, an older woman followed—her chief retainer, perhaps a governess or head lady-in-waiting—whose voice rang out in a formal tone.

“I present to you Her Royal Highness, Princess Y/N of the Velarion Republic.”

The princess stepped forward with practiced grace, her movements fluid, deliberate. She stopped a measured distance from the dais where Nezha and his mother sat and lowered herself into a perfect bow—respectful but proud.

When she rose, her ladies-in-waiting approached to remove her veil.

Nezha had prepared himself to be unimpressed. He had steeled his heart against diplomacy and appearances. But the moment the veil fell away, something shifted.

His breath caught.

She was beautiful.

Not in the fragile, demure way of courtly paintings—but in the way fire is beautiful just before it devours a forest. Her skin was pale as porcelain, her lips the color of ripe cherries, and her eyes—softly almond-shaped, deep brown with flecks of gold—met his with unwavering intensity. Raven-black hair framed her face in an elegant coif, adorned with delicate silver pins.

There was something unsettling in her gaze. Something unreadable.

“My,” his mother murmured with a knowing smile. “What a beauty.”

She turned her head slightly toward Nezha, amused by the rare flicker of emotion on his face.

“You will make a fine Empress,” she said with satisfaction.

Princess Y/N bowed again, her voice calm and clear. “Thank you, My Lady. It is an honor.”

Nezha said nothing.

He merely stared—his anger momentarily dulled, overtaken by a strange feeling that unnerved him more than rage ever could.

It wasn’t just that she was beautiful.

It was the way she looked at him—like she already knew who he was, and wasn’t impressed.

Y/N approached the dais with quiet grace and took her seat beside Nezha. He didn’t look at her—not at first. His posture was rigid, his gaze fixed somewhere over the crowd, as if the presence of his betrothed was an inconvenience he couldn’t wait to forget.

She turned to him, her voice soft but steady. “My Emperor,” she greeted with a slight incline of her head.

Nezha gave a curt nod, jaw clenched. “Princess.”

Undeterred by his coldness, Y/N attempted to make polite conversation—remarks about the grandeur of the hall, the procession, the way the Republic’s banners blended with Velarion’s sigils. He responded with clipped replies, eyes never meeting hers.

Still, he couldn’t ignore her. Not completely.

Every now and then, he caught the way her eyes lingered on him—those warm, searching eyes that felt like they saw through every armor plate he wore, through the anger and pain he buried beneath the surface. They unsettled him more than her words ever could.

Then came the moment he dreaded most.

His mother stood once again, voice slicing through the celebratory din of the banquet.

“As a symbol of union between the Dragon Republic and the Velarion Throne, we shall now commence the ceremonial dance of betrothal.”

A murmur rippled through the crowd.

Nezha exhaled slowly, the weight of expectation pressing against his chest. With obvious reluctance, he rose to his feet, every movement tense. He turned to Y/N and extended his arm stiffly.

She smiled and placed her hand gently in the crook of his elbow, her fingers light against his sleeve. As they descended the steps to the center of the hall, all eyes followed them.

The music began—slow and haunting, echoing off the high ceilings like the ghost of a lullaby.

They began to dance.

Y/N moved with effortless elegance, her expression warm, practiced, sincere. She looked up at him as if he were already hers, trying to breathe ease into the space between them.

But Nezha…

He was still fuming inside, his thoughts a tangled snarl of resistance. Every step, every spin felt like a chain tightening around his throat. And yet—

Her eyes.

Every time he met them, something faltered.

There was something in the way she looked at him—not with fear, not with ambition—but with knowing. As if she understood the weight he carried. As if she didn’t expect him to be anything more than what he already was.

He hated how that made him feel.

The music faded, and the dance ended with a final, formal bow. The crowd applauded. Nezha barely acknowledged it.

Later that night, after the final farewells were said and the guests retired to their chambers, Nezha made his way toward the eastern wing of the palace. His mind was heavy with thoughts he didn’t care to unpack.

Y/N followed a few steps behind, her own attendants trailing at a respectful distance. When they reached the corridor that would split toward their separate quarters, she paused.

“It was a pleasure, My Emperor,” she said softly, bowing once more.

Nezha stopped mid-step. He turned his head slightly, just enough to glance at her from the corner of his eye.

For a moment, he looked like he might say something. But the words never came.

He turned away and walked on in silence, his cape sweeping behind him like a shadow.

Y/N straightened slowly, watching him disappear down the corridor.

She didn’t move for a long while.

The days following the ball passed with a heavy, stifling silence.

Princess Y/N now resided in the eastern wing of the palace—lavish, yes, but isolating. Despite being the betrothed of the Republic’s most powerful man, she felt more like a well-dressed ghost haunting the halls. Nezha made no effort to see her.

At breakfast, when he was forced by his mother to join, he sat at the farthest end of the long imperial table, shoulders stiff, attention fixed on reports or on the view outside the high arched windows. He never acknowledged her presence.

Once, she had attempted a casual question to break the silence: “I heard the southern provinces are recovering from the floods. Will we be sending grain shipments?”

He didn’t even glance at her. “Ask Lee Kim,” he said coolly, never looking up from his cup. Y/N had simply smiled, as she always did, swallowing her pride along with her congee.

In the halls, when their paths crossed, his expression turned glacial. His gaze slid right past her, as if she were no more than an ornament along the corridor walls. She had heard stories of the Dragon Warlord’s infamous temperament—but seeing it up close, day after day, was another matter entirely.

Still, she tried.

She understood this arrangement was political. Strategic. He hadn’t asked for it. Neither had she. But she had made peace with her duty, and she was determined to carry it out with grace.

Nezha, on the other hand, couldn’t stand the sight of her.

Every time he laid eyes on the Velarion princess, his blood simmered. She wasn’t the problem—but she was a reminder. A symbol of how the world had already begun to forget the cost of the war. The blood on the battlefields, the cities burned to ash, the people he couldn’t save. Kitay’s face haunted him. His brother’s dismembered corpse. And her.

The girl whose name he refused to say.

He had buried all of it under duty and iron resolve—but Y/N, with her soft words and steady patience, made it impossible to forget.

His mother didn’t help. She nagged him endlessly, insisting that the marriage would bring political stability, that the people needed a future to believe in. That he needed an heir.

“You can’t lead Nikara into the next age without securing the line,” she snapped at him during one of their arguments. “This isn’t about your emotions, Nezha. It’s about the Republic.”

“I didn’t win a war to be shackled to a throne with a wife I didn’t choose,” he retorted.

“You didn’t win a war alone.”

The words stung, more than he admitted.

Meanwhile, Y/N continued to reach out, undeterred by his absence.

She sent polite invitations for afternoon tea in the garden. He never came.

She arranged for small private dinners in the sunroom with traditional dishes from both their provinces. His seat was always empty.

Once, her handmaidens waited an hour before gently suggesting they pack up.

“Perhaps he was detained,” one offered kindly.

But Y/N knew the truth. He wasn’t detained. He was avoiding her.

The light in the library had turned golden, slanting through the latticework windows in beams that dust motes floated through lazily. The scent of aged paper, burning cedar, and ink lingered in the air. Nezha was alone—again—as he often was, lost in a sea of records and histories, sifting through old war documents like digging through ashes, as if trying to find something he’d missed. A mistake. A different ending.

Y/N had only come to return a book, a text on old Nikaran dialects she’d picked up in a vain effort to understand his people better. But then she saw him—shoulders hunched, eyes scanning pages, the way his jaw twitched when he was thinking hard—and her feet moved before her brain could stop them.

She approached slowly, careful not to startle him.

“What are you looking for?” she asked, her voice low and measured.

Nezha didn’t glance up. “Reports.”

She waited, but he offered nothing more.

“What kind?” she pressed gently.

“Battle summaries. From the Southern Front. During the Red Cliffs Campaign,” he said finally, flipping a page with more force than necessary. “Council debates. Troop movements. Casualty estimates.”

Y/N took a careful step forward. “You’re revisiting strategy?”

“No.” His tone was clipped. “I’m revisiting failure.”

A long silence stretched between them.

She hesitated, then offered softly, “You were only seventeen.”

“I was a commander.” His voice was sharp. “That’s all that mattered.”

Y/N stood beside the table now, hands clasped in front of her. “You did what you could.”

That was when he looked up—and his eyes were burning.

“Did I?” he said. “Tell that to the families in Dragon Province who never got their sons back. Tell that to the children in Tora who grew up without limbs. Or Kitay—”

He stopped himself, jaw tightening.

She didn’t move.

“Nezha—”

He slammed the book shut. The sound echoed in the silence of the library.

“Why do you keep trying, huh?” he spat, voice low and bitter. “Why do you keep smiling at me like this can be salvaged?”

Y/N blinked. “I… I only meant to be courteous. To try—”

“I don’t want this,” he snapped, rising to his feet. His full height cast a shadow across her. “I’ve made it pretty clear, haven’t I? This—” he gestured between them, eyes dark with resentment—“is nothing more than a political contract. And I’d appreciate it if you stopped pretending it was anything else.”

She swallowed, keeping her expression even. “My Emperor, I—”

“Don’t,” he cut in. “Don’t call me that like it means something to you. You’re here because your council wanted leverage. Because your people want access to our resources, to our alliances. But me?” He laughed once, bitter and low. “I get the honor of being paraded beside someone who couldn’t even lift a sword when the rest of us were bleeding in the dirt.”

Y/N stepped back, stunned.

His words came like arrows, each one sharp, calculated, meant to wound.

“Did you forget about the war?” he demanded. “Did you forget what we lost? The thousands who died? Or did you just choose to ignore it, tucked away in your quiet mountains, pretending the rest of the world wasn’t burning?”

That stung. Y/N’s hands clenched at her sides.

Nezha stepped closer. “People were dying. And your kingdom remained tucked away behind your mountains. Refusing to fight. Refusing to speak. Cowards.”

His words were like acid, flung without care, and Y/N’s eyes burned—not with tears, but fury.

He turned his back and walked away without another word, leaving the silence in his wake like a slap.

Back in her chambers, Y/N paced in furious silence. Her handmaidens watched from the edges of the room, unsure whether to intervene.

Who does he think he is?

How dare he speak to her like that? As if she had begged for this union. As if she had chosen any of it. As if he knew anything about Velarion, or what they had endured.

“Cowards,” he’d said. As if not joining the slaughter made them weak.

Her breath came fast as she forced herself to sit, to still her thoughts—but it didn’t last long.

She stood again, fire coursing through her veins, and stormed out of her room.

She had tried to be patient. To be kind. To respect the alliance their kingdoms were forging. But Nezha wasn’t going to make her feel small in his rage. Not tonight.

She made her way to the western wing—his wing—ignoring the startled glances of the guards as she passed.

The guards stationed outside the Crown Prince’s quarters moved to intercept her the moment they saw her coming down the hall. Her steps were fast, decisive, a storm in velvet and silk.

“Your Highness—His Majesty is not to be disturbed,” one of them said, shifting nervously between her and the large ironwood doors.

“I wasn’t asking,” Y/N snapped, eyes flashing. “Move.”

They hesitated—trained to follow protocol but caught off-guard by the sheer command in her voice. And she wasn’t bluffing. She was no simpering noble. She had spent her childhood learning how to give orders, how to be heard in council rooms dominated by men, how to carry herself with the weight of a nation on her shoulders.

“I said move,” she repeated, tone cold.

The guards stepped aside.

Without pausing, she strode forward and began banging her fist against Nezha’s door. Hard. The sound echoed through the corridor like war drums. Once. Twice. Again.

And again.

She didn’t stop until, finally, the door creaked open—just a crack—and there he was.

Nezha, clearly having been pulled from sleep or solitude, stood in the doorway wearing only a loose robe tied haphazardly at the waist. His bare chest was exposed, glistening faintly in the torchlight, the sharp angles of his collarbone leading to lean muscle and fading scars. His hair was damp, as if he’d just bathed, and his eyes were still stormy from earlier.

“What are you—” he started, bewildered.

But Y/N didn’t wait. She shoved the door open with both hands and barged in.

He staggered back, more stunned than anything, as she stood in the center of his chambers like a fire set loose.

“Who do you think you are?” she seethed, her voice shaking with fury. “How dare you call my people cowards?”

Nezha blinked, mouth parted slightly, but said nothing.

“You think Velarion stood back because we were afraid?” she went on, stalking toward him. “You think you have the right to shame my people when you have no idea what we’ve endured?”

He opened his mouth, but she cut him off with a glare sharp enough to draw blood.

“You have no clue what was happening behind our walls. No idea what we were protecting, what threats we faced that had nothing to do with Nikara’s war.”

Her voice cracked—not from weakness, but from fury so deep it threatened to choke her.

“You don’t get to stand there and spit venom about the sacrifices you made while belittling ours. You don't know how many of my people died keeping your borders secure from shadows you don't even believe exist.”

Nezha’s brow furrowed. “What—”

“And do you honestly think I want this?” she snapped. “You think I wanted to be dragged into your war-torn empire, dressed up and paraded like some prize to make your throne look stable?”

“I left everything behind. My family. My country. My freedom. Because this—this alliance—means survival for my people. And I was willing to endure your bitterness, your cruelty, if it meant buying them one more year of peace.”

She stopped right in front of him now, her chest heaving.

“Do you think I enjoy pretending to be your ‘dutiful bride’? Bowing and smiling and tiptoeing around your moods like some simpering girl with no spine?”

She laughed bitterly.

“If I had the choice, Nezha, I’d be on the first ship home. But I don’t have that choice. And unlike you, I don’t have the luxury of sulking through duty. I understand the weight of my role. I understand sacrifice.”

She stepped back, trembling.

“You think pain gives you the right to lash out at everyone who survived differently than you did?” she whispered. “It doesn’t.”

There was silence.

Heavy. Breathless. Crushing.

Nezha stared at her like she was someone he hadn’t seen before. And maybe she was.

No veil. No soft smile. No diplomacy.

Just a woman who had carried her nation on her back, just like he had—and who refused to let him look down on her for it.

“I’m doing what I must,” she said quietly, her voice cool now. Controlled. “For my people. For the alliance. I thought maybe we could carry this burden together, but I see now… you’re not ready.”

She turned without another word, robes whispering against the floor as she made for the door.

And Nezha remained standing there, rooted to the spot, stunned into silence by the woman who had just thrown everything he thought he knew into question.

She didn’t slam the door.

She didn’t have to.

The silence she left behind was loud enough.

In the days that followed their confrontation, the palace air changed.

Whenever they passed one another in the halls—on the way to court, during military briefings, or during state visits—Y/N no longer acknowledged him. Not a glance. Not a nod. She moved with poise, her chin high, her gaze fixed somewhere far beyond him, as if he were a shadow easily dismissed.

And strangely, Nezha felt the difference. He noticed the absence of her eyes.

At public events, she played the part perfectly. Regal. Polished. Grace incarnate. She smiled for the nobles, waved at the visiting delegates, spoke with elegance to the court.

And when protocol demanded it, she would slip her hand into the crook of his arm—but it was mechanical now. Hollow. Her fingers rested there like cold glass, her body angled just far enough to make it clear the gesture was for the crowd’s benefit and nothing more.

He hated how aware he’d become of it.

After the ceremonies ended, she would bow to him—sharp and perfunctory—and vanish before he could say anything. Not that he would. What would he even say?

He didn’t understand it. He had pushed her away—had wanted her to stop pretending—but now that she had, her indifference burned in a way her kindness never had.

What confused him more was the feeling creeping in his chest—curiosity.

She was no longer trying to speak to him, but he found himself seeking her out anyway. He told himself it wasn’t to see her—no, of course not—it was to observe her. To gauge her movements. Understand her rhythms. The way she carried herself during court, the people she spoke to, the strange correspondence she sometimes received in a ciphered dialect even their palace scribes couldn’t easily translate.

Velarion. That damned mountain-locked republic. The more he saw of her, the more he realized how little he truly knew.

Who was she behind the veils, behind the smile, behind the silence?

One afternoon, as he sat in a war council chamber, a scroll was delivered. The seal was his mother’s—urgent.

He broke it open and scanned the contents.

They were to travel together. A diplomatic mission to Kameira, a neighboring republic that had remained neutral in the war but housed old grudges and volatile allegiances. Their presence as a betrothed couple was meant to signal strength. Unity. Peace.

Nezha stared at the parchment for a long time.

He wondered how she would take the news. How she would behave on the journey. How much venom Kameira still held for him—and what they’d think of her.

There was tension between them now, yes. But it was no longer the passive sort.

Now, it simmered.

And in the silence she cloaked herself with, Nezha began to hear things he hadn’t before.

The morning was quiet, the sunlight soft as it filtered through the high windows of the palace dining hall. Golden rays slanted across the long table where Y/N sat alone at her usual place, a delicate cup of tea held between her fingers, steam curling gently into the air.

She hadn’t expected anyone to join her. For days now, her meals had been solitary affairs, save for the silent company of her handmaidens who lingered at a respectful distance. She’d grown used to the quiet—had come to prefer it, even.

Which was why she stilled, just slightly, when she heard the faint, unmistakable sound of boots against marble.

Nezha entered the room without ceremony, robes dark and formal, hair still damp from morning training. He looked calm on the surface, but his posture was taut, as though something unspoken clung to his shoulders.

He took the seat at the far end of the long table. Not next to her. Not even close. But present.

That alone was unusual.

Y/N didn’t look up. She didn’t acknowledge him. She kept her gaze on her plate and her expression composed, though her hand tightened slightly around her spoon. Her ladies-in-waiting, standing behind her, exchanged glances but said nothing.

She refused to be the one to speak first.

Nezha cleared his throat lightly. His fingers tapped against the table once, then stopped.

“Are you prepared for the travel?” he asked, his voice low, even, measured.

Y/N blinked once, surprised he’d spoken at all. It had been over a week since he’d said a word to her that wasn’t required by protocol.

“Yes. I’m packed,” she replied simply, not lifting her eyes from the small bite of rice she placed in her mouth.

The air between them was cold and still—like the breath before a storm. Nezha noticed it immediately. Felt it, like the edge of a blade brushing against his throat. Her voice, polite as ever, carried no warmth. She could’ve been speaking to a ghost.

He didn’t know why he was here. Why he’d sat down. Why he was trying.

Maybe it was the looming journey. Maybe it was guilt. Or curiosity. Or something else—something he refused to name.

“It will take a few days,” he continued, eyes fixed on his untouched cup. “But… we’ll be sure to keep you comfortable. The staff has already been briefed.”

Y/N’s movements remained fluid, elegant. She dabbed her lips with a napkin, then set it gently on the table.

“Thank you,” she said coolly. Then she looked at him—finally—but it wasn’t the kind of gaze he’d once dreaded. It wasn’t pleading or soft. It was distant. Regal. Icy.

“Thank you, My Emperor, for your kindness.”

The title hit him like a slap—formality coated in thorns.

She rose smoothly, motioning to her ladies-in-waiting. They bowed in unison, and she swept out of the room without another word, the soft rustle of her robes the only sound as she disappeared from view.

Nezha remained seated, alone at the vast table, staring into the steam of his untouched tea.

He had no idea why that exchange made his chest feel heavier than silence ever had.

The morning of their departure arrived wrapped in mist and tension.

Nezha stood at the base of the palace steps, arms crossed, dressed in a sleek military overcoat layered over dark traveling robes. His glaive was strapped to his back—more ceremonial than practical, but he never traveled unarmed. Beside him, the royal carriages stood ready, adorned with the sigils of both the Dragon Republic and Velarion, polished to a gleam. Servants bustled about, loading trunks and provisions into the secondary wagon.

When Y/N emerged, the entire courtyard seemed to still.

She wore traveling robes—not the ornate silks of court, but something simpler, more functional. A deep indigo cloak was draped over her shoulders, and her hair was half-tied, the rest falling loosely down her back. She moved with quiet poise, each step confident and composed.

Nezha’s mother, standing nearby, stepped forward with a practiced smile. “Safe travels,” she said, loud enough for the gathered guards and servants to hear. Then, in a low voice, only for Nezha: “You better make sure this alliance works. Whatever you feel about her, keep her on your good side.”

Nezha let out a scoff, but didn’t argue.

Y/N approached and bowed politely to Nezha before stepping into the carriage. Her smile was there, tight and practiced, but it didn’t reach her eyes.

He followed moments later, sliding in opposite her. Their entourages boarded the second wagon. The doors shut. The convoy began to move.

The silence was immediate.

Y/N stared out the window, face unreadable, her fingers idly brushing the fabric of her sleeve. Nezha watched her for a moment, then looked away, jaw tense.

He had meant to talk to her. To come to an agreement—to be civil for the sake of the alliance. But the stubbornness still simmered in his chest like an old wound. Whatever she was, whatever she had done to save him back at the ball, he still couldn't forget the war. Still couldn't trust Velarion.

He shifted uncomfortably in his seat.

Then—the carriage jerked violently.

“Whoa!” their driver shouted from outside.

Nezha threw open the window. Chaos.

The front guards were scrambling. Steel clashed. Shouts rang through the trees.

“We’re surrounded!” one of his men called out. “Kameiran soldiers! Ambush!”

Nezha’s eyes sharpened. He turned to Y/N. “Stay here,” he said firmly, already reaching for his weapon as he pushed the carriage door open.

Outside, the scene was carnage.

Kameiran soldiers—rogue militants dressed in black and red armor—poured from the trees. They were outnumbered nearly three to one. Nezha’s guards fought valiantly, but men were falling fast, the soil staining red.

Nezha didn’t hesitate. He launched into the fray, a blur of silver and fury. His glaive danced through enemy lines, slicing down two men in a single spin. He ducked a spear, slammed his palm into another man’s chest, and kept moving.

But they were losing.

Too many. Too fast.

And then—

“Y/N, stay back!” he yelled as he saw her step down from the carriage.

Her cloak fluttered around her as she walked into the chaos, calm, untouched by the violence erupting around her. The Kameiran men slowed when they saw her—struck by her beauty, or her audacity, Nezha didn’t know.

“Well, well…” one of the Kameiran leaders sneered, approaching her with a cruel grin. “What a pretty little gift. Perhaps we’ll keep her.”

Nezha moved to intervene, instincts firing—but stopped cold when he saw her eyes.

They were glowing.

Not with rage. Not with fear.

With power.

The Kameiran soldiers paused, unsure. One even stepped back.

Y/N exhaled slowly—and the air changed.

A sound rose—like wind, or thunder underwater. The ground trembled.

And then—

Energy erupted from her body in a blinding burst of light. It wasn’t fire or lightning. It was something older. Wilder. The kind of power that bent the world around it.

The blast knocked the closest soldiers off their feet. Their weapons melted into rust. Their screams were short—cut off as waves of invisible force slammed into them like hammers. Trees shattered. The earth cracked.

She raised one hand—and spears of pure kinetic energy shot from her fingers, impaling three men mid-charge.

Another wave of energy surged from her chest in a ripple, catching the rest of the Kameiran ambush in its wake.

Men collapsed. Bones broke. Silence returned.

And Y/N stood at the center of it all, breathing heavily, her glowing eyes beginning to dim.

Nezha didn’t move. Couldn’t. He watched her with something between awe and disbelief.

Then, her knees buckled.

He rushed forward, catching her before she hit the ground.

Her body was burning hot to the touch. Her head lolled against his shoulder, and her lips parted slightly as she whispered something he couldn’t hear.

“Princess—!” a voice called behind them.

Lady Maerin, her chief attendant, hurried over, skirts soaked with blood. She knelt beside them.

“She used up too much,” she said, brushing Y/N’s hair back gently. “She won’t wake for a while.”

Nezha stared at the woman in his arms.

Who was she?

What was this power?

His men, injured and bloodied, stood in stunned silence. None dared speak.

“Not a word of this leaves the forest,” Nezha said firmly, eyes sweeping across his loyal soldiers. “Anyone who speaks of this answers to me.”

They nodded as one.

He lifted Y/N carefully, carrying her back to the carriage as if she weighed nothing at all. Her face was pale now, her breathing shallow.

He placed her gently on the cushioned seat, one hand lingering at her forehead.

Then, he turned to Lady Maerin.

“What the hell was that?” he asked, voice low.

Maerin’s expression didn’t shift. “You’ll know soon enough.”

Nezha stared at her, then back at the unconscious woman before him.

He closed the carriage door.

"Turn us around," he told the driver. "We go back to the palace."

And as the wheels began to move, Nezha sat across from her, silent, watching every rise and fall of her chest.

The girl he had called a coward.

The girl who had just saved them all.

By the time they reached the palace gates, the sun was beginning to rise behind the peaks of the eastern mountains, casting pale light over a bloodied and battered convoy. Of the two dozen men who had left with them, barely a dozen returned—wounded, silent, shaken.

Nezha was exhausted. His body ached. His blade was stained red. But the fire in his chest—the fury—burned hotter than ever.

The ambush by Kameira would not be ignored.

Heads would roll.

Yet even as his mind burned with vengeance, his gaze kept drifting to the unconscious figure before him—Y/N, curled on the carriage bench, her breathing steady but shallow, her face pale and still. The image of her standing amidst a whirlwind of death and light was etched behind his eyes, blinding in its clarity.

What had she done?

Who was she?

As they approached the outer gates, Nezha gave curt instructions to the soldiers ahead.

“Take the back entrance. No one sees us arrive.”

They nodded without question.

The gates opened to the quiet, unlit corridor that served as a discreet passage to the inner palace. When the carriage finally stopped, Nezha exhaled and turned to her. She hadn’t stirred once.

Gently, he reached out and lifted her into his arms.

She was warm—too warm—and her head fell softly against his shoulder, lips slightly parted, fingers limp. Despite the commotion around them, she remained locked in whatever deep, exhausted sleep her body demanded.

As he stepped down from the carriage, Lady Maerin and the other ladies of Velarion moved forward.

“We will take her,” Maerin said, her voice soft but authoritative.

“No,” Nezha replied, sharper than intended. “Let me.”

They exchanged glances—surprised, perhaps—but said nothing more. They parted to make way as Nezha carried her through the quiet halls of the eastern wing, past silk-draped doors and flickering oil lamps, until he reached her room.

Inside, he laid her down gently on the silken mattress. She didn’t wake. Her face, even in rest, was tense—like her dreams carried battlefields within them.

Nezha stood there a moment longer, his eyes tracing the curve of her brow, the rise and fall of her chest. There was so much about her that didn’t make sense. So much he’d dismissed as posturing, politics, performance. Now… everything had changed.

He didn’t hear Lady Maerin until she spoke behind him.

“She’s the Princess of Velarion.”

It sounded like a statement, not an answer.

He turned to her, eyes dark. “That’s not what I meant and you know it.”

Maerin didn’t flinch. “Let her explain it. When she awakens.”

“She’ll recover?” he asked, more urgently than he meant.

Maerin nodded solemnly. “She will. But if she keeps using her power the way she did today… there will come a time she won’t wake at all.”

That stopped him.

He stared at Maerin, at the woman who had always been silent and composed, now guarding a truth so old it felt carved in stone.

He said nothing. Only turned on his heel and left the room.

In the council chambers, Nezha’s voice was iron.

He reported the ambush. The numbers. The tactics. The fact that Kameira had broken neutrality and attacked on Republic soil.

He said nothing about Y/N.

Not a word.

His mother’s face darkened at the news. General Yi swore under his breath. The council erupted in quiet outrage. There was no question—they would retaliate. Plans would be drawn. Messages would be sent. The war machine would creak to life again.

And Nezha… he didn’t feel relief.

He felt weight.

When the meeting ended, he went to his soldiers—those who had survived.

He looked each of them in the eye. “What you saw in that forest,” he said quietly, “never happened.”

They all nodded. No hesitation.

They were his. And they would stay loyal.

That night, Nezha collapsed onto his bed.

His muscles ached. His mind was fractured. But it wasn’t the battle he replayed when he closed his eyes.

It was her.

The moment her eyes had begun to glow—white and blinding and ancient—and the entire forest seemed to bow to her will.

The power that had poured out of her like a rising tide.

The way she had stood there, at the center of death, as if she were born from it.

He hadn’t known what to make of her before.

Now, he wasn’t sure what world she came from at all.

And gods help him—he was beginning to care.

Days passed. And Y/N still did not wake.

The palace moved on around her. Ministers came and went. Council meetings were held. Letters were exchanged. Threats were weighed and plans drawn. But in the quiet corridors of the eastern wing, time felt like it had stopped.

Her room remained dim and still, curtains drawn, lamps burning low. The soft scent of herbs lingered in the air.

Nezha came by when no one was watching.

Never for long—just enough to step into the room, stand in silence, and look at her. She hadn’t changed. Her expression was peaceful. Her chest rose and fell with slow, steady breaths. Her body, though no longer burning with fever, remained motionless. Her power—whatever had ignited in that forest—was nowhere to be found now. Only stillness remained.

Sometimes, he sat on the chair near her bed, arms folded, gaze unreadable. Watching. Waiting.

He told himself it was curiosity. Responsibility. Strategy.

But each day, the silence between them grew louder.

One morning, as he turned a corner on his way to see her, he paused. Voices. Lady Maerin and her handmaidens were speaking in low tones.

“She hasn’t improved today,” one whispered.

“She still has a fever. The herbs aren’t bringing it down fast enough.”

Lady Maerin hushed them, but Nezha stepped forward.

“What’s going on?” he asked.

They froze.

Lady Maerin straightened, composed. “The princess has developed a fever, but we are managing it.”

“What does she need?” Nezha said at once.

They hesitated.

“Tell me,” he demanded.

Lady Maerin exchanged a look with her assistants, then answered. “There are mountain herbs native to Velarion that would help her recover—but we’re improvising with what we have here.”

Nezha didn’t waste another second.

He called on his most trusted men and gave the order himself. Couriers were dispatched. Apothecaries were summoned. Whatever she needed, he would get it. He didn’t know why it mattered so much that she woke—but the thought of her not waking up at all unsettled him more than he wanted to admit.

Eventually, her fever broke. The flush in her cheeks faded. Her body relaxed.

But she still did not open her eyes.

One late afternoon, he entered her room again. Alone. A breeze stirred the sheer curtains by the window. The light cast soft shadows across her face.

He stood by the foot of her bed, gaze lingering on her features.

She looked… different in sleep.

Peaceful. Younger, somehow. Her brows weren’t drawn in diplomacy or resolve. Her lips weren’t pressed together in frustration. Her hair had been brushed smooth, falling across the pillow like a raven’s wing.

Who was she?

What was she?

He remembered the glow in her eyes, the violence of her power, the way the Kameiran men had fallen like wheat before a scythe. It hadn’t been human. And yet—here she was. Breathing softly. Fragile. Mortal.

He said nothing. Just stood there, watching the gentle rise and fall of her chest.

He left quietly.

Two more days passed.

Then, one afternoon, the silence of the east wing was broken.

Nezha had just finished training in the courtyard when he heard the sudden sound of hurried footsteps. The swish of skirts. The quick, muffled cries of maids rushing past.

He followed.

He didn’t run. Just walked—deliberate, tense—his heart tightening the closer he got to her room.

At the threshold, he paused.

The door was slightly ajar. Voices murmured inside.

He pushed it open.

There she was.

Sitting up.

Y/N was awake.

Her back rested against a mountain of pillows, a cup of tea in her hands. Her posture was straight. Her expression calm. She looked… unchanged. As if she had simply taken a long nap and woken to another day.

The handmaidens were bustling around her, flitting like birds. Maerin was checking her pulse.

Nezha stepped inside.

For a moment, she didn’t see him. Then her eyes lifted—and met his.

There was a pause. Not hostile. Not warm.

Just… still.

Like the eye of a storm.

As if she was waiting to see what he’d say.

As if he was waiting to find the words.

The room was warm with the scent of herbal smoke and jasmine oil. Y/N sat upright in her bed, the sleeves of her robes falling gently over her hands as she cradled a porcelain teacup. The color had returned to her cheeks, but there was still a strange stillness about her—as if some part of her had not yet fully returned.

Nezha stepped into the doorway, his shadow stretching across the lacquered floor. He didn’t speak right away. He watched her in silence.

She didn’t look at him.

Her gaze remained steady—fixed somewhere just past the open window, where a breeze stirred the sheer curtains like ghosts in the wind.

The room was crowded with motion. Maids flitted to and fro, Lady Maerin stood by the bedside overseeing everything, and two more attendants were bringing in another basin of cool water.

Nezha’s voice cut through the room like a blade.

“Leave us.”

Everything stopped.

The room stilled. The servants froze in place. Even the wind seemed to pause.

Lady Maerin turned to him slowly, her eyes cool and unreadable.

“My Emperor,” she said evenly, “the princess is still recovering. She needs rest.”

“I need to speak with my betrothed,” Nezha replied, stepping closer, his tone controlled but firm. “Alone.”

The maids looked to Lady Maerin for guidance. None of them moved.

Y/N remained perfectly still.

She did not glance his way. Did not react.

Maerin stepped forward, folding her arms across her chest. “If you want a conversation with her,” she said calmly, “a real one, where she’s coherent and not half-fading from exhaustion, I suggest you return in the morning.”

There was no fear in her voice. No subservience. Just certainty.

Nezha’s jaw flexed. His gaze shifted back to Y/N.

Still, she did not meet his eyes.

Not a flicker of acknowledgment. Not a twitch of curiosity. Just that same practiced, distant calm. The kind of silence that said: You are not owed my attention.

He lingered for a beat longer, waiting—hoping, maybe—that she would look at him. That something in her would soften.

She didn’t.

Nezha’s expression hardened. He gave a single, shallow nod.

Then he turned on his heel and left the room, his footsteps echoing through the marble corridor behind him.

And Y/N finally exhaled. Just once. Quietly.

Lady Maerin poured her another cup of tea without a word.

The morning air was crisp and quiet as Nezha made his way to the eastern wing. The halls were empty, save for a few servants who bowed low as he passed. His boots echoed against the marble, each step heavy with everything left unsaid.

When he reached her chambers, the attendants stationed outside stepped aside without a word this time. There was no Lady Maerin barring his entrance, no protective glances exchanged. Just silence, and a door cracked open, waiting for him to step through.

Inside, the room was washed in soft, golden light. The curtains were pulled back, and a breeze stirred the delicate silks hanging by the windows. She stood at the far end of the room, framed by the open balcony doors—her back to him, a white robe draped around her figure like snowfall.

She was still.

Unmoving.

Not tense, not defensive—just distant. Removed.

Nezha stepped inside and stopped a few paces behind her. He said nothing at first. Neither did she.

Only the wind spoke, whispering through the gauze curtains.

“…Are you feeling better?” he asked, his voice low.

She nodded once, without turning. “Yes.”

But her gaze remained locked on the horizon. On the mountains beyond the palace. On something far away.

“What are you?” he asked quietly.

A pause.

Then a soft scoff escaped her lips. “I’m human,” she said dryly. “If that’s what you’re referring to.”

“You know that’s not what I meant.”

That was when she finally turned.

Slowly.

And when her eyes met his, Nezha felt something shift in his chest. They were different now—lighter in color, touched with something ethereal. As if they’d once held fire, and now held ash and moonlight. Not dulled—changed.

“If I tell you,” she asked calmly, “will you believe me?”

Nezha didn’t answer right away. He looked at her—really looked—and for once, the sharpness in him softened.

“I don’t know,” he admitted. “I don’t know anything about your kingdom. That’s clear to me now. But after what I saw… I think I have to believe you.”

She studied him for a long moment. Her expression didn’t change, but something behind her eyes flickered.

“You call us cowards,” she said slowly. “But you have no idea what we go through. What I’ve been raised to protect. What our silence has cost us.”

He opened his mouth to respond, but stopped.

“I understand…” he began, “that my words were—were chosen poorly—”

“You could just apologize,” she cut in sharply, voice cold.

Nezha’s jaw tightened.

His pride bristled, as it always did. Swallowing anything that made him feel weak. But her gaze didn’t waver.

He swallowed thickly. “Why are you making this so difficult?”

“And why do you get to say cruel things and expect forgiveness just because you now feel curious?” she asked, her voice calm but unflinching. “You humiliated me. You judged my people without ever trying to understand us. And now, because you saw something you couldn’t explain, suddenly I’m worth listening to?”

Her words cut deep—not in volume, but in clarity. They held no malice. Just truth.

And somehow, that made it worse.

“I’m not here because I’m curious,” he said after a pause. “I’m here because I was wrong. I just don’t know how to fix that yet.”

She didn’t answer.

The wind stirred again, lifting strands of her hair around her face.

And finally, she looked away.

Not out of defeat—but because she had said what she needed to say.

“I’ll tell you,” she murmured, her voice gentler now. “Everything. Not because you deserve it. But because if we’re going to survive whatever’s coming next… we can’t keep pretending this alliance is only a performance.”

Nezha let out a breath he hadn’t realized he’d been holding.

“…Thank you,” he said quietly.

But she had already turned away, her fingers resting lightly on the marble balcony edge once more.

Y/N stood still, arms resting lightly on the marble balcony rail, her voice no louder than the wind that moved around them. But each word she spoke landed with weight.

“You asked what I am,” she said. “And I told you the truth: I’m human. But our people… some of us carry something older. Something powerful.”

She turned slightly, eyes on the horizon, not yet ready to look at him.

“It’s called Sanra. Energy within the bloodline—rare, ancient, passed down from the royal houses. Not all Velarions have it. Most don’t. But the ones who do are bound to it. Not just by ability, but by responsibility.”

Nezha didn’t interrupt. He only listened, more intently now.

“That power—it doesn’t make us stronger. It makes us targets.”

Her hands tightened on the railing.

“During the Third Poppy War, we didn’t remain silent because we were afraid of battle. We remained hidden because exposure would have destroyed us. You think being powerful protects you? It doesn't. It paints a mark on your back. It tells every side, this one is worth breaking.”

She exhaled slowly.

“We tried to help, in the beginning. Quietly. Diplomatically. Strategically. We sent aid where we could. Healers. Supplies. Shelter.”

Her voice darkened.

“One of them was Serin. She wasn’t a soldier. She wasn’t gifted. She was the daughter of Lord Amarin—one of our most powerful wielders of Sanra. She was barely eighteen when she volunteered to serve as a nurse in Zudava.”

Nezha blinked, something shifting in his memory.

Zudava.

He remembered the reports. The Federation of Mugen’s siege. The bombing that leveled half the city. The corpses pulled from the rubble. The bodies that were never found.

“Mugen found her,” Y/N said. “They discovered who she was. Not what she could do—because she could do nothing. She had no power. But her father…”

She looked at him now, and her eyes were no longer soft.

“They violated her. Publicly. Repeatedly. They sent Lord Amarin messages of what they were doing to her. And they made one thing clear: if he used his power to retaliate, they would make her suffer more. Or kill her and send her back to him in pieces.”

Nezha swallowed, hard.

“They knew they couldn’t beat him in battle. So they didn’t. They used the one thing they knew would break him. His daughter. His only child.”

Y/N’s voice wavered, just for a breath.

“He did nothing. He had no choice.”

She turned fully to face Nezha now, her gaze unwavering.

“That’s what war is, Nezha. It’s not just blood and weapons and dead soldiers. It’s tactics. It’s knowing where to apply pressure. And for people like us—for people like Amarin—our pressure points aren’t always us. They’re the ones we love. The ones who can’t protect themselves.”

A long silence followed.

“That’s why Velarion stayed hidden,” she said. “Because our power doesn’t make us untouchable. It makes the people around us suffer. And we would not let our gifts be twisted into something ugly. Something stolen. Something used.”

She looked down at her hands.

“We survived. That was our resistance.”

Nezha stared at her, something inside him fraying.

He had hated her silence. Hated her mystery. He’d called her a coward.

But now he realized she had been carrying an entire kingdom’s worth of ghosts—buried not beneath pride, but pain.

Y/N’s voice remained steady, but her eyes grew distant again—haunted, as if remembering scenes she wished she could forget.

“But that didn’t stop us.”

Nezha blinked, surprised.

“After Serin…” she said quietly, “after what happened to her, we still tried.”

She moved back toward the railing, her grip light now, but her tone heavier.

“We sent soldiers. Quietly. Without insignia. Without fanfare. No banners, no Velarion colors. Just warriors who knew how to disappear.”

She looked over her shoulder at him.

“But Sanra is unpredictable. It draws from the body, from the will, from the emotion of the one wielding it. And when that control falters… it doesn’t just kill the enemy.”

Nezha’s breath caught.

“There were villages destroyed. Civilian settlements caught in the crossfire. Not because we wanted to—but because our power, once unleashed, doesn’t distinguish between soldier and bystander. Not always.”

She turned to face him fully.

“Do you remember the burning of Fusan Vale?”

He did.

A strategic point along the river province routes—supposedly torched by the Federation, though many accounts were inconsistent. Civilians incinerated. Fields left smoldering. The enemy gone before reinforcements even arrived.

“That wasn’t Mugen,” she said flatly. “That was one of ours. A soldier named Elian. Too young. Too raw. He tried to protect a Nikaran company being surrounded. He panicked. He let the energy overtake him.”

She paused.

“No one made it out alive. Not them. Not us.”

Nezha stared at her.

“You think we weren’t on the battlefields?” she asked, voice sharper now. “We were at The Red Cliffs. We were at Sinegard. We fought in the shadows while your commanders watched from the towers.”

She stepped closer.

“Our soldiers were there. Using their gifts to tip the balance. But they hid. Because they had to. Because if they were captured or identified, it wouldn’t just be the end of them—it would’ve been the end of us.”

She let out a breath.

“Our silence wasn’t absence. It was strategy. It was survival.”

Then, more softly: “We never expected gratitude. But we didn’t deserve condemnation either.”

Nezha didn’t speak.

He couldn’t.

Because for the first time since this strange alliance began, he realized he had never truly seen her.

Not until now.

Not until she stood in front of him—not just as a betrothed, or a diplomat, or a mystery—but as a soldier. A survivor.

There was a long silence between them, thick with everything that had been said—and everything that still lingered between the words.

Then Nezha asked, his voice low, careful:

“Then why were you betrothed to me?”

Y/N didn’t hesitate.

“For protection,” she said. “Our alliance will keep eyes away from Velarion. From our power. From what we’ve kept hidden all this time. It makes people think we’ve finally stepped into the light—when really, it lets us stay exactly where we want to be.”

Her eyes flicked up to his.

“Hidden.”

Nezha’s jaw tensed.

Of course. Of course it wasn’t about diplomacy or unity or some abstract notion of peace. It was a shield. A smokescreen. Their marriage wasn’t a bridge—it was camouflage.

And part of him should have been furious.

He should’ve felt used. Deceived.

But instead, what he felt was—

Respect.

Because it was exactly what he would have done.

He would have made the same calculation. The same cold, precise choice. Better to survive in the shadows than die beneath the weight of public power.

He looked at her—really looked at her—and saw himself reflected back: a leader shaped by sacrifice, by impossible decisions, by the grief of knowing that winning sometimes looked like losing.

Still, the words came out more bitter than he intended.

“So I’m a distraction,” he said. “A walking emblem to keep your enemies guessing.”

Her voice was even. “You’re the Republic. Being tied to you makes us uninvadable. No one will dare strike us now without risking retaliation from Nikara. From you.”

He exhaled through his nose, glancing away. A muscle ticked in his jaw.

“You know,” she said quietly, “you’re not the only one who was forced into this.”

Y/N’s eyes softened, just a little.

Nezha didn’t notice. He was too focused on the distance—on the mountains stretching beyond the horizon.

He wasn’t angry. Not really.

Just… tired.

Because for all their differences, they were both here for the same reason.

Not because they wanted to be.

But because the people they loved needed them to be.

And maybe, just maybe, that was enough for now.

They stood in silence.

The wind rustled softly through the open balcony, stirring the loose strands of Y/N’s hair. The air between them no longer crackled with anger—but it wasn’t soft, either. It was something in between. Something heavier. Like ash still falling after the fire has gone out.

Nezha looked at her, at the woman he had been told to marry. The woman who had power she didn’t flaunt. The woman who had survived without needing to explain herself until now.

And she had been right.

She hadn’t deserved condemnation. Not from him. Not when they were both just… doing what they could to keep the people they loved alive.

Y/N looked back toward the horizon, clearly finished with the conversation. Her body language closed, her jaw tight. It was a dismissal—but not a cruel one.

Just a choice.

And somehow, that hurt more.

Nezha shifted, his hands curling into loose fists at his side. He could say something—another barb, another deflection, another half-apology.

But instead… he stayed quiet.

Because for once, he didn’t have a weapon to throw between them.

He turned to leave, boots quiet on the polished floor. At the doorway, he paused. Just for a moment.

He didn’t look back, but he said, almost under his breath, “You hide in the shadows.”

There was no accusation in it. Just observation.

A beat passed. And then, her quiet reply: “And you burn in the sun.”

It wasn’t meant to wound.

It was just the truth.

He left without another word.

Later, in the solitude of his chambers, Nezha sat by the window, fingers drumming against the hilt of his sword. The vision of Y/N standing in white on the balcony stayed with him—calm, resolute, untouchable.

So different from her.

From Rin.

Rin had been wildfire. All teeth and fury and impossible heat. She tore through everything, even him, and she didn’t stop until there was nothing left but scorched earth.

Y/N was ice in the bloodstream. Controlled. Distant. A storm that didn’t break unless forced.

He didn’t know which terrified him more.

And maybe that’s why he couldn’t look at her too long. Why he couldn’t bring himself to apologize. Not fully.

Because deep down, some part of him was afraid she would end the same way.

That he would be the one left behind again.

This time, not because she chose destruction.

But because she had been carrying it all along.

The days that followed were quieter.

At least, on the surface.

Nezha kept his distance, and so did she. But now, something had shifted between them — not the sharp hostility from before, nor the forced politeness they had both clung to early on. Instead, there was a cold civility, like two soldiers who had called a truce but kept their weapons close.

Y/N had no reason to try anymore. She didn’t attempt conversation. She no longer cast careful glances in his direction. She no longer extended hollow courtesies over meals or events. She simply existed beside him, fulfilling her duties as if she had perfected the art of indifference.

And yet, Nezha found his eyes drifting to her more often than he cared to admit.

He watched how she carried herself in public—how she stood before Nikaran ministers, foreign envoys, visiting nobles. There was no falter in her poise. No cracks. She was always composed, always graceful. Every word that left her mouth was calculated, precise, disarming.

He caught glimpses of her at council gatherings, seated across the long tables. She always seemed to sit perfectly still, hands folded lightly, her voice soft but never weak. When speaking with others, she wielded diplomacy like a blade sheathed in silk. Not sharp enough to offend, but sharp enough to warn.

And then, behind closed doors—he saw it change.

When the appearances were over, when the eyes of the court no longer lingered, her shoulders eased. The practiced smile fell away. In private hallways, in brief moments between duties, she moved like a shadow—calm, silent, alone.

She didn’t seek his gaze anymore.

She didn’t have to.

She had told him her truth. She had nothing more to prove.

And perhaps that’s what unnerved Nezha most.

Because the less she tried, the more he watched.

He wasn’t sure what he was looking for—weakness, perhaps. Or contradiction. But instead, he only saw how easily she switched between the two worlds she lived in: public diplomacy, private burden.

It reminded him, in ways he didn’t want to admit, of himself.

In quiet moments—alone in his chambers, or staring out over the palace grounds at night—Nezha found his thoughts circling back to her. Not just to Y/N, but to what she was.

Her power disturbed him. Not because it was violent — violence, he understood. Rin had wielded fire like a living god, and Nezha had stood in the heart of that destruction more times than he could count. Rin’s power was rage. Wild. Consuming. Unrelenting.

His own power — the Dragon — was different, too. Ancient, rooted in his bloodline, inherited through centuries of pact and sacrifice. It came with the weight of tradition, with purpose, and with the cost of control. He could feel it hum beneath his skin even now, like molten steel carefully kept from spilling over.

But Y/N…

Her power was unlike either.

It wasn’t fire. It wasn’t rage. It wasn’t bound to gods or old pacts. When he saw it in the forest that night, it was like watching pure energy pulled from the world itself—raw and primal. Not the shrieking, burning chaos of Rin’s Phoenix. Not the biting authority of his Dragon.

Hers was... balance and force. It bent the world without burning it. It struck like lightning without flame, like the sudden weight of a storm collapsing in on itself. It wasn’t loud or feral — but it was devastating all the same.

It frightened him, in ways that neither Rin nor himself ever had.

Because he couldn’t explain it.

Because it was unknown.

And because when he looked at Y/N, she carried that power as though it had always been there — waiting, contained beneath her skin, beneath her careful words and polite smiles.

Her people… they were something else entirely.

Even their restraint unnerved him.

What kind of kingdom could possess that much strength—and choose silence?

And what kind of woman could carry that much within her and still stand so perfectly composed before him, day after day?

It was late when Nezha found himself walking toward her wing.

The palace had quieted for the night. Even the guards were subdued, standing at attention like statues in the torch-lit corridors. The air was cool, still heavy with the scent of rain from an earlier storm.

He didn’t know why he was here.

He told himself it was duty — curiosity, perhaps. He was the Dragon Warlord, the leader of the Republic. He needed to understand what kind of power stood beside him, what kind of force he had invited into his court.

But deep down, he knew it wasn’t just that.

Because he couldn’t stop thinking about her. About what she carried inside her. About how closely it resembled nothing he had ever known.

When he reached her door, the guards outside simply bowed and opened it for him.

She was alone inside, sitting near the balcony again, much as she had been the day she first told him her truth. A single lantern burned beside her, casting a warm, flickering glow against the pale silk of her robe. She had tied her hair up loosely, stray strands falling against her neck.

She didn’t look surprised to see him.

She never did.

“Couldn’t sleep?” she asked softly, her voice even, calm.

He stepped inside and closed the door behind him. For a moment, he didn’t answer.

Instead, he watched her. She was calm—but not cold. She was not pushing him away tonight.

“Walk with me,” he said.

She studied him for a moment, then nodded. Without another word, she rose and followed him onto the balcony.

They stood side by side, gazing out into the sprawling palace gardens bathed in moonlight, the city glowing faintly beyond the distant hills.

For a while, neither spoke.

It was Nezha who broke the silence first.

“You said your people call it Sanra.”

Y/N gave a faint nod, her eyes never leaving the horizon.

“Yes.”

“It’s not like shamanic power.” His voice was quiet. Careful. “It’s not like the Phoenix or the Pantheon.”

“No.” Her voice remained soft, but there was a hint of weariness beneath it. “It isn’t tied to gods.”

“Then what is it tied to?”

She hesitated.

Nezha turned to look at her now, his gaze sharp but not hostile. There was no accusation in his tone tonight. Just something else. Something far more dangerous.

Curiosity.

Y/N finally spoke. “It’s tied to us.”

He frowned slightly.

“To your bloodline?”

“To life itself.” She exhaled, her voice barely above a whisper now. “The Sanra exists in the natural world. In energy. In breath. In pulse. In motion. Some are born able to feel it. A few… to command it.”

Nezha stared at her, silent.

“We don’t call on gods,” she continued. “We don’t pray to anything outside of ourselves. When we wield it, we’re drawing from the world and returning it, like a current. Like wind shifting the sea.”

“That night,” Nezha said, voice tighter now. “In the forest. You didn’t summon something. You became it.”

Her lips pressed together. She didn’t deny it.

“It felt different than anything I’ve seen before,” he admitted. “Even Rin—” he paused, the name still cutting like glass in his throat. “Rin’s power was… hungry. Violent. Wild. Yours wasn’t.”

“It’s not meant to consume,” Y/N said quietly. “It’s meant to balance. But when pushed, when threatened—when the control breaks—it can destroy as easily as it preserves.”

She glanced at him now. Their eyes finally met under the pale wash of moonlight.

“That’s why it’s dangerous,” she added. “That’s why we hide.”

Nezha swallowed, unsure what emotion was tightening in his chest.

Rin had burned because she could not contain her fury.

He had been born with a dragon sealed into his bones, forever pulling at his control.

But Y/N… she was something else entirely. She lived beside her power, not beneath it. She balanced on its edge.

“I could feel it that night,” he said quietly. “Even standing across from you. It was like—” he struggled for the words. “—standing at the edge of a storm. Before lightning strikes.”

She gave a faint, sad smile. “That’s not far from the truth.”

He studied her face carefully now. The way her expression remained composed, but her eyes—her eyes held everything: exhaustion, fear, discipline, and somewhere deep beneath it, something warmer that she rarely allowed anyone to see.

“You weren’t scared,” he said, almost to himself. “Not even when you stepped out of that carriage. When they surrounded us.”

Her smile faded.

“I was terrified,” she whispered. “I’m always terrified.”

Nezha’s breath caught slightly.

“But I cannot show it. Because if I falter for even a moment, others pay the price.”

The words lingered heavily between them.

For a long time, neither moved.

He should’ve said something cold. Kept the distance. That was easier. Safer.

But instead, his voice softened.

“You carry it well.”

For the first time in many nights, she looked almost startled.

“Thank you,” she whispered.

The wind stirred gently between them, lifting strands of her hair across her cheek.

And for one dangerous moment, standing there together in the quiet, Nezha let himself wonder what it might feel like to reach out. To touch her hair. To brush the strands away. To let the tension snap into something neither of them dared to name.

But he didn’t.

Not yet.

Instead, he stepped back, exhaling slowly. His voice returned to its usual restraint.

“Get some rest, Princess. We’ll speak again soon.”

Y/N gave a small nod and lowered her gaze, the faintest trace of something unspoken flickering across her features.

And Nezha left, his pulse strangely unsteady, his thoughts far more dangerous than they had been before.

The gathering was not supposed to be intimate.

At least, not in the way that left Nezha feeling as though every breath he took weighed heavier than the last.

The palace had hosted a private diplomatic dinner—small, by the standards of court, but still filled with key players: generals, councilors, nobles from the outlying republics, and visiting envoys eager to witness the new alliance between Nikara and Velarion with their own eyes. Their engagement had become the subject of quiet fascination across the continent.

It was political theater—one they both had to play perfectly.

Y/N was seated beside him at the long banquet table, her movements as poised and effortless as always. She laughed when required, offered polite smiles to foreign ministers, and answered inquiries about Velarion with a mastery of words that frustrated Nezha more than he cared to admit. She was flawless. She was untouchable.

And it unnerved him.

Because now—after everything—he could see what no one else at the table saw.

He could see how carefully she kept her hands resting lightly atop her lap to hide the subtle tension in her fingers. He could see the exact moment her smile tightened whenever questions edged too close to her people. He recognized the practiced diplomacy that hid the storm underneath.

She was protecting herself. Always.

And yet, she made it look like breathing.

Every so often, as the meal continued, his gaze would drift to her — lingering longer than it should.

He hated how familiar this sensation was becoming. The weight in his chest. The sharpness under his ribs.

It was dangerous.

Just as dangerous as she was.

The problem was that they were seated too close.

By design, no doubt—a carefully calculated placement to showcase unity for the watching eyes in the room. His arm brushed hers when they shifted. Their robes grazed. Their breathing felt almost synchronized beneath the surface tension.

He could smell the faint scent of jasmine oil in her hair.

It was infuriating.

And intoxicating.

Every time her gaze flicked forward, pretending not to notice, it made him more aware of how much space she took up in his head. In his chest.

He hated it.

He hated how it reminded him of Rin—of what it felt like to be caught in someone else’s gravity. But this was not Rin’s wildfire rage. This was slow erosion. Quiet unraveling.

A new kind of danger.

By the time the final course had been cleared, the nobles began to disperse, and the private conversations shifted into small groups in the adjoining hall. Nezha was cornered briefly by one of his generals, forcing him into polite discussion about border patrols and naval fortifications. But his attention wasn’t on the conversation.

It was on her.

He saw Y/N slip away toward one of the smaller adjoining galleries—a quieter space lined with towering windows and open to the night air. She moved with deliberate grace, like she was retreating from the weight of the room, seeking the small pocket of peace she always carved for herself when the public spectacle was over.

He didn’t think.

He simply followed.

When he found her, she was standing beneath one of the open arches, gazing out into the moonlit garden below. The soft wind stirred her robes gently, the fabric catching in the moonlight like water. Her hair had come loose, a few strands dancing across her cheek.

He stood at the threshold, watching her for a moment in silence.

“You followed me,” she said softly, not turning around.

“I did.”

A beat passed.

“You’re not very subtle.”

“I wasn’t trying to be.”

Finally, she turned, her eyes meeting his in the pale glow of the moon. There was no coldness in her expression. No forced smile. Only the same guarded weight she always carried.

For a moment, neither of them spoke.

Then Nezha said, his voice quieter now, rougher beneath the calm, “You don’t have to keep playing the perfect betrothed, even when we’re alone.”

“I know,” she whispered.

Her voice was steady, but he heard the exhaustion beneath it.

“And yet you still do.”

“I don’t have a choice,” she said. “Neither do you.”

The words cut deeper than either of them intended.

Nezha stepped closer, drawn to the gravity of her presence like a soldier walking willingly into dangerous territory.

“You’ve never been powerless,” he said, almost bitterly. “You know exactly how to control everything in that room.”

Her eyes flickered. “Control isn’t the same as peace.”

He inhaled sharply, his jaw tightening.

“Why do you keep pretending this doesn’t affect you?” His voice lowered, rougher. “That you’re not tired. That you don’t feel trapped the same way I do.”

“I never said it doesn’t affect me.”

“Then say it.”

The silence between them thickened. Tense. Fragile.

Her lips parted slightly. Her voice wavered for the first time.

“I am tired, Nezha.” The quiet confession slipped between them like an exposed wound. “I am exhausted of pretending. Of surviving.”

The moonlight shimmered in her eyes. And for a moment, Nezha thought he saw something break—some small piece of the armor she kept so carefully polished.

He stepped closer again, closing the distance.

They were standing inches apart now.

He shouldn’t have been this close. He knew that.

And yet.

The words escaped him before he could stop them.

“I never wanted any of this.”

Her voice trembled as she whispered, “Neither did I.”

The air grew heavier between them. Neither one dared move. The space that separated them pulsed with something dangerous, unspoken. Not anger. Not hatred.

Something far worse.

Their eyes locked, and for one precarious second, Nezha almost closed the distance completely—almost allowed his hand to reach for her, to feel the weight of her pain, her exhaustion, her strength.

But she pulled back first.

She stepped away, her composure snapping back like a blade sliding into its sheath.

“We should go back inside, My Emperor,” she said softly, though her voice was unsteady.

Nezha swallowed hard.

He forced himself to nod. “Yes. We should.”

Neither moved.

For a breathless moment, they simply stood there, both knowing that if they crossed that line now—if either of them gave in—there would be no return.

But duty was a powerful thing.

So they both turned and left the gallery, side by side, without another word.

And the storm between them remained quietly, dangerously alive.

They returned to the main ballroom together, but the moment they stepped back into the warm buzz of courtly conversation, they instinctively separated, falling into their expected roles — the Emperor and his betrothed, orbiting the room but never colliding too closely.

The music had shifted to a softer tempo. Nobles moved gracefully between tables and open spaces, glasses of fine wine in hand, conversations carrying the careful tones of politics dressed as pleasantries.

Y/N excused herself, slipping away toward the refreshment table at the far end of the hall. She moved with the same quiet poise as always, but beneath it, her heart was still steadying from what had almost happened on that balcony.

She barely noticed the man who approached her at first.

He was tall, dressed in rich emerald and black silks embroidered with the sigils of the Eastern Dominion — Prince Haraen, a foreign dignitary who had arrived earlier that week with his father’s delegation. His family had long kept a neutral stance in the aftermath of the Poppy Wars, but tonight, like so many others, he had come to observe Velarion’s princess — to see for himself the woman behind the alliance that was making waves across the continent.

“I’ve never seen you before,” Prince Haraen said smoothly, stepping into her path with a charming half-smile, his voice silk-wrapped arrogance.

Y/N paused, lifting her gaze to him without missing a beat. “Are you supposed to?”

Her tone was light, almost bored, but that only seemed to embolden him.

His grin widened. “A face like yours? Hard to imagine you wouldn’t leave an impression.” He stepped closer, deliberately entering the small space between her and the table as she reached for a goblet of wine.

She didn’t retreat.

She simply raised one delicate brow. “I’m sure there are plenty of faces at court, Your Highness. One more or less isn’t worth remembering.”

The prince laughed softly, clearly enjoying her coolness. “And yet here I am, unable to look away.” His eyes roamed her figure now with less restraint, voice dropping slightly. “I must admit, the rumors don’t do you justice.”

Y/N’s eyes flickered briefly — not with fear, but calculation. She remained perfectly still, her fingers light on the stem of the glass.

“That says more about the company you keep, then,” she said, her voice silken but edged.

Prince Haraen leaned in slightly, lowering his voice as though to share some private joke between them. “It’s a shame, you know. To be wasted in a political contract. Some alliances... aren't built for happiness.”

The unspoken message behind his words was unmistakable.

And just as he reached to gently brush his hand against her arm —

“Step away.”

The voice cut through the air like a blade.

Both of them turned sharply.

Nezha stood several paces behind, his posture rigid, his eyes burning with something far darker than simple disapproval. His voice had not risen — but the weight behind it left no room for argument.

Prince Haraen blinked, then smiled thinly, masking his irritation. “Your Majesty.”

Nezha’s jaw tensed. “I don’t believe my betrothed requested your company.”

Haraen’s smirk remained, but there was a glint of caution now. “Merely offering my compliments, Your Majesty. I meant no offense.”

“I’m sure,” Nezha said coldly, his gaze sharp as a blade edge.

The tension between the two men crackled, invisible but palpable. Around them, nearby nobles sensed the shift and quickly found reasons to drift away, pretending not to watch.

Y/N said nothing — but she studied Nezha carefully. The tightness in his stance. The subtle way his breathing had quickened. The flicker of something possessive beneath the surface.

Haraen glanced briefly at Y/N again, offering one last smile. “A lucky man, Your Majesty.” His tone was falsely cordial. “Though some might say... too lucky.”

Nezha didn’t reply. His silence was more threatening than words.

Finally, the prince bowed with feigned grace and retreated into the crowd.

For a moment, neither Nezha nor Y/N moved.

Then, softly, she broke the silence. “That was unnecessary.”

Nezha turned to her, his eyes still burning with restrained emotion. “He touched you.”

“I can handle myself.”

“I know.” His voice was rough, low. “But he doesn’t.”

She tilted her head slightly, her voice calm but laced with something more dangerous beneath. “And you do?”

His gaze sharpened. “I’m trying.”

The words slipped out before he could stop them.

For a moment, neither of them breathed. The air between them thickened again — not with the heat of argument, but with everything they weren’t saying.

And once again, they stood too close.

The orchestra swelled behind them, the ball carrying on as if nothing had happened. But for Nezha, the rest of the room may as well have disappeared.

Only she remained.

Only this remained.

The dangerous pull neither of them could seem to break.

The moment Prince Haraen disappeared into the crowd, Y/N excused herself with a stiff bow to one of the nobles lingering nearby. She didn’t wait for Nezha to say anything.

She turned sharply on her heel and strode out of the ballroom, her steps swift and measured, the silk of her robes trailing like a storm behind her.

Nezha cursed under his breath and followed, weaving through the curious glances of ministers and councilors who had clearly witnessed enough of the exchange to start whispering behind fans and wine glasses.

The palace halls were dimmer now, only the flickering torchlight guiding their path as she moved quickly toward the eastern wing — toward her chambers.

She didn’t stop until they were out of earshot from the main hall.

Finally, near the base of the marble staircase leading to her private quarters, she halted. The click of Nezha’s boots behind her made her spin sharply, her eyes flashing as he caught up.

“What was that?” she snapped, her voice low but sharp as a blade.

He slowed, stopping a few paces in front of her, still breathing harder than usual, tension still stiff in his shoulders. “What do you mean?”

“You know exactly what I mean.”

Her tone cut clean through the silence.

“You caused a scene, Nezha.” The way she said his name was deliberate—no titles, no formalities. Just anger. “You embarrassed both of us. You embarrassed the Republic.”

He straightened, jaw clenching. “I prevented something worse.”

Her eyes narrowed. “I was handling it.”

“I saw how close he was—”

“And I allowed it.”

That stopped him for a moment.

Her voice didn’t rise. It didn’t need to. The heat beneath it was enough.

“I knew exactly how far he’d go, and how far I would let him. I’ve done this dance long before I ever stepped foot in your palace.”

Nezha’s hands curled into fists at his sides. “You shouldn’t have to tolerate that.”

“And yet, I do.” She took a step closer now, voice still tight with restrained fury. “Because that’s what this position demands. I don’t get to lash out every time someone steps too close or says something suggestive. I navigate it. I survive it. And I don’t need you storming in like some hero trying to claim ownership of me in front of half the court.”

His eyes darkened. “That’s not what this is—”

“Isn’t it?” she snapped.

The words hung there.

Nezha exhaled, his breath sharp, his voice tightening. “You think I did that to embarrass you? To claim you?”

He shook his head, almost incredulous.

“I stepped in because he was trying to humiliate you. You may be able to stand there and smile while he circles you like prey, but I can’t.”

“Because you don’t trust me to handle myself,” she said bitterly.

He stared at her, voice lowering now. “No. Because I care.”

That silenced her for a moment.

The weight of it hit both of them at the same time.

He hadn’t meant to say it—not like that. It slipped out, unguarded. Honest.

Her breath caught, her eyes softening, but only for a heartbeat. She looked away quickly, the mask slipping back into place.

“That’s not your burden to carry,” she whispered.

“Yes, it is,” he said, stepping closer now, his voice rough, almost desperate. “You’re my—” He caught himself. His chest rose sharply with the breath he swallowed. “You are under my protection.”

“I don’t need your protection.”

“Maybe not,” he admitted, his voice breaking slightly, “but I still want to give it.”

Their eyes locked again, both of them standing too close, the argument burning quietly into something far more dangerous beneath the surface.

It wasn’t about the prince anymore.

It never was.

It was about this—whatever was happening between them, whatever was building brick by brick in every unspoken glance, every sharp exchange, every stolen moment neither of them could seem to stop.

Y/N’s chest rose and fell, her voice softer now but no less cutting. “You need to stop treating me like I’m fragile, Nezha. I’ve lived long enough in a world where men try to decide what I need.”

He held her gaze, his voice just above a whisper. “I know you’re not fragile. That’s what terrifies me.”

For a heartbeat, neither of them breathed.

And then—she turned.

Without another word, she swept past him, ascending the stairs to her chambers, leaving him standing alone in the dim corridor, his chest tight and his pulse unsteady.

The space between them had never felt closer.

Or more impossible.

The days that followed were unbearable.

Not because they argued again — but because they didn’t.

Y/N had retreated behind her polished walls of quiet civility. She played the part at court events flawlessly. They attended council sessions together, walked side by side at diplomatic appearances, sat at the same table during state dinners.

But there was nothing behind it anymore.

No subtle glances. No lingering tension. No accidental brushes of fingertips.

Only silence.

And somehow, that emptiness gnawed at Nezha far worse than their earlier fights ever had.

Because at least when they argued, at least when she was furious, she was engaged with him. Now, she simply… wasn’t. She was polite, distant, detached.

As if she had finally decided not to care anymore.

As if she had decided he wasn’t worth the effort.

And Nezha, who had spent years mastering control — of his anger, of his grief, of his guilt — found himself unraveling in the quiet.

It finally broke one night.

He didn’t plan it. In truth, he rarely did with her. She had this way of unraveling his most carefully constructed armor with barely a word.

The council meeting had run late that evening. After hours of listening to insufferable ministers debate trade routes and military postings, Y/N had politely excused herself the moment the assembly adjourned.

Nezha watched her leave the council chamber — standing still, clenching his jaw, feeling something boil underneath his ribs.

When the hall had cleared, when even his advisors finally left him in peace, the weight of it was too much.

He couldn’t do it anymore.

He found himself at her doors again.

It was late. The hall was silent except for the faint crackle of torches along the stone walls. Her attendants looked surprised when they saw him approach, but they wordlessly stepped aside.

He didn’t knock.

He simply entered.

Y/N stood at the balcony again — as she so often did — dressed in a pale robe that made her look like some ghost of a distant goddess, half-lit by moonlight.

She heard him but didn’t turn.

“You shouldn’t barge into my chambers, Nezha,” she said softly, voice calm but distant.

“You’ve barely spoken to me in days.”

She still didn’t turn. “We’ve spoken plenty. At council meetings. At banquets. At every event we’re required to attend.”

“You know that’s not what I mean.”

Finally, she turned — and it wasn’t anger in her eyes this time.

It was exhaustion.

“You said you cared.” Her voice was steady, but there was a thin tremor beneath it. “And then you treat me like something you have to manage. Something you need to control. That’s not caring, Nezha. That’s fear.”

He took a step closer, voice low. “Of course I’m afraid.”

“Of what?”

“Of you.”

The words slipped out before he could stop them.

Her breath caught.

“I don’t know how to be near you without losing control.” His voice was rough now, strained, like something inside him was finally breaking open. “Because you’re not like the others I’ve had to fight. I don’t know how to protect myself from you. From this.”

She stared at him, stunned. “You think I’m trying to hurt you?”

“No,” he said hoarsely. “That’s the worst part. You don’t even have to try.”

His fists clenched at his sides. “You stand there so calm. So composed. You carry your burdens like they weigh nothing while I—” His voice broke slightly. “While I carry ghosts that never leave.”

He swallowed, the words tumbling faster now.

“I’ve lost everything. Kitay. Rin. The war. The world we tried to save. And now I’m standing here knowing that if I let myself—if I feel anything for you—I won’t survive losing that too.”

Silence.

It was the first time he’d said Rin’s name aloud in months. And it scraped out of him like glass.

Y/N’s eyes softened, but she didn’t move toward him. She stood still — waiting — giving him the space to finally lay it bare.

“I don’t know how to care for something,” he whispered, his voice finally shaking, “without destroying it.”

The breath in her chest trembled.

And softly, finally, she spoke.

“I’m not her, Nezha.”

His eyes flickered.

“I know.”

“And I don’t want to be another ghost for you.”

“I don’t want you to be,” he whispered.

They stood frozen, breathless, both trembling on the edge of something neither of them had been ready to face.

For once, she took the step forward.

She reached for him — her hand barely brushing his, light as a whisper.

Not pulling. Not demanding.

Just offering.

And Nezha, whose entire life had been built around restraint, around holding his breath, around keeping every dangerous thing inside him buried—

Finally exhaled.

His fingers closed around hers, as though afraid she might disappear if he waited too long.

The world outside their chamber was still spinning — but in that moment, neither of them cared.

Because this, whatever it was — fragile, messy, terrifying — was finally real.

The moment hung between them like something alive — breathing, pulsing, fragile.

Neither spoke.

The storm of words they’d thrown at each other still echoed in the silence. His confession still sat heavy in the air:

“I don’t know how to care for something without destroying it.”

And still, Y/N didn’t move.

For a heartbeat, Nezha thought she might turn away again — that she would shut him out like she had so many times before. But this time, she didn’t.

Her voice, when it finally came, was barely above a whisper. “Then don’t.”

The silence stretched, thick and suffocating.

"Then don’t."

The words slipped out of her like a quiet breath — not a plea, not an offer, but something much simpler. A fact. A truth she was too tired to dress up.

Nezha stood frozen, every part of him wound tight.

It would’ve been easier if she had demanded something from him. Or if she had turned cold, or sharp, or distant again. He knew how to fight that. He knew how to retreat.

But this—this quiet, steady honesty—he had no defenses for.

"You make it sound simple," he said hoarsely.

"It isn’t." Her voice was calm, but soft in a way that unsettled him even more. "But neither is running from everything."

Her gaze met his and held. Steady. Not accusing, not coaxing. Just there. And somehow that made it worse.

"You keep saying you care. And then you act like you don’t know what to do with it," she added, her voice lower, barely above the wind that slipped in through the balcony doors. "Why do you care, Nezha? Why come here?"

His jaw tensed. His hands curled into fists at his sides, trying to ground himself.

"Because I can’t stop." The confession tore out of him like it physically hurt. "Because no matter how hard I try to stay distant, it’s never enough. Because you are always there."

She exhaled, not quite relief, not quite pain. "Then why do you keep pushing me away?"

"Because if I let you any closer…" His voice caught, almost breaking. "I don’t know if I’ll survive it when it ends."

Her eyes flickered, just briefly, but she didn’t move. She didn’t reach for him, didn’t offer comfort or promises. She simply stood there, steady, allowing the weight of his words to hang.

And it was that—her refusal to chase him, her restraint—that pulled him closer.

Because unlike everything else in his life, she wasn't trying to control him. She wasn’t offering herself up. She wasn’t begging to be let in.

She was simply there.

Waiting.

Allowing him to choose.

"I’ve lost everyone I’ve ever cared for," he said, voice rough. "Kitay. Rin. My brother. And now you—"

He stopped himself.

"I don’t want to lose you too."

"You haven’t," she said gently, but not reassuringly. Simply true.

Another long, fragile pause.

The air between them was tight, like a string stretched taut, trembling, ready to snap.

Slowly — carefully — Nezha stepped closer. Just enough for her breath to brush against his.

He could feel his own pulse hammering beneath his skin. She stood perfectly still, her gaze never leaving his, but she didn’t lean in. She didn’t close the distance.

She let him come to her.

And that was somehow more terrifying than any open invitation.

"You terrify me," he whispered.

"Good," she breathed softly, lips barely moving. "At least you finally admit it."

His hand lifted slowly — hesitant, unsure — hovering near her cheek for a moment, as if even that touch might shatter something delicate between them.

When his fingers finally brushed her jaw, it was feather-light, tentative. Testing.

She didn’t flinch. But she didn’t move closer either.

His thumb barely grazed the corner of her mouth. And still, she stayed perfectly still, her breath uneven now, but steady.

Not pulling him forward.

Not pulling away.

Waiting for him to decide.

And finally — painfully, carefully — he did.

He leaned in, brushing his lips against hers like the first movement of a storm. Soft. Hesitant. Almost afraid.

And yet she met him there.

Not desperate. Not surrendering. Just meeting him, the same way she always had: with grace, with restraint, with quiet, devastating steadiness.

The kiss broke too soon, but neither moved far.

Their foreheads rested together, breath mingling in the tight space between them.

It was fragile. Imperfect. Heavy with everything unsaid.

But for now, it was enough.

Barely.

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