My So Called Life

[ashante20]

Sometimes the feeling of being shattered keeps me alive, it defines me

My heart buries itself at midnight and resurfaces during the day time

I am me a little at time and then I am no body all at once

Clueless to this thing called life, I am ran over and forgotten

I am hidden and unaware but also aware of the things that I hate the most

I hate that I lost the most important person in my life and can never get them back

I hate roses because they die quicker that the happiness that I felt a second ago

I hate memories because they are of the past and I can’t get them back, especially the good ones that meant the most

I will never be fearless enough, so my dreams collect dust

I am unimaginably different, I wish I was more

[ashante20]

Love can drown you on days like this.. it can build an ice chest on the softest surface of your heart.. it can sink your dreams for nightmares.. days like this I cry inside and hide in the shadows..

Sincerely, broken

[ashante20]

33

How do I celebrate

The life of me

With no life of you

I’m trying to catch my breath

Every chance I get

But I too feel lifeless

You called me one day

And went silent the next

What is this heaviness

On my chest

My best friend

My everything

You are indeed a gift

God I need answers

I need something

You adopted me

When my own blood

Didn’t want me

What is love without you

Drowning in this pain

Won’t save me

Hurt settles me on days like this

Remember when you called me your

Princess

Your baby girl

Mom, I’m nothing without you

This world is in panic

Without you

How do I go forward?

How can I be happy about being

33 without a call from you

A happy birthday song

Like you do every year

I’m speechless

And it’s dangerous

I’m disconnected and

I’m furious

I’m searching but

I’m simply lost

How can you have managed

To leave your daughter

Like this

I’m 33 and all I can think

About is you

- P.S

God has received such an Angel 🥹😢

[ashante20]

Life left me begging for air

The minute my mom left

I’m suffocating

Needing reassurance

This pain has left me

Dreaming of you

Dreaming of yesterday

Do you miss me?

I’m waiting for your call mom

Waiting for you

[ashante20]

How do I get past this hurt, that no one ever prepared me for? I’m beyond lost, no gps can locate the love that I’ve lost😞😢

[ashante20]

One of the hardest feelings, is feeling alone, even with tons of numbers in your phone…

[ashante20]

I use to dream big but now everything is beyond my reach

[ashante20]

Maybe when I pass away, people will find my poetry floating in the ocean 🌊 remember words are apart of me

[ashante20]

Let’s talk about how we got here,

And how we sailed off to sea

[ashante20]

A piece 🤞🏾

This piece of me, the burden, the shattered beat of a girls heartbroken, is a piece of me, a piece of me that I hate when you see, A downhill disaster; that leads to yesterday, a Caribbean vacation away from happiness that she wishes to see, a piece of you that is connected to me, you are this piece, a piece that I can’t bare to lose….

[ashante20]

Lifeless in human flesh, who created this mess

[ashante20]

Promises.. are broken way too often

P.S. -from the one that breaks them

[ashante20]

I believed in you, I see I let myself down again

[ashante20]

I know that life changes us, just do the best you can, with who you are now

-ARob💜

[ashante20]

Life without you seemed impossible at first,

But now I see clearly

[ashante20]

When I thought life gave up,

It did…..

[ashante20]

Missed Call

At this very moment

I don’t want anything

Absolutely nothing,

I just wanted to hear your voice,

To laugh,

To cry about yesterday

I think I just want to have

A real conversation

With a human for once

For something

Not just convenience

You came to mind

When I felt alone

You made me feel welcome

Feel free

No one really knows the

Real me

I didn’t mean to bother you

On such short notice

Or wake you

I just wanted to

Hear your voice

I’m glad you missed this call…..