inside the head of a mentally ill girl

yearner extraordinare - beware

[barbiegrrll]

barbie ౨ৎ 15 - 17

𑣲 she / her , she / they , bisexual

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୨୧ - about me : the most amazing person you'll ever meet, mixed girlie, ambivert - more leaning extrovert these days, costal born and raised, city girl at heart, leftist feminist, vinyl and cd collector, anxious and depressed

୨୧ - hyperfixations / current interests : le sserafim, illit, aespa, katseye, suki waterhouse, lana del rey, kpop as a whole lol, writing

୨୧ - shows / movies : gilmore girls, how i met your mother, 10 things i hate about you, good girl jane, palm trees and power lines, ginny and georgia, superman (2025), the princess diaries, clueless, the crush, girl interrupted

୨୧ - music artists : sabrina carpenter, suki waterhouse, cortis, olivia rodrigo, lana del rey, ethel cain, taylor swift, paramore, infinity song, momo boyd, adela, pink pantheress, ive, illit, aespa, karlee girl, ariana grande, katseye, conan gray, charlotte lawrence, chappell roan, addison rae, and more!

୨୧ - dni : prn blogs, ed blogs, bigots (if you lean right, we gotta fight), inc3st blogs eugh

[dollyverblogz]

[barbiegrrll]

im making an 80s / 80s inspired yearning playlist, pleaseeee give me suggestions!

[barbiegrrll]

guys, if you get any tags from @128757812899856 just know ITS A SCAM. the link they use to get you to "verify your account" is flagged as dangerous and the site itself is a fake tumblr site set up to steal your credit card info !! DO NOT FALL FOR IT

please repost and spread the word !!

[barbiegrrll]

hmm i feel nauseous, i wonder why

(all i had today was takis and a burrito)

[barbiegrrll]

my angel number <3 hopefully it's a sign good things are coming my way

[barbiegrrll]

IT LITERALLY WENT DOWN???? OMG THE UNIVERSE SHOWED ME 444 FOR A REASON WHAT THE HELLYYYYY

[barbiegrrll]

my angel number <3 hopefully it's a sign good things are coming my way

[barbiegrrll]

went to the doctor and she said i was fine but every movie that i see makes me cry

its like somebody put a weight on my chest

i should talk to a friend but i cant get out of bed

my head is spinnin and my stomach is sick say im in love so its hard to admit

i cant eat i cant sleep i think youre whats wrong with me

[cherryst4rg1rl]

Oh to be a girl in the 80s waiting for her boyfriend to climb through her window is my dream

[barbiegrrll]

i desperately wish for flynn to climb through my window and hold me as we lay in bed together.

god im such a simp

[barbiegrrll]

lowkey, highkey... im gonna be making a playlist for exactly this

and best believe "i think we're alone now" is gonna be on that playlist brooooooooo RAHHHH. anywho, also give me suggestions for what to add as well

[barbiegrrll]

crazy how my 50th post was my intro

took me forever to make that thing

[barbiegrrll]

let me into your loveland

everyone go listen to suki waterhouse rn. if you like lana del rey (and i know yall do), youll probably like suki as well. suki is like the boho lana del rey, its amazing. im literally gonna make a playlist with both of their music in it and its gonna be peak.

i say these things because i just went and saw suki waterhouse, live, onstage. her beautiful british self was right there and i was right there and i saw her and her voice was just magical. she has such a beautiful tone and i just love it so so much.

and the openers were so amazing as well, i could not believe it. i got a polaroid picture of me and one of the openers, along with a postcard!! she signed both of them and i will be cherishing them with my life because its genuinely such an honor, likeeee omg and i was so excited to talk to her as well and she was so sweet and kind. she complemented my glasses and said she just bought the same kind as me! so we're literally twinning!

not to make it about flynn or anything (im obsessed, sue me), but i literally couldnt help but think about what it wouldve been like if he was there. there were so many girls with their partners and i was just like "omg i want that to be me."

i went with my mom - we go to all of our concerts together - and i loved it, i love having my mom with me when i go to concerts, shes like my rock.

but i also wondered what flynn wouldve thought about the performance. and how if we were together, maybe he'd be staring down at me as i watch the stage. he'd be admiring me and i'd be totally oblivious. but then i look up and our eyes meet. RAHHHHH SOMEONE RESTRAIN ME WHAT THE HELL

i swear im so bipolar with these posts. one minute im talking about a super depressing topic, the next im all "YAYYYY IM SO HAPPY!" like make up your mind please. gawd dayum

the concert was amazing, did i mention that? i got a vinyl (memoir of a sparklemuffin) and the tour poster!!! im just so happy and im also yearning so hard because i just spent almost 3 and a half hours listening to various love songs in a theater and love songs just make me feel things

everyone manifest flynn for me, then go beat him up because he STILL hasnt accepted my follow request. ts pmo frfr

i just have to be patient and be happy with the things that have come my way thus far. the concert was pretty much the highlight of my summer, i swear. it was so amazing

love yall! mwah mwah

[barbiegrrll]

collecting vinyls and cds is the best thing in the world. i love physical media

[barbiegrrll]

getting posters to crowd my wall with >>>>>

[barbiegrrll]

everyone ask me things about the concert i just went to!!!!

[barbiegrrll]

i think seeing suki waterhouse live has genuinely healed a part of my soul. that performance was so amazing, the openers were so amazing, the crowd was so amazing

i feel like im on cloud nine, honestly

[barbiegrrll]

can we put a stop do the idea that a man doing ANYTHING even slightly feminine makes him gay? it genuinely pmo

a man: "yeah i like having my space clean. it makes me feel nice." random person: "omg are you gay!!! cleaning is a WOMAN thing!"

a man: "i like wearing makeup, it boosts my self-confidence." random person: "holy crap, are you GAY??? makeup is for women!!!"

if you're like this, genuinely shut the hell up

[barbiegrrll]

guys i think im gonna start watching supernatural

i already find sam and dean incredibly fineeeeee and i see so much stuff about them on here and from my friends, so might as well watch it

ive also wanted to watch it forever, but lets pretend peer pressure made me do it