Sparky (Ash)

Posts will fall under the many things that I enjoy. Could be pets, writing, or my current obsessions.

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Sleep has not been my friend that last few nights. Is there a wide awake syndrome? Because I seem to have it…

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More fusions; I have one more page to color from my drawing session with my nephew. (Also the 3rd one I consider cursed and was a triple fusion)

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Found this cutie outside our house this morning. He was really scared at first, but super sweet. Hoping we can find his owners, but there is a chance he was dropped off. No tags, and don’t know if he’s chipped yet.

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Started watching Heartstopper and gosh my heart is melting ❤️🫠

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It’s 3am and I can’t sleep. Tried reading fanfic, but this freaking Eddie x Reader broke my heart and I’m just done with reading now… 🥲

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More fusions from me and my nephews drawing session. This is the last of what I have currently colored. A few favs in this set.

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More fusions from me and my nephews drawing session. We included trainer card to keep things interesting…

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A while back me and my nephew picked random Pokemon card to fuse, and these were some of the results. Just recently got around to coloring them. There are more to come…

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My insomnia is not being nice to me 🫥

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Lap buddy

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Had to shave Chloe today; now she’s going to take a nice nap 😴

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I lost a furry friend of 17 years. She had a long good life and I'm going to miss her terribly. Nyla was a Siamese mix cat that we've had since she was a kitten. I've given her so much love and she loved me as well, and the loss is so sad. I just keep thinking of the good times and that she doesn't have to suffer anymore. Lots of love to Nyla Jasmine, my favorite kitty in the world.

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Rip Nyla • April 9th, 2020

I still miss her sometimes. I’ve dedicated my animal crossing island to her. (Though I recently restarted and have to get it how I like it) 🐾Nyla’s Paw🐾

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if there was a time that I wanted to fly, I would wish I didn't have a fear to fall.

but if there was a time that I wanted to fall, I would wish someone was there to stop me.

to begin or to end is only the question with my heart that will save me.

Written 3/31/17

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Awake, but not fully. The eyes droop at any sign of light. No caffeine can keep this drowsiness away. Pump some energy into me if you can, but until then I'll just sit here with my eyes wide open. Drifting into my headspace to pass the tiring day away.

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When you remember a piece of your childhood that you almost forgot about and it makes you feel pure bliss.

The carelessness of being a kid when the anxiety was nothing like it is now.

I wish I could go out and find a hill to roll down, because I want to remember the feeling that's been long forgotten in the past.

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Emotions can be such a terrible thing.

They are blessings when it comes to expressing happiness with people, but loneliness is an emotion killer.

Shot through the heart and you're done.

Might as well be a bench warmer expecting to never play.

Crying doesn't change a thing; even if you cry, you'll still be lonely.

Darkness clouds the brain, and you just have to wait for the rain. At least it could cleanse the salt from my face at night.

Pity is a funny thing.

I need the wind to come and blow these feelings away. Can it be sooner than later, please?

Let me find comfort in the soft white clouds, and cuddle to sweet dreams. Bring me colorful rainbows and all the fluffy things.

Please just help me like myself and to be at peace.

If I could hate myself a little less each day, then that would be great.

Then maybe I could find someone to cherish me and want to listen for once. So just let me be heard.

Written in an old journal 5/18/19

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As an artist, there is the fear of losing the ability to use my hands to draw or even going blind. As a music lover, there is the fear of going deaf. As an individual, my fears could be any sort of stress sending me into a panic attack or people potentially getting injured/bleeding making me have a meltdown or feel faint. It's a struggle getting over them fears, and even though the fears are not rational; they're still there.

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Still pretty relevant blurb (that I never dated?)