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Fucking life man

me: I refuse to be medicated I want to live my most authentic life Also me: I’m gonna fucking kill myself if my brain doesn’t make some fuckin happy juice

boywithbpd

my fp doesn’t fucking love me :))

thedarkperidot

Description of FP as told by a bpd individual:

If you suffer with BPD then you may have come across the term “favourite person,” or “FP” for short. It is a common setup for BPD individuals but is often mistaken for being a best friend by everyone else. ‘FP’ are individuals of whom you have a deep emotional dependence on, usually being deeply platonically in love. You may not know them well but they are a huge part of your life, and how they behave highly depends on your mood. They can be uplifting or crashing. You apologise for every small thing because you don’t want to give them any reason to go. Their company is like a drug, and you feel utterly empty without their presence. And if they do leave, it causes a big hole and perpetuates the theory of abandonment from which every BPD individual suffers with. FPs are soothing, comforting and consoling, but also dangerous, addictive and compulsive. They are more than a best friend, they are your lifeline.

thedarkperidot

Description of FP as told by a bpd individual:

If you suffer with BPD then you may have come across the term “favourite person,” or “FP” for short. It is a common setup for BPD individuals but is often mistaken for being a best friend by everyone else. ‘FP’ are individuals of whom you have a deep emotional dependence on, usually being deeply platonically in love. You may not know them well but they are a huge part of your life, and how they behave highly depends on your mood. They can be uplifting or crashing. You apologise for every small thing because you don’t want to give them any reason to go. Their company is like a drug, and you feel utterly empty without their presence. And if they do leave, it causes a big hole and perpetuates the theory of abandonment from which every BPD individual suffers with. FPs are soothing, comforting and consoling, but also dangerous, addictive and compulsive. They are more than a best friend, they are your lifeline.

bpdisfun

That bpd moment when you actually forget you’re a real person and your actions have real consequences, that your life isn’t a story and the people you interact with aren’t just characters and you find yourself doing things just for the narrative