I lost my father yesterday, he committed suicide. I don't know how life took this turn but after all the abuse we went through, we were finally getting on good terms since he was taking his meds.
My life may look really perfect from other people's perspective but it's anything but perfect. My father left a huge debt on our head and if we don't pay it off, we might become homeless after 3 months. My siblings are young and my mom is not in a good state to work. Since my father was the only one working in your family things are much more complicated.
The day before it all happened, I was upset with him and didn't pick up his calls. I was upset because of how our situation was, the debt, my father not working anymore, etc. i remember when I got home the only thing he said to me was "you didn't pick up my calls. Are you upset with me?" And I still didn't respond to him. I thought as soon as I woke up, I'll tell him why I was upset and how much i wanted to help him solve this problem. But I never got the chance to. And I'll never be able to forgive myself for this.
I had become the breadwinner of my family and my father was really proud of me for working. He found his hope in me, that maybe I'll be able to make the situation better. And to blame my fate more, i can’t stop working. I am forced to work even in this situation because of the circumstances and I am not complaining. I know that this is my responsibility. I have got to save up for the funeral and the debts.
I guess like is difficult and I have got to deal with it.
This is a request. Any kind of help you can offer would mean the world for me and my family.
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PILE 1
Your next FWB/lover: Mentor, Child Orphan. Knight of Wands Rx. The Hierophant.
This could be someone who is older than you, someone who is in a leadership position, or someone with more experience and power. They could be your mentor, guide, manager, boss, senior colleague, senior coworker, or just someone who is experienced in your career field, or someone who has made a name for themselves in their field. This person is a solitary figure; they may be surrounded by people but when you look at them, you know they are different from the rest — they don’t depend much on other people, but other people depend on them or often seek them out. They are independent, they ooze this vibe. They may have a habit of making decisions alone and nursing their wounds alone. This person probably doesn’t seek people out for advice on their personal life. If they seek advice, it would be on work and career, and it would be from their superior or people with certain positions. This person could be an Earth sign — Capricorn, Taurus, Virgo — or have Earth influence like Saturn aspects or Saturn dominance.
For some of you, this person may not fit the ideal beauty standard, or they may not be the type of person you usually go for. But for many of you, this person looks like a player, but they are actually the opposite of it. They are attractive, but their attractiveness is misunderstood sometimes; they are seen as a player when they are not. They don’t get into romantic connections easily, I think. Pairing this with their attractiveness, it may seem as though they are not interested in being serious with anyone. That’s wrong though. They are interested in long-term commitments, but they have this need to make sure that they are choosing the right person. I don’t think they mess around (have casual sex) as often as people think they do. If they are not interested, they just don’t engage. For some of you, this person probably carries childhood wounds that make them hyper-independent and extremely self-reliant. They could be the first born, or the only child. They probably feel lonely quite often, but they don’t show it.
This person could be traditional, conservative, or old-school in romance. If they are a man, then they could be the typical provider, stoic type. Their warmth comes out more when they are comfortable with you. They give off a “teddy bear” energy, but with sensible, stoic, calm exterior. This person is quite tough. When they were young, they probably had a tendency to seek out high adrenaline activities like extreme sports. There’s something about “surviving” that is quite connected to how they lead their life, so even when everything is calm and life is good, they could have a tendency to seek out activities that give them the rush or test their strength. People may not expect this from them, because they look calm and sensible normally instead of reckless or adventurous. They could have great organisational and management skills. They give off “airport dad” vibe, regardless of their gender. They also give off the vibe of a business founder who other entrepreneurs seek out for advice. Some of them could be coaches, motivational speakers, or non-fiction writers. For a few of you, they could be religious.
In bed, they are dominant. For some of you, they have been married before, or at least, they have been in a committed relationship. So they are quite experienced in bed. They prefer to be the one who guides and controls the pace. Their dominance isn’t fiery, it’s firm, calm and stern — and sometimes warm. They test, push you to your limit, restrain you, and then they indulge. They probably have past lovers who are still hung up on them. They could also have (had) friends with benefits, as in, certain people they go to for sex if they are not in a committed relationship at that time. This person isn’t that comfortable with change (although they are strong enough to face anything life throws at them), so they go for what’s familiar when they want to relax. You probably have never been with this type of lover before, something about their sexual style feels new.
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PILE 2
Your next FWB/lover: Warrior, Athlete. The High Priestess, 7 of Wands, 8 of Wands. 10 of Swords.
This person gives off the vibe of an ENTJ or ESTP, to be honest. I know those are wildly different personality types, but your person has this… intensity about them. They are masculine regardless of their gender. This person has a lot of willpower. They may also be quite stubborn and persistent. They don’t give up easily. They are tough; challenges and obstacles don’t really deter them. For some of you, they could seek challenges just to test their strength — it’s a bit similar to the previous pile but your person is a lot more obvious and open about it. It’s their entire image; one look at them you can guess their lifestyle. They ooze the vibe of someone who goes to the gym, who does extreme sports, who does this and that. I mean, they don’t have to do extreme sports, but they could like activities that challenge their strength like martial arts. They could look very intense too; sharp eyes, sharp eyebrows, or dark hair. They are probably intimidating. Their presence is just very obvious. When they enter the room, the energy shifts.
They are not hundred percent… good? I mean, they have rough edges. They have vices, and they are not really hiding their vices either. Their good qualities are their flaws, depending on the circumstances and what they choose to do. For example, they are persistent and tough, so not many people want to mess with them. But they can also be quite dominating and imposing (i.e. their suggestion can sound like an order, and people may feel like they have to follow your person). For some of you, they may not realise the extent of influence they have on other people, and how people often feel like they can’t argue with your person. For others of you, your person knows this and they do take advantage of it lol. They know people don’t really debate them, or they know they can win an argument, so they do whatever they want and be the “ringleader”.
This person is quite competitive and shrewd; they love to win, and they know how to get ahead. They probably have some bad habits, like forcing themselves to lift heavier and heavier weight in the gym, and despite suffering physical pain, they may still want to do it. They could have a habit of refusing to see a doctor when they are ill. They could have a habit of refusing to wear thicker clothes during winter, just because. Like, they do things that frustrate or bewilder people sometimes, and no one can convince them to do what they don’t want to do. They make their vices look damn good though. They are the type of person that you may feel “I probably shouldn’t get myself involved with them”. That type. But they are quite attractive — both their energy and their physical body, especially if they are a man — so there’s always that little voice at the back of your head, “but maybe”, or “unless”, or “maybe let’s just do it once and see what happens?”.
This person may like to talk, and they may be blunt when they talk. Quite honest. They have that daredevil vibe. Annoying but attractive vibe. They can be protective, but they can also be careless — if they don’t care about you, then they don’t care about you. This person is quite perceptive though; not many people realise this part of them initially. They have a good instinct. This person has an animal instinct. They are very in touch with that part of them. They can smell bullshit real quick. They pay attention. They know. Their intuition is one of the things that adds to their invincibility. Like, not only they are physically tough, they are also sharp as hell. There’s part of them that they don’t share with other people — the deep and spiritual part of them. They are mysterious, there’s definitely more to this person than their gung-ho, assertive, go-getter demeanour. They could come from a different country, or they could travel a lot. For some of you, they could be a professional athlete, or someone who works in sports and physical fitness. For others of you, they could be in business.
In bed, this person can be quite mean. They are dominant. They love to make it psychologically and emotionally stressful. They could have kinks that are related to that. They like it when their lovers cry, whine, beg or be loud in bed. They like things to be emotionally exhausting; they like it to be thorough. They have casual sex like it’s not a big deal. They can have sex with one lover while still be in contact with another lover. I think they break hearts, to be honest. Some of their admirers may feel misled by them. I’m not sure if your person does it intentionally though, they seem very honest. This could be one of those cases where the person says “I’m not looking for anything serious” and the other person is still like “maybe they like me? maybe I’m special?” like honey, they said what they said. So when their lovers get upset, your person may be bewildered by it, like “I’ve already told you”. Their lovers get jealous often.
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PILE 3
Your next FWB/lover: Scribe Rx, Victim. 6 of Wands, Page of Cups, 5 of Cups. Justice.
They could have strong Leo or Gemini in their chart, with a hint of Pisces. This could be someone who is in the spotlight — either they are popular, or they like attention. They like taking the center stage, or they are used to taking center stage. They could be the leader in their friends group. For some of you, they may be happy-go-lucky, like golden retriever kind of energy, they could be the joker in the group. For others of you, they could give off husky kind of vibe — a little dramatic and attention-grabbing. They are emotionally expressive, and they know how to work a crowd, how to engage with people, how to connect, how to attract attention. For some of you, the day doesn’t start until they arrive to the scene; they make their environment alive. For others of you, they wish they could be that kind of person and may try to be that kind of person. They could work in marketing, public relations, media, creative fields like acting, etc. Some of them can draw and paint, they may have an online platform for this.
This person knows how to pull people’s heartstrings. Some of them are very good with emotions, I’m not sure if they realise this. Because with Page of Cups, it feels like it’s something instinctive for them. So more often than not, they use their talent negatively. They can be cute and adorable, but they can also be manipulative, whether they realise this or not. They may be the type of person who knows what face to make and how to act, to evoke pity from people just so they can get what they want. They know what to exaggerate and what to tone down so they can appear the way they want to.
I feel like this person has a wounded inner child, but they may not realise it, so sometimes they seek to soothe this part of them, but because they don’t realise what it is, they do it in a negative way. For example, they may need external validation because they secretly feel insecure about their worth or value in people’s lives, but some of them may go about seeking this validation in a manipulative way — like exaggerating their sad stories, or looking like they need help when they actually don’t, etc. This is a general reading, so the intensity differs for each one of you who chose this pile.
They seem genuine though. And I mean it that they can appear cute and harmless. It’s just that, for some of you, you could lose track of their stories sometimes. They may tell you one thing today and another thing the next day. On a less serious note, this person likes to talk about their achievements, because they like to be praised, but they mostly do it enthusiastically instead of boastfully. I feel like this is a sad person deep down; they may not show it though; they may seem fine on the outside but if you look deeper, they’re actually quite sad. There are things they don’t tell people. This feels like someone who just shows the gold and glitters to the world, and seem like they have a lot of friends, but they actually feel quite lonely in private. Unless they’re manipulative; the manipulative ones will definitely tell you sad stories just to get you to care for them.
In bed, they are quite fair. They will make sure that you both enjoy the connection. They have integrity too, so if you have any boundaries, they will respect your boundaries. Despite their extroverted, public personality, I don’t feel like this is someone who will kiss and tell. They are quite principled in bed. They are actually more honest and authentic during sex than they are in public — their job or their public image is their mask. In bed, you will be able to see their authentic self clearer, e.g. their values, their beliefs, their preferences, etc. The things they tell you in bed may be more honest and truthful than the things they tell you outside the bedroom.
They will expect their effort to be returned — so if they give you oral, they want you to do the same for them — although they may not be verbally strict about it (e.g. telling you to do what they want you to do). They may behave more like a Libra instead — considerate, mindful, willing to make things work for both of you. Instead of ordering you around, they will suggest and give ideas. They may seem like they have other lovers, but if they tell you that they don’t, it’s probably the truth. I don’t feel like this person lies in bed (but of course, use your judgement).
I don’t think you expect this person, they may not have appeared in tarot readings before. If they are not your future spouse, they could have a personality that is a bit similar to your future spouse — this person could be a false flag instead of the real deal.
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PILE 4
Your next FWB/lover: Femme Fatale Rx, Storyteller, Detective. The Emperor Rx, 7 of Cups, 5 of Wands. King of Swords Rx (King of Cups).
This person is probably quite attractive. They have an alluring and mysterious vibe. They could be a Scorpio, or have Pluto influence. They could have Leo or fire influence as well. I feel like this person is seductive without trying. For some of you, they subconsciously use this to their advantage. For others of you, they could do it more intentionally. It depends on the person. They know how to say something in order to get what they want — they could drag their words a little, they know when to hum, when to smirk, when to make eye contact with someone. They are the type of person who knows they are attractive. They don’t act over the top about it though; so they may not come across as boastful or very in their ego about their own attractiveness. For a few of you, they don’t really realise their own attractiveness, but they are very comfortable and natural in that alluring, mysterious energy.
Not every Scorpio is like this but some of them just have to sit back and people just get drawn to them. Your pile reminds me of another pile, but your person feels a lot subtler and quieter. They move in silence. They watch, plan, wait, and then act. They… are not harmless. I’m not sure how toxic this person is, the intensity may be different for each one of you who chose this pile. But this person uses their charm to get what they want. They also have intuition and cunning to help them with it. They just know what to say to make someone feel a bit insecure and reliant, or flattered and interested, etc. The way they approach people they are interested in may be very subtle. They push a little today, but tomorrow they may act like nothing happened. Then the next day they’ll give some more breadcrumbs. And then repeat. Their strategy depends on the person they’re interested in. They investigate people. They know someone’s insecurity before the person even knows it. For some of you, they also have the upper hand over other people (their friends, acquaintances).
This reminds me of one Scorpio I knew back in school. He made his friend do something for him — I don’t remember what exactly, something mundane like sharpening his pencil or picking up his eraser, but it kinda gave off the impression of a master and a slave — and people wondered why his friend did it without complaining. Later on when I asked him, he told me that he did it because he knew that his friend had a crush on someone he was close to, so he was just milking his power over his friend. Your person has that vibe.
The things they do are subtle and quiet unless you pay attention. They hold the control in their environment or group even if it doesn’t seem that way initially, or they hold more control than they initially seem. They rarely come across as the problematic one in the group, but there may be a lot of drama around them, a lot of people fighting over them. There is just something going on around them, whether or not they cause these things. Sometimes it’s not their fault, drama just follows them. For some of you, this person may also have a habit of lying by omission, or manipulating their stories. They don’t tell lies, but they know what to say to avoid saying something else.
They could like detective stories, or the thriller and paranormal genres. For some of you, they could be writers, particularly fiction writers. For others of you, they could like watching true crime documentaries. This person could like puzzles a lot too. In bed, they may seem very emotionally invested but they may not be completely honest about a lot of things. There may be kinks that they don’t tell you immediately. They could also be quite mean in bed — they could be rough, they could like leaving marks and manhandle you. But I don’t think they will show this side of them during the first sex, unless this connection is a one-time thing. They may not be honest about their true feelings with you. They could give off the impression as though they are emotionally invested, but without actually being emotionally invested. With The Emperor in reverse, I think this person likes control, but they go about it in an underhanded and quiet way, they use emotions.
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