finally made a rabbot playlist and wanted to draw the cover ! half inspired by the idea of praying with rosary beads, something something. linked it here in case anybody wanted to listen :3
Wanted to make a key of Keep Yourself AU's playlist for its section of my pinned post to even things out w/ Van AU.
A lot of the songs I chose for this series have been changed around, so I won't be italicizing lyrical differences, there's just too many. I've emphasized important lines instead.
Intent key: Gen 🎵 (3), Finnfern🌿☄️ (7), Fionnel🕷️🦋 (1)
🎵 The Wild, Set Ourselves Free. Sung to Finn in ch1 after his first flashback. Only one line is in the fic but the rest of it is below. A song Fern wrote in canon Ooo and went on to write again in the wish world, though ignorant of most of the meaning buried in it.
Don't think I won't be there if you need me
It's just sometimes I get scared too
And I know that my fears, they are unfounded
It's just this thing that lives inside my brain
If I could just remember what you told me
That "fear leads to shame and you're not to blame"
I felt like shit when I left and you wanted me to stay
But it felt good when I broke, when I gave all of you away
Oh it's weird and it's strange, but it's nice when things work out that way
So we fight with our head held high
And we won't back down from these wars in this world
From this war in our soul
We just have to believe
We can set ourself free
🎵 Little Foot, Growing Up is Giving Up. Finn's mourning of his youth and the loss of his zest for life as he grows apathetic to the world around him. Played to Bronwyn in ch3.
Well, there ain't no doubt that growin' up sucks
But I remember being a kid and thinkin' I just wanna be old enough
I don't wanna do the dishes, I don't wanna go to work
I wanna sleep all day and drink all night until my insides hurt
Well, there comes a time, in everyone's life
Where you really open up your eyes and start to realize
That there ain't no pride, in workin' nine to five
If you hate your life, why not do something about that tonight
I don't wanna clean my room, rather be living in a van[...]
🌿☄️ Stick and Poke, Counting. Looking back on Fern's early days & Finn's development of a wish/regret of his treatment. Played to Fern in ch3 while in a state of dissociative fugue. Written in his early 20's and played the most, it's the song he most easily remembers through the wish wall.
Do you remember when you were new,
and I saw you almost every day
It was so nice to meet someone who mirrored back my awkward ways
But you were gone much too soon, and I hope that you don't mind
That I come to you instead, to be lit up in your eyes
I wanna breathe you in, I wish I took your hand
I want a do over to treat you like I always should’a been
Now everywhere I go the water shows me your face
And I'm counting down the days 'til I can see you again
I miss your sharp little smile, and braiding your hair
I miss the feeling of your body, when I could still hold you near
How did this happen so fast, in such little time
My mistakes haunt me in ev'ry reflection of mine
I hated the day you had me plant you under a gold, war-torn sky
How you scattered through my fingers, to shade us under your new guise
But life is long and I know, this can't be the last time
Won’t let these months I've spent with you be the last in my life
I’m gonna breathe you in, I’m gonna take your hand,
I’m gonna show you how I see you and how I always have,
Everywhere I go the water shows me your face
I am counting down the days, til I can see you again.
🌿☄️ Stick and Poke, Weary Traveler. A song sung to the Fern tree in ch3 as a replacement for a confession. Finn's admission of love, and his last goodbye, trusting that they'll find each other again before "eternity" is over.
Oh, darling, if I take your hand
Will we travel far out West, far across the ocean
'Cause anywhere is home with you
I'll keep on going 'til the world is new
It's your hands in mine I desired
Smoke leaks from your mouth, 'cause my heart is on fire
But your traveling song is not like mine
Our paths are different but we'll meet up in time
'Cause I'm a weary traveler, you're an aimless wanderer
You’re anxious, I’m unwary, I’m reckless and you're fairly volatile and unruly, we're bound to meet up surely in due time
Our stories are forever entwined
[...]
I’ll rewrite our parts 'til we're both at peace
But I know it's not our fate
To suffer through all my misguided mistakes
🌿☄️ Stick and Poke, Distance. ch4. The first song Finn sings to the Fern Tree. Describes memories fading, & frustration at that loss.
It’s been so long since I saw you last
I can barely see you in myself anymore
And when I catch a reflection of you
It feels like I am being haunted by the war
And I know in my heart it’s real
But I still can’t help but feel
Like any of you was nothing but a dream
Guess this is what it’s like to really miss someone
But with all this time away
The memories steadily fade
Until the thought of you seems wholly make believe
Guess this is what it’s like to really miss someone
It’s been so long since I saw you last
I can’t remember what you feel like anymore
And when I compromise by hugging myself
Your absence resonates too loud to be ignored
🎵 Little Foot, Housed Up and Wanderlust. Finn's goodbye song to PB/Marceline, ch4. He knows if he talks to them that leaves room for argument/counterpoints since they struggle to conceptualize the depths of his ennui.
I'm stuck here waiting for a break that I'll never get
I'm through with it, I thought I could be okay for a bit, but I'm getting sick
Soon I'll hit the road, and for good this time
No, I'm never comin' back, so don't try to weigh me down
Hold me back, you'll be wasting time, and I could still be saving mine
But there's just something that I should say before I go away
I'm so thankful for my friends and all of the times we made
🌿☄️ Stick and Poke, Running. A song Finn harangues Fern into playing for him as payback a la "you owe me." Describes Fern's resolve to be an everlasting, silent shoulder of support during its time as the tree. I consider this to be the "mascot song" of the main fic since ch4 ends with it.
Conversations, running one sided through my mind
Am I still coming off unkind, or is it just in my head?
Loneliness rushes back as you leave my sight
I need some time to unwind, but not enough to bring me back to where I was
But I can see it still, I swear that I can see it still
But you can't change the way the wind blows through this tree
And how with it you scattered, through the world away from my leaves
If you can’t bear to stay close to me
I promise I will always be right here waiting
There was a time when we were closer than any kin
I had no need to pretend, but it's not like that now
Cutting ties, I never meant to see it end
But it was too hard to spend so much time trying to fit into your life
But I can see it still, I swear sometimes I want it still
I am looking back on the life that we have lived
How did I lose track of how it felt to be your friend
Oh please take me back to my brand new days of summer
Before we learned separation signified the beginning of the end
Yet you can't change the way the wind blows through this tree
And how with it you scattered, through life away from my leaves
If by chance our paths happen to cross or meet
I promise I will always be right here waiting
🌿☄️ Junkyard Dogs, Loose Screws. In Oneirogenic Coalescence. Something Finn wrote but never played in canon Ooo out of guilt.
My sweet love I’ll sing you a song
cuz grief is heavier than lead
when I woke up this morning
it was thoughts of you that haunted my head
and I think about the way your sharpened down smile
would light up a room like a burning trash pile
stop your leaves from falling cuz I’m
not ready to say goodbye yet
And I’ll write you these sad songs
for those minor chords that ring out as you grow
but I’ll fill em with majors and sevenths cuz I hope I am not alone
[...]
I have lost my most loved ones in the span of only three years
I’ll be waiting in that tree’s limbs just wishing that you’d reappear
I see an old dog running
hear a viola plucking and it brings me to tears
who’s gonna set me to rights ‘bout all this shit in life
now that he’s not here
wish the world would warn me when the end is so damn near
I’ll remember you as a ghost
I will sing your songs
ain’t it ironic how our vault feels heavier now with the curse gone
Ain’t gotta worry about our soul being saved
cuz if they sent you to heaven your roots would spread decay
and I ain’t gotta worry if you’re doing well
Turns out life without you's a short story to tell
I'll see you soon to walk me through the gates of hell
🌿☄️ Stick and Poke, Summer. In From Dec to Sept. A song that Marceline helps Fern write since her mind is still muddled from being a tree for ten years. Describes Fern's time waiting for Finn to finally make his wish/looking forward to getting a second chance to get things right.
I’ve had a long dark winter
Staying awake became so hard
The only thing that kept me together
Was the thought our spring was soon to start
We're gonna walk these roads again
Just like we should have way back then
All I need is the sunlight, and your hand
I hope our summer never ends
No longer sleeping with the trees
Subconscious maps meant to guide our feet
Where mirrors won't make you feel alone
In a world like this we can rest our weary bones
I wanna start forgetting the feelings that brought me down before
And stop regretting all the times we’ve hurt one another
So let's get to setting off on the road to sometime new
Just me and you
🌿☄️ Matt Pless, Bloodshot Baby Blues. In From Dec to Sept. Sung by Fern as he's trying to get Bonnie to go to sleep. Describes its silent thoughts as the tree with Finn's comings and goings.
Well, it seems my love always comes and goes
What’s a two-way street he thinks a dead end road
Took a fast lane ride through my danger zone
I grew myself around you, shooting star
It’s a guilty pleasure we should ignore
Oh, I can't quite tell what you've got in store
But one thing's for sure, been your kind before
You don’t know it but I’m never far
It's a long way back from our broken heart
If you get too close, then we’ve gone too far
Now I'm getting soft cause I fell too hard
Trying to root into your shaky ground
You can pass the buck but here's my two cents:
I’m a cheap rendition, a counterfeit
Just a worthless waste of the time you spent
Shoulda never laid your money down
You're falling with my leaves from the chill in the breeze
You're fleeting like the songs you play to the trees
But either way, you'll find me waitin’ up all spring
Patience running thin for the words you’ll bring
And give me a little pick-me-up to get me through
Tomorrow you’ll be moving on to someone new
You're my Jekyll and my Hyde and the disguise between the two
With your bloodshot baby blues
🕷️🦋 Stick and Poke, I Don't Even Smoke. Red String Theory. A short song that Cake interrupts as Fionna sings to herself in the aftermath of Fennel rejecting her/moving in with Hunter. Full changed lyrics below, only the first few lines are in the fic itself.
I am pretty bad for you
And you’re really bad for me
And sure it took some time for me to realize the cold reality
I’m gonna stay in bed today cuz I just might pass out
There’s no room for me to think in this crowded tree house
And I can’t handle
Oh, my glob, not another awkward encounter
Oh, my glob, my anxieties are in the gutter
Oh, my glob, I think- [...] (you could be my biggest regret)
What I couldn't understand was that my heart beats in your chest
Between your leaves and in your weeds, where our soul forever rests
Now we'll never get to know because you burnt that bridge up fast
It's claustrophobic in this room and I don't wanna pass by you
The rest of the playlist are songs for future comics or installments and will be compiled to this if/when that happens. The one exception is Kokoronashi which someone sent to me as a suggestion, and I feel is more encapsulating of the AU as a whole (since it talks about wishing/what-ifs) rather than something I could use as a one-and-done.
Finally put my Guildow playlist up on YouTube for y’all to listen to. All 70 songs worth of it lmao. I’ll still definitely update this playlist the more songs I add and remove from it tho, so keep an eye out if you like the music I put in here!
