zahhak apologist

he/him | 22 | sys | icon by @itsreitoes I mostly post about ships and ocs in playlist form since I can't draw! Just kinda posting into the tumblr void <3

[b100b100ds]

Hi! My name is Blue!

I'm not any sort of creator but I've had this tumblr account since I was like. 13. I'm 22 now. Help. I do want to start posting though so I thought I'd make this to pin it!

I got a lot of gender stuff going on but for the most part you can just use he/him prns on me and use masculine terminology

For actual personal information, I'm 21 as of writing this post, and would prefer that minors dni since I do go into mature topics in some of my posts! And also, I just don't want to be friends with teenagers.

I'm medically recognized as having DID, so you'll have to forgive me if my posting seems sporadic and nonsensical at times, I can't really help it. I don't plan to be posting about it, but I like fostering a sense of community, so I openly invite other systems for a chitchat or two!

For added context behind a lot of these posts, the host (for all intents and purposes; me!) is a multifaceted introject of Equius Zahhak Homestuck, Venti Genshin Impact, and Emma Woods IDV.

I also have autism, but you can probably tell by my interests lmfao

My posts will be multi-fandom! The things I'm most likely to talk about are:

Homestuck

Minecraft Diaries

Seven Deadly Sins (Nanatsu no Taizai)

Genshin Impact

Honkai Star Rail

Identity V

Occasionally Animal Jam because it has a death grip on me

+ Whatever I feel like tbh!

I have not one artistic bone in my body, but I do like to create so most of the things I'll be posting about are things I've written which will mostly be original characters and! Playlists! I love music!!!

[b100b100ds]

Tiktok reminding me of the oreo game and while growing up undiagnosed autistic definitely impeded my ability to be a human person, the only good it did by me was making me react flat out disGUSTED when I was asked out as a victim of the oreo game and the people at my highschool never did it again because getting rejected by my weird ass in such a negative way was the most humiliating thing possible

[b100b100ds]

"Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams."

I know Redpastry is usually seen as enemies to lovers, but I like to think it means more towards forbidden romance than anything else! Not to say they weren't enemies, but I think it's a little irresponsible almost to not acknowledge that Pastry is actively in a cult and her hatred of cakes and therefore Red Velvet Cookie is in fact because of her cult ideology!

Not to say that Red Velvet is a saint by any means despite his difficult situation! Both people can be both in the wrong and in the right, and I think they had a very VERY slow slowburn as they figured each other out and why they are the way that they are in context of their situations.

In our ideal shipping world, they both got out of their bad situations, Pastry escaping the cult entirely and getting live a life of her own where she gets to have her own thoughts and opinions, Red Velvet no longer fighting for his life every single day and living a life for himself and not to push the ideals of someone he thought he could trust.

They're both victims in a very cultish sort of way and their undeniable chemistry lends itself to a fantastic dynamic of self-discovery on both sides! And sometimes that looks like cookies kissing.

The credit is in the icon, but I'll credit the artist (@raineadey here on tumblr!) just in case you can't see it! Also, if you are reading this and you are in fact the artist, if you're not comfortable with your art being a spotify playlist icon please just let me know!!

[b100b100ds]

"When are you gonna come down? When are you going to land?"

My personal interpretation of this ship probably doesn't align with the way a lot of the very few rarepair shippers see them however! Mercudust slots very perfectly in my little world where sapphirebell is the realest thing ever and mercurialbell are bitter exes!! So enjoy my little ship breakdown about planet mercury <3

I imagine that with Mercurial Knight's position of power and the responsibility that weighs heavy on his shoulders at all times, it's probably a great relief to know there's a person out there that understands the weight of that burden.

Mercurial is colder and harsher because he has had to turn away from everything that once meant something to him to be able to better fulfill his duty as the Mercurial Knight. Everything problem in the kingdom falls on him to figure out. Everything falls on him.

Except for the star that catches him. A traveler that has existed for so long the time no longer matters, I think Stardust would understand that Mercurial doesn't need someone that tells him to work more or less. He just needs someone who understands. Stardust has all the time in the world to understand.

The credit is in the icon, but I'll credit the artist (@anoddworld here on tumblr!) just in case you can't see it! Also, if you are reading this and you are in fact the artist, if you're not comfortable with your art being a spotify playlist icon please just let me know!!

[b100b100ds]

sometimes it takes a dissociative disorder to make something in May and only end up posting it in september :P

[b100b100ds]

"When my mind goes away, oh, I hope that you’ll be near me."

I wish I could communicate the true joy I experienced upon seeing these two incredibly tragic characters and their relationship for the first time. Tragic and doomed romance my beloved. Hurt no comfort <3

There is something so deeply tragic about watching Pavlova try to convince Sugarfly to be the person she always was and had simply lost. He so desperately wanted her to have for herself the one thing he would never have: freedom. He had loved her for who she was authentically, not who she was when she was dimmed.

It's exactly why she doesn't even turn to look at him when she remembers herself and leaves the garden. She is freedom, she's the bird that flew when the birdcage opened, and he watched her leave because he loved her too much to ask her to stay.

The credit is in the icon, but I'll credit the artist (@/kazukiBooo on twitter!) just in case you can't see it! Also, if you are reading this and you are in fact the artist, if you're not comfortable with your art being a spotify playlist icon please just let me know!!

[b100b100ds]

"My love is sick, it’s messy and wrong; but I pray for a bit of contagion."

Eternal Sugar and Hollyberry are a deeply personal and special pairing to me as someone with BPD as I believe Eternal Sugar is portrayed as a borderline that has been enabled for far too long, and finally has a person that can both guide her back down to planet earth, but also establish the boundaries that they both need.

Eternal Sugar did not need to be defeated. She needed to be loved, not adored. She needed someone who could stand her ground and understand the boundaries and distance the both of them needed just as much as the closeness and understanding.

Hollyberry needed someone on her level, someone she doesn't need to save or protect. She needed someone to understand her and someone willing to wait for her.

The credit is in the icon, but I'll credit the artist (@/TheOreoz on twitter!) just in case you can't see it! Also, if you are reading this and you are in fact the artist, if you're not comfortable with your art being a spotify playlist icon please just let me know!!

[b100b100ds]

"And I don't even know who I used to be, but nothing is the same, and some things have to change."

Secret ship I have that I found out has a community so obviously I had to make a playlist about it.

Welcome to mysticspice, where you two are some of the only people who can understand the isolation that haunts you despite being surrounded by people! Where the two of you are the only ones who understand the helplessness of it all and then can do nothing but watch as the other falls from the heights down into something that's a shadow of what you used to be!

Though, that's not quite what you had become. You became something new, and misery loves company. A misery shared is however, also a misery halved. You cannot rekindle the same connection you had before the end of the world, but you can build something new. You can figure out who you are now, together.

You have no spectators this time.

The credit is in the icon, but I'll credit the artist (@shipshinaa here on tumblr!) just in case you can't see it! Also, if you are reading this and you are in fact the artist, if you're not comfortable with your art being a spotify playlist icon please just let me know!!

[gh0stofyesterday]

happy late bday ellie !! ahh i love her smmm

[b100b100ds]

SHE'S SO GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you elizabeth liones

[b100b100ds]

ladies and gentlemen this is not a drill the ship playlist I made for my friend's selfship that I labeled completely like a canon character ship playlist has a follow on it that is not someone I know. I repeat someone I do not know liked my selfship playlist so much they put it in their pocket. we win these

[a-silly-poll-side-blog-yay]

You get a million dollars, but your most recent google search is tattooed on your forehead Taking the deal?

yes

no

this is sooo bad

might use this as a conversation starter ngl

results

Voting ended onJun 9, 2025

Edit: THE ONLY CONDITION FOR GETTING THE MONEY IS THAT YOU CAN'T REMOVE THE TATTOO

[b100b100ds]

[faierius]

Why is Kermit censored, Amazon? 😭 (I found the ad on FB first, the went to the listing. Both are censored.)

[the-muppet-joker]

Amazon censoring Kermit as if he is some kind of Sex Object ?! Yes he is very sensual and looking at him makes me Groan but he is more than that Amazon! The Woke Left will not stop until every Muppet Image is censored and then What Am I Supposed To Jack Off To? Pronouns?

[b100b100ds]

b100b100d cookie run update not that anyone actually cares, i just like yapping

the power scaling of the sapphireBells account and my top 15 strongest cookies

honorable mention to this homotron that i cannot manage to get a higher power level than my god damn sea fairy

[dynamyte16]

pov me telling someone i like the seven deadly sins

[gay-mormon-wizard]

today I used the phrase "breasting boobily" in casual real life conversation and everyone was shocked asking how I came up with that and I had to explain it. ive been at the devil's sacrament so long that I forgot he wasn't god

[lets-burn-down-the-post-office]

“I’ve been at the devil’s sacrament so long I forgot he wasn’t god” is getting added to the tumblr line book

[b100b100ds]

crazy things happening in PV elite 2

[b100b100ds]

I only just now posted the sapphirebell playlist but it just sitting on my profile public on spotify made it one of my most saved playlists. the gays are starved