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Intro post

Hi! I'm AvoidedNull - but please, call me Ave or Null. AvoidedNull was my mother

Any pronouns are fine, gender is a construct to me

This blog is mostly for multi-fandom fanart, but there will be some original stories and characters sprinkled throughout. And sadly I update slowly, real life is hard

#This'll update as time goes on #Also I refuse to make the fandoms a list #Deal with reading it paragraph style #blog info

Wip from forever ago that I finally finished

It's kinda meh but it was really fun to experiment with all the layers so it's a win in my books

#my art #fanart #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #geto suguru #kenjaku #cant wait for the next season

how the magnus archives almost sent me to a mental hospital, key word almost :)

My mother gifted me a tma shirt to congratulate me on continuing to live in this cruel world

I then spent the next 21 minutes obsessively trying to name all 14 fears on the shirt because I could not for the life of me remember all of them. And I couldn't search them up! That'd be admitting defeat and that I'm a fake fan

Eventually I decided 21 minutes was way too much time to be spending on this and went to bed before it became 22. But apparently my subconscious mind didn't get that memo that it was sleepy time and kept trying to figure it out while I slept

Cue to me in bed, lights off, snug as a bug in a rug at 12:38 am. And my brain remembers the one fear I forgot: the slaughter. So then I suddenly sit straight up and shout "SLAUGHTER!! SLAUGHTER! IT WAS SLAUGHTER!!!"

Everyone else starts panicking, awoken from slumber by me screaming slaughter, someone grabs a bat, they all rush to my room, shouting and someone's waving a weapon at me. And I'm like, still half asleep man, I had no idea what was happening and I couldn't tell who was in my room, and i panicked so I just. Grabbed things and started throwing them. Luckily, I just ended up grabbing a bunch of pillows and stuff and didn't hurt anyone.

But like, from everyone else's perspective i just started screaming bloody murder in the middle of the night and then started throwing things at people.

And that's how I ended up having to explain the plot of the Magnus Archives at 1am to prove that I'm sound of mind, I wasn't just screaming slaughter for fun and please don't send me to a mental institution

#tma #the magnus archives #i hope melanie would be proud of the chaos I caused #lol #it really is such a stupid story #a true one though #true story #story time #shits and giggles #man only tma could produce something like this #null incoherently rambles

Read a thing where a trans character took off his binder and the love interest said that he "moved with a lithe grace he didn't have when he wore a binder" and that he looked more "intimate" and "sexual" with boobs. EW. NO. HAVING A FEMALE BODY IS NOT MORE ANYTHING. It is more feminine yes, but being more feminine DOES NOT equate to being sexier or more intimate

You know what's actually sexy? Someone feeling comfortable and happy in their own body because it reflects who they are. You know what's actually intimate? Seeing your partner feel more like themselves because their body reflects who they are inside, and loving that. Or seeing them light up at the right pronouns being used and seeing that and supporting them on it. That. THAT should be the goal. And this applies to trans, non-binary, gender-fluid, and genderqueer interactions too.

And yes, bodies are beautiful, I understand that, and yes people have preferences when it comes to appearances. But no one should sexualize or lust over the version of their partner that isn't truly them. I'm not good enough with words to explain it the clearest but my god I feel like there's something obviously wrong with fantasizing over a body that the owner of said body doesn't see as themself.

#vent #rant #transgender #trans rights #genderqueer #non binary #genderfluid #lgbtqia #null incoherently rambles #god i dont often rant like this but that really got under my skin

blue sketch because im incapable of resisting the temptation that is a charming gay man

#Blue deltarune #deltarune #deltarune chapter 5 #my art #Fabulous man yes yes mhm

Uhh I really like @gensational 's au :)

#nine sols yi #my art #nine sols #yinnovater au #corruption of the innovator au #yinny so fabulous he deserves heels #no he doesn't wear them because he's short shut up

you are not living until youve chugged pickled vinegar

#null incoherently rambles #Context: I am korean #Koreans pickle a lot of things + the fact that im insane #= I drank a jar of vinegar which I used to pickled radishes #It's yummier than you'd think

more nine sols sketches plus a nice eye

Dont worry about it au belongs to @doodledrawsthings and its amazing and wonderful and I love it

#9s #Nine sols #Nine sols yi #9s dwbi au #9s don't worry about it au #My art #traditional art #god I love this game

i'm so sorry if this seems strange or out of nowhere so feel free to ignore . but i saw your art in the nine sols tag and i Also beat the game like. Two weeks ago and have had nobody to talk to about it so if. You want. Somebody to chat to about it. I am so open and available and such . Okay bye

This is really sweet :)

I would Absolutely LOVE to talk about 9sols with you! I finished the game 2 days ago and am actually going to explode if I don't talk about it

Basically: YES YES YES YES :D

#I crave #Human contact #I was gonna talk to my sibling bout 9sols but they pulled a Yi on me and disappeared #Big sad #:(

NINE SOLS I LOVE YOU WHY ISNT YOUR FANDOM BIGGER 😭😭😭

#I NEEED more 9s content #You don't understand the depth of my craving #999/10 game #Go play it #Nine sols #Nine sols yi #9s #Fanart #My art #traditional art

I detect another fandom swing coming. goodbye past fandom, hello Nine Sols

#Finished it today #If I cried at the ending thats none of your business #:(

I'm trying figure out how I want to draw jon

This is simultaneously easier, and harder than I thought it'd be

#doodles #my art #fanart #Tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #I love him with long hair #So that's one design choice down at least #Ignore the Nikola doodle in the corner lol

Sentences that were uttered during family game night:

Dad: Blah blah my coworker is an asshole.

Me: Speaking of which, we saw a lot of anuses today!"

Mom: ...what.

Sister: *Makes a move she doesnt need to just to spite me like a horrible person* Ave I don't think you'll like this...

Me: *Doesnt like it* Well. I have only one thing to say to that. And that is that I've come into your room before in the middle of the night and you never wake up.

Sister: ...Oh. Uhhhh

Dad: *Makes a move that blocks me*

Me: *I take a slow, calm inhale because I am calm and not mad* Father I love you so much it hurts. Deep down. Where I ache.

Dad: I love you too Ave! :D

Dad: I just don't have the energy I used to. There are some things I just don't care about anymore.

Sister: Like your daughters?

*Dead silence*

*Whole table bursts out laughing*

No one can match my family's freak when we're playing Ticket to Ride. Shit goes down then

#null incoherently rambles #I love my family #We all hate each other in the nicest ways #ALSO THE ONLY REASON I SAW A LOT OF ASS TODAY WAS BECAUSE OF AN ANATOMY BOOK #I felt I had to make that clear #I'm freaky but not that freaky

Michael doodles :))

#Tma #the magnus archives #michael the distortion #michael shelley #My silly funny little guy #Tried out a different style for these #Dunno if I like it

jjk but yuji got more than Sukunas markings

And a big thanks to mellon_soup whose poses inspired these doodles

#jjk #my art #jujutsu kaisen #yuji itadori #My sister was very mad that he's drinking matcha #Because apparently the boy isn't allowed to enjoy some grass tea ig

I do so love the random bouts of anxiety inducing panic my brain sends me for no reason. like, I will be sitting there, innocent and simply enjoying life and suddenly my body goes let's send a flood of adrenaline for no reason that will cause severe anxiety because there's no real reason to be scared so we gotta invent one! =D

#Null incoherently rambles

I'd ask if you see the vision but honestly I dont even see it, it's more like a psychedelic hallucination in my mind

What colors does one make a Michael? I have no idea please help coloring is my enemy

#Wip #Art fart #Tma #the magnus archives #michael the distortion #michael shelley #Love my boney yet boneless man #Also I've literally never experienced weather colder than 40 degrees F #So I had to search up what one would wear if they were headed to a land that didn't exist in Russia

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