self destruction. @avoidantry - Tumblr Blog

avoidance is a simple way of coping by not having to cope.

this is the fourth(?) reiteration of blog that's been running on and off since about 2019. with several multi-year hiatuses included in that. cj. twenty-seven. mountain standard time zone. trying my hand again at rp. all muses are original. was previously @defraternity. fell off the face of the earth again. back for another spin.

#pinned post.#cj says.#indie rp #indie roleplay

pinkliqht

at the end of the day, who he went on a dates with wasn't any of her business. she ended it, she shouldn't have mattered, it shouldn't have struck her so hard that she had to come marching down here to enter into yet another argument with him. it seemed to be what they did best, but it didn't mean she enjoyed it. even if sometimes it may have seemed like she actively sought them out. " right. " she nodded, and even hearing it wasn't a date didn't exactly help with what she'd been feeling. it was confusing to say the least, aster truly thought the break up would feel easier what with how much she knew it wasn’t working. “ well, you know, you’re right. you can date or not date whoever the hell you want. it’s not really any of my business. i shouldn’t … i shouldn’t have even come here. i was just …” jealous and hurt and missed him, and those rare good moments that they found together.

avoidantry

doesn't want all that media attention on him in the first place, has racked up more fines than actual deposits. and now a breakup that blindsided him is being reported on every local outlet and whatever he does is being kept under a prying eye. an already volatile relationship made worse by media. defensive in every action and explanation because he wouldn't want her to know that he's hurting. and that he misses her. and that he just wants to know how the fuck they can move on. " it's not your business, " he starts, tone bitter and biting before taking a deep breath and shaking his head. " sorry, sorry. i just . . . i don't want this to be us. there's just something that always brings us together and it's gotta be better than fighting, right? " softens only for a moment, thinking about their history. " you know i actually don't regret the fighting. i regret the running away after. "

#pinkliqht #convo : trace wyland.

alcska

the smell hit her as soon as he'd walked by. alcohol, sweat, and sex ... thick and sour enough that it made her nose turn up and her eyes roll dramatically. marina already hated being here. she'd only come because her friend begged, and now she was stuck on some sticky barstool while the music made her head throb. then she watched him drop on the couch next to someone else and she snapped. doesn't even remember getting up, just that the drink hit him first, then her hand, and despite the guilt already settling in the pit of her stomach, she stays put. "what the fuck are you doing?" she echoes back to him, fingertips practically crushing the now empty solo cup. "you smell like a liquor store and whoever the fuck you were just inside of." her jaw ticked as she glanced over him, trying to figure out how gone he actually was, and whether she was overreacting or not. not that she'd admit it even if she was, especially not to him. the concern was there, buried deep, but it was there. "you reek, you need to shower and go to bed, not ... whatever this is."

avoidantry

wasn't expecting to see her at all tonight, figured even his distant presence alone was enough to keep her away. plan already forming the minute she walks through the door, making sure he's at least a little bit in her line of sight. doesn't get the reaction he wants and decides to hike it up a notch, leaning into his player reputation and seducing not one but two women in his game. finally made his way back downstairs and drops onto a couch, only being able to throw out a fine rehearsed lines before he's interrupted. takes him a couple moments to get his bearings, room still moving around him. couldn't tell if it's been the alcohol or the fading sting of the slap that causes him to sway, but focuses on marina soon enough. gestures around him, eyebrown raised as if she'd said the most ridiculous thing. " it's a party, rina. no party without liquor and sex. " smirks softly, glad his plan worked and is now getting under her skin. " you look like you could use more liquor. and some really good sex."

#alcska #convo : donovan sinclair.

notgaybuckybarnes

PATRICK WILSON Cape Fear (2026)

#future face.#um do i?

vxsicns

I fucking LOVE people who hold multiple threads with me. To me, it means you enjoy role playing with me and actually like me so, thank you to those who do that.

#cj says.

miloquita

MIGUEL HARICHI

#king there will never be a bombshell like you #future face.

lupaeus

palms slide down against the crux of his chest , nearly disappointed as he sets her down all too soon – though his earnest praise brings about that same incredulous simper still writ across her pout . ❝ you do too , ❞ breathes just as softly ; not daring to take a step back , as though doing so may prove the moment a crazy dream rather than a dream come true . his confusion is justified , must concede that much , doe eyes tracing the movement of his own as he questions her motive behind the sudden gesture . can't help but allow dimples to flex in response , forelimbs wrapped about his waist as she breathes in his scent like life support before pulling back to meet his eye once more . ❝ you could have told me , ❞ muses stubbornly , train of thought clouded with the taste of his lips still present on her own . ❝ you could have – why didn't you – . . . i've been in love with you for years , dummy . ❞ optics glitter with the threat of unspilt saline , digits finding sturdy counterparts to guide back to the divots of her hips as slender palms run the length of his arms . ❝ i thought you wanted me to see other guys , that you weren't interested in me like that . . . fuck , brody – i never would have gone out with any of them if i'd known i had a chance with you . ❞

avoidantry

" told you? i could have you what? " now it feels like a dream, not even exaggerating if he claimed to be light-headed. her years compared to his months is almost embarrassing, but brody knew somehow they would have been connected. never one to tell her no, to be present always. to have listened to every single good date, bad date, great date, horrible date and even stuck neck out to give advice. idiot, indeed. dummy more accurate than ever. connecting dots too slow and what seems too late, color rushes to brody's cheeks, embarrassed and frustrated with himself. " i was so damn jealous of all those guys . . . " admits with an ironic chuckle, shaking his head. " i never wanted to see you go on a date . . . get all pretty for someone else . . . " follows her lead, large hands covering a great percentage of her hips, thumbs rubbing against fabric, and hangs his head almost shy as they admit their longing. " i thought you just wanted to be friends. " hues meet hers, her tears almost enough to bring on his own. " fuck, am i glad i was wrong. " bends down once again to kiss her fervently, pulling her closer by the hips. " guess you gotta tell that guy there's been a change in plans. "

#too soft #so cute #lupaeus #convo : broderick philips.

fudamnshi

(barely contained rage) wow. im so happy for you. enjoy your happy and healthy relationship

#vibes : apollo king.#vibes : cosmo ferretti.#vibes : donovan sinclair.#vibes : trace wyland.

scftlys

sloane is almost asleep when she hears her buzzer. followed by an obnoxiously loudly voice, especially for this hour of the night. a groan slips past her lips as she tries to figure out who the hell it could be. someone with the wrong address? the more she listens the more she begins to recognize the voice—apollo. she’s pulled from the warm confines of her bed, opens the large window that sits directly above the front door and slightly leans out. “i thought i told you not to come back here let alone in the middle of the goddamn night.”

avoidantry

looks left then right then up with such speed that he stumbles backwards, grabbing light pole to steady himself. " motherfucker . . . " happy she's home and somehow equally unhappy to see her. not an ideal situation, but apollo's lost his keys and the ability to make a healthy decisions so here he stands, gesturing to the locked and gated door. " and listening to you is not my strong suit! " pushes himself off the pole to reach buzzer again, annoyingly and childishly pressing the buzzer again. " takes two seconds to let me in and i'm fucked up enough to stand here and press it all night. "

#convo : apollo king.#scftlys

antoniosbanderas

Pretty Woman (1990), dir. Garry Marshall

#plots.#oh yeah #for duke #pls

64mpg

it has always been a dream of mine to relax

#cj says.#also #vibes : jonas hardy.#vibes : patrick levy.

carolinus-rex

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coeurdefoudre

moans helplessly into the fervid kiss , merely the tip of his head sending shockwaves throughout her frame as he lines himself up with the mess already made of soaking lips . ❝ i can't help it , ❞ whimpers into the hollow of his mouth , psyche replaying the ripping of fabric as she glances toward discarded undergarments with a simper all too pleased . ❝ you make me fucking crazy , daddy . . . ❞ digits thread into the clipped waves of his crown , ivory dentition grazing the crux of chiseled jaw as she welcomes him slowly in between sopping folds . low hum fading into a needful moan with each inch guided inside , takes every ounce of self restraint not to buck forth & take the entirety of his cock all at once . ❝ fuck , cosmo . . . fuck the makeup , ruin it . make me scream for you . . . ❞ brow furrowed with abject pleasure , earthen mane tips back as she takes him down to the hilt , hardly daring to move a muscle until joined hips hit a gradual , rhythmic pattern together . brims fallen open , gooseflesh lines supple breasts as they heave against sculpted chest – putty in his hands as she melts passionately into his every movement . ❝ god , you're so big . . . feel amazing every time . . . ❞ legs remain hooked about his torso , positioned for him to stuff her core with ease as she moans & writhes beneath her love .

avoidantry

determined to show some kind of restraint, moans of both name and pet name on repeat in his mind like a broken record making it intensely difficult. savors the sensation of scalp being scraped, thick locks being tugged at. animalistic groan as she takes the entirety of his cock, practically whimpering as lets her adjust, reveling in the way she squeezes around him. loves taking care of her, spoiling her in every which way and position possible. wants to make her feel good, needs to make her feel good. " i'm addicted to this pussy, angel . . . you have no idea. . . " more than willing to comply with her request, begins a slow pace to his thrusts, hand previously holding her jaw now caressing nape of marked neck so she can see exactly what he's doing. " shit, londyn . . . fuck, look at you take it all . . . " mesmerized by the sight of her lips stretching around him, cock somehow getting wetter and wetter with each thrust. speeds up his pace, a satisfying clap as he makes sure she takes every inch. free hand reaching and groping whatever he can, refusing to let a single part of her body go untouched, wants to leave his mark everywhere. " so fuckin' tight, baby . . . you make me feel so good . . . " both hands are now interlocked at her nape, needing something to anchor him as he snaps his hips forward, unbridled desire clouding his entire being.

#coeurdefoudre #convo : cosmo ferretti.#nsfw #usfw

boydahlia-deactivated20250723

we're not playing house we can either play psycho killer vs helpless victim or crazed cult leader + devoted follower

#plots.#lmao

targaryenofrph

Okay but please give me a plot where "I'm a mob leader and you've accidentally ended up in my crossfire, hurt, and witnessed one of my crimes but I can't bring myself to get rid of you so here's a bright idea. How about you marry me for a couple of years and once the marriage is over I'll pay you a large stipend for the rest of your life but also this means you can't rat me out for anything you saw."

#plots.