all flowers in time bend towards the sun

(i know you say there's no one for you / but here is one) jay. she/they.

[bardic-inspirjaytion]

my cringe has led me to places i wouldn't even go with a gun.

[human-pet-they]

normal guy playing wordle: "i really recommend ATONE and GUILT" for starting words

[psychotic-gerard]

multiple people have said being warned about inconvenient side effects helps dissuade them from starting substances, so here's a longer list.

if you're smoking it, you are going to be coughing a lot. you are going to be breathless a lot. your breath and smell are gonna be real bad.

if you're going to be snorting it. do you want to have a permanent sniffy nose? this is how you get a permanent sniffy nose.

if you're injecting it. you will develop weird painful spots and also itchiness.

in general: you are gonna be so tired and you will feel so evil and your sleep will not be normal and you will be pooping way too much or way too little and it will also stink and you will have really bad headaches. and your memory will get worse.

with alcohol - you will unlock evil nausea and grogginess and also you will have crazy dreams and general brain fog

with opiates - do you want to be itchy forever. this is how you be itchy forever.

with psychedelics - basically you will never feel hungry or tired again and no matter how much fun you think it is it is actually hell on earth to not be able to reset your body and you desperately need a reset and you have misplaced the button for reset.

with meth and the associated family -- You will feel your heart in places your heart should not be and also this never goes away

also not fun: spending money on things you cannot afford. and the slow realisation that you promised to never lose control. and then you did.

"i already experience these" Great. It gets worse. It gets so much worse.

"well I can't be addicted to stimulants because I have ADHD / opiates because I have chronic pain" I need you to know. This is a lie. The primary difference on why people experience withdrawals is the strength of the dosage. Also ignores the amount of disabled people who ended up addicted because they could not find their medication otherwise.

this post was written by an addict and if you're going to be weird about addiction do us both a favour and don't interact with me

[bardic-inspirjaytion]

"I'm doing this to cope with my pain, I hurt less when I'm drunk/high so I'm allowed to abuse a Substance to feel less miserable"

I'm so sorry to tell you this, but addiction will unlock entirely new and fucked up ways for your body to hurt.

parts of your GI tract that you didn't even KNOW could be angry at you are gonna start rioting and it's going to involve both ends. You're gonna shit yourself. You're gonna throw up. You're going to drive yourself crazy trying to figure out both how to get food into you and how to get it to stay there for the correct amount of time. Yes it's going to be worse than it is now. MUCH worse.

you want new headaches? Holy shit you got em.

you know what helps body pain? NOT getting obliterated enough that your limbs do whatever the hell they want and you don't feel it at the time. you'll absolutely feel it the next morning.

You want nerve pain? Buddy, they are NOT gonna be happy when the weighted blanket of your Substance wears off and they've gotten accustomed to having it.

and oh my GOD you are going to invent absolutely bonkers levels of fatigue. How tired are you now? Double it. Triple it.

Trying to patch over chronic pain with an addiction is like trying to bail out a sinking boat by dousing it in gasoline, hoping that means there's no room for the water to come in, and praying nothing sets off a spark. It's a dogshit plan. 0/10, don't recommend.

Bonus advice: ignore what Google says about how much is a problem or how often you're "allowed" to use or what an addiction clinically is. You'll try to bargain with those until the cows come home, and tell yourself that you're not doing X or haven't had Y consequence yet so you're fine and it doesn't apply to you, YOU'RE different.

(those consequences are coming for you, faster than you want to think.)

Instead, go by this:

The first time you tell yourself you're not going to use your Substance of choice tonight, and then you do it anyways, THAT'S your red flag. That's the last part of the line before the spiral really gets going.

Don't fuck around with it -- you've got your warning. Take it, and do whatever it takes to jump off that damn ride.

[memorycycle]

their scared cus they never saw a sandwich that big. but the dad has to look brave for his son

[hometoursandotherstuff]

[theblindarcher]

Lie or Die.

P from Lies of P, commissioned by crmsndragonfly17 on bsky!

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

well maybe you should blearily wake up at 5:08 in the pre-dawn light and find the sleeping soft tiny mammal body of your cat just inches from your head like a miracle too beautiful for speech, and you should rustle one hand out from your blankets to rub fingertip circles across the warm eggshell dome of her little velvet-wrapped skull and on the bristly patches just where the cups of her ears begin, and as she inclines her head into your fingers and purrs without ever opening her little eyes you should feel a love so tender that you understand how that love could have reached out from the fireside into the inky spangled nights long gone to reach her, and then you'll feel better

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

i am at a complete loss as to how to adequately express to you how much this cat throws up yeah

[can-i-make-image-descriptions]

[Image ID: Tumblr tag from hotTubSharts reading: and then maybe she'll wake you again at 6 to the sound of her puking on the floor. maybe /End ID]

[prokopetz]

I've never found it unrealistic when an adventure game protagonist can hear the faint echo of stone grinding upon stone and know by the sound alone that it must be that mysterious door they passed by twenty minutes ago spontaneously opening because these are just skills you develop when you live with cats.

[etriva]

from The Memory Palace, by Nate DiMeo

[thatpollguy]

Would you feel comfortable talking to your father about your mental health if you ever needed to?

Yes, because I know I can trust him to support me

Yes, although I'm not sure how he would respond

No, but not because of him, it's because I don't feel able to talk about it

No, because even though he would try, I don't think he would understand

No, because he wouldn't show much interest or would be too busy to listen

No, because he wouldn't care at all

I'm not in contact with him any more (e.g. we fell out permanently)

I've never met him or don't know him (e.g. adopted/fostered as a baby)

He's unwell and unable to support me (e.g. dementia, mental illness, etc.)

My father passed away

Other (feel free to add nuance in comments)

Voting ended onJun 14

[knightforflowers]

perhaps someday, if we can cross the bounds of time… we’ll meet again.

happy first anniversary to the release of Overture 🌹

(close ups)

[notkatniss]

taylor swift would release a 30th special edition of the tortured poets department to block the vampire lestats spot on the billboard chart and within 24 hrs travis kelce would go missing

[killxbunnygaming]

[podcastwizard]

my most toxic trait is i fucking love work gossip. i play neutral not to be the bigger person or take the high road but to hear slander and hearsay from every side. two coworkers complained about each other to me in the same afternoon and i nearly blacked out from the rush

[dance-on-the-bones]

Medieval AU 🗡️✨🗝️

[redzombie]

the throne of leyndell

[hypnosees]

he's casting spells