alright someone told me over on twitter that you guys have found out about pawg patrol and hate them bc they harassed my friend (chili lady)
my twitter has also been completely been locked down for weeks bc of these losers attempting to threaten me bc naturally i defended my friend (they already had it out for me for defending other victims they’ve selected, some of whom are also my friends)
this is a whole thing and it goes back over a year but if it’s true that you guys are pro-chili lady then maybe i’ll have to spend more time over here and less over there, bc they have lost their minds over on twitter with the discourse let me tell you!!
honestly respect to those of you who never left, you knew something we didn’t. i left even before the mass exodus because of…porn? do i understand that correctly? it was years before that. i was a plucky 22 year old with the world ahead of me and now i’m a tired 29 year old sheepishly creeping back to the trauma dumping ground of my youth!
you’ll all be happy to know that my life is a lot better now than it was except for i have a kidney tumour with aneurysms in it and other kidney disease!! but i also have a hot boyfriend of almost three years who loves me and takes care of me and i got medicated for what was in hindsight pretty obviously bipolar disorder. anyways, he’s cute, look!! i’m not so cute anymore but i hardly care
i’ve been avoiding this space because i think over the last few months i was engulfed by a lot of “negative energy” and i didn’t really want to put that out into the world but here i am still trying to “find my way”
things are going pretty okay for me work-wise, i now get to manage my own client team. i can’t talk in specifics about my work really because a lot of it is top secret as per my non-disclosure contract but here are some interesting things i’ve been doing:
i do a lot of assigning work which means considering people’s strengths and assigning them tasks based on that. it’s a process that can be a little stressful when i’m in a bind and i just need people to get as much work done as possible, but it’s a learning process that i’m enthusiastic about and that i look forward to getting to work smoothly
i provide feedback and guidance and respond to any employee questions. i’ve gotten my own feedback from people working on my team saying that i’ve been pleasant to work with and that it shows that i really care about what i’m doing and that they never feel antagonized or singled out when i have to provide a suggestion for improvement. i also am responsible for fielding any questions people have (and there are a LOT as the work we do can get very complicated and strange situations for which there are no specific protocols often come up)
client communication has become a task i’m slowly learning to handle, which means responding to emails from clients, negotiating deadlines, requesting documentation, etc. etc. it can be stressful, but i have received quite a bit of positive feedback re: the quality of work from me and my team lately which really makes all of it worthwhile
communicating with other team leads for our other clients: some of the people on my team do work for other client teams and so i often have to sit down at the beginning of the day and determine how to prioritize work assignment, ask them if they can spare any of their employees to do work for me and vice versa
i also started acting as “evening office supervisor” in october. two days a week i work regular 9 am to 5 pm hours, but the other three days, i work 1 pm - to 9 pm. it definitely means a decrease in time spent for socializing outside of work, but i think it’s been a rewarding experience. because all other supervisory employees/my boss go home around 5, it’s my job to supervise the people who work from 5 - 9 pm. often it just means assigning them more work if they run out/fielding any questions they have, sometimes it gets more complicated than that. but i am liking it and i feel honoured to have been entrusted with this responsibility.
i’ve also befriended quite a few of my co-workers and we sometimes even hang out socially outside of work. having people who genuinely like you and enjoy your company working alongside you has made things so much better for me.
a year ago, i was still sort of overwhelmed by shyness/a complete lack of confidence/crippling low self-esteem, but i seem to have overcome A LOT of that. it’s definitely still not an easy task to, for instance, gather all my team members together and have a meeting where i’m doing the bulk of the talking/providing instruction while eight faces just stand around and listen to me talk for 15 minutes, but it’s something that i AM capable of doing whereas the me of a year ago would have denied any opportunity to have any attention focused on me. i have grown. i like what i’m doing and where i’m at and i like ME more for it.
