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[babiemingoo]

death by a thousand cuts | ljh

some people considered you lucky to be jihoon’s first love. you were the first person he’s ever got lost in. you were loved by someone who could sew sonnets together with melodies to create a biography about you; not much people could say they were loved that much.

not a lot of people could say they kept their first love, either. you were lucky to be jihoon’s first. you were unlucky to be jihoon’s first. all the intensity he had stored away in anticipation for a relationship had been poured into loving you, and although it was exhilarating, it was also a thousand times more painful when jihoon realized first doesn’t mean last.

there wasn’t a part of you that jihoon hadn’t come to known. when all was said and done, and your chapter in his life was completed, there was no running away from the memories. the love he had for you was immortalized in the songs he wrote about you. every listen was another cut to the heart that jihoon had eventually decided to leave behind.

[babiemingoo]

cornelia street | kmg

mingyu was perfect. you knew it, he knew it, everyone knew it. you remember being so infatuated with him that you had convinced yourself he would never want to be with you. why would he want to be with you when he was him? when he could cherry pick any person in the world and they would fall onto his lap?

mingyu did pick you, though. you were what he wanted. but after self sabotaging so much, you had left yourself in state that was irreparable. you should’ve been elated that mingyu wanted you, but you were too busy trying to prepare yourself for the moment he would change his mind. you were readying yourself for what you thought was unavoidable: a time when he would want someone that wasn’t you.

your insecurities lead you to worrying about losing mingyu more than you enjoyed being with him. he tried to be understanding, and reassuring. his temper is short, though, and your mind had be made before he had even picked you. 

eventually, you would make yourself too hard to love - even for mingyu.

[bbugyu]

i saw someone else post this and thought it would be fun to do! what aesthetic would you assign or use to describe to some of your mutuals? ps i love your writing :]

oh omg!!! this is so cute!!! yes absolutely i'll do this. these arent gonna be established aesthetics tho bc that would be too easy im just gonna ramble about how they make me feel.

to my moots i'm so sorry if ur not here i'm just including the folks i talk to outside of tumblr because they're the ones i have the best knowledge of 💔 love all of you though!!!

@secndlife - karol is like nights that bleed into early mornings. like staying up too late and deciding to make coffee because you would rather sit on the roof with a blanket and watch the sunrise than go to sleep. she's like hand arranging bouquets of flowers in clear glass vases for the kitchen counter. she makes me want to pull out my ukulele and sing soft gay love songs by kehlani.

@babiemingoo - krys is all fun and games without the "until." like walking to a convenience store on a whim because you want instant ramen and chips. like going minigolfing and trying to get a hole in one by trying to pop your ball over a bush. like dancing in the living room without caring about your downstairs neighbors. she makes me want to sing out loud on the streets while it's raining.

@ahloveisboo - jo is like the comfort of a fresh white duvet. like sleeping in and waking up to sunshine streaming in through the window, and bringing a cup of tea back to bed. like singing along to music while you do dishes on a day off. like cuddling with a cat while you read a book, even though the cat keeps putting their paw on the page. she makes me want to keep learning and growing.

[babiemingoo]

my gyuldaengi swiftie heart waiting for a Taylor song mingyu blurb!!! 🥺

welllll just for you anon, I will make sure gyu's is the next one I post!

[spoiler: it's cornelia street hehe]

[babiemingoo]

it makes me so happy to see you writing again!! hope you're doing well and taking care of yourself 💗

aww thank you so much! ❤️❤️ at the core of it all I really do love writing, and even if I can only do them in small blurbs like this it is making me so happy to dip my toes back in again.

I hope you’re doing well too and please stay safe and healthy! 💖

[babiemingoo]

UM DEATH BY A THOUSAND CUTS?!?! I NEED A TEAR STAINED HANDWRITTEN APOLOGY ASAP

ANON IM SO SORRYDFSKJFDSJKDFSJKL craziest thing is that jihoon's hurts but..... his is definitely not the most heartbreaking one i've written lol

[babiemingoo]

hi you're one of my favorite authors here. I've read your pinned post so don't worry I'm not telling you to update u-know-what 😂 but after reading your mr. perfectly fine, i wanted to share this, from a fellow swiftie!

your u-know-what character mingyu reminds me of the song Daylight by Taylor swift 🥺 truly magical and i love the song i love the character.

thank you for writing so many good scenarios, I love them. Hope you have a great day

AAAAA anon thank you so much!! 💖💖 not only for loving my writing, but even just continuing to appreciate it until now! honestly these little taylor swift blurbs are some of the most fun i’ve had with writing in SO long and i’m so happy other swiftie x carats are finding them to enjoy c: it makes my heart so happy

ALSO DAYLIGHT IS LITERALLYYYYYY BROTHERHOOD GYU 😭😭😭 it really holds the essence of how I imagine his feelings towards y/n are…. perhaps if I ever bring the fic back I will name a chapter daylight, in your honor hehe

thank you so much for this ask, it seriously made my day! I cant wait to post more of these blurbs for people to stumble upon! ❤️ (also you can say brotherhood, i’m actually a lot more comfortable talking about it now hehe)

[babiemingoo]

the way i loved you | ksy

soonyoung’s love was always a rollercoaster ride, of too many feelings all at once. he was childish and fun, passionate and loving; but he was also curses and screams, a storm with all the thunderclouds coming through in a wake when you least expect it.

years after your pulsating relationship is over, you’re with someone who knows calmness and communication. he’s everything you should be dreaming of.

but every moment with soonyoung was a thrill ride. he was an adventure personified, and there was something sick and twisted in an adrenaline rush. putting your well being on the line for the high points in life. being with soonyoung was a heart pumping sensation, chased with a terrifying, toxic hangover.

there was something sick and twisted in loving kwon soonyoung.

[babiemingoo]

superman | csc

“i love you more than anything else,” he had said.

you knew it was a lie.

you wanted nothing more than there to be truth behind his words, or even just for you to believe what they were. but it had become so apparent that seungcheol loved his job more than anything - or anyone - else in the world.

but you love him the most. he was everything you had ever dreamt of, and in those moments where he wasn’t enthralled by his career, you were able to entertain the thought that one day you would become the first thing he thought of when he woke up and before he went to bed.

your helpless love for seungcheol is what causes you to pass by being second best. if he wanted to put you after his work, then you would let him; as long as you got to keep him for just a little longer.

“i love you too.”

[babiemingoo]

mr.perfectly fine | jeon wonwoo

notorious for hiding his vulnerability, wonwoo has come to a point where he can’t find that side of himself even if he went looking. it’s not that he doesn’t trust you; you’re the one person he could see holding every part of himself without any worry. but wonwoo has programmed his mind to see vulnerability as a weakness. now, his lack of emotion and openness has become the only weakness he cares about. it’s the thing that pushed you away.

you left because he wouldn’t share enough of himself with you. because he couldn’t share enough of himself with you. arguments turned into fights, fights turned into him apologizing and tucking away his feelings because that’s all he’s ever known how to do. now you’re gone, thinking that he never really had a deeper connection with you. that everything he said were just fantasies he created in hope of keeping you. they were so, so much more.

you think he’s fine without you. but he’s not - and he won’t ever be.

[babiemingoo]

in honor of my biggest inspiration taylor swift releasing red (taylor’s version) <3 here is a random wonwoo thing i wrote a few months ago based off of mr. perfectly fine lol

[babiemingoo]

mr.perfectly fine | jww

notorious for hiding his vulnerability, wonwoo has come to a point where he can’t find that side of himself even if he went looking. it’s not that he doesn’t trust you; you’re the one person he could see holding every part of himself without any worry. but wonwoo has programmed his mind to see vulnerability as a weakness. now, his lack of emotion and openness has become the only weakness he cares about. it’s the thing that pushed you away.

you left because he wouldn’t share enough of himself with you. because he couldn’t share enough of himself with you. arguments turned into fights, fights turned into him apologizing and tucking away his feelings because that’s all he’s ever known how to do. now you’re gone, thinking that he never really had a deeper connection with you. that everything he said were just fantasies he created in hope of keeping you. they were so, so much more.

you think he’s fine without you. but he’s not - and he won’t ever be.

[babiemingoo]

i just binged brotherhood and enmity and as someone in greek life i am so impressed at how ACCURATE your plotpoints have been regarding the frats and sororities!! also your character development is just so realistic and well done, i hope you keep going with the story because you're a fantastic writer.

HIIII OMFG I KNOW THIS IS SUPER LATE BUT I REALLY WANTED TO ANSWER THIS ASK because i’m so happy someone else who is/was apart of greek life approves of the drama I added in here LMAO a lot of it was my own experiences over the however many years but! i’m glad I portrayed it all accurately c: thank you sosososo much for reading it even if it’s at a standstill now. I appreciate it so much! <3

[babiemingoo]

hello lomls

I bet you’re all sick of all these random text blocks I always post lol but I felt like this specific statement? thought? was something that i’ve wanted to share for a while but I kept telling myself that if I just pushed on I wouldn’t have to but ~obviously~ this is not the case. so I shall just lay it all out there with all my thoughts regarding this blog and more specifically, enmity.  this ended up being super long so I apologize in advance. i’ll put it under the cut for all of you.

to put it frankly, there is a specific reason as to why I haven’t written or posted enmity, or anything, in months. brotherhood/enmity used to be my proudest work and it was the thing I enjoyed posting the most, however with where the story is at right now I just have 0 inspiration for it (even though I have the entire story planned already) and i’m more than aware that 90% of people who visit my blog are only here for enmity. and that’s okay! but having so much pressure on me to provide this one story that I really can’t find the motivation for me to write, has turned into me literally getting anxiety whenever I come onto tumblr. i’m sure it’ll sound stupid to some of you but just thinking about enmity takes a toll on my mental health and I avoid it at all costs, which is a big reason as to why I haven’t posted it and have avoided this blog for so long. in addition to that, i’ve still been writing here and there. I have things that of course I would love to post and share. but i’m sure at this point if I were to post something that wasn’t enmity, someone would reply or send an ask like “where’s enmity?” and I get it!!! it’s what makes my blog (somewhat lol) relevant and it’s what people love and I am so so so so so grateful for that. but even without me posting anything else, people have still sent messages and asks complaining about me not posting enmity (as well as really nice ones, dont worry I see you and I appreciate all the sweet words! <3), and I don’t want to take my time writing something that I love just to get feedback that asks about something that makes me hate this blog. so, that’s why I haven’t posted anything; because I know that someone will say something about it not being enmity, and it’d really hurt me after all the time i’ve spent dedicated to another piece of writing. of course, with addition to the toll this takes on me, I have other things going on at home. I personally am not one to share things going on in my personal life on the internet, so i’m going to be somewhat vague, but this is my last semester of college so school is more important to me now than ever. i also now have three jobs to try and stay afloat with the cutbacks the pandemic has caused, and i’m getting kicked out of my apartment in a couple of months. it’s a lot going on and me getting stressed out over a blog isn’t something that I can really be doing right now. so, now it really comes down to wtf am I gonna do with this blog. obviously i’ve been leaving it to sit for a while, hoping that once everything in my life settles down I can come back here because I really do love all of you and sharing my writing here with you. but still, every day someone finds brotherhood and enmity and starts to read, and even though I am SO grateful that people still somehow find this fic of mine and read and love it, I feel so so so horrible because they read for hours and then come to find out that I never finished it. I don’t want to lead people into dead ends anymore because I know the feeling of wanting to know the end of something and it sucks. tl;dr - I can’t handle the pressure of writing enmity anymore. a lot of stuff is going on in my life and adding that on isn’t helping. but I know that it would suck to post things I write and have people be disappointed that it’s not enmity. furthermore, people are still finding enmity and I feel horrible that it’s not finished. so, I really only have three options I can think of: 1. I delete this entire blog. this is what i’m leaning towards right now, because then everything gets erased and no one else has anymore expectations that I can’t live up to. people no longer will find enmity and be disappointed with the fact that it isn’t done. in my opinion this is the best option. 2. I keep the blog, but delete brotherhood and enmity. i’m sure this isn’t ideal either lol but the root of me avoiding this blog really is enmity. so, if it’s gone, maybe I could be just a tad bit more active here, or at least look forward to coming back once my life is more put together.  3. I keep doing what I’ve been doing and everyone just sits around and hopes that maybe i’ll come back? of course I want to come back and had every intention to do so, but with enmity up I can’t guarantee it, and I would still feel like shit knowing that people are waiting. so, personally this is my least favorite option because I feel like it gives you guys the short end of the stick, but technically it’s still an option. i’m so sorry that this got so long, but this is a lot that i’ve been feeling for a long long time and I don’t want to keep everyone in the dark anymore. honestly I feel horrible for how far I allowed this to go. but I hope you all understand that there were never any bad intentions and again i’m so sorry for being annoying. I appreciate you guys so much for all the love i’ve gotten on this blog and the patience you’ve shown me. I love you all so so so so so much.

[secndlife]

pairing: soonyoung x reader

genre: fluff, smut, very little angst

summary: when you met soonyoung, you thought he was probably one of the most annoying people you had ever encountered. the more you found yourself wrapped up in him, that thought didn’t really change. he was still annoying. annoyingly cute, annoyingly charming, and annoyingly exciting. and, before you realized, you were annoyingly in love.

word count: 33.2k (read on browser or desktop. mobile will kill you)

warnings: blowjob, fingering, face fucking, dirty talk, mutual masturbation, unprotected sex, hair pulling, creampie, mentions of role-playing.

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[bbugyu]

If you had to ship some of your tumblr friends with a sebongie, who would you ship with who?

SBDHXHABHXBABS OKAY LETS GO!

i’m not gonna get too detailed with this one bc i don’t wanna like ~expose~ my friends but i’m gonna put as much detail as i think they would be comfy with! also istg this is genuine i’m not just picking ppl based on bias lines OK this is just . personalities and baseline attraction. also i’m only doing this for my three besties <3 

@secndlife gets either mingyu or soonyoung. karol is SUPER caring (literally she tells me to eat food and drink water every day) and very attentive and both of them are people that need that. also! they would cuddle her endlessly. and give lots of verbal reassurances regarding how much and why they love her. :) maybe it’s because i’m a psychopath but i really do think leo + gemini is SO FUN like i think they would have tiny trust issues in each other but! they would talk it out really quickly and get right back to being HOPELESSLY GUSHY over each other we love to see it!! karol wants attention (even when she says she doesn’t) and soonyoung is SUPER CLINGY so i think he would do a great job of making her feel really needed and adored without even really meaning to. karol and soonyoung snuggling on the couch and talking about their days with a movie on in the background and just . enjoying company. im so sad

@kaleidoscope-of-roses i think would suit minghao or vernon a lot. i think they’re really similar in the way that they, like, consider how to address things really deeply and choose words carefully and speak genuinely and monet would!!! really love that!!! and do the same with them! also (this might upset ppl) but CANCER SCORPIO IS THE BEST COMBO IN THE ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD OK IT JUST IS I KNOW PPL HATE YALL BUT I LOVE YALL AND U WOULD SUIT EACH OTHER SO WELLLL i just think monet and minghao would be all sexy and intelligent and talk about their feelings all day like that’s... i love it yall would be the hottest couple on campus. i see u guys getting food at a cafe together and i start crying bc i’ll never be that hot

@babiemingoo really rEALLY REALLY would go well with seungcheol or seokmin. but i . listen this is hard for me to say because i’m in love with him but SEOKMIN WOULD ADORE KRYS SO MUCH i just. libra/aquarius <3 she can be really sarcastic and self depricating, which, like yeah, seokmin too, but they both get ANGRY when someone else says the same shit about themselves like... they would have LOVE ARGUMENTS about how stupid the other is for not seeing how perfect they are???? those two would reassure each other a lot and talk constantly and i know there’s this like perception that seokmin is innocent but bitch we all know he aint they would make the dumbest jokes about literally everything and everyone else would get sick of them like cry laughing with each other in the corner. also he would hug her constantly and just *chin on head* and i IJSDKLFJDSLKFKJDFSLK damn i wish i was short.

[bbugyu]

hi i think ur really swell and i love you lots can you write an essay on why wonwoo would sing really cute love songs to you as you fall asleep (maybe frank sinatra idk) ok i hope youre having the bestest day ily mwah

AGSHSHSHAHS I GOTCHU BABY this isn’t an essay but it is me being deep in my soft nonu feels 

as we all know, wonwoo is a certified sucker for a ballad. he’s such a hopeless romantic. he loves a simple love song. motherfucker would absolutely sing along to nice n easy any time it played. he’s probably got a playlist of ratpack hits that he hums along to while doing menial shit around the house with his sweet deep tone DHFJDSFD

but while you’re trying to sleep???? i imagine you haven’t been sleeping well for a while because you haven’t been able to sleep over and you got too used to having him around. and he’s worried about you. he can tell you’re exhausted and even though he’s not tired at all, he climbs into bed with you and pulls the covers up to your chin and you just curl up and your hand is gripping his tee. he’d be laying next to you, head propped up on his hand as he ran his other hand over your hair and face just watching you and quietly singing. he doesn’t know all the words but he knows the important parts and hums the melody when he doesn’t know the lyrics. 

“in other words,” he sings quietly, hand dropping to where yours is holding his shirt. “hold my hand.” your eyes are closed but you smile softly, not quite asleep but completely unable to open your eyes. “in other words,” he continues, bringing your hand to his lips and kissing your knuckles gently.

“baby, kiss me.”

and you just pry your eyes open and look up at him, your lids heavy from lack of sleep and too much work. he just drops his cheek off his own hand, leaning down to press kisses to your forehead, and all you can do is sigh happily and wrap your arms around him to cuddle him properly, listening to his sweet voice as you drift away.

it’s the best you’ve sleeped in a month.

[sichengtual]

— summary: wanting to make his big break as a song-writer, jun gets assigned to work with a band that has every intent on making it big. but it’s the 70’s, and just as he’s about to discover, love and rock&roll go hand in hand.

— pairing: wen junhui x reader.

— au: 70’s, song-writer!jun, rockstar!reader. 

— genre: fluff. 

— word count: 15, 273 (15.2k)

— playlist: somebody to love — queen ;  your song — elton john ; where you lead — carole king ;  tiny dancer — elton john. 

— warnings: alcohol consumption, some cursing, josh saying groovy every time he speaks.

— a/n: a part of me really wishes i was living in the 70′s and i think it shows here lol also, the moonwalker is inspired on the troubadour and the song jun writes is tiny dancer because it carried me the entire way, what an mvp. 

this one’s for @chocosvt​ ! i really hope you like it <3

Jun is nervous. 

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