Nyx/Atlas

25 | any prns | C-DID | Main blog for Everlasting Night (system) !

[atlas-is-typing]

✧ Nyx / Atlas ✧

This is an introduction post!

Basic Info

Name: Nyx / Atlas

Pronouns: any pronouns! collectively we are genderfluid. individuals may indicate their pronouns

Age: 25

I have polyfragmented/complex DID, and I have been diagnosed. I have high amnesia between most parts, so please be patient with my memory.

more info under the cut!

Some parts will shit post, and some of us will try to be educational. This is not an education account, just a personal one.

Read about who in the system might post to this blog below.

★ Alters who may post ★

A non-comprehensive list of alters who are likely to post on this account. (will be updated periodically) Blurry: will be tagged this way i

Discourse stances

I don't particularly care about the origins of other systems (endogenic, etc), but if I see misinformation I am likely to say something. But in general, I do not question the inner workings of someone else's mind. If they say they are endogenic or any other -genic label, that's fine. Not my business. On self-diagnosis: I support good-faith self-diagnosis, after significant research and introspection.

Interests

I'm very passionate about writing and poetry! A lot of my parts will write poetry to process hard emotions, memories, and things like that. I love writing fiction - specifically fantasy, sci-fi, and realistic fiction. I like to play co-op video games (Minecraft, Fortnite, The Ascent, Deep Rock Galactic, etc) and hang out with friends :). I have a cat and she is the love of my life. I want to travel and have experiences I've never had before.

Boundaries

Do Not use pet names or overly-familiar language if we do not know each other off tumblr.

Asks are fine! Anonymous or otherwise. I love answering questions and engaging with people. However, I do not claim to be a paragon of knowledge and will admit when I don't know something.

Thanks for reading, have a nice day!

[atlas-is-typing]

BITES U!! Use your tumblr 👀

LMAO HELLO I AM TRYING 😭😭😂

[thattheater-kid]

Here’s my metaphor for systemhood that I tell my singlet friends.

Imagine you’re playing a first person video game. You have the controller, you control your character. It’s a normal first person game. You are an alter, the character is the body. This is fronting.

Other people live with you. Sometimes, they come into the room and sit and watch while you play. They sometimes try to guide you, give you advice on what to do next. They don’t always agree, and they can argue with each other. Other times they scream at you that you’re doing everything wrong and you suck at this game. This is co-consciousness.

Imagine how distracting it would be for people around you to tell you what to do, or to scream at each other or at you, even if they have good intentions. It wouldn’t be easy to focus on your game, would it?

Then sometimes, something happens in the game that prompts you to hand off the controller to someone else so they can play and you get a break. This is (some types of) switching. This can be good.

Other times, someone rips the controller out of your hand or fights you for it. This is (other types of) switching. And sometimes, six other players hook up their controllers, but there’s only one character to play as. So all of you have your controllers, but you’re all trying to play the same character. This is cofronting.

Imagine how difficult that would be. Imagine how hard it would be to try and play a game while someone is trying to take the controller from you, or while six other people are trying to play too.

There are also times that nobody is playing, or you can’t decide who should play. What’s happening to the character in the game? What are they doing if no one is playing? This is dissociation. The character is doing nothing. They’re stuck.

This is the best metaphor I have come up with for being a system. It’s something a lot of people get because they’ve played games before.

[atlas-is-typing]

this is such a good way of putting it. gonna use this with singlets now lmao

[atlas-is-typing]

i wanna be more active here >:(( might be posting more poetry, but it’s either unedited or trauma or just… painful 😭 we’ll see. but i wanna be more active sooooo if u wanna see anything in particular feel free to tell me :D

[atlas-is-typing]

i am trying to be okay

but things are getting bad again

every memory that i uncover

throws me off a cliff of devastation and

every phantom touch is

a razor blade against my skin

i want to cut off every piece of me

that was taken by you

but what would be left?

i am trying to be okay

i am clawing my way up that cliff

inch by wretched inch

scrambling on the pebbles of grief

that slip from under my shoes

a child’s dreams are rotting in the dirt

under my fingernails

a child’s innocence is crumbling in the sand pressed into the cracks in my skin

i must climb this cliff

i must keep climbing it every time i fall

for that grief and devastation

for those dreams

for that innocence

for that child

for myself

i am trying to be okay

[atlas-is-typing]

Kindly go fuck yourself :D

what the hell did i do lmfao

[atlas-is-typing]

BEEP BEEP IM A SHEEP

SHAKEY SHAKEY IM A SNAKEY

[fromtheforest0]

WAIT I TURNED ON ANON

ARE U GAY ANSWER NOW /TH

THERES NOTHING MORE INTOXICATING THAN THE CLEAR ABSENCE OF A PENIS

I LOVE FEMALE WOMAN WITH HUGE KNOCKERS

WHO WOULD EVER GAZE UPON A MAN

CERTAINLY NOT ME

NOT EVEN IF HE LOOKS LIKE MY BOYFRIEND

NEVER

[atlas-is-typing]

I HAVE SUSPICIONS . *SQUINT*

[atlas-is-typing]

i need hozier to release But The Wages IMMEDIATELY please and thank you

[atlas-is-typing]

i wonder if systwt will make their way to tumblr… or if the tumblr equivalent of systwt will pop up. that would be interesting 😅

[atlas-is-typing]

i hate having a brain and having emotions and not knowing who i am and being scared UGH someone take everything away i don’t want it anymore

[atlas-is-typing]

looking for more people to follow / be mutuals with! interact pls!! check tags !!

[atlas-is-typing]

quartz quart quat qat

a perfect example of my nickname progression hahaha

(also ily <3)

[atlas-is-typing]

★ Alters who may post ★

A non-comprehensive list of alters who are likely to post on this account. (will be updated periodically)

Blurry: will be tagged this way if we don't know who is posting

Noah (he/him): Noah is the most active on social medias, whenever he’s around. He is likely to post about writing, poetry, and witchcraft (if he gets around to it).

Cassian (he/him): Cass has recently come back from some form of dormancy and wants to get back into being active on social media. He is interested in video games and writing, and may post about some of the things he’s gone through.

Icarus (he/him): Icarus is a semi-frequent fronter and is very chaotic as a person. He would mainly shit-post or reblog things he finds funny. But he is interested in video games, loves socializing, and likes to make dumb jokes lmao.

Our frequent fronter list is all over the place so these are the few most likely to post at this point lol. Will update if anyone else wants to post.