Even though I’m slowly moving on, I still keep having dreams about you. I haven’t had them for a while now, but I had one today.
It perfectly showed what kind of relationship do we have now. We were sitting on a sofa, talking with someone, and I didn’t pay to much attention to you. But suddenly, you layed down on my lap and I automaticly put a pillow under your head, just to make you feel comfortable. The person, we talked to, disappeared and i was stroking your back. It seemed like you are falling asleep, then I woke up.
I went to work as usually, but then i was thinking about it… I know exactly what this dream means. It means that no matter what happens to us or how far we drift from each other, I will always care about you. If you would need help or you would be in trouble, I would still run and help you.
You never were just a crush, you were the eternal fall. I didn’t care how much you change during time, I’ve always fallen deeper and deeper in love with you. You always were and will be special to me, because of who you are and what you gave to me. You made me feel like this fake world is real and gave me back all the emotions I’ve lost. You made me feel like I’m worhy of love. I’m never gonna forget this.
So after all these thoughts, suddenly I said it out loud: If you would be here with me right now, laying on my lap and I could stroke you back like in my dream…I would be the happiest person in the world.
