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22. Future Graphics Designer. Proud La Sallian. Laguna, Philippines! credits to the owners of the outline art in my sidebar image & avatar. :)

[babaengbeks-blog]

Summer’s over

Sampung araw na lang balik eskwela na naman. This time, it’s different. Ramdam kong magiging sobrang busy ako, like, mas busy pa sa mga nakalipas na school year and terms. Kasi ngayon, huling taon ko na (SANA pls), may thesis na rin. Individual pa ‘yong amin kaya ramdam na ramdam kong magiging busy talaga ako.

Kung nitong nakalipas na araw, every weekends may ganap kami sa tropahan, siguro next time, hindi na ko makakasama. And I am glad na bago pa man ako di makasama sa mga ganap na ‘yon, nakumpleto kaming tropahan. FINALLY! After ilang taon, ngayon lang ulit kami nakumpleto.

Oh well. See you next year!

[purplebuddhaquotes]

Maybe you have to know the darkness before you can appreciate the light.

Madeleine L’Engle

(via purplebuddhaquotes)

[babaengbeks-blog]

Summer na!

Finally! A break. Grabe itong second semester sa akin. Sobrang hard niya to the point na muntik na ko mawalan ng gana nang midterms. Imagine, nong prelims almost all of my grades are line of 9 (saradong 80 pinaka mababa. Hello, Envi!), tapos I got 99 pa sa isang major subjects ko. Pero nong midterms, damn! Ano nangyari? Ang dami kong absent, may exam ako sa major subject na hindi ko natapos, tapos halos hindi na ako kumilos non. Oh Ghad! Iniisip ko na nga non kung paano ko itatawid ang finals dahil ang konti lang ng puhunan ko nong midterms, but still, I am glad na na-survive ko 'yon. Gapang na gapang man pero at least I am still alive and barely breathing. Lol. Ngayon, internship naman ang pagkakaabalahan ko. Sana makapagstart na ako huhu. Tapos after nitong summer, fourth year na ako! F I N A L L Y! Puro major subjects na lang. Wala ng mga minor subjects na kung makapagdemand eh akala mo sila lang ang subject. Wiw! PERO.. P E R O... May design research na ko!! Huhu shit. That's thesis 1 y'all! And take note... I N D I V I D U A L ang thesis sa degree namin. Somehow, mas okay siya kasi at least mas magiging maalam ka sa topic mo. Pero damn! Help me. Have mercy on me. Pakiramdam ko mapaparosaryo ako araw-araw para makatapos ng thesis. Also, ngayong summer.. Wala kaming ganap kasi (1) no budget (2) GA-GRADUATE NA ANG ATE!!! Woo! Sa wakas! Six years in the making, because of financial problems and all pero grabe!! Stop schooling for a year (me) to give way to ate is definitely WORTH IT. Thank you, G! ☝🏼☝🏼☝🏼🙌🏼

[quotemadness]

If it is right, it happens — The main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away.

John Steinbeck (via quotemadness)

[tarrasheree]

I’ve been searching for happiness,

Ever since you stole the light from my life,

I can still feel your weight on my chest,

Hot breath against my face,

Stealing the air from my lungs,

Ever since you tore the clothes from my skin,

I haven’t been able to breathe again,

My chest feels like it’s caving in,

Happiness is a day I can catch my breath,

A night without fear, without waking in a sweat,

My version of happiness is finding refuge in my own skin,

Not remembering the colour of your eyes or the weight of your body,

I’ve been searching for happiness,

And no one knows why,

No one but you.

[quotemadness]

We all have our scars from loving someone too deeply. From wanting to protect someone too much.

Mei Tachibana (via quotemadness)

[quotemadness]

Not everyone you lose is a loss.

Unknown (via quotemadness)

[quotemadness]

And I’d choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I’d find you and I’d choose you.

Kiersten White (via quotemadness)

[babaengbeks-blog]

Less than a month, more than a week

Excited na akong pumasok! Pagkatapos ng isang taon (minus 3 months na nagkaron ako ng temporary work) lalakad at lalakad at lalakad na naman ulit ako sa campus namin. Pero, hindi naman sa mismong klase ako na-eexcite. Kasi bukod sa iba na makakasama ko, eh wala pa akong kilala don. Hello, kiddos! Mas nae-excite ako sa pagbili ng gamit. Kahit na ballpen at notebook lang naman talaga ang kailangan ko. Kasi syet, hello. Blank notebooks are life, highlighters are lifer, but pens are lifest. Dahil lang talaga sa kanila kaya ako nae-excite. Di rin naman exciting ang schedule ko kahit na 3 days lang pasok ko. Kasi ibig sabihin non, less din ang baon ko. Kaso wala naman akong magagawa kasi yung Thursday at Friday ay puro pang gabi na sched. Ayaw ko naman non dahil Laguna-Cavite gaming tayo everyday. 😂😂 So, bahala na. ✨

[booksquoteslove]

If I have learned anything in this long life of mine, it is this: in love we find out who we want to be; in war we find out who we are.

Kristin Hannah, The Nightingale (via booksquoteslove)

[asterosian]

Whatever you draw, whatever you write, as long as you tried, it's good enough. Don't stop just because you think it's bad. If it makes you happy, it's good enough.

[babaengbeks-blog]

Nakakafrustrate 'tong pinagdadaanan ko. Haha!

[quotemadness]

It may be the wrong decision, but fuck it, it’s mine.

Mark Z. Danielewski (via quotemadness)

[babaengbeks-blog]

Suko na ako.

Nitong mga nakaraang araw o linggo(?) sa kababasa ko nang kung anu-anong posts, blogs, stories o ano para na akong naliwanagan. Parang ito na. Parang na-restart na yung kaloob-looban ko. Parang back to 0 na ulit yung puso ko. Pero. PERO. Alam kong nasa kaibunturan ng puso ko nagtatago lahat ng ~feels~ na nararamdaman ko noon. Ewan! Basta pakiramdam ko bago na ulit ako. Kung dati gulong-gulo ako dahil sa crush ko at sa ex ko. I mean, halos ibigay ko lahat ng gusto ng crush ko tapos sa ex ko naman nakatatak na sa utak kong willing ako maghintay. Mga ganon ba. Pero ngayon... Ahhhhh! Wala na. Wala na akong nararamdaman. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba okay na okay na ako o dahil namamanhid na ko? Hahahaha charot. Syempre doon ako sa positive side no.. Alam kong okay na ako. Let go of the past, check na check ko na. From now on, I will live from the present and pray for the future. Para sa'yo crush, sana sagutin ka na niyang nililigawan mo. Thank you dahil naparamdam mo sakin na ka-date date pa rin pala ako kahit na 2 months tayong naglokohan. Hahaha! Charot. Assuming kasi ako non. Ganon. So, ngayon bye na! Para sa'yo ex, tangina mo eh no? Anim na taon nang nakalipas pero nasa sistema pa rin kita? Ganon pa rin epekto mo. Pakakawalan na kita ng buo kahit na alam kong hinding hindi ka na mawawalan ng parte sa puso ko. Ayos na yon. Basta masaya ka, momove on na ko. Hindi na kita hihintayin. Baka makatanggap na kami ng invitation para sa kasal niyo eh? Charot. Sige, pakasaya ka. Para sa sarili ko, hahahaha! I am so proud of myself for being brave enough to finally let go of the past. Yey me! Sana mapanindigan mo itong lahat self. Kaya mo yan. Focus on yourself and be happy. Just go with the flow. Don't look back. Pray for the future. And enjoy life. Enjoy goya. Charot.

[quotejunkiie]

- Lang Leav / Talk Again

[thesecretletter]

I still think about you every day. I wish I didn’t. I wish I didn’t have memories of how your lips felt on mine. Memories of how warm your hands were on my cold body. But I do. And I wish I didn’t miss all of that. Because you aren’t a good person. You cheat and you lie and you use me for pleasure and throw me away when it’s no longer convenient. But you’re usually one of the first things that comes to mind in the morning. You’re a daydream that I linger in until it hurts me. You’re a love I wish I could get rid of, but part of me keeps saying that you’ll come back one day. If you ever decide to….I’ll be here…and no matter how much I would tell myself not to, I would come back for you.

Your secrets are safe here (via thelovewhisperer)

[thesecretletter]

Why do I feel like I’m screaming at a wall? I’m waiting to be heard by you. I know that you have other things going on that are so much better than I am. I can’t help but feel like things are finally going well for you, and you’re not taking me with you.

Your secrets are safe here (via thelovewhisperer)