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once I snorted a fat line of nuance and everything started depending. watch out

Moonstruck (1987), dir. Norman Jewison.

I had an excessively romantic first date that made me go insane and simultaneously has gone nowhere for reasons that I logically understand but emotionally DESPISE. Has me feeling like "open your heart to me Bella!!!!"

I am sorry for being cringe on my Tumblr blog. Hannah horvath voice I am busy becoming who I am

It feels corny and agonizing to admit at times but it is all I can do to be honest about wanting to love and be loved... and even when I feel humiliated, if I can honour that capacity for openness I can find my way through. And in equal turns, both suffering and joy will break me open in ways that allow for more love to rush in

Capricorn-maxxing in my 28th year aka realizing that I am no longer capable of abandoning myself for the sake of another person

I just think something monumental has shifted for me at 28 which is that I truly have no desire or will to obscure my truth in any way. And I keep learning that being real off the bat will only save you from suffering long term… as the fake hoes will show themselves out

If you want anyone to truly know and look after you I think you need to be so embarrassingly real about the ways in which you are insane. As scary as that is

Me all the time lately

Recently on a first date I was literally swept off my feet bridal-style directly outside of a church and carried to my apartment. And I’m meant to behave normally about this.