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You will find the redemption you seek,
and the happiness that comes with it.
[2/2] Part 1 from March 23rd:
What makes ep9 work so well for me is that Caine earns his own redemption by himself instead of having the humans bring back a "fixed" or "rebooted" version of him... which would've been incredibly tragic from a Ship of Theseus perspective
Indeed, it always has.
She isn’t her step mom, she’s the mom that stepped up!
Congratulations on your new loving, extremely loud mom
And maybe the secret to witchcraft is having a sapphic relationship 🔮🏳️🌈✨
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This is the chapter where the stuff you horny bastards love comes in 🫰. So, since I know there are people out there saying, “Plot? What plot? I’m here for the porn”
I’m going to highlight the part where the action starts in red UwU You probably don’t need that much backstory to get it anyway.
Este es el capítulo donde viene lo que se les gusta maldita gente horny 🫰. Asi que como se que hay gente que dice: ¿Trama? ¿Cuál trama? Yo vine por el porno
Voy a remarcar en rojo la parte en dónde empieza la acción UwU, igual no necesitan tanto contexto de la historia para entenderle.
Link AO3 Chapter: https://archiveofourown.org/works/79761741/chapters/227414586
English is not my first language, so I used a translator.
Tags for This chapter:
Tobias Erin "Toby" Rogers | Ticci Toby/Reader, Oral Sex, Puppyboy Tobias Erin "Toby" Rogers, Hair-pulling, Cunnilingus, Rough Kissing, Masturbation, Vaginal Fingering, Frottage, Orgasm, Consensual Non-Consent, Dubious Consent.
Not Beta Read || I'm bad tagging
- Oh no, you're on your own in that.
You give Eli a tired look as you open the chimney pot, shining your phone's light inside. The place is creepy. You crouch down to get a better look; it's full of dust, dirt, and who knows what else.
- If we need to escape at any point, this is the best way.- you insist, crawling forward to see the vast darkness. When you were younger, you used to go inside to play, always coming out covered in dirt. Now you understand why your aunt didn't like it.
It occurred to you that if the faceless man plans to keep sending these proxies to kill them, they might as well have a better plan than last night's. Even a safe escape route. And what could be better than the existing routes through the old mansion? The only problem is that they haven't been used in years ; you're sure it must be infested with pests like cockroaches, mice, and other vermin.
You crawl out to see your friend who is still looking at you with disgust.
- Yes… but I'm not going in there. You know I'm terrified of rats. Besides, I have to go to work. As much as I'd like to stay with you and your psychotic "friends," I have to earn a living.
You had already spoken to your aunt about cleaning that place, so you have what you need to do it, but for the first time it seems urgent to do the cleaning.
- Okay. But this is going to take me hours. - you explain, drawing out the word "time".
- Nice try.- she mocks, reaching for her bag on one of the armchairs.- Good luck with the asylum.
You look at her, biting your lip. You don't like her calling them that, but you can't deny that you got yourself into this situation.
- Don't look at me like that. Listen, I'm not going to leave you, okay? But really, I have to go to work and get in there…
As if to make his point, he stares into the endless darkness of the tunnel.
- Fine. - You roll your eyes, defeated. - Do you remember where I left my stroller? The one I take with the kids?
- I think he stayed at the Morrigan's house.- he replies with some discomfort.
True. You'll have to find another way to carry everything you need.
- Whatever. Really, anything, call me, okay?
You can't help but groan as you stand up. You understand their fear, but it doesn't seem right to express it that way.
- I don't think they'll do anything . Besides, Mask- I mean, Tim seemed really bad , you know? I think they all really want to get out of this.
Eli crosses his arms, saying nothing, but his disapproving and worried look says it all.
- And that's why you wouldn't survive in a horror movie.- he jokes, playfully pushing you by the shoulder.
You just smile, almost guilty for worrying her. Almost .
You sigh, your gaze distant. The boys are upstairs; you gave them one of the many rooms in the house. You feel uneasy, perhaps trusting Tobias a little more, but even so, that's uncertain.
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You hum an old rock song you remember listening to as a teenager. The song plays in your Bluetooth headphones as you arrange all your "vermin extermination" supplies in an old wheelbarrow that has definitely seen better days. Now all that's left is to take them to the old shed several meters from the house; that's the exit from the passageway.
The only problem will be getting them down through the trapdoor.
- Dear Diary … Life is trying me … - you sing to yourself, probably off-key, looking at your phone screen to pause the song.
Someone touches your shoulder, making you jump.
- I like that song.
- Shit!
You scream, dropping your phone in the process. Behind you, Toby looks at you with a guilty smile as you put a hand to your chest. You take off your earbuds and put them back in their case.
- God, Toby. You almost scared me to death. What are you doing here?
You ask questions while holding up your phone and putting your headphones in your jacket pockets.
- I was going to ask the same thing.- the boy said, hiding his hands in the pockets of his sweatshirt.- You're tempted to ask when he last washed it.- Eli said you were going to do something about the passageway.
You raise your eyebrows, somewhat surprised. Clearly, Eli doesn't trust any of them. So why send him with you? A faint hope that the girl might trust Toby, even just a little, makes you smile.
- I'm going to try to clean up the passageways. After last night, I just hope your boss doesn't send any more of your colleagues after me. I swear my body can't take any more beatings.
You bite your tongue, noticing the boy's discomfort; perhaps it was too soon for that joke. Brian had dug his knee into your back with all his weight, and you also have new scrapes on your knees. Looking in the mirror that morning, you look like you're in an abusive relationship. You did your best to put on clothes that cover each wound and bandages so they wouldn't feel guilty if they saw you.
- I guess it's a plan! Escape ! 007 ! *tic* ... Shit.
You couldn't help but laugh this time.
- Sorry.- you apologize so as not to make him feel bad; you don't want him to think you're making fun of him.- It's just that this is the second or third time your Tourette's has made you mention a movie. It's kind of funny, and cute too.
You start walking, pushing the old wheelbarrow. Toby follows you without saying anything, wondering if you really hear yourself when you talk sometimes.
You say nothing about their almost silent company until you reach the shed, now nothing more than an old wooden shack. You ask the boy for help opening the door, which is stuck on the pile of dirt and rocks on the floor. The place is littered with old, rusty tools, covered in layers of dust and dirt, except for one spot where you can make out the outline of an entrance in the floor.
When you open the trapdoor, the smell of dust and age hits you, along with a hint of droppings, probably from mice or rats. At least it doesn't smell like death. You try to carry your things down, but when you see that's not possible, you decide to go down first and then ask the boy to throw them down for you.
As you go down, a scream of terror comes out of you; the stairs leading to the passageway are rusty and poorly placed, your foot slips on one of the steps.
- Are you o-okay?- the boy asks, trying to see you. The only light in the area is a bicycle flashlight you attached to your clothes so you wouldn't have to carry it.
- Yes. I just slipped. - you reply with a nervous laugh as you finish climbing down. - Can you-?
You don't finish asking because you hear the boy yell for you to move. You don't think twice; you finish climbing down and step aside as the bags of traps and other gear fall to the ground in front of you. When you look up, you see the boy coming down the metal stairs, skipping the last few steps to the ground as if it were nothing. Just watching him made your knees ache.
- Are you going to come with me?
- I don't think you can do it alone * tic *.
You're about to counter-argue when something comes to mind.
- I thought you didn't like enclosed spaces.
Toby grunts, his neck and shoulder cracking, a small, high-pitched sound coming from his mouth, but he doesn't say anything, he just goes for the bags, lifting both of them as if nothing happened with his arms and carrying one of those small folding ladders you had in one of his hands.
- You're going to have to light up the place! L-Light ! Light ! *tick*
In response, you take off the flashlight and attach it to her sweatshirt straps so she can wear it.
- Thank you.- you murmur, really grateful, finishing tying up the lantern.
You take out your phone to use as a second flashlight, better illuminating the area. It's less scary that way.
This place reminds you of a horror movie called "As Above, So Below" that Eli made you watch. The walls, which you think are rock, are perfectly carved to form the tunnel. Along the way, you see spiders, and at one point you feel something walk on your feet. You do your best not to scream, telling yourself they're just insects and animals, nothing to be afraid of.
The boy passes you the rat traps to set, as they walk along in comfortable silence, or as silent as he can be. It's actually quite comforting; the random sounds and the clicking of his bones are like background noise, reminding you he's there.
You don't consider yourself a super sociable person, but living alone with Eli in this mansion can be a bit desolate at times.
- Is everything alright?- you ask, glancing sideways at the boy as you finish setting another trap.
- Yeah.
He answers you without taking his eyes off you. He's surprised by how calm you are. He's a bundle of nerves (even if it's just because he's anxious about being in such an enclosed space) and feels he should fill the silence between you, but nothing comes to mind, and you're still acting so naturally, as if nothing happened last night.
- How are the others? - you ask, illuminating the walls.
- Tim and Brian? Well, I guess… they preferred not to leave the room…
Toby had planned to stay with the boys, but he could see Brian's annoyed face because he kept talking to "lighten the mood," but he didn't see any sign that Brian wanted to leave. Tim seemed—well, he supposes—not to get his hopes up and said he didn't care that much, but he was aware that the boy hadn't chosen this kind of life, not like he had.
- They should go out too. At least to eat.
You casually continue with the task of setting traps.
- Okay. Give me that bag, I need to install some lights.
The boy hands you the bag while taking out those battery-powered flashlights, which are supposed to be motion-activated. You put new batteries in each of the flashlights and continue talking:
- Are you...? Are there more like you? I mean, I know there are, but...
You leave your words hanging in the air, hoping Toby understands what you mean.
- Quite a few, I don't know them all. Some only through missions.
You sigh. You were hoping he'd say there weren't many of them, so at least you could come up with a plan or something. It's not like your first plan exactly worked, but…
- Not all of them are that bad , like Jack for example.
- Is he your friend?.- you asks, curious about the way he said his name.
- Yes! He's not very talkative, but we spend quite a bit of time together. He doesn't work for The Operator because he wants to, but he has to eat! Food ! Meat ! Blood ! So he really does it to survive.
- From the way you're saying it, I suppose it's not human, right?
- Yes, well, it was, but not anymore.
You hum along in understanding. You've seen cases like this with your aunt. Creatures who can't go against their nature. There are some who have a certain understanding, so they reach agreements like: Hey, don't kill any more innocent people in the woods; instead, we know a couple of rapists, abusers, and criminals who might be just as delicious. When you were younger, you used to think that was awful, but as you get older, you find it easier to see the shades of gray in people rather than just labeling them good and bad. Besides…
- I suppose she's a bit like a child I take care of.
Toby looks at you curiously, asking what kind of girl you're babysitting, as he helps you put up the ladder so you can install a lamp. Hammering the nail in is easier than you thought; the stone gives way under the tap of the hammer.
- It's... well, I'm not sure what it is. But it eats human flesh. We tried feeding it animal meat, but it seemed malnourished. In the end, it lives in an "orphanage" for children like itself...
- Where do they get their meat?- The question makes you give a lopsided smile as you come down the stairs.
- Do you remember that I mentioned some hunters and that they also knew other super-creative people ?
The boy nods. He doesn't see you as capable of killing someone. Although, of course, you did it to him, but he could justify it because of what you said about the possession with the ghost. Somehow, that excites him; he can't explain why , but he likes the idea.
- Sometimes they investigate people who are involved in shady things, and well, that's where the food comes from.
You hear a snort followed by hysterical laughter that makes you turn to look at him. You don't find it funny; it's the kind of "morally gray" thing that even Eli finds frightening. But you can't help smiling. For a moment, he looks so carefree.
- J- Just. I-I- I suppose you're ju- just- just as crazy as we- us! Ha ha ha! T- That explains ma- many things.
- Yeah, well, I talk to ghosts and I have a magic phone. It shouldn't be a surprise.- You try to sound offended, because you should be offended; no one should be happy that people don't think they're a good person.- Although that girl traumatized Eli. She tried to eat her, and I don't think she's forgiven us for that yet.
- I sometimes tell Jack he can eat me. I don't feel any pain, and he'd come back to life. It's a win-win. But he doesn't seem to like the idea.- he remarks casually, even proudly.
You're worried about their lack of self-preservation, but taking their point of view into account…
They get along well, don't they? He probably considers you his friend. I doubt he wants to eat you alive.
Toby hums, mulling over the idea. Jack is one of the few he knows who doesn't enjoy what he has to do; the boy does it more for survival than pleasure. And he supposes they can be considered friends by the standards of their lifestyle. Another thought strikes him: he can't always stick to a single topic of conversation.
- Besides hearing ghosts, can you see them?
- Huh? Yes.- you reply, a little distracted from trying to put up a light without it falling over.
- Cool . We couldn't see them at first.
- Are there ghosts too?- The shock in your voice is obvious.
- Y- Yes. Well, there are Sa- Sally and Ben. They're technically chi- children, but I think they're o- older than m- me.
- How can you see them?
That genuinely impresses you. Not many people have the ability or gift to see them, although there are some who have been around for so long that they learn to reveal themselves to the living, and of course, those who can move things or are more physical.
- N- I- I don't know. Did I just happen? I- I guess working for an entity has its advantages. * Tick *
The boy laughs, as if he'd actually said something funny, so much so that it starts to get a little exasperating. You have no idea what he finds so funny. But you decide to do what you do with kids: just ignore him until they get tired of it.
- Good. Let's continue, Little Wolf.
You stop dead in your tracks.
Toby's laughter stopped, but you could feel his smile.
- Y- You call me- you called me that the other day.
- Oh God.
You can feel the blood rushing to your face, which you cover with your hands in embarrassment. This bad habit is so ingrained that you've even given silly nicknames to the supermarket cashiers; the times you've had to flee in shame are numerous.
- Gods, forget I said that! - You turn away, trying not to see his face, nervous. You can feel his silly smile, though it doesn't seem so much mocking, just amused.
- Okay, okay. I- I'm sorry. It's just the first time I haven't seen you so calm. Th- That made you nervous .
- Just...- You want to scream for him to forget it, but you turn around, taking the small ladder with you.- Let's keep going, okay?
You can feel his mocking smile behind you, but you choose to ignore it.
As you expected, the battery-operated lamps ran out; you had told your aunt that there weren't enough for the long hallway.
- By the way.- Toby begins, as you try to walk, using only the flashlight for light.- H-How exactly do you plan to help us?
- Huh?
- I mean. I understand about the magic barrier, but what does your aunt have to do with it?
You think about it a little before you speak.
- Let's say she may have the ability to take them out of that entity's control.
Before you could ask any more questions, you found the stone step that leads to the narrow tunnel, the one that opens onto the campfire passage. You feel that the passage is terribly dark, even more so than where you are; the gloom of this place seems to consume any light. The light from your phone isn't enough to illuminate the end; even when you move it to the corners, you can only glimpse the ones closest to you.
You cough, feeling the dust and dirt accumulated in the place, so you tell Toby that they should put on the construction masks that come in the bag; that helps them breathe without dying in the attempt while they crawl.
- Be careful. I don't think I should set traps here because of the space.
You think about it for a bit. Maybe you should use a bucket of water or something to clean the area a little. You ask the boy to wipe the bottom of the now-empty bag with a cloth; at least you can remove the cobwebs.
You enter the space crawling on all fours. You just hope you don't run into a mouse or rat; it's not that you're afraid of those animals per se, what scares you is that they might get frightened and bite you. You've seen what rabies looks like, and it's not pretty.
You hear Toby come in behind you, you ask him to be patient while you use the flashlight to see the cobwebs before you run into them to remove them.
You continue with your task slowly when you hear heavy breathing behind you.
- Are you okay?- you ask, turning slightly to look at him.
When you don't get a response, you turn around as fast as you can. You shine your phone's light on the boy. He's still crouched on all fours, so you can see his back heaving with his breathing; his knuckles against the ground look white even though they're covered in grime like yours.
- Hey, okay, okay.
You speak to the boy, trying to make yourself comfortable in the cramped space, reaching out to hold his shoulders. But his trembling makes you constantly pull your hands away, even causing you to bump your head on the ceiling.
You can hear his breathing becoming more unsteady.
You push him, forcing him to sit in the small space. You can feel him trembling. You won't be able to move him to help him out of here, even if you try; they must be closer to the fireplace entrance than the hallway. No, it's best to let him pass.
You mentally scold yourself for letting him come with you, but you had simply forgotten him on the way; he hadn't shown any signs of a panic attack or anything when you walked down the hall, but it may be because this is a narrower place.
- You need to breathe.- you say, trying to shine the light on his face, but not directly into his eyes.
- I can't. No! Hmph!
You panic as you watch him struggle to remove the mask, his fingers constantly failing, scratching his skin hard without realizing it. The boy gasps as if he's crying, feeling like the mask is suffocating him. You mutter a curse, trying to help him take it off. You can feel him sweating; his hair had gotten caught in the safety pin when he put it on.
- Done!- you exclaim triumphantly. You may have pulled out some of her hair, but that doesn't matter now.- I need you to breathe.
You tell him once the mask fell to the floor with a hollow thud, lowering yours as if that will help you see him better. Toby continues breathing heavily, unable to relax.
- Okay, look at me. What do I smell like? - you ask, holding his face so he looks at you. You can feel saliva from his wound falling onto your hand, but you don't pay attention to it.
- W-What?- he asks, his voice choked, struggling to form the word.
- Five things.- You repeat what you've learned.- 5 things you see, 4 you touch, 3 you hear, 2 you smell and 1 you taste.
You speak quickly. Reviewing what you had learned.
- … Let's start with something easy, okay? What do I smell like?
You ask again, trying to keep his attention on you and not the enclosed space around him, since there isn't much to see and that would only make things worse. You didn't expect him to lean up to your shoulder; his spasms jolt you, but you hug him—maybe that will help.
- Sweet.- he stutters in a hoarse voice, but you can hear him breathing more calmly.
Well, at least it works. The perfume you're wearing is definitely better than any other scents that might remind him of the current situation.
- Cherry. Like Cherry Ice Cream.- you say, rubbing his back hard so he feels the pressure. - What else?
- Sweat.- he says, with a hint of distaste in his voice. It's probably both of yours.
- Okay, what are you tasting? Something…
You whisper.
- N- n- it's not fu- working.
Her voice cracks, you feel her lungs expand against your chest with each breath, trying to get air into them. You loosen your hug; maybe helping her breathe would be better. Before you can pull away, you scream. She bit you. Literally in the space between the sweater you chose and your neck. It hurts ; you can feel her bite hard, her teeth digging into your skin.
Now you feel like you're the one panicking, your heart pounding in your chest. You weren't expecting that. You feel his hand go to your sweater, pulling the fabric tightly between his fingers, pulling you too close. His other hand tightens around your back, pressing you too close to him.
To your surprise, he seems to calm down. His breathing is no longer so irregular.
- Toby?
You ask in a whisper, a soft moan of pain escaping your lips, a hand stroking his head in comfort. You hoped he would let go, that he would pull away and apologize for biting you. You know it's nothing personal, just the shock of the attack driving him to find anything to soothe himself and hold on to. His teeth released you, but he didn't let go.
A gasp of surprise escapes your lips as you feel his tongue pass over the same spot where he bit you.
- What are you doing?
You ask questions in a whisper, as if someone could hear you. You try to push him away to see him, but he only seems to grip your clothes tighter, his other hand sliding down to the small of your back. A squeal escapes your lips. He's sucking on the same spot where he bit you.
You hadn't noticed the position you were in. Your legs were spread as you squatted, fitting perfectly with his body when he hugged you, and now, with the closeness in the small space, the boy pressed you against him, lifting you high enough so that your head hit the tunnel ceiling.
Your mouth gets dry when you feel something hard against it.
- Toby. Put me down.- You whisper again, trying to sound firm, but your voice trembles. Your arms somehow become entangled around his neck.
The boy grunts softly, sending a shiver down your spine. But then he begins to lower you, only instead of leaving you as you were before, he lays you down on the concrete floor, resting his weight on top of you.
The light from your abandoned phone's flashlight barely lets you see, but the darkness seems to engulf the boy's back. Then you feel it , and you groan.
The boy seems lost in the heat of the moment. You feel the blood rush to your cheeks, and a warmth settles in your center. His obvious arousal presses against your clothed crotch. You're embarrassed by how much this excites you. You do nothing to stop him; you even encourage him, practically panting in his ear at the position you're in as he makes slight hip movements.
The boy still doesn't see you. Hiding his face to the side of your neck.
Toby doesn't feel he can. He just can't, he doesn't want to stop. He tries to position himself better between your legs, as if he could slip through the layers of clothing and simply penetrate you. Hearing you gasp, he can only mimic your sounds with his own.
You feel something slide down your cheek, his sweat dripping onto you, and maybe some saliva. The boy moans along with you, which somehow manages to heat your body even more.
His hands slide down to your waist, squeezing to push himself against you, desperate for how close he feels. His hips move more erratically, your own entrance heating up with each thrust, you feel his bulge bumping against everything , moaning each time the fabric rubs against your clit. A wave of heat washes over you both, completely oblivious to where you are.
It bites again, almost in the same spot, leaving a trail of saliva and teeth on your shoulder.
- Toby…- you say with a dry throat, your legs finding a way to entwine themselves around his hips.
Calling him by his name gets his attention. You weren't expecting it, but in this situation, you can't complain. He kisses you. It's all teeth and tongue; he doesn't wait for you to reciprocate, he devours you. You feel his saliva stain your lips and your cheek on the side where he has the wound. It's messy; you feel like he's trying to choke you with his tongue the way it forces its way down your throat.
You feel it, the way his penis twitches beneath his clothes. Toby holds your hips in place with a plaintive groan against your lips, all tension and strength in his body vanishing. As he pulls away, your cheeks are wet. He buries his face in the crook of your neck again, breathing raggedly, but not agitated, just catching his breath.
Your mind seems to awaken from the numbness of what just happened. You surprise yourself when your hand moves to stroke that greasy hair.
You don't know how long they stay there, but it must be long enough for your phone to start ringing. Toby moves in fits and starts, giving you space to answer. You manage to sit down, your first instinct is to check your lightsaber , you sigh with relief when you see it's not yours. For a moment you imagined the most awkward situation possible, maybe Lyra calling again and you saying: Oh yeah, I think I just slept with your brother.
But it's not that, it's your regular phone that was tossed aside with the flashlight still on. You awkwardly move under Toby to pick it up, and when you look at the screen you see it's Eli.
- Hello.- you reply, clearing your throat "I can still feel it in my mouth ," you think, alarmed by the unusual viscosity in your mouth.
- Hey! Listen, is everything okay? I sent you messages to see if I should stop by and buy something when I get back, and you haven't replied.
- Huh? Oh, yeah, just now. We're done, this took a while.
- Okay. - The way she answers sounds more like a question. - I'll assume you don't need anything, but call me if anything happens, okay?
You sigh, tired. But you can understand their concern.
- Yes, we're going back. We're by the chimney passage.
Your gaze catches Toby's eye, and you're grateful he's not shining his bike light in your direction, because he'd see your face turn red. You look away, finding your own shoes more interesting.
- We are?
He asks you with a certain doubt in his tone.
- Yes, um, Toby is with me.- you clarify, swallowing hard, as if he could see you.
You hear Eli say something like, "Be careful." You just nod before saying yes , forgetting she can't see you. You hang up.
- I think so.- you begin, not daring to look at him.- It's faster if we go this way. Can you... can you bear it?
- Yes, of course.- His voice sounds calm, too calm. So calm that it's actually scary; you'd already gotten used to her uneven tone of voice.
- Yes, okay. Let's go.
You turn around as best you can in that small space, crawling on all fours with the lamp pointed straight ahead. For the first time, the silence is unsettling. You hear the boy creeping behind you, and occasionally the sound of his tics; perhaps it's your imagination, because you swear they're less frequent than before.
Upon reaching the wall, you feel along the edges until you find the latch that opens it. Now, the only thing standing between you and the freedom of that space is the fireplace grate you forgot to remove.
- Jesus!- you hear someone exclaim. When you look up, you see Brian half-lying on the couch, staring at you.- What are you doing there?
The question is genuine; you can tell the confusion is in her voice.
- We were cleaning. Can you help me with this?
You ask questions while moving the grate without wanting to knock it over. Why are your knees trembling?
The blond boy nods uncertainly, walking toward the fireplace. As he approaches, you feel something, or rather, someone bump into your rear end. Your first reaction is to kick backward to get him off you, but you miss. You're sure that was his face, and you're certain it wasn't an accident because of the way he pressed himself against you.
Finally, you drag yourself out of the passageway in too much of a hurry, wiping off what little you can of the clothes you're wearing—you were going to throw them in the washing machine anyway. Then you remember your collar. You pull your sweater up as high as you can, trying to disguise it as if you're just adjusting it.
- What are you doing there?- Brian asked in amazement, helping the boy out of the hole.
- I helped him with the *tic* cheating.
- Cheating?
- Yes.- you reply quickly.- That passageway leads to the woods and an old shed. I wanted to clean it, just in case.
You answer. You bite your tongue, not wanting to give any more details; you're not in the mood for a conversation right now. You notice the man's inquisitive gaze; for a moment you fear he's noticed something, but his gaze shifts to Toby.
- Did you voluntarily go into a narrow, dark place?- she asks, emphasizing the last words, truly not believing that the boy she knows would do it knowing he could have a panic attack in those kinds of places.
Toby smiles. A lopsided smile, one that widens only because of the wound that exposes his teeth, amused, mischievous. He shrugs, as if it's no big deal.
- It wasn't so bad.
- I'm going to take a bath. Yes. Powder and all that.
You announce yourself without expecting a comment from any of them. If you walk very fast or your footsteps are heavy, you hope they don't notice. You climb the stairs with a red face, still pulling the collar of your sweater up.
Once in your room, you lean against the door, running your still-dirty hands over your face. You begin to undress until you're down to your underwear, looking at yourself in the full-length mirror.
Damn it… he must have noticed.
Looking at your reflection, it's obvious something happened . Your face is red, and you have grime stuck to it from saliva. You hadn't noticed, but he bit your lip. That red wound above the center of your lip wasn't there before. Looking at your neck, you can clearly see the line of his crooked teeth marks.
The stitches on your arm have opened a little again; they'll definitely leave a scar from all the times you've had to open them. Not to mention the bruises from the "fall" down the stairs—they're not purple anymore, they're a sickly green, but you take it as a good sign since they don't even hurt. You're tempted to look at your back, but you decide against it.
You grab some wet wipes you have lying around and clean your hands. You look at your reflection again, slipping your hand between your legs. You can feel everything as soon as your fingers touch your lips; the poor fabric is damp everywhere you touch it, and when you pull your hand out, you see the stickiness of your own arousal clinging to your fingers.
The fact that it actually happened is ingrained in your bones. And you enjoyed it.
You hear your bedroom door creak. It snaps you out of your thoughts. Your first reaction is to grab the nearest piece of clothing and cover as much of your body as possible. The sweater barely covers what's necessary.
Just as you're about to scream, you see the cause of your disaster walk through that door. Your mouth moves like a fish in water. What are you supposed to say?
Toby closes the door behind him, his eyes never leaving yours, which makes you even more nervous. You take a step back as he walks into the room.
The boy nervously runs a hand along his neck, looking down as if he were embarrassed.
- I- I- I'm sorr- sorry.- he stutters, lowering his voice as if dragging it.
He really can't think. Not about anything else . He'd constantly replayed how you tried to calm him down. He'd wanted to just dismiss the events as the weird behavior of a weird girl. But he kept replaying it over and over in his head, maybe subconsciously, or maybe because of how good you made him feel . Down there, when you asked him to smell you. Suddenly he didn't feel so trapped anymore, he felt good, like you were giving him permission. And like most of his decisions in life, he didn't think about it, he just acted on what his body told him to do. Now all he knows is that he wants to feel that good again.
He doesn't usually feel the temperature; not at least when it's too high; but he could feel the heat of your body, the heat that radiated from between your legs when he pressed himself against you, that drove him crazy.
He simply refused to stop. But when he saw you running upstairs, he panicked. He hadn't been thinking about you at that moment, only about how he felt. Now he's afraid you'll hate him.
He raises his gaze again, trying his best to focus only on your face and ignore what you're trying to hide with that dirty sweater. He's not good with words, but he apologized, that's something, right?
- Yes, ha.- you say slowly, your legs unconsciously squeezing together. You can feel it; the heat is still there, the nerves, the excitement.
- Me too…
The twitch in her shoulder worsens; you even see her ankle buckle under her weight for a moment. You take a deep breath as if you're about to say something, but what are you supposed to say? Let's pretend it never happened, and if you could leave the room, please, because you've left me all worked up and I really need to do something about that now. Oh, by the way, next time let me know that apparently having an orgasm calms you down from a panic attack, okay?
No, saying that is not an option.
- * tic * I, really, I'm sorry. I just felt good.
- Stop.- you say in a quiet voice.
That seems to catch the boy's attention, making him think he should leave. He's panicking; he swears your voice sounded really harsh.
- YY- Yes, me- me-
- No.- With a sigh, you walk towards him, holding the sweater tightly against your chest to prevent it from falling.- Stop.
Once you're close, you take hold of his hand, which had started pulling hard at his hair. He probably didn't even realize he was doing it. Toby stays still, so still he seems to be frozen, while you gently loosen his grip and lower his hand.
- I'm not...- you try to keep your voice calm and low, finding the words, swallowing your nerves. "Okay."
You gently squeeze his sweaty hand to make him feel safe. Just as you think of pulling away, he takes hold of it, keeping it clasped in his.
- I li- like it. The way you make me s- feel.
You can't help but blush.
You swallow hard, watching as his hand grips yours. He doesn't even dare to look up, as if their clasped hands are the most interesting thing about them. You smile.
- Is it okay if I hug you?- The question feels more like consent. You're not sure if he likes physical contact, and you don't want to find out the hard way.
He doesn't say anything, he doesn't even nod. He just does it. Toby holds you tightly against his chest and you let your hands slide under his back, releasing the sweater that falls to both of your feet.
It smells the same as always, but its aroma is deeper now that you have it so close with nothing else to distract you: Earth, sweat, wood and the metallic scent of blood.
This is new to him. Now pay attention, he smiles as he understands what you meant by "Cherry Ice." The scent of your perfume is similar to the drink; it's cloying, though he thinks it goes well with your sweat. He inhales deeply, resting his chin on your shoulder, relaxed.
He's barely a head bigger than you, and you can feel him bending down to hug you. You run your hand down his spine, feeling each bone; just as you think about making a joke about how he should try to improve his posture. You feel him squeeze your waist much closer, until your pelvis definitely bumps against something that isn't a weapon.
Your face turns red with surprise . So fast? you think to yourself, lifting your feet slightly to rub your body against his. You hear him grunt, the vibration of his throat against your bare shoulder sending shivers down your spine.
You force yourself to separate enough so that your faces are level.
You kiss him.
It's still messy, but much more relaxed than in the passageway. You tilt your head to the side opposite his wound; it's strange how you feel a little air slipping into his mouth as you try to insert your tongue in the same way he did, lightly brushing against the poorly healed skin.
Perhaps it's because he still feels somewhat guilty, but he tries to move as little as possible while he's kissing you. That's why he was surprised when you started pulling him along, walking backwards to your bed.
Your legs bump against the edge of the mattress. You break away from the kiss, moaning as you feel him capture your lips with his teeth, his hands gripping your waist, not wanting you to pull away. You take his face in your hands to finally push him away, without taking your eyes off him, settling your body back on the sheets.
Finally, he understands, as he watches you lie back. You thought he would take off his clothes, but he just crawls over you, going down your neck, biting and licking where he had done before, his hands wandering up your arms to your hips where he stops, pressing his fingers against the skin over your bones.
One of his tics causes his head to bump against yours. He doesn't seem to notice until the next one, and it hurts when he hits you on the parietal region of your head.
- Ouch. - you complain, laughing a little.
- S-s-sorry.- he stammers, pulling away. His guilty look sends a tingle down your spine.
- Okay. - To emphasize what you're saying, you take one of her hands, pulling it up to your chest.
Just like before, it seems to be on pause. Like a deer targeted by headlights.
He presses, first lightly, testing the waters, then confidently caresses the fabric, pressing harder again. You blush, letting out a gasp; your legs involuntarily close at the sensation.
You reach behind your own back and with experience you simply unfasten the lock, giving yourself room to remove it.
Then you see him smile, that same mischievous smile. He tugs at your bra, pulling it to the side. You can feel him, licking, sucking, biting your breasts; supporting himself with one hand and using the other to touch every inch of them. You close your eyes, moaning from all the sensations. The scars and bandages on his hand send shivers down your spine as they brush against your nipples.
You squeal when he bites, but that pain feels good. You grab his hair, pulling him closer and pushing him away when he gets too close.
His hand leaves your breast, you feel it slide down to your entrance. Slipping his hand beneath the flimsy fabric. You hear him moan as his fingers slide easily inside you.
- Is this because of me?
The enthusiasm in his voice and the way he looks at you makes you nervous. His fingers curl inside you, his palm rubbing the outside of your vagina. You didn't think you could get any more nervous, but you swear that damn smile is widening.
He likes the way it feels. You're warm and sticky, your cushioned walls contracting over his fingers.
Then he goes down, takes his sticky hand off you, now hooking his hands on your thighs to open you up.
Your hips move as soon as you start kissing. Toby moans, his sounds muffled by how close his mouth is to your pussy; he tears the fabric with one hand and you don't even think to say anything. Your hands are still gripping his scalp.
He loves how soft you are under his hands, how the skin of your thighs lets itself be kneaded beneath them. He pulls back slightly just to bite between your thighs where you have more flesh, only to return, hungry, to your entrance, thrusting his tongue in as far as it can.
Desperate.
The way you squirm and contract on his tongue, he loves it .
One of his hands slips free, just to rub his thumb against your lips as he continues sucking, too close to your clitoris, but without touching it. It drives you wild, so you move your hips, trying to get him to rub against that spot more.
Their eyes met when you decided to open them, shivering. Toby had been watching your reactions, the way your face contorted with his actions. The boy pulled away, his cheeks and chin coated in his saliva, and your fluids.
You swallow, without taking your eyes off it.
- Don't stop. Please.
You plead, tugging at his hair, even knowing he can't feel it. The boy keeps smiling, running his tongue over his wound and up to his lips, savoring the taste you left there. To say it turns you on is an understatement.
His mouth returns. It's a mess; he starts pulling away for moments, murmuring, " Please, stay in my mouth ." Between stutters and gasps, you hear and feel him sucking and licking. Finally, he seems to find your clitoris, kissing it again and again until he notices the reaction it causes and clings on, sucking, his teeth brushing against it too hard, making you cry out.
You put a hand over your mouth because of it. Remembering that no matter how big the mansion is, they are not alone.
He laughs. He takes the hand that's tangled in his hair and intertwines it with his.
The other hand he had been using on your leg now penetrates you with his fingers, moving in and out, arching against your warm walls, fascinated by how they constantly contract around his fingers. If this is how you grip them, how would you grip his penis? The thought excites him so much, but he loves being down here. He starts moving his own hips too, rubbing himself as best he can against his pants and the mattress.
The pressure in your belly intensifies, your hips thrust forward, and your legs close, squeezing the boy's head perhaps too tightly. Toby moans, feeling like you want to suck on his fingers, but he doesn't stop. He just keeps going. You gasp, squeezing his hand, still wet with your arousal, his thumb brushing against yours as your orgasm washes over you. Your mind goes blank, only to be jolted back with another gasp.
He just keeps going. Eating like a starving man, wishing your walls would close in again, that your legs would crush his face as if trying to suffocate him.
- Toby.- you speak with a dry mouth, trying to get his attention.- Tob- Tobias.
You stutter when you feel it again. Your legs move as if you're trying to push him away, even though you don't want to; they just react. Your fingers curl, your hand leaves his head to grip the sheets while you hold on tightly to the one that's holding him.
You don't know how long they'll keep going like this. But it starts to get so bad that it begins to hurt; your legs have lost their strength, and your body's only reaction is spasms between each lick. Your hand had returned to her hair, gripping it perhaps too tightly because you felt yourself pulling out some of it. Your half-open mouth drips saliva that you can't stop; your breathing is only shallow, as if your lungs have forgotten how to breathe.
At this point, you're not even sure how many orgasms you've had. You feel tired, but you also don't want it to stop completely.
- T- Toby.- you stammer pleadingly, pulling at his hair, but he doesn't feel it.
Finally, you do something that does capture their attention. You let go of their hand.
He emerges from between your legs, staring at you like a beaten puppy, his eyes wide and bewildered. His face is smeared and sticky, and you're not sure how much of it is you and how much is his saliva. He's a wet, flushed mess.
- I'm tired.- your murmur is weary between gasps. You bring your hand to her uninjured cheek, gently caressing it, removing some of the stickiness from it.
Toby nods, too slowly as if he's processing it. You watch him, his mouth moving as if he's trying to say something, he grunts in annoyance; you see him bring his hands to his chin and head, clicking his jaw, which makes you gasp, unsure what to say. Did his jaw really lock from...?
Without saying a word, he crawls over you, until his face is on your bare chest.
You sigh in relief, but as he settles in you can feel his bulge against your leg.
Hasn't he...? The question floats in your mind, surprised. You just think it wouldn't be fair. So you reach for his pants, trying to unbutton them.
At first he seems puzzled, but when their eyes meet he seems to understand. He gets up to unbutton his pants. But then you remember something important.
- Damn, wait.- you say, stopping his hands.- I don't have one. Well...
You pronounce nervously.
- I don't have any condoms.- you say, a little embarrassed and nervous.- Or the morning-after pill. But I can...
You murmur, eyeing the lump with a hint of doubt. You've never performed oral sex, but admitting it out loud at that moment embarrasses you. Your gaze returns to his face; his doubtful expression shifts to a smile. It's not like the ones you used to share, but it still makes you nervous because it seems he has an idea, and you're unsure how good that might be.
- There's no need.- he says simply. He pushes you until you're lying down on your bed.- Look at me.
The way she says it is intense. Her eyes direct your gaze to her hips.
Toby starts unbuttoning his pants, pulling them down in one swift motion along with his underwear. The thing just springs out. Veins marking a path down the shaft, swollen and red at the tip. You don't move, you just watch, swallowing hard.
He's masturbating. Right there, in front of you. His bruised, scarred hand, squeezing and pulling, seems to be taking its time. One of his hands goes to your stomach, caressing it, putting some weight on it, rubbing where you have bruises. Loud, broken moans escape his lips along with his tics, like high-pitched sounds.
There's nothing you can do but stare, your face red.
His penis dripped. Thick and creamy from his fist. Panting and moaning with that smile, watching you .
- They're going to hear us.- you say worriedly, as if you hadn't done the same thing a while ago. But that only makes it worse; maybe not on purpose, but you swear her moans are louder.
You watch him squeeze his penis, his thumb stroking the tip, spreading precum all over the head. His hips move unevenly, pushing against his clenched fist. He leans slightly over you. You feel it, the warm, sticky fluid dripping onto your belly, making you moan. The smells of the room just rush through your nostrils: sweat, his semen, your own ejaculation.
You gasp. The hand that was on you spreads his semen over your belly, up to your breasts, kneading it, as if he wanted to cover you with it while he continues to pull his penis until the last drop.
He likes the way you look. Lying there with your face red and your pussy swollen, your legs marked by his kisses and bites. He just wants to fill you with him , he wants you to feel him .
Toby lies back down on top of you when he's finished, with a grunt. He rests his head on your now sticky chest, his breathing too calm for what you've just done. As if he weren't even tired.
His hand wanders over your belly, carelessly spreading his seed across your body, just playing. He wants to leave you smelling of him, wants to fill you more, even more. You say nothing, you let him, swallowing as you feel the stickiness drying on you.
He trembles, his tics make his bones click, his mouth makes random little sounds that make you smile like an idiot. His leg seems to have involuntary spasms that make it bump against yours. But they aren't erratic, they feel… calm.
You stroke the mess in her hair, your fingers carefully untangling the knots.
- Tell me I didn't screw up. - he says after a long silence.
You exhale with understanding. You stop stroking his head to playfully squeeze his cheeks with one hand and make him look at you.
- Of course not… You were amazing, really.
You can see his expression change; he seemed uncertain, even guilty, but soon it fills with an enthusiasm that warms your heart. For a moment, you imagine a happy dog's tail following him.
- Really? - The hope and relief in her voice makes you smile.
- Yes. But we need to take a bath.
You see him frown. He hugs you tightly, pressing your body against his, turning you over until you're on top of him. You can feel his limp member bump against your legs.
- Stay.- he asks, not letting go. His eyes pleading. His fingers drum nervously at your sides in the middle of the embrace, waiting for your answer.
You sigh with a smile. Well, if there's one thing you've learned as a nanny, it's how to negotiate.
We have dust from the passageway. And you absolutely must let me wash these clothes.
You say, holding the collar of his sweatshirt, that he's clearly seen better days. You see him frown, pouting, maybe trying to think of an excuse to keep you there. You keep talking.
What if I suggest we take a bath together? Besides, I won't let you walk around naked, so you can stay here overnight.
You press your lips together, trying not to laugh at his reaction. A genuine look of happiness. You definitely won him over.
The bathroom isn't in your room; you have to walk all the way to the other end of the hall. So you practically wrap yourself in your comforter (which you definitely need to wash) and peek out into the long hallway to make sure no one's around. Especially because you're worried about running into the other guys who must be in the room next to the bathroom.
They stumble down the hall to the last door. Toby follows, clutching the end of the quilt to cover himself, his pants still tangled around his legs; they look ridiculous. You don't even knock to see if anyone's there, you just rush in and close the door as soon as they're inside.
You can't help but laugh at the situation; you're sneaking around your own house, into your own bathroom, as if a parent might walk in at any moment to ask what's going on. You're not sure if Toby understands why you're laughing, but he laughs along with you.
And... now for those who are reading the whole story, please wait a few days, or weeks, or maybe months for the next chapter... sorry :p
Y... ahora para los que estan leyendo la historia completa, esperen unos dias, o semanas o quiza meses para el próximo capítulo... lo siento :p
Yesterday I went to see the finale of Amazing Digital Circus... And it was beautiful!
No spoilers, but the ending wasn't happy or sad—it was an ending that perfectly captured what the series has been all along.
(I managed to convince a friend to watch the series so she could come to the movie with me. I'm sorry... or maybe not. We cried together.)
And now it's time to update my Pomni playlist UwU
So! I was making a cover for a playlist based on BEN Drowned
(If anyone has seen my Spotify, I really love making covers for my playlists by taking images or fanart from the internet and editing them a bit)
And while going through all my music, I came across the Amanda the Adventure fan songs and thought:
“Hey, their story is actually really similar to BEN’s.”
They were both sacrificed by a cult, trapped inside some kind of analog media (VHS tapes / a game cartridge), they act like a virus that affects reality, and canonically they’re basically just kids.
So I ended up making a cover for it (I don't know, I liked the second one better)
What you think? 👀
pov: You're a girl trying to escape from a Cult.
English:
Run, good girl, run.
You are the first sin. Pure as a lamb and filthy as a pig.
You are a contradiction. Born only to be hunted and sacrificed.
The holy water that runs between your legs and the fire of hell that lies within you.
The wolves will pray for you.
Run, witch, run.
Spanish:
Corre, buena chica, corre.
Eres el primer pecado. Pura como el cordero y sucia como el cerdo.
Eres una contradicción. Nacida solo para ser cazada y sacrificada.
El agua bendita que corre entre tus piernas y el fuego de infierno que yace en tu interior.
Los lobos rezaran por ti.
Corre, bruja, corre.
English is not my first language, so I used a translator.
Proxy
"Es el término que se da a quienes sirven a SlenderMan [...]"
Spanish:
Siempre me pareció interesante que el concepto de 'Proxy' siga casi siempre el mismo patrón: niños heridos, adolescentes aislados o perturbados, personajes que buscan un escape.
Porque el concepto de SlenderMan (El Operador) Nunca elige a los populares. Elige a los rotos. Elige a los invisibles. Aquellos que cargan con cicatrices que nadie debería tener.
Porque ser controlado (convertirte en parte de algo más grande que tú) deja de ser una pesadilla y empieza a ser una salida. Para aquellos a los que el mundo nunca les dio espacio.
Así que, hice está playlist pensando en ello:
Para aquellos que encajan en esa narrativa o crearon personajes pensando en ello, para aquellos que encuentran un refugio retorcido; que encontraron consuelo en la ficción de servir a una criatura sobrenatural… o en la idea de pertenecer a una familia hecha de parias, monstruos y asesinos.
English:
I always found it interesting that the concept of ‘Proxy’ almost always follows the same pattern: wounded children, isolated or troubled teenagers, characters looking for an escape.
Because the concept of SlenderMan (The Operator) never chooses the popular ones. He chooses the broken ones. He chooses the invisible ones. Those who carry scars that no one should have.
Because being controlled (becoming part of something bigger than yourself) stops being a nightmare and starts being a way out. For those whom the world never gave space to.
So, I made this playlist with that in mind:
For those who fit into that narrative or created characters thinking about it, for those who find a twisted refuge; who found comfort in the fiction of serving a supernatural creature... or in the idea of belonging to a family made up of outcasts, monsters, and murderers.
I just know that May would love dp as an old-people-hobby companion. ‘Course it helps to curry favor with the Parkers XD I like to imagine that they could double team knit some winter clothes for Peter’s patrols.
I need better posture when i make art - i have to do it in one go in the worst position possible and now my back/shoulders/neck are killing me
Ben is having a good time 👹
Btw original idea is from: gnilojabolkoo
Ok, so maybe I have a type
A little playlist for my husband of horror
I love you, I love you, I love you
Summary:
Colapsas pensando que estas sola en tu departamento, pero Pierrot esta allí para consolarte. Entonces recuerdas cierta compra que hiciste después de conocer al bufón...
You collapse, thinking you're alone in your apartment, but Pierrot is there to comfort you. Then you remember a certain purchase you made after meeting the jester...
Tags: Pierrot (The Freak Circus)/Reader, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Obsessive Love / Stalking, Human/Monster Romance, Smut
Chapters: 1/1
English is not my first language, so I used a translator.
The moment the door to your apartment closed behind you… you broke down.
You let out a scream, choked with a desperate groan. You furiously rubbed your hands against your face, trying in vain to hold back the tears, bringing your hands to your hair and starting to pull at it, messing up your usual hairstyle you wear to work, catching some strands in the hair tie that began to hurt.
But you don't care about me.
You threw your keys against a wall and your purse on the floor. Another angry growl escaped you before finally giving way to tears. You began to sob, smearing what little makeup you were wearing. You can imagine how pathetic you look with lipstick smeared all over your face and mascara running.
You slump down on the sofa bed, looking around with disappointment.
Today was not a good day.
You always try your best at work, to be kind and considerate, but people are just...
You've always worked in customer service; it's the kind of job anyone can do, and they don't ask for experience. You only finished elementary school; you were never good at school, and you knew going to college was impossible for someone as... dumb as you. So you've always had small customer service jobs: fast food, movie theaters, gas stations, department stores. You never expected to move up, and you always ended up quitting or getting fired due to staff turnover, until you started working at the coffee shop. Finally, you felt completely comfortable at work, and learning the barista stuff made you feel like you weren't as dumb and useless as you thought. But then there are days like today, when you have to put on a brave face even though people treat you like crap.
Maybe I deserve it. I chose this job; it's not like I can do anything else.
You think with your face wet from tears that you don't even try to dry, you just let them flow.
You look up at the small apartment, the only thing you can afford. There's a sofa bed, a giant closet that takes up a lot of space (but it came with the apartment) and barely has any clothes in it, and the kitchen that practically opens onto the living/dining/bedroom area. The bathroom is tiny; it has a bathtub with a shower that's half a step away from the toilet and sink.
Just seeing the small space you're in fills you with even more frustration. And unconsciously, you start scratching your arms because of an itch that isn't there, but that you need to feel, you need to feel the burning sensation on your skin.
I wish I were smarter. Maybe I had a better job. A better apartment. To feel like I was doing something with my life. Just something…
Your breathing becomes rapid the more force you use, closing your eyes. You deserve the burning sensation your nails leave.
Until you stop.
But just because you decided to do it, someone stops your hands. Someone broke into your apartment. Your heart races with panic, and the instinct to flee is there.
You open your eyes, startled. Your heart is still pounding, not from fear, but from nerves. You recognize the person in front of you, wearing the circus costume and white makeup.
- P- Pierrot? - you ask, trying to sniff the snot that cuts your voice. - What... what are you doing...?
Your words die before his gaze. He looks so hurt , so sad .
His hands are still holding yours, tightly, but also with that gentleness he usually has with you, as if he were afraid of hurting you.
- Don't do it.- he said in a deep, pleading voice, without taking his eyes off it.- Please, don't hurt yourself, My Lady.
You feel a tingle in your cheeks at the nickname he, for some reason, decided to give you. You should be used to it by now, but it still makes you nervous.
- No, I wasn't. - The lie dies in your mouth, so you think of a believable excuse. - I just had an itch.
You respond by pulling your hands away to rub your face and wipe away the moisture from your tears. Pierrot says nothing as your hands cleanse your face; before you can say anything, you feel him lightly press a cloth against your face.
- Who made you cry, My Lady?- he asked calmly, but you could detect a certain resentment in the question.
- No, nobody, I just... had a bad day.
He says nothing. He continues dabbing your face with his handkerchief until all your tears are dry; you can see the handkerchief stained with makeup, but he doesn't seem to mind. When he seems satisfied, he steps back, raising his arms but clenching his fingers as if he's hesitating.
- Is it okay... is it okay if I hug her?
You don't answer. You simply throw yourself down, resting your face on his chest.
The warmth of his body is comforting; you really needed some physical contact at that moment. And somehow you can't think of anyone better than Pierrot for that; you have to admit you like his presence.
You can feel his fingers tracing your hair to the messy hair tie, trying to loosen it without hurting you. You sense his frustration at not being able to, so you try to pull away to remove it yourself, but one of his arms stops you, wrapping around your waist to hold you in place.
He says nothing. And you don't mention it.
Pierrot removes his black glove with his teeth to pull out his hand; you can hear the fabric rustling as it's removed. You do your best not to peek and see.
You know he's not human; you'd have to be pretty dense not to notice. But you understand why everyone in the circus has to hide, and you assume they're not comfortable enough to show themselves without the makeup and costume. So you make an effort not to look at him. You don't want to make him uncomfortable.
You're not sure what he does, but he seems to break the hair tie with a gentle tug, letting your hair fall and relieving the pressure of having it tied up like that. You sigh softly in relief, still holding him.
The way I came into your life wasn't exactly conventional, yet you admit that my attention and appreciation are welcome. It simply makes you feel good, even if it's selfish to say so.
- Thank you Pierrot… I'm sorry if I worried you.
You murmur, your voice heavy with emotion after the crying. Though a doubt creeps into your mind, you pull away to peek over her shoulder, noticing your closet door ajar.
- What are you doing in my house?- You finally step aside to look at him, you can feel him moving his hands behind you to put on his glove.
The boy's face turns red; you see him look away for a moment before meeting your gaze with those giant yellow eyes.
- I just wanted to see you, My Lady.- he replies with a big smile; you swear you see his pupils widen.
You let out a somewhat resigned sigh. You have your suspicions about what he's doing here, but you decide not to comment on it.
- You could have waited until tomorrow.- you joke, trying to make him a little nervous.
- I'm so sorry I couldn't see you today.- he apologized solemnly, as if he had truly committed a betrayal.- But Jester kept me busy with things at the circus! I really would have loved to see you! But-
- Okay.- you interrupt with a smile.- Harlequin came to see me anyway, even though he made a mess of things at work.
You sigh, remembering that part of the trouble you had today was because of the man's presence. Not that it was exactly his fault, but rather the fault of the people who felt uncomfortable with him and a woman who made a scene over nothing. Your boss, despite his infinite patience, ended up scolding you for bringing the circus performers in during work hours, not letting you explain that you weren't the one who invited them.
Besides a couple of customers who said, "I want to speak to your manager," there was a toddler who made a mess and the mother didn't even bother to apologize or help clean up, a man yelling because his order wasn't on time, and…
It seems like the worst customers all came together on the same day. Just thinking about it leaves you exhausted, but somehow, less frustrated with Pierrot around.
When you look up, you have to bite your lip to keep from laughing at the clown's expression. You suspect it was because of the mention of Harlequin. He really looks like he wants to punch him.
- I can make me stop going if you want.- she says, without changing that expression, her voice laced with insistence.
You roll your eyes in amusement.
- No. It's fine, really, it was just... one of those bad days, seriously.
Pierrot continues to frown, huffing at your response about his companion's presence around you, but seems to decide not to insist.
You pull away from his arms with a smile. You can feel how, even though he's not squeezing you, his arms are still around you, wanting to keep you there. But you have to keep "being an adult."
You leave their embrace, mentally preparing yourself to continue with your daily routine, albeit with a visitor for now.
- I'm going to cook something for dinner. Do you want anything? - you ask, sitting on the edge of the bed to go to your small kitchen, but your guest's arms interrupt you.
As always, you feel you could easily slip out of his grip, but you choose not to, glancing behind you. He looks... annoyed?
- You should go take a bath, My Lady.
- Huh? Sure, in a little while-
Pierrot interrupts you, staring intently at you with his eyes, shaking his head forcefully.
I can cook for you!
- There's no need to-
I want to cook for you. Please.
You swallow hard. Because you probably shouldn't find it adorable that a man nearly two meters tall with yellow eyes is so eager to cook for you. You can feel his long fingers, which feel a bit like claws, twitching around you.
- Yes ? You can take a bath while you wait.- she insists, almost without blinking, tilting her head slightly to one side.
- Well, yes, but don't you want me to help you find things?
You ask questions trying to get your brain working normally. He shakes his head again, forgetting for a moment that Jester isn't around to talk.
- Fine.- you finish, with a slight smile.- What does it matter if I accept their help once in a while?
Only then does he let you go from his arms.
You can feel his gaze on you as you go to your closet to get your clothes and pajamas; he follows you with his eyes until you disappear into the small bathroom.
While you're taking a quick shower so you don't leave him alone for too long, you could swear you feel like you're being watched, but the only door is completely closed, so there's no way to see. You think you're being paranoid, so just as you're about to finish, you decide to stay under the hot water for a while to relax.
As you step outside, you see the circus performer in your tiny kitchen. It's funny. He's so tall, and the kitchen was built for an average-sized person, so he has to move around carefully, ducking his head and bending his back.
- My Lady!- he exclaims joyfully, turning around to see you in your pajamas.
You feel a little embarrassed. You're pretty aware he likes you, you know he has this idealized, perfect image of you, and you kind of want him to keep seeing you that way. So showing up in a ridiculous plush teddy bear onesie might not be the image every guy has of someone he likes, but it's not like you have a sexy or cute onesie to wear.
Pierrot doesn't comment on your clothes, but you can see him blush when he sees you.
- I made something light, you shouldn't eat heavy meals at night.- she says, placing a plate of what looks like hot oatmeal with fruit on the table.
Your heart softens as you walk to the table.
- You're so nice to me.- you murmur once you're seated, still looking at the boy.- Don't you want some dinner too? I mean, since you made it...
- Oh, I'm fine. I want to finish your food first.
She tells you this while still moving around the kitchen. You're not going to ask how she knows you prepare your food for the next day, saving a little money, and that you eat lunch at work.
You smile. Their presence and their effort to make you feel good send a warm feeling through your chest, even with how emotional you are today; you feel like crying because of how loved you feel.
- Thank you. For everything… I promise to make it up to you. Why don't you come by tomorrow for a milkshake? My treat!
- I would love that, dear .
You can't see him because his back is to you. But he has a smile that would be chilling to anyone. With his red cheeks and dilated pupils.
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Pierrot did indeed stop by for his promised milkshake in the afternoon, and he decided to wait out the rest of your shift to walk you home. His company is always pleasant, even if they don't talk much; it was a quiet and peaceful ride.
You had invited him in, but he said he had to get back to the circus, so you didn't insist, because, well, you had other plans.
Upon entering your apartment, you walk in the dark, leaving your things on the dining room table. When you reach the sofa bed, you unfold it calmly… even so.
You walk out onto the small balcony, closing the curtains, and go to your closet, searching for… well, honestly, you might be a little crazy if you think Pierrot managed to sneak in without you noticing. So you just sigh with relief, closing the closet doors.
Since you were stressed the day before, you told yourself you needed some time for yourself . Also, to finally try out your new purchase.
As you opened the nightstand drawer, you bit your lip. Had you really bought this after meeting Pierrot? Yes. Maybe you weren't sure if you reciprocated the circus performer's feelings, but you knew you liked him , which is why you bought this: a dildo. But not just any dildo. You'd seen them before with monster and mythological creature themes, but none had ever caught your eye until now.
The first time you took it out of the box, all you could think was that it was way too big . How was that thing supposed to fit? It was such an impulse buy that you didn't even check the measurements. So you went to porn sites and were surprised to find that it actually did fit .
You swallowed hard as you pulled the fake penis out of the box, your face turning red. For a moment, you just thought about putting it away and slamming the drawer shut to forget you even had it. But then you remembered why you bought it in the first place.
Even with your face still red, you take out the vibrator, making sure it has a battery.
You left the toys on the bed while you undressed, leaving yourself in just your underwear. You looked at your phone, wondering whether to search for a video, an audio recording, or something to read that would help you get turned on. In the end, you decided on an audio recording since you'd need both hands.
You pretend you weren't looking for a specific one. One that reminds you of a certain circus performer's voice.
As soon as the audio started playing in your Bluetooth headphones, you turned on the vibrator, staring at the ceiling. The heat was immediate; you'd been thinking about doing this the whole way here. The vibrations made you close your eyes; you tried not to close your legs, but it was nearly impossible from that position.
The man in the audio starts spouting lines worthy of a porn film that only serve to turn you on: Good girl. You're a little slut, aren't you? So wet and perfect.
You moan as you turn off the vibrator; as you expected, you're soaked. So much so that you now regret not putting a towel underneath—you've already stained the sheet. You reach for the monstrous, phosphorescent dildo; its texture is clearly not meant to mimic human skin, and that's exactly what you wanted.
You try to try, but you barely get the tip in before you feel like you're stretching too much.
You grunt in annoyance, shifting position. You lift the dildo onto the bed, using gravity to help you lower yourself. A gasp, a mixture of pain and excitement, escapes your lips. Looking down, barely halfway down, you tell yourself you can do it, forcing your hips to fuck the rest of the dildo.
Your hips are riding the toy. You can't hear the wet sounds of your pussy sucking on the dildo through the headphones, but you can imagine it.
You open your legs as wide as you can from that position, pushing the last bit of the dildo in; your pelvis almost touches the mattress. Small tears well up in your eyes; you feel so full, so stretched out. You pick up the vibrator again.
If you thought you were turned on. Gods, this just makes you moan like crazy.
You move your hips in a clumsy way, fucking the toy, keeping the vibrations at the midpoint. Your legs try to close, sweat trickles down your forehead, and you feel something get caught in the fabric of your bra. You throw your headphones aside when you feel the knot in your stomach spread through every limb.
- Pierrot ! Yes! Please, more, more, more .
Pleas between moans. Imagining if it felt like this. It would probably be warmer, wetter. You can imagine him speaking in that deep voice, but also moaning or groaning. You can imagine it…
- My lady.
You hear it in your ear. Large hands are holding your hips too tightly, pressing your buttocks against something.
Panic and shame wash over you. Fear, too. You try to turn around in terror to see the intruder, even though you know who it is.
- W-What? How?- The anxiety in your voice is evident, but perhaps he is deliberately ignoring it.
- Were you really thinking about me ?- he asks in that obsessive tone, his fingers digging into your skin. You can feel his intense gaze.
- Pierrot, I-
- I love you too.- he says from behind, his hands traveling to your breasts, where with a single pull he tears apart your underwear.
You feel him move his hips, a very obvious erection pressing against your rear. He moves you, moves you in such a way that the dildo slides in with slow movements; the vibrator had fallen onto the bed when you dropped it in fright. One of his hands leaves your breast to pick it up.
You don't quite understand how. Your mind is a cloud of excitement, panic, and shame.
But Pierrot pulled the dildo out of you, leaving you empty until you felt something much hotter and bigger parting your lips, forcing its way in too slowly and torturously.
- Pierrot! - you shout, with small tears welling up in your eyes.
It's big, much bigger than the toy. You can't even blink, it's like being ripped open, but before you can complain about the size, the man guides the vibrator to your clitoris. Your arms lose what little strength they had, and you let your chest sag onto the mattress, your legs can barely hold you up, and this is the only position that doesn't make you feel like you're being killed. It was much easier when you were riding the dildo, this is...
At first his thrusts are slow, but it seems that as soon as he found the button that increases the speed of the vibrator he decided to also accelerate his thrusts.
You're a sweaty, panting mess. Your orgasm hits you like a scorching wave, but you don't have time to recover because he keeps going. He fucks you so deep you feel like you might throw up. His movements are erratic as he whispers words of love and obsession behind you.
You try to turn away to tell him it's too much, saliva dripping onto the sheets with your tears.
You think you've had another orgasm, but you can't be sure. The tingling continues, again and again, as if it will never end. You can't say anything. You moan between small cries, asking him to stop and to continue, begging for more, saying it's already too much.
The jingling of the bells on his hat seems to accompany your own gasps.
Pierrot looms over you, his weight and size covering you like a heavy cloak, while his thrusts become short, but deep.
- I knew it, My Lady. I knew you loved me.- he says in his husky voice, forcing you to kiss him by taking your cheek and turning your face. His eyes are open and needy, those heart-shaped eyes, and that smile is both chilling and tender.
Your cry of pleasure is muffled by his tongue as it explores your mouth and plunges down your throat. The man pulls away, still smiling; you feel it, the way he contracts inside you. Only then do you realize something:
- Pi- Pierrot, you're not here! Ugh! Co- condom.
You can't formulate your complaint properly; the constant vibration in your clitoris makes you tremble.
Pierrot moans. But not as a complaint, but with genuine pleasure.
- My Lady, will you have my child? I want to fill you with me. You are mine, mine, mine .
A mixture of terror and excitement courses through you. He thrusts so deeply inside you. He drops the vibrator to take hold of you with his long hands, digging what feel like claws into your waist and hips. You squeal; you thought you wouldn't feel anything, but it's warm, very warm, and perhaps too warm because you feel some of his semen overflowing from your entrance, trickling down your thighs.
Without leaving you, with his flaccid member still inside you, Pierrot lies down on top of you.
You breathe heavily, quickly running your hand over your wet face to remove any moisture, opening your eyes in surprise as you feel something warm and viscous licking your cheek.
Pierrot looks at you the way he always does. With a perpetual smile.
I knew you were meant for me. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you .
You don't know what to say. Your voice trails off; you want to murmur something sweet, like something out of a romance movie, and at the same time shout it out because of what just happened. But every thought vanishes with a squeal from you.
You can feel it erect once again inside you.
- This is what you cause, My Lady. You don't know how much I love you .
Apenas la puerta de tu departamento se cerró tras de ti… Te rompiste.
Soltaste un grito, ahogado con un gruñido desesperado. Frotaste furiosa tus manos contra tu rostro tratando de contener las lágrimas en vano, llevando tus manos a tu cabello del que empezaste a tirar, desarreglando tu clásico peinado con el que vas al trabajo, atrapando algunos mechones en la liga que comenzaron a doler.
Pero no te importo.
Tiraste las llaves contra una pared y tu bolso contra el suelo. Otro gruñido lleno de ira salió de ti antes de dar paso finalmente al llanto. Comenzaste a sollozar, corriendo el poco maquillaje que traías. Puedes imaginar lo patética que te ves con el labial revuelto en la cara y el rimel corrido.
Te dejas caer sobre el sofá-cama mirando con decepción a tu alrededor.
Hoy no fue un buen día.
Siempre tratas de dar lo mejor de ti en el trabajo, ser amable y considerada, pero las personas simplemente son…
Siempre has trabajado al servicio al cliente, es el tipo de empleo que cualquiera puede hacer y para el que no piden experiencia; terminaste solo hasta la escuela básica, nunca se te dio bien los estudios y entrar a una universidad, sabías que era imposible para alguien tan… tonta como tu. Así que siempre has tenido pequeños empleos de servicio al cliente: Comida rápida, cines, gasolineras, tiendas departamentales. Nunca esperaste ascender a más, y siempre terminabas renunciando o siendo despedida por la rotación de personal, hasta que entraste a la cafetería. Finalmente te sentías completamente agusto en el trabajo, y aprender las cosas de barista te hicieron sentir que no eras tan tonta e inutil como creías, pero luego estan los dias como hoy, que tienes que poner tu mejor cara aunque la gente te trate como una mierda.
Quizá me lo merezco. Yo escogí este trabajo, no es como que pueda hacer algo más.
Piensas con el rostro húmedo por tus lágrimas que ni intentas secar, solo dejas que fluyan.
Alzas la vista al pequeño departamento, lo único que puedes permitir costear. Tienes el sofá cama, un closet gigante que ocupa bastante espacio (pero ya venia con el departamento) y que apenas tiene algo de ropa, y la cocina que prácticamente colinda con la sala / comedor / cuarto, y el baño es diminuto; tiene una tina con regadera que está a medio paso del inodoro y el lavamanos.
Tan solo en ver el pequeño espacio en el que te encuentras te llena de más frustración. Y de manera inconsciente comienzas a rascar tus brazos por una comezón inexistente, pero que necesitas sentir, necesitas sentir el ardor en tu piel.
Desearía ser más lista. Quizá tener un mejor trabajo. Un mejor departamento. Sentir que estás haciendo algo con tu vida. Simplemente algo…
Tu respiración se agita, mientras más fuerza utilizas, cerrando los ojos. El ardor que dejan tus uñas, te lo mereces.
Hasta que paras.
Pero no porque decidiste hacerlo, alguien detiene tus manos. Alguien se metió a tu apartamento. Tu corazón se agita en pánico, y el instinto de huir está allí.
Abres los ojos asustada. Tu corazón sigue latiendo con fuerza, pero no por miedo, más bien de nervios, reconoces a la persona frente tuyo, con el traje de circo y el maquillaje blanco.
- ¿P- Pierrot?- preguntas tratando de sorber el moquillo que te corta la voz.- ¿Qué… qué haces…?
Tus palabras mueren ante su mirada. Se ve tan dolido, tan triste.
Sus manos siguen sujetando las tuyas, con fuerza, pero también con esa delicadeza que suele tener contigo, como si temiera lastimarte.
- No lo hagas.- pronuncia con una voz suplicante y profunda, sin quitar esa mirada triste.- Por favor, no te lastimes My Lady.
Sientes un cosquilleo en tus mejillas por el apodo que por alguna razón decidió darte. Ya deberías estar acostumbrada, pero te sigue poniendo nerviosa.
- No, no estaba.- la mentira muere en tu boca, así que piensas en una excusa creible.- Solo tenía comezón.
Respondes apartando las manos para frotar tu rostro y limpiar la humedad de tus lágrimas. Pierrot no dice nada mientras ahora tus manos limpian tu cara, antes de que puedas decir algo, sientes como presiona ligeramente un pañuelo de tela contra tu rostro.
- ¿Quién te hizo llorar My Lady?- preguntó con calma, pero puedes notar cierto rencor en la pregunta.
- No, nadie, solo… tuve un mal día.
Él no dice nada. Sigue pasando su pañuelo por tu rostro hasta secar todas tus lágrimas, puedes ver el pañuelo manchado de maquillaje, pero a él no parece importarle. Cuando parece estar satisfecho, se aparta alzando los brazos pero crispando sus dedos como si dudara.
- ¿Está bien… está bien si la abrazo?
No respondes. Simplemente te lanzas dejando descansar tu rostro en su pecho.
La calidez de su cuerpo es reconfortante, realmente necesitabas algo de contacto físico en ese momento. Y de alguna manera no puedes pensar en alguien mejor que Pierrot para ello, tienes que admitir que te gusta su presencia.
Puedes sentir sus dedos recorrer tu cabello hasta la liga desordenada, tratando de soltar tu cabello sin lastimarte. Sientes su frustración al no lograrlo, por lo que intentas apartarte para quitarla por tu cuenta, pero uno de sus brazos te detiene rodeando tu cintura para mantenerte en tu lugar.
No dice nada. Y tú no lo mencionas.
Pierrot se quita el guante negro con los dientes para sacar su mano, puedes escuchar el roce de la tela al ser removida. Tu haces lo posible para no asomarte y ver.
Sabes que no es humano, tendrias que ser demasiado tonta para no notarlo. Pero entiendes porque todos en el circo deben ocultarse, y supones que no se tienen la suficiente confianza como para que se muestre sin el maquillaje y sin el traje. Así que haces un esfuerzo por no verlo. No quieres incomodar.
No estás segura de que hace, pero parece romper la liga de un ligero tirón, dejando caer tu cabello y quitando la presión que el tenerlo sujetado así te generaba. Suspiras ligeramente del alivio sin dejar de abrazarlo.
La manera en que entro a tu vida no es exactamente convencional, sin embargo, admites que su atención y aprecio son bienvenidos. Simplemente te hace sentir bien, aunque sea egoísta decirlo.
- Gracias Pierrot… Lamento si te preocupe.
Murmuras con la voz pesada después del llanto. Aunque una duda llega a tu mente, te separas para ver un poco por arriba de su espalda, viendo la puerta de tu closet entreabierta.
- ¿Qué haces en mi casa?- finalmente te apartas para verlo, puedes sentir como mueve sus manos tras de ti para ponerse el guante.
El rostro del chico se sonroja, lo ves desviar la mirada un momento antes de verte con esos ojos amarillos gigantes.
- Solo quería verte My Lady.- responde con una gran sonrisa, juras que ves sus pupilas ensancharse.
Sueltas aire algo resignada. Tienes tus sospechas de que hace exactamente aquí, pero decides no comentarlo.
- Podrías haber esperado hasta mañana.- bromeas para ponerlo un poco nervioso.
- Lamento no poder verte el día de hoy.- se disculpa de manera solemne, como si de verdad hubiese cometido una traición.- Pero Jester me mantuvo ocupado con cosas en el circo ¡De verdad me hubiese gustado ir a verte! Pero-
- Está bien.- le interrumpes con una sonrisa.- Arlequin pasó a verme de todas formas, aunque hizo un desastre en el trabajo.
Suspiras recordando que parte de los problemas que tuviste el día de hoy fue por la presencia del hombre. No es que fuese exactamente su culpa, sino, de la personas que se sintieron incómodas por su presencia y una mujer que armó un escándalo por nada. Tu jefe aún con su infinita paciencia, te terminó regañando por traer a los artistas del circo en horario laboral, no te dejo explicar que no eras tú quien los invitaba exactamente.
Además de un par de clientes del tipo: Quiero hablar con tu gerente. Un infante que hizo un desastre y la madre no se molestó ni en disculparse o ayudar a limpiar, un hombre gritando por no tener su pedido a tiempo y…
Pareciese que los peores clientes se juntaron en un solo día. Tan solo de recordar te sientes agotada, pero de alguna manera, menos frustrada con Pierrot presente.
Al alzar la vista, tienes que morderte el labio para evitar reír por la cara que el payaso tiene. Intuyes que fue por la mención de Arlequín. De verdad parece que quiere golpearlo.
- Puedo hacer que deje de ir si quieres.- te dice sin quitar esa expresión. Con cierta insistencia en su voz.
Giras los ojos divertida.
- No. Está bien, de verdad, solo… fue uno de esos malos días, en serio.
Pierrot sigue con el ceño fruncido, bufando por tu respuesta sobre la presencia de su compañero a tu alrededor, pero parece que decide no insistir.
Te separas de sus brazos con una sonrisa. Puedes sentir cómo a pesar de que no te aprieta, sus brazos siguen a tu alrededor, queriendo mantenerte allí. Pero tienes que seguir “siendo un adulto”.
Sales de su abrazo, preparándote mentalmente para seguir con tu rutina de todos los días aunque con un visitante por ahora.
- Voy a cocinar algo de cenar ¿Quieres algo?- preguntas sentandote al borde de la cama para ir a tu pequeña cocina, pero los brazos de tu invitado te interrumpen.
Como siempre, sientes que puedes zafarte fácilmente de su agarre, pero escoges no hacerlo mirando detrás tuyo. Se ve ¿Molesto?
- Deberías ir a tomar un baño My Lady.
- ¿Eh? Claro, en un rato-
Pierrot te interrumpe mirándote fijamente con sus ojos, negando con la cabeza de manera enérgica.
- ¡Puedo cocinar para ti!
- No hace falta que-
- Quiero cocinar para ti. Por favor.
Tragas saliva. Porque probablemente no deberías de encontrar adorable a un hombre de casi dos metros y ojos amarillos verte con ilusión por querer cocinar para ti. Puedes sentir sus largos dedos, que te parecen un poco como garras, crisparse alrededor tuyo.
- ¿Si? Mientras puedes tomar un baño.- insiste casi sin parpadear, inclinando su cabeza ligeramente hacia un lado.
- Yo, bueno, si, pero ¿No quieres que te ayude a encontrar las cosas?
Preguntas tratando de que tu cerebro carbure de manera normal. Él vuelve a negar con la cabeza, olvidando por un momento que Jester no está cerca como para hablar.
- Bien.- terminas diciendo con una ligera sonrisa. Qué más da aceptar su ayuda de vez en cuando.
Solo entonces te deja ir de sus brazos.
Puedes sentir su mirada sobre ti mientras vas a tu closet para sacar tu ropa y tu pijama, te sigue con los ojos hasta que desapareces en el pequeño baño.
Mientras te das una ducha rápida para no dejarlo tanto tiempo solo, puedes jurar que te sientes observada, pero la única puerta está completamente cerrada, así que no hay manera. Piensas que estás siendo paranoica, así que casi cuando estas por terminar decides quedarte un rato simplemente bajo el agua caliente para relajarte un poco.
Al salir ves al cirquero en tu pequeña cocina. Es gracioso. Él es tan alto y la cocina fue hecha para el tamaño de una persona promedio, por lo que tiene que moverse con cuidado, agachando la cabeza y curvando su espalda.
- ¡My Lady!- exclama con alegría girando para verte en pijama.
Te sientes un poco avergonzada. Eres bastante consciente de que le gustas, eres consciente de que tiene una imagen demasiado romanizada y perfecta de ti, y de alguna manera quieres que te siga viendo así. Así que mostrarte con una ridícula pijama de felpa con ositos, quizá no sea la imagen que cualquier chico tiene de la persona que le gusta, pero no es como que tengas un pijama sexy o linda para usar.
Pierrot no comenta sobre tu ropa, pero puedes verlo sonrojar cuando te ve.
- Hice algo ligero, usted no debería de comer pesado por las noches.- te dice colocando un plato de lo que parece avena caliente con frutos sobre la mesa.
Tu corazón se enternece mientras caminas a la mesa.
- Eres muy bueno conmigo.- murmuras una vez que estás sentada, sin dejar de ver al chico.- ¿No quieres cenar también? Digo, ya que tu lo preparaste…
- Oh, estoy bien. Quiero terminar su comida primero.
Te dice aún moviéndose en la cocina. No vas a preguntar cómo sabe que preparas tu comida para el día siguiente, ahorrando así un poco de dinero, y que almuerzas en el trabajo .
Sonríes. Su presencia y su esfuerzo por hacerte sentir bien hacen que una sensación cálida recorra tu pecho, incluso con lo emocional que estas hoy, tienes ganas de llorar por lo querida que te sientes.
- Gracias. Por todo… Prometo compensarte ¿Porque no pasas mañana por una malteada? ¡Yo invito!
- Eso me encantaría querida.
No puedes verlo porque está de espaldas. Pero tiene una sonrisa que sería escalofriante para cualquiera. Con sus mejillas rojas y pupilas dilatadas.
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Pierrot si que pasó por su malteada prometida en la tarde, él decidió esperar el resto de tu turno para acompañarte a casa. Su compañía siempre es agradable aún si no hablan mucho, fue un trayecto silencioso y tranquilo.
Lo habías invitado a entrar, pero dijo que tenía que volver al circo, por lo que no insististes, porque, bueno, tenías otros planes.
Al entrar a tu departamento caminas a oscuras, dejando tus cosas sobre la mesa del comedor. Al llegar al sofa-cama, lo despliegas tranquila… aun asi.
Caminas al pequeño balcón cerrando las cortinas, vas a tu closet y revisas en busca de… bueno sinceramente quizá estás un poco loca si crees que Pierrot logró meterse sin que te dieras cuenta. Así que solo suspiras tranquila cerrando las puertas del closet.
Como el día anterior estuviste estresada, te dijiste a ti misma qué necesitas un tiempo para ti. También para probar finalmente tu nueva compra.
Al abrir el cajón del buro te mordiste los labios ¿Realmente habías comprado esto después de haber conocido a Pierrot? Si. Quizá no estás segura sobre si corresponder los sentimientos del cirquero, pero sabes que te gusta, por eso compraste esto: Un dildo. Pero no cualquiera, ya antes habías visto que vendían con temáticas de monstruos y criaturas mitológicas, pero nunca te habían llamado la atención hasta ahora.
La primera vez que lo sacaste de su caja solo podías pensar que era demasiado grande ¿Como se supone que eso entre? Fue una compra impulsiva, tanto que ni siquiera leiste las medidas. Así que entraste a sitios porno, encontrándote sorprendida, que de hecho si pueden entrar.
Tragaste saliva sacando el pene falso de la caja, tu rostro poniéndose rojo. Por un momento solo pensaste en guardarlo y azotar el cajón para olvidar que lo tienes. Pero luego recuerdas porque lo compraste en primer lugar.
Aun con el rostro rojo, sacas el vibrador, asegurándote que tiene batería.
Dejaste los juegues sobre la cama, mientras te desvistes, quedando solo en ropa interior. Miras tu teléfono pensando que es mejor, si buscar un video, un audio o una lectura que te ayudará a ponerte caliente. Al final decidiste que sería un audio ya que vas a necesitar ambas manos.
Finges que no buscaste uno en específico. Uno que te recuerda la voz de cierto cirquero.
Apenas el audio comenzó a reproducirse en tus audífonos bluetooth, encendiste el vibrador mirando al techo. El calor fue inmediato, habías venido todo el camino pensando en hacer esto. Las vibraciones te hacen cerrar los ojos, tratas de no cerrar las piernas, pero te es casi imposible desde esa posición.
El hombre del audio comienza a soltar frases dignas de una película porno que no hacen más que ponerte caliente: Buena chica. Eres una pequeña putita ¿No?. Tan mojada y perfecta.
Gimes apagando el vibrador, como esperas, estás empapada. Tanto que ahora te arrepientes de no haber puesto una toalla debajo, ya manchaste la sabana. Estiras la mano para alcanzar el monstruoso dildo de colores fosforescentes, la textura claramente no trata de imitar lo humano, y eso es lo que buscabas.
Intentas intentarlo, pero apenas llegas a meter la punta y ya sientes que te estiras demasiado.
Gruñes molesta, cambiando de posición. Levantas el dildo sobre la cama, usando la gravedad para ayudarte a bajar. Un jadeo entre dolor y excitación abandona tus labios, mirando hacia abajo apenas vas por la mitad, te dices a ti misma que puedes hacerlo, forzando a tus caderas a follar lo que llevas del dildo.
Tus caderas montan el juguete. No puedes escuchar los sonidos húmedos de tu coño succionando el dildo por los audífonos, pero puedes imaginarlo.
Abres las piernas tanto como puedes desde esa posición, añadiendo lo último del dilto, tu pelvis casi roza el colchón. Pequeñas lágrimas asoman de tus ojos, te sientes tan llena, tan estirada. Vuelves a tomar el vibrador.
Si creías que estabas excitada. Dioses, esto simplemente te hace gemir como loca.
Mueves tus caderas de manera descoordinada, follando el juguete, manteniendo las vibraciones en el punto medio. Tus piernas tratan de cerrarse, el sudor escurre por tu frente y sientes algo quedarse atrapado en la tela del sostén. Tiras los audífonos a un lado cuando sientes el nudo de tu estómago extenderse por cada extremidad.
- Pierrot ¡Si! Por favor, más, más, más.
Súplicas entre gemidos. Imaginando si se sentiría así. Probablemente sería más cálido, más húmedo. Puedes imaginarlo hablando con esa voz grave, pero también gimiendo o gruñendo. Puedes imaginarlo…
- My lady.
Escuchas en tu oído. Unas grandes manos te sostienen de las caderas con demasiada fuerza, pegando tu trasero a algo.
El pánico y la vergüenza te invaden. Miedo también. Tratas de girar aterrada para ver al intruso, aún si sabes quien es.
- ¿Q- Que? ¿Como?- la ansiedad en tu voz es evidente, pero quizá él la ignora de manera deliberada.
- ¿De verdad estabas pensando en mí?- te pregunta con ese tono obsesivo, sus dedos clavándose en tu piel. Puedes sentir su mirada intensa.
- Pierrot, yo-
- También te quiero.- te dice por la espalda, sus manos viajando hasta tus pechos, donde de un solo tirón destroza la prenda interior.
Sientes como mueve sus caderas, una muy obvia erección golpea contra tu trasero. Te mueve, te mueve de tal manera que el dildo se desliza con movimientos lentos, el vibrador había caído en la cama cuando lo soltaste por el susto. Una de sus manos abandona tu pecho para tomarlo.
No entiendes bien como. Tu mente es una nube de excitación, pánico y vergüenza.
Pero Pierrot saco el dildo de tu interior, dejandote vacía hasta que sentiste algo mucho más caliente y grande separar tus labios, abriéndose paso de manera demasiado lenta y tortuosa.
- ¡Pierrot!- gritas con pequeñas lágrimas asomando tus ojos.
Es grande, mucho más grande que el juguete. No puedes ni parpadear, es como si te abrieran, pero antes de que puedas quejarte por el tamaño, el hombre lleva el vibrador hasta tu clítoris. Tus brazos pierden la poca fuerza que tenían, y dejas a tu pecho caer sobre el colchón, tus piernas apenas se pueden mantener y esta es la única posición que no te hace sentir que te están matando, era mucho más fácil cuando montabas el dildo, esto es...
Al principio sus estocadas son lentas, pero parece que tan pronto como encontró el botón que aumenta la velocidad del vibrador decidió también acelerar sus embestidas.
Eres un desastre sudoroso y jadeante. Tu orgasmo te pega como una ola abrasadora, pero no tienes tiempo de recuperarte, porque continúa. Te folla tan profundo que sientes que podrías vomitar. Sus movimientos son erráticos, mientras susurra palabras de amor y obsesión a tu espalda.
Intentas voltear para decirle que es demasiado, saliva escurriendo sobre las sábanas con tus lágrimas.
Crees haber tenido otro orgasmo, pero no puedes afirmarlo. El cosquilleo continua, una y otra, y otra vez, como si nunca fuese a desaparecer. No puedes decir nada. Gimes entre pequeños gritos, pidiendo que pare y que siga, suplicando más y que ya es demasiado.
El tintinear de los cascabeles de su sombrero parecen acompañar tus propios jadeos.
Pierrot se cierne sobre ti, su peso y tamaño cubriéndote como un manto pesado, mientras sus embestidas se vuelven cortas, pero profundas.
- Lo sabía My Lady. Sabía que me amabas.- te dice con su voz ronca. Obligando a besarlo al tomarte de la mejilla para que gires tu rostro. Sus ojos abiertos y necesitados, con esos ojos de corazón y esa sonrisa escalofriante y tierna.
Tu grito de placer es ahogado por su lengua que recorre tu boca y se interna hasta tu garganta. El hombre se separa sin dejar de sonreír, lo sientes, la manera en que se contrae en tu interior, solo entonces caes en cuenta de algo:
- Pi- Pierrot, no estas ¡Ugh! Co- condon.
No puedes formular bien tu queja, la constante vibración en tu clitoris te hace temblar.
Pierrot gime. Pero no como queja, sino de genuino placer.
- My Lady ¿Tendrías a mi cría? Quiero llenarte de mi. Eres mia, mia, mia.
Cierto terror y excitación te recorre. Él se clava tan profundamente. Soltando el vibrador para tomarte con sus largas manos clavando lo que presientes que son garras en tu cintura y caderas. Chillas, pensaste que no se sentiría nada, pero es cálido, muy cálido, y quizá demasiado porque sientes parte de su semen desbordar de tu entrada, chorreando por tus muslos.
Sin salir de ti, con su miembro flácido clavado en tu interior. Pierrot se recuesta sobre ti.
Respiras de manera agitada, pasando de manera rápida tu mano por tu rostro húmedo para quitar cualquier humedad de este, abriendo los ojos con sorpresa al sentir algo cálido y viscoso lamer tu mejilla.
Pierrot te mira de la manera en que siempre hace. Con una perpetua sonrisa.
- Sabía que eras para mi. Te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo.
No sabes qué decir. Tu voz se queda perdida, quieres murmurar algo lindo digno de una película de romance y a la vez gritarlo por lo sucedido. Pero todo pensamiento desaparece con un chillido tuyo.
Puedes sentirlo erecto una vez más dentro tuyo.
- Esto es lo que provocas My Lady. No sabes cuanto te amo.
Okay! Listen up!
I have an idea for a story, but I don't want to write it because I have four fanfics in progress, so…
Imagine that the MC from Homicipher and the MC from The Freak Circus are actually friends. So they agree to meet up to catch up because they live in different places.
The MC Homicipher tells Mr. Crawling to wait for her outside the café because the specter refuses to let her go out alone for so long. And the MC The Freak Circus asks Pierrot not to follow her this time because she’s going to see a friend (obviously, he ignores her).
So they’re both talking and catching up when they hear something outside.
(For this, I have the headcanon that people usually can’t see the ghosts from the Homichipher game outside the “other world” and can only see them when they want to be seen. But Pierrot isn’t human, so he could see Mr. Crawling and also understand his language.)
When both girls go outside, they see the guys about to start fighting. Since both MC's actually share the same name. So when Pierrot notices Mr. Crawling watching someone, he first decides to ask, and when he says the MC’s name… he gets furious.
And both MC's practically have to stop them, especially since people are giving them weird looks because they can’t see Mr. Crawling.
Just imagine the possibilities. Since, in fact, the characters from TFC have some similarities to others from Homicipher. It would be amazing—I NEED a fanfic about this.
Please, someone have mercy and write one!
Tag your favorite authors to get their ideas flowing jsjs
Platónico
Summary:
Gray decide invitar a Juvia a una cita, no sale como esperaba. - Espere ¿¡Oportunidad!? ¡No! Juvia, ella ¡Juvia no quiere salir con Gray-sama! - exclamó alterada. […] -Espera ¿No? ¿¡Por qué no!?- pregunto realmente confundido. (O en el que Juvia ama a Gray, pero de una manera platónica, como una persona a una celebridad ella realmente solo es una fan)
Gray decides to ask Juvia out on a date, but it doesn't go as planned.
- Wait, chance?! No! Juvia, she... Juvia doesn't want to go out with Gray-sama!-she exclaimed, flustered.
[...]
- Wait, no? Why not?!-he asked, genuinely confused.
(Or, in this scenario, Juvia loves Gray, but in a platonic way, like a person loves a celebrity; she's really just a fan.)
Tags: Gray Fullbuster/Juvia Lockser, Juvia is a fangirl,Gray is confused
Chapters:1/1