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Recovering from childhood brainwashing/indoctrination is often a long and painful process.
When you get scared, your brain will often want to fall back on that indoctrination because it's embedded into the most primal layers of your psyche.
You'll have no idea just how much of what you know is real, and how much is total bullshit. You will spend years separating the truth from the lies.
Sometimes you'll feel nostalgic for the parts that felt good - the certainty, the community, the little familiar things.
Sometimes it will take years to realize just how deeply fucked up something you took for granted was.
Some people won't understand how you spent a long time with no choice in what you believed, because no other options were given to you.
Some people will never understand how you spent months and years clawing yourself out of a prison you were born into. Some people will never see the scars inflicted by those who tried to keep you in, let alone the scars you got from dragging yourself along strange new terrains. Some people will only see the person you once were, not the person you walked through miles of fire to become.
You might find it hard to talk to people about it because no one can really comprehend the bizarre world you lived in, let alone why the things you did while you were in it felt so important and right. Slowly, it will get better. You will get triggered less often. Things you believed and did will feel truly absurd. You will find other people who have been through experiences like yours.
It's a long and painful process, but it's worth it. Hang in there.
do you know if the treatment for OSDD-1a seems to be the same for OSDD-1b and DID, and if not, then what is the treatment exactly? OSDD-1a does seem to have a comparatively different structure from other CDDs that would require a different structure of treatment.
I’m not quite sure what you mean by, “OSDD-1a does seem to have a comparatively different structure from other CDDs that would require a different structure of treatment.” That’s not really how OSDD1a is clinically conceptualized at all. Interestingly, the modifiers 1a and 1b are almost exclusively community terms. I’ve never met a single therapist who works with CDDs who uses those labels, and maybe only one or two who even know what they are/mean. It’s just not really a thing out in the real world.
The reason for that, as best I know it, is because unlike in most online OSDD/DID spaces, CDDs are not viewed as “alter disorders” in professional dissociative disorder spaces. They’re viewed as complex trauma disorders. They’re viewed as more complex presentations of CPTSD. Having dissociated parts is only part of the picture, and the level of elaboration or emancipation between parts doesn’t change the overall treatment guidelines. The “structure” of OSDD1a is exactly part of what would be expected for a disorder that exists along the continuum of complex dissociation.
This hopefully comes as good news to people who identify with the OSDD1a label and who may have felt increasingly more isolated within our online communities due to the (over)emphasis on having elaborated parts. We’re all really one and the same. We have fragmented senses of self. We have dissociation on the level of the personality. Just because I might have alters Bob and Joe and Jane and someone else has parts who all go by the same name doesn’t mean we’re experiencing anything that’s fundamentally different from each other. It’s all in the same family. It’s all variations on a theme.
So yeah, not only would the average CDD therapist have literally no idea what OSDD “1a” is, but if they’re sufficiently trained, then they’re all gonna approach treatment through the same ISSTD evidence based treatment guidelines and then tailor and personalize that approach to match the specific symptoms and needs of that individual client. Of course treatment looks slightly different for everyone depending on the therapist, their preferred modalities, and the client. But the foundation is the same. The goal to lower dissociative barriers and bring parts together to improve function and stability is the same. Etc.
I think tumblr and other CDD online spaces could strongly benefit from a push to de-emphasize CDDs as disorders that cause primarily elaborated, distinct, clearly defined alters. My team has worked with several CDD clients over the past year, and guess what—only ONE of them had clearly defined parts. ONE. It’s really not as common out here irl. It’s a far more common presentation to encounter clients with pervasive trauma-related complex dissociative symptoms who don’t meet DID criteria because they don’t have elaborated parts. Or who only have a couple decently defined parts, which is enough to meet DID criteria, but mostly it’s a murky dissociative mess of parts. It’s what I’m more familiar with as a professional tbh. You don’t need well defined parts to have a CDD. There’s so much more to it. And I hate how this emphasis on alters has made other people with CDDs feel so lonely when dude…they’re the majority. They just don’t get much of a voice or they feel like they don’t fit in.
My last rant (sorry, you probably weren’t looking for all this) is that many polyfragmented DID systems, myself included, often appear more OSDD1a because of how many fragments and poorly elaborated, highly specialized parts we tend to have. I have waaaaaay more “OSDD1a style parts” than I do fully elaborated DID stereotypical parts and sometimes that’s kinda isolating for me too. I resonate a lot with OSDD1a spaces. Which just goes to show that it really is all on the same spectrum. There are infinite combinations of structures and presentations that make up CDD systems. But treatment wise, it’s pretty much the same! Aside from any modifications that might be utilized by a therapist to match the individual client! But being person-centered in treatment doesn’t mean they’re gonna throw out the ISSTD treatment guidelines or anything.
The Crooked man cats
https://www.irs.gov/charities-non-profits/irs-complaint-process-tax-exempt-organizations
3. Nature of violation
Directors/Officers/Persons are using income/assets for personal gain
Organization is engaged in commercial, for-profit business activities
Income/Assets are being used to support illegal or terrorist activities
Organization is involved in a political campaign
Organization is engaged in excessive lobbying activities
Organization refused to disclose or provide a copy of Form 990
Organization failed to report employment, income or excise tax liability properly
Organization failed to file required federal tax returns and forms
Organization engaged in deceptive or improper fundraising practices
Other (describe)
to simplify: churches are forbidden to promote specific political parties or candidates, in order to maintain tax-exempt status. no religious institution is allowed to make explicit political statements, including “this party is bad,” “this party is good,” “you should vote for x,” “you should not vote for x,” or “let’s raise money for x political party or campaign.” all of those things are super illegal! if they’re going to act as a political entity, they need to pay taxes like any other political entity! report their asses!!!!
MAKE THIS GO VIRAL - REBLOG IT ….. REPEATEDLY
My American followers, please do your part
I often talk about reality checking and going along with it when helping someone deal with delusions, but I felt as if I didn’t really make it clear to what I meant when I said it.
Recently I saw a post similar to “how to sneakily give your delusional friend a reality check when they told you not to” and honestly, that’ll just make us lose trust for you. Because we can tell when you do that.
moth wings and other things
Sometimes hallucinations are scary shadow and/or faceless people and sometimes hallucinations are hearing turkey gobbling in your suburban home.
People talk about abusers who never say ‘i love you’ but i wish they talked more about the ones that do. The ones that hurt you over and over and leave you ruined and confused because afterwards they tell you how much they love you and how important you are to them. That way you’ll always doubt wether what they did was truly wrong. You’ll never understand what ‘i love you’ means, you’ll always associate it with something painful. ‘I love you’ will lose all meaning. It’s so fucking painful to hear it said by the person who caused you so much pain
WAIT I TURNED ON ANON
ARE U GAY ANSWER NOW /TH
THERES NOTHING MORE INTOXICATING THAN THE CLEAR ABSENCE OF A PENIS
I LOVE FEMALE WOMAN WITH HUGE KNOCKERS
WHO WOULD EVER GAZE UPON A MAN
CERTAINLY NOT ME
NOT EVEN IF HE LOOKS LIKE MY BOYFRIEND
NEVER
I think one of the most damaging ideologies towards children is the conviction that having children isn’t a calling but a moral obligation.
Not to be a crazy radical or anything, but children deserve to be deeply wanted by their parents.
Children shouldn’t be a “stage” in life that everyone is obligated to fulfill; childrearing is not for everyone. More importantly, children shouldn’t be state-enforced punishments for “irresponsible” sexual behavior.
Children are people with thoughts and feelings just like the rest of us. They are conscious of the way people treat them. And they can certainly tell when they are unwanted and/or resented.
[ID: tumblr tags. they are: #reblog #i also dont think its enough to want a child. i think you need to want a teenager and an adult too #my mom wanted a baby. when i was too old to pronounce spaghetti wrong and let her put me in church dresses she was done with me #my dad wanted a person. he wanted a baby a child a tween a teen and an adult #my dad wanted to watch a person happen. which was different. /end ID.]
I hate you preserving beauty at the cost of enjoyment.
I saw a video of a woman with extremely thick hair doing a thinning method at home. One comment said "my hairdresser heart weeps" because apparently her method may lead to frizz and impact a unified hair look. The woman had so much hair it was giving her headaches.
Its the same as people telling me when I had long hair never to cut it because its so impressive. Its people telling natural redheads never to dye their hair because its such a rare pretty colour.
Its transmasc people being told they were so pretty as a girl and are wasting that.
Its girls being told they are wasting their figure/physical attributes because they are not displaying them constantly and wearing comfortable baggy clothes.
It's people telling you to never go in the sun, not smile and not to use a straw because it will give you wrinkles. Its being told not to eat certain foods because they are bad for your skin, or to do eat other foods because they are good for your skin regardless of whether you enjoy either of those foods. It's being expected to put hours into your skin care and prioritise it over activities you enjoy so you have younger looking skin when you are old.
It's being expected to wear clothes that are uncomfortable because they make you look thinner/more like an hourglass. Not to move in certain ways because it will be unflattering.
It's telling people not to prioritise themselves and their interests in their decisions but instead to prioritise their skin/hair/figure/etc.
I did not agree to preserve whatever natural features i was born with like a one man historical society for myself just because i happened to be made of those genes. I have every right to use and enjoy my body in ways other people don't think fitting and that don't preserve features that currently fit societal beauty standards. I do not agree to hold aesthetic pursuit over comfort and health and happiness.
I know one thing. When i am old i will certainly regret every single day i ate a papaya for breakfast (i hate papaya) instead of a pancake and didn't go into the sun. I will not regret having wrinkles, i just hope they are from laughing.
Some explanations about dissociated parts and memory, information from The Haunted Self and paraphrased by yours truly.
Every part deserves to have their piece respected, even if it doesn’t seem to fit in neatly with the others, even if you think it’s weirdly shaped, even if it just seems scary.
And remember: Puzzles are put together one piece at a time.
[Check out my DID/OSDD casually explained masterpost for sources and more infographics!]
Pierre Julien Fieux