Holding on to everything at once

My name's A. (30, Asexual-Genderqueer-Panromantic-Confused, college-frenzied and in love with words) Basically this is music and whatever else happens. They/them

[akindplace]

sorry. saw beauty in the little things just for the sake of whimsy as a way to fight against despair and hopelessness. it will happen again

[capybaralovers]

[paperclip6]

Dont ask me whats up i have done nothing since we last talked 3 years ago

[kosmogrl]

I want to be 19 again I would do everything right this time

[spaceshipsandpurpledrank]

[gawayne]

should I get a masters or jump into a river and swim away forever. vote now

[nocturnaltigerrevelation]

>have problem

>recognize it as part of my divine punishment

>no problem

[kosmogrl]

don’t take my defeatism too seriously I will always begin again and again no matter what

[kosmogrl]

I might sound miserable most of the time but at my core I’m a very hopeful person

[1966loveminuszeronolimit]

how to keep going for beginners

[ceruleanheaven]

i just wanna do nothinggggg 😭😭😭😭😭 which is like what im already doing but i wanna do it in a way that doesnt actively ruin my life 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[kosmogrl]

am I unforgivable or is it just thursday

[cicada-swarm]

having OCD is so funny because I can promise you that any given point I am having a complex and heated inner dialogue with myself, and I am losing.

[phantomsofyourformerself]

girl who finally is going back to reading by finishing one book: now i'm going to read all the books in the world.

[orcposts]

do not go gentle into that good night

[orcposts]

be a bit of a bitch about it

[transbian-uprising]

can't in good conscience leave this out

[omtai]

She literally does not give a damn what that old fool is yelling about

[unaloid]

the lion does not concern herself with papa

[oftlunarialmoon]

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

you'll feel like a total dipshit train wreck and no matter what some girl is gonna see you and think "role model". you can't kill yourself you have to go be clocky in the gas station so a 14 year old can have the trajectory of her life altered forever

[duchessvongooseberg]

as annoying as it is to work fast food, at my previous job one time a kid recognized the theta delta pin on my hat and was so fucking excited because i was the first other therian they had ever encountered offline.

"hey....are you a therian?" "yeah!" "what kind of animal?" "eh, some kinda dog" "😲😀 im like a wolf coyote hybrid" "that's fuckin awesome"

to be weird is to cast lifelines all around you

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

tags from @k1ntsug1-r0b0t-g1rl

what really drives me nuts is that like. this happens an average of x times per year as a visibly weird person, but we only get made aware of it a small fraction of the time. you can't kill yourself you have to be clocky in the gas station.

[analogdelight]

Being clocky when i was working as a barista was one of my big joys. Being clocky when i was teaching high schoolers how to play the marimba was my reason for being for half a decade. It sucks how scared I am to leave the house I live in now. But I still need to try and be clocky at the grocery store. I wish i had a job to be clocky at. Being visibly me is one of the most radical acts I'm capable of, and I hope that one day we live in a world where it isn't radical at all.

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

that's exactly what I was feeling when I wrote this. we all find ways to defy our fear, love is an excellent motivator.

[fajitajane]

I love going out being clocky. I love seeing a young queer as a cashier. Usually I'm wearing a mask so I imagine folks can't quitr tell until I speak. I almost always complimented on my hair by these folks too. I love being able to thank them and give them a compliment in return.

[thethirdstrongestsylvi]

around a month ago i saw an older trans woman who was probably like 60+ with a cis woman who seemed to be her supportive wife who took her clothes shopping as customers in my store and she seemed so happy to see me there and it melted my heart so much. if you are trans your existence is so important for someone even if it doesnt feel like it. i hope shes doing alright

was also having a terrible day a bit over a week ago but a super pretty trans woman came into the store and we talked a bit after a mutual i know what you are look and she brightened my day a lot and probably doesnt even realize it. i really hope i see her again

[thoughtfulraven]

When I worked in the big box hardware store I used to wear a big they/them pin on my vest. A pretty trans lady came up to me, incredibly nervous because she had been looking for someone to help her but was scared to ask. I helped her find what she needed and she got teary and stuttered something along the lines of "I'm so glad to see someone openly queer, it made me feel safe" and wasn't sure how to close the interaction so I went "I'm a hugger, c'mere." One of the best hugs I've had in my life. I never saw her again but it was so good to see and be seen.