Awarness For Us

Talking about psych abuse TW for this Blog Please read my pinned post for more #Jack gets real = abuse storys #Jack explains = answering general questions #Jacks resources = petitions, tips #Jackyaps = anything else You are enough

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Blog Intro

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Hi. My name is Jack, I'm german and freshly 18 years old. I have severe trauma, nightmares and cptsd-symptoms from my 3 times in a psychiatric hospital. I am currently being assessed for (C)PTSD due to my time there. I was medically abused and this blog is for awarness, change and solidarity.

Please fully read before interacting:

The trauma I will be talking about is neither due to me being mentally ill or "non compos mentis" ; it is a product of the abuse I had to endure on the hands of a "safe" and "healing" place. Before interaction: read my story.

What was done to me is not morally defendable and partially against the law. I will talk about my (and other peoples) many stories. I might reference help groups, petitions and talk about methodes to deal with CPTSD adter being in a psychiatric facility. I will add a TW on every sensitive post just in case.

I might sound a bit detached when im talking about what was done to me. That is simply my defense mechanism.

The goal of this blog isn't to demonize psychiatrist hospitals. I am pro-therapy and pro-recovery. But I am also for always believing survivors. And I am currently coming to terms with the fact that I'm a survivor.

I will advocate for us. We are vulnerable people that got taken advantage of. Neglect, sexual abuse, unnesecary humiliation, staff acting against protocolls, loss of any autonomy and more are all things I and many other people experienced.

Even if you aren't a victim and those topics are very uncomfortable: please listen to us and spread awarness. We need to change. This needs to stop. There are so many of us that can't speak out. I hope this reaches the right audience.

Here is the masterlist for petitions:

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💬 0  🔁 0  ❤️ 0 · Advocacy Groups and Petition Links: AntiPsych Abuse ♿️🌻 · Chat, this is a very important post to me, since this is the time

I hope I can help people and spread awarness.

My DMs and Asks are open /for now/ under the following circumstances:

1. no explicit venting without a Tw

2. No defending psych wards without reading/knowing my whole story (I know they help sometimes and are there to help, but im not talking about that)

3. Mocking, belittleing, being mean or lying in any way

Very welcome are:

-your storys (with TWs)

-questions (about me or my experience, I will try my best to answer)

-Organisations, petitions, tipps etc.

I will do my best to keep my peace with this blog even tho talking about this is hard. I am not trying to vent or get attention: I want actual awarness and change and help for follow victims. I will leave out certain topics that I'm not able to talk about yet, but I will speak out about what I can.

((I block without hesitation if nessecary. I might sound off bc this isn't my first language.))

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Little reminder that every hospital patient has the right to refuse treatment, even if the surgery would be life saving: they are allowed to refuse because their body is theirs.... except for psych patients. This isnt right. Everybody should have the right to decide what happens to their body. And if anybody says "but its nessecary, they are dangerous", you. cant. tell. Anybody can claim anybody is dangerous and suddenly its true in the eyes of doctors.

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The youth welfare (or CPS in america) are doing a horrible job looking after childrens' wellbeing. Because please tell me why my mother that has a history with physical violance may yell, threat and insult me daily from ages 12-17 even tho im disabled and was a child, yet they do investigate when kids dont get winter shoes.

The youth welfare knew everything and knew I almost died in that house but put all responsibility onto me (the disabled and abused child) anyway, claiming I was "not taking the initiative" and am "too old for help". Adding to that, everytime I cried, broke down or lost weight due to the abuse, they told me to go into a psych ward instead of helping me out of the house. We need to do better for all the children out there that dont know this isnt normal. Everybody deserves help.

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Psych wards will ask why you feel depressed, scared or hostile after they take your: phone, car keys, clothes, laptop, art supplies, plushies, books, crochet hooks, blanket, shoes, fizzy drinks, skateboard, instruments, toys, candy, pictures, credit card, friends, family and any contact to the outer world from you for months. I wonder why, maybe because you took everything that gave my life a sort of sense and security? This is neither okay, nor helpful.

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She knew she wasnt believed and thats what slowly drove her crazy- Cindy James

I am currently listening to a true crime channel that is talking about one of many cases of a person dying because she was considered unreliable. The most messed up part: the victim was repeatidly stabbed, letters from the attacker were found and the murderer called multiple times and they had his voice: yet the victim was considered mentally ill and got locked up in a ward.

After she got released she was found dead, tied up, full with meds and the police claimed it was sui*cide. Despite a note of the killer being there (saying "This b*** is dead") and her tied hands and the forensic confirming that her body was moved manually - they didnt believe it was a murder case. That poor woman was locked up amd not believed after so many attacks and wounds of the perpetrator.

She got painted as crazy for being attacked. Before they found her murderer she was believed to have BPD or "hysterical personality disorder". No matter how many things hinted at her being stalked, stabbed and killed: If the system decides youre crazy, youre crazy and this amount of power should not be held by the system and psych wards.

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One thing I keep thinking about is that psych abuse can affect everybody. Youre not safe because your parents are healthy, youre not safe because you are healthy, youre not safe because your life was normal so far: a unexpected psychosis or panic attack etc can affect anybody regardless of what happened before. Forced restrainment, forced hospitalization, forced sedation and medical mistreatment can affect anybody and we need to have protocols and staff that de-escalte and not traumatize.

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"This hurts me just as much as it hurts you" is abuser rhetoric and psych wards do it all the time. I came across many psych ward nurses that claim that watching patients shower is just as bad for them as it is for the patient. That is incredibly insensitive and frankly a disgusting statement.

The staff isnt naked. The staff isnt forced to be there. The staff isnt the one without power, autonomy or clothes. It is not the same. And if legal or not: when the staff is tight it can happen that a male one watches naked girls (not women, girls). Saying "it is for the patients best" without having /any/ prove is victim blaming and I will die on this hill. I cant comprehend this lack of empathy from those nurses

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I have no idea who needs to hear this, but you are not an aggressive or annoying person for using your space to talk about what and who hurt you - no matter how uncomfortable the topics are for others. You can still be a positive and gentle soul, even when you have to name the things that were done to you as they are. Not sounding angry or scared is sometimes impossible when you talk about abuse. Its okay.

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I recently remembered that the psych ward staff would seperate me (a back then 13yo) and a 12yo girl, because I sat on her bed while we talked and they called it "inappropriate activities" yet the staff that would sexually harass us (around 6 of us from ages 11-15) wasnt fired until 2024. So I have in my notes that I did inapropriate things with a girl (that was my solely platonic friend) yet the p*edophile adult wasnt fired for years. I wish I was making this up.

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My favorite part (/s) about the psych ward was when I said I dont know how to live, because my mother severely abuses me and they told me to make a vision board. This isnt satire. They did that. Then they send me back home to my abusive Mom with some extra trauma. No satire again, they traumatized me. We need to start protecting mentally ill or abused children, but psych wards tend to do the exact opposite.

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In a psych ward humiliating and degrading rules were put upon me, because I was accused of an ED. I have no symptoms of an ED, I am simply underweight per BMI. Because I am currently being assesed for Me/CFS I have been in hospitals a lot. They told me my weight is perfectly healthy - as well as my eating habits- I am just thin by nature. What the wards did was malpractice. We need to start taking the amount of wrong diagnoses and horrible behaviours of psych wards and their staff seriously. This is my personal example of how psych wards sometimes use anything and everything against you and pretend you are sicker than you actually are. I am not the only one.

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Most of the time in the psych ward ,they told me to get "rid of my victim mentality" and that its "annoying them". I have recently been diagnosed with C-PTSD. I am a victim of abuse of ten years. I am a victim of mental illness. I am a victim of medical trauma. And the past few weeks I wasnt posting, because it turned out Im (most probably) suffering from Me/CFS and POTS as well.

So no, I dont have a victim mentality, they tried to guilt trip me and what they did was malpractice and how they tried to get rid of my "victim mentality" was abusive, traumaitizing and ableist. I was not "whining". I was stating facts about how my body feels and what my thoughts were. Im sorry for every person that has to get rid of the harmful things that professionals tried to ingrain into their brains. Its okay to talk about what hurts us. Ableism in psych wards is real and can end up deadly.

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"You don't get help for your trauma! Do you like suffering?"

If it means keeping my free will then yes.

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And yes, if we talk about childrens' autonomy and safety, we have to talk about psych wards and what they can do with them too.

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Can we talk about the fact that psych wards often make vegetarians eat meat against their will? Can we talk about the fact that if vegetarian people that got diagnosed with an ED often wont be able to get out of the ward when they refuse to eat meat?

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Usually I talk about how the psych ward sexually, psychologically and physically abused me when I was a child, but can we talk about the random more harmless rules they have too? Like, no drinks with sugar, no sweatpants, no black pullovers, they banned certain books and TV channels, not any kind of sweets, 6 hours per day in your room, no man and woman in the same room with each other etc. What was that? You can not call that a "safe, healing and self-directed" environment - which they did. And we were not kids at the time (this time im talking abt my third stay) we were 15-21.

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I recently remembered that when I was 13 and in my first psych ward I was put on meds that have su*cidal habits as a side effect - so they thought about putting me into a closed ward before giving the meds to me. Before I didnt even do anything. I repeat: They wanted to put me in a traumatizing closed ward for meds that they gave to me when I was a child.