I've been looking (very fondly) at the photos from the September Trip. What strikes me as I look at all of these is the intimacy. Unlike the NY trip, there are no friends around, it's all just them. We've seen Hudson hiking with friends but this is an exclusive trip. All the photos are made by the other or selfies. It's two people spending time together, getting to know each other beyond the filming set and reestablishing their relationship.
An archive of all Instagram posts with Hudson and Connor. All their comments to each other and about each other. All Heated Rivalry posts relating to them. Including all posts that have since been deleted/archived.
I think I need a minute, to figure out what is, what isnât âł
What was happening on âď¸âs side of the story last nightâ not the headlines, not the clips, not what people want to project â but what it probably feels like to be absent while đ is up there holding an award, thanking âthe one who doesnât want to be perceivedâ in this oddly dry, careful tone⌠and then turning around and talking about âď¸ like the warmth accidentally slips out of him. So I asked the cards, straight up: what is âď¸ sitting with in the aftermath â his connection to đ, the emotional breakdown of hearing that speech, how it lands in his body and his pride, and what it does to him knowing đ is balancing two lives in public while âď¸ is basically forced to exist in the ânot thereâ space. Iâm reading this one in order, like a timeline of what he clocked, what he swallowed, what he refused to say, and what heâs privately asking himself now that the night is over and the uncertainty is starting to feel less romantic and more exhausting.
1) 8 of wands â Ace of Cups â Temperance
This starts with speed + feelings + restraint.
âď¸ feels like something about last night moved fast â not necessarily âa huge announcement,â but that vibe of news traveling at light speed, either through social media, mutuals, a clip, a quote, a photo, or just that gut feeling of âoh, it happened.â And the Ace of cups right after? Thatâs the part people underestimate: the love/softness is still there. Even if âď¸ is quiet, even if heâs acting like heâs fine, thereâs still a tender place in him that reacts to đ like a bruise reacts to pressure.
But then Temperance comes in like a lid on the pot. This is âď¸ consciously regulating: âIâm not going to embarrass myself. Iâm not going to explode. Iâm not going to give anyone a clean screenshot.â Itâs him trying to keep his emotions from spilling into the wrong room.
Translation: âI feel it. Iâm not showing it.â
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2) 10 of swords â King of cups â 6 of cups â 5 of swords
Hereâs where it gets painfully real.
10 of swords is the moment where âď¸ looks at the whole situation and thinks, âThis is the part that always kills me.â Not necessarily âthe end,â but that sharp, humiliating sting of not being chosen publicly, not being present, being the warm mention from far away.
Then King of cups is literally âď¸ trying to be the adult about it: composed face, controlled voice, no messy posting, no impulsive reply. Itâs pride, self-respect, and emotional discipline.
But 6 of cups makes it clear why it hurts: thereâs real history/softness there. This isnât a random crush. This is the card that says, âI know who you are to me. And you know who I am to you.â
And then 5 of swords is the bitterness creeping in â not even necessarily at đ as a person, but at the game around him. This is âď¸ thinking:
⢠âWhy does it always have to be like this?â
⢠âWhy do I have to swallow my dignity to keep the peace?â
⢠âWhy does everyone else get to stand next to him except me?â
This is where âď¸ can start feeling like the connection keeps costing him something, even when heâs trying to be noble about it.
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3) The moon â King of swords â Queen of swords â Queen of cups â 7 of cups â Judgement â The world
This whole row is the big red flag of:
uncertainty â boundaries â deep emotion â spiraling scenarios â wake-up call â closing a cycle
The moon is the fog: âď¸ doesnât fully know whatâs real and whatâs performance. He doesnât know whatâs being said behind closed doors. He doesnât know if đ is happy, trapped, performing, appeasing, or genuinely trying to juggle two worlds without dropping either. The Moon is literally âI canât trust what Iâm seeing, but I still have to react to it.â
Then king of swords + queen of swords is the emotional shutdown turning into logic. This is âď¸ putting up mental walls and going: âOkay. Facts. Patterns. Consequences.â Itâs self-protection through detachment. It can also show him talking to himself like a lawyer: âWhat is the actual reality here? What does this mean long-term?â
But then queen of cups shows the truth: even when âď¸ tries to be cold, heâs not. Heâs deeply feeling. He just hides it well.
And then â 7 of cups: âď¸ looking at different scenarios and asking himself how long he can hang inside uncertainty. This is the mental slideshow:
⢠âDoes he actually want me or just the idea?â
⢠âIs she permanent or temporary?â
⢠âAm I being kept as the soft place to land while someone else gets the seat next to him?â
⢠âIs this ever going to become simple?â
Then Judgement hits: a realization. A threshold moment. The energy of: âI canât keep pretending this doesnât affect me.â Itâs not necessarily a breakup energy from âď¸, but it is a decision point in his heart. A line being drawn internally.
And The world as the last card of that row is huge: itâs the emotional posture of closing something so it doesnât keep bleeding. It can read like: âIâm not going to keep living inside an unfinished story.â Sometimes The World isnât âitâs over forever,â sometimes itâs âIâm changing how I participate.â
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4) T he high priestess â The tower â 10 of cups â The devil â 3 of cups â The emperor â 7 of swords
This is the row that tells us what last night did to âď¸ internally:
secrecy â shock â longing for the real thing â attachment â triangle fatigue â power dynamics â hiding/withholding
The high priestess is âď¸ keeping it private. Not talking. Watching. Feeling everything internally but not giving anyone the satisfaction of seeing him crack.
Then The tower is the hit: something about tonight triggers him. It could be a clip, a speech, a mention, the way đ thanked her vs the way he spoke about âď¸, the way the room felt, the way the story is being staged â whatever it is, it lands like a punch.
10 of cups is what âď¸ actually wants. Not drama. Not âmaybe.â Not crumbs. He wants the real alignment. The âweâre good and weâre together and it makes senseâ version.
Then The devil is the painful part: even if âď¸ wants to detach, heâs attached. That bond has gravity. Devil isnât always toxic â sometimes itâs obsession, longing, magnetism, the inability to stop caring.
And 3 of cups is the triangle card in the most literal way here.
This is exactly the inner energy: âď¸ is tired.
Itâs not cute anymore.
Itâs not âmysterious.â
Itâs exhausting.
The emperor adds that âtwo livesâ structure: rules, image, control, hierarchy. Somebody is trying to run this like a controlled system. And 7 of swords right after is the part where âď¸ starts feeling like the truth is being handled sideways â like there are half-moves, omissions, strategic silences. Itâs not that âď¸ thinks đ is evil; itâs more like: âThis situation makes liars out of everyone.â
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5) Page of Swords + 7 of wands (bottom of the deck)
Page of Swords is âď¸ watching. Checking. Pretending heâs not, but he is. Reading the room through a screen.
Siete de Bastos is âď¸ protecting himself. Defending his position internally. Trying not to get pushed out of the story by other voices, other people, other narratives.
This is where âď¸ can look calm externally but feel like heâs fighting for his dignity on the inside.
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These choices and voices, theyâre all in my headâ sometimes you make me feel like crazy đ
I can pull âď¸âs reaction to đâs speech out of this spread, because the whole thing is basically âI watched it, I felt it, I swallowed it, and Iâm trying not to lose my mind.â
The way I read it is:
When đ called her âthe one who doesnât want to be perceivedâ and even used âpartner,â I donât think âď¸ felt jealousy first â by the cards he felt that weird, cold click of reality. Like High Priestess / Moon / 7 of Swords energy: oh, so weâre still doing the hidden-life language⌠weâre still doing coded wording⌠weâre still doing âIâm acknowledging you but keeping you half-invisible.â And the dryness in the tone is exactly why 10 of Swords + Tower shows up in my mind as the internal reaction: not because âitâs over,â but because it stings in that humiliating way where you can feel the structure of someoneâs life while youâre standing outside of it. Itâs the moment where âď¸âs brain goes: this is what heâs choosing to maintain. This is the container heâs staying in. Heâs still hanging on for dear life to this concept of stability. And that hits like a brick even if âď¸ tries to be calm about it.
But then⌠the second đ mentioned âď¸, and the warmth came out? Thatâs where the spread flips into Ace of Cups + King of Cups + 6 of Cups â and itâs almost worse, emotionally, because it confirms something at the exact same time it breaks your composure. The vibe is: he canât fake it when he talks about me. Itâs not âpolite.â Itâs not âPR-friendly.â Itâs soft. Itâs the kind of tone that betrays the truth before the words even finish leaving his mouth. And thatâs why âď¸ feels bittersweet instead of satisfied: because hearing that warmth doesnât magically fix the situationâ it just proves the bond is real while the setup is still messy.
So if Iâm writing it plainly, the spread makes âď¸âs emotional sequence look like this:
⢠First half of the speech (the one who doesnât want to be perceived/partner): âOh. So weâre still doing that.â (Moon/High Priestess) + a private hit to the chest (10 of Swords/Tower) + immediate self-control (Temperance).
⢠Second half (đ saying âď¸âs name warmly and dedicating half of the award to him): relief + recognition + heart-reactivation (Ace of Cups/6 of Cups)⌠followed by that sharp edge of, âif you feel like this, then why is everything still built like this?â (5 of Swords / 7 of Cups / 3 of Cups energy).
Note: Remember to take all of this with a grain of salt. I might be wrong. This is for fun and creative writing purposes only. I'm not making promises of absolutes. If this doesn't satisfy your ideals, wants, likes or expectations please don't shoot the messenger and also don't come to my ask box to treat me as a punching bag. Be assertive and have common sense. I'm not sharing this to convince anyone.
I just realized that during filming of season 2 once they are reunited and the level of yearning is over they will be insufferable. RIP to Jacob, the cast and the other crews of the heated rivalry.
-- What happened on sunshineâď¸âs birthday (and why that follow spree didnât feel random + the day after)
I asked what happened monday feb. 22 (on sunshineâď¸âs birthday) and also tuesday feb. 23 that made canadian snoopyđ follow the girlfriend/feminine energy weâve been seeing + other people from his personal life he had previously kept more private, because it did not feel random to me, and it also didnât match the ânothing happenedâ or that it was âa random follow spreeâ version on the surface.
I have a surprise for everyone... this readings we get 2 part confirmation!
( Rider-Waite )
⌠Judgement + 8 of Cups
This opens with a wake-up call followed by emotional withdrawal. For me, this reads like something clicked on monday for canadian snoopyđ.
A realization, a conversation, a reminder, a trigger, a âwe canât keep doing this the same wayâ kind of moment... and even more powerful, the lack of all of the previous, was a loud moment of reckoning. Judgement is not random movement â itâs a wake up call, a moment where you suddenly see the situation for what it is or what you did. And 8 of Cups right after it is the response: stepping back, creating distance, leaving a feeling unfinished because staying in this moment/feelings in it would be too much.
So right away, this does not read like a light, casual birthday vibe. It reads like:
a reality check
a decision to emotionally step away (at least temporarily)
someone choosing distance instead of escalation
And because weâre asking specifically about canadian snoopyđâs actions, this looks like an internal or private trigger first, then an outward action after.
My read: something about the day made him feel he had to re-position himself emotionally and/or publicly.
⌠4 of Pentacles reversed + Page of Swords
This combo is loud for me, and honestly one of the clearest in the spread for the actual behavior you asked about.
4 of Pentacles reversed = loosening control, releasing a grip, changing whatâs being held back, letting something out that had been contained.
Page of Swords = watching, checking, reacting, monitoring, signaling, and yes, in modern readings this absolutely screams social media behavior / online movement / being hyper-aware of what is being seen.
Together, this reads like:
someone who had been tightly controlling privacy loosens that control
but not casually â while watching
a move that is both reactive and strategic
âIâm changing whatâs visible, and I know people will noticeâ
This is exactly why the follow spree didnât feel random to me. This pair reads like a deliberate visible adjustment, not âoops I was cleaning my account.â
It feels like:
opening a door on purpose
restoring or emphasizing a specific public-facing line
making a move that says something without writing a statement
And with all the context, yes, I do think this can reflect following the feminine/girlfriend energy + personal circle as a form of âresetting the visible frame.â
⌠10 of Swords + 5 of Wands
This is the pain/noise combo.
10 of Swords = mental/emotional overwhelm, a hit, a collapse point, feeling done with something.
5 of Wands = conflict, friction, competition, noise, too many opinions, public mess, people pushing/pulling.
Together this reads like:
a situation that already feels painful/overcooked
made worse by noise, tension, and outside commentary
âIâm exhausted and people are still fighting about itâ
This does not read like a fresh conflict that started that day. It reads more like ongoing pressure reaching a point, and monday/tuesday acting as a trigger point within that.
In real-world terms, this combo fits:
fandom conflict / narrative fighting
frustration over how things are being interpreted
feeling like any small thing becomes a war
being tired of âlosingâ the narrative to chaos
So if the question is âwhat happened,â this combo says a big part of it was pressure and emotional exhaustion from the environment, not just one single private incident.
⌠King of Pentacles + 4 of Cups
This is one of the most telling pairs in the whole spread because it is so specifically him-coded in myreadings.
King of Pentacles (which I already track as canadian snoopyđ energy) = practical, reputation-aware, focused on stability and what is tangible.
4 of Cups = emotional disengagement, dissatisfaction, not wanting whatâs being offered, flat affect, emotional shutdown, âI need to step back.â
Together this reads like:
canadian snoopyđ going into practical mode over emotional mode - his actions don't come from an emotional place in terms of he following these people is something he's doing from a place of genuine feelings/emotions. This is strategic.
choosing stability/containment/whats familiar instead of emotional expression or passionate feelings.
feeling unimpressed, tired, or emotionally closed off while trying to keep structure
This pair feels like:
âI canât do feelings right now, I need to handle the situation.â
And that matters because it supports the earlier combo. The follow activity doesnât read as âromantic impulseâ to me here. It reads more like a controlled response from someone who feels emotionally saturated and is trying to secure his ground.
It can also reflect:
âI need to show consistencyâ
âI need to reinforce normalâ
âIâm not giving people more chaos to work withâ
⌠3 of Cups + 9 of Swords
This is the âsocial/public tie-in caused stressâ combo.
3 of Cups = social circle, celebrations, group dynamics, public-friendly energy, friend optics, people around the situation.
9 of Swords = anxiety, overthinking, spiraling, regret, nighttime stress, fear of how things are being read.
Together, this is almost too on the nose for the question at hand.
Because I'm asking about a birthday and visible online actions involving personal people, this reads like:
social-circle energy / who is seen with whom / who is acknowledged
causing anxiety or being done because of anxiety
a visible social move that comes from a stressed mind, not a relaxed one
This pair feels like:
âIf I donât do something, it says one thing.â
âIf I do do something, it also says something.â
âEither way people will talk.â
That is 3 of Cups + 9 of Swords in this context.
So yes, I read this as a strong indicator that the visible follows were tied to social framing, pressure, and trying to manage what the day looked like more than just sentiment.
⌠5 of Cups + 5 of Pentacles
This ending is heavy, and very consistent with the whole spread.
5 of Cups = disappointment, sadness, regret, emotional letdown, focusing on what was lost/not happening.
5 of Pentacles = exclusion, feeling left out, isolation, coldness, vulnerability, âoutside looking in.â
Together, this is the emotional aftermath.
This pair reads like:
disappointment + distance
emotional loss + practical isolation
âthis didnât go how I wantedâ + âand now I feel the gap and distanceâ
For this question, it suggests that whatever happened around the day of sunshineâď¸âs birthday left a tone of:
emotional heaviness
separation
not getting what was hoped for
feeling the absence of what didnât happen (not just reacting to what did)
Thatâs why this whole spread doesnât read as âhe followed people because he was happy and carefree.â It reads like a corrective or defensive visible move made during a stressful, emotionally loaded day.
âł Bottom of deck: 2 of Swords
This confirms the whole reading.
2 of Swords is the hidden base: stalemate, emotional block, forced neutrality, not choosing publicly, staying still because any move has consequences.
So under everything:
there is a decision being avoided or delayed
there is a âkeep it neutralâ posture
and that posture is exactly what makes visible side-moves (like follows, public-facing cues, social framing) more likely
Because if the real thing canât be addressed openly, people start adjusting the edges. And thatâs exactly what this spread looks like.
â My Rider-Waite conclusion
If I put this plainly, the cards read like this:
Monday (sunshineâď¸ birthday) and Tuesday triggered a realization/reality check (Judgement + 8 of Cups) that led to emotional distance, and then canadian snoopyđ made a visible but controlled online/social adjustment (4 of Pentacles rev + Page of Swords) while under pressure from conflict/noise (10 of Swords + 5 of Wands) which reads as still impulsive. He reads as being in practical survival mode, not soft emotional mode (King of Pentacles + 4 of Cups), and the social/public side of the day looks tied to anxiety and overthinking (3 of Cups + 9 of Swords), with a heavy tone of disappointment and separation underneath (5 of Cups + 5 of Pentacles). The whole thing sits on 2 of Swords, so the bigger issue is still blocked, still unresolved, still being handled indirectly.
( Lenormand )
...and yes, Iâm sharing more than one deck now đ.
Iâm officially bringing my multi-deck normalcy here (Lenormand included now). I usually use 3 decks at the same timeâIâm just easing yâall into it because Iâm trying to be gentle⌠unlike the way some people are gentle with originality. đ I like introducing new tools without making it feel like homework.
Anyway⌠Iâm not gonna lie, Iâm very excited to watch how long it takes for the âtarot five minutes ago, seasoned reader todayâ crowd to randomly start doing multi-deck reads tooâwith the exact same structure, the exact same pacingâstacking decks.
Itâs just⌠fascinating how inspiration works. Like okay babygirl đ. Welcome! Love that for you! Iâll be over here with my popcorn.
Consider this my casual little social experiment.
Now this Lenormand spread is very clean and honestly it backs up the Rider-Waite a lot.
⌠35 Anchor clarified by 8 Coffin
This is the first thing and it already tells me the tone:
Anchor = stability, routine, what is fixed, what is usually maintained, staying put, âthe known line.â
Coffin = ending, shutdown, closure, pause, something being cut off or put to rest.
Together this reads like:
a stable pattern being interrupted
a deliberate stop to something that had been ongoing
âI canât keep holding this the same wayâ
an ending inside the routine
This fits the Rider-Waite opening perfectly. It supports the idea that yesterday wasnât random â it was a point where something in the usual way of handling things hit a stop or needed a reset.
In practical terms, this can be:
ending a certain silence strategy
ending a previous way of containing the narrative
deciding that the prior âholdâ was no longer working
It also gives me the feeling of emotional shutdown + practical adjustment happening at the same time.
⌠15 Bear clarified by 36 Cross
Bear = power, protection, control, authority, possessiveness, strong personality, also PR/management/legal/older/strong influence depending on context.
Cross = burden, pressure, suffering, obligation, something karmic/heavy, âthis is hard but unavoidable.â
This combo is pressure on the strong one or power under burden.
Given the context, this can absolutely read as:
a protective force/person/team under pressure
canadian snoopyđ feeling the burden of having to protect what matters / protect his image / hold everything together
heavy emotional weight around control and responsibility
It can also point to a âstrong decisionâ that doesnât feel good, but feels necessary.
This combo makes me think:
not random
not playful
not just social media browsing
It feels like someone carrying a lot and making a move from that weight.
And yes, because of the legal matters in surrounding readings before, Bear can also overlap with formal protection / serious handling energy in the atmosphere (even if this specific question is about the birthday day actions). This can also surround the discrimination issues and all the POC concerns.
⌠31 Sun clarified by 27 Letter
Sun = visibility, success, spotlight, exposure, clarity, public attention, warmth, âeveryone can see this.â
Letter = message, communication, post, text, notice, written/online signal, documentation.
This reads like:
a visible message
a public-facing communication signal
something âsmallâ (Letter) that becomes highly visible (Sun)
a written/online action that carries way more meaning because of timing/attention
This is exactly why the follow behavior stands out in this reading. Lenormand is saying the same thing in a different language:
the action was communication through visibility, even if nobody said anything directly.
It also confirms:
yes, the day had a âmessageâ in it
no, the message does not have to be verbal
yes, people noticing it was part of the energy
And because weâre tying this to sunshineâď¸âs birthday, this combo feels like:
a signal placed in a high-attention window
⌠14 Fox clarified by 33 Key + 28 Man
Fox = strategy, self-interest, caution, calculated moves, PR behavior, tactical action, ânot random,â cleverness, sometimes evasiveness.
Key = important, decisive, undeniable, meaningful, the thing that unlocks the situation.
Man = the man in question / male figure / target male / actor in the story.
This trio is huge.
It reads like:
a strategic action by/around a man
a calculated move that is key to understanding what happened
the ânot randomâ card getting confirmed by Key
So for me this is basically Lenormand saying:
That move mattered.
Fox + Key + Man is not âaccidental scroll behavior.â It is:
tactical
meaningful
tied to a male actorâs decision-making
done because it serves a purpose
And since the Rider-Waite already gave King of Pentacles + 4 of Cups and 4P rev + Page of Swords, this lines up beautifully with canadian snoopyđ making a controlled, strategic visible move while emotionally closed/stressed.
⌠22 Crossroads clarified by 5 Tree + 11 Whip
Crossroads = choices, split path, deciding direction, alternatives, âwhat happens next depends on this.â
Tree = long-term effects, roots, health, longevity, what takes time, what is organic and ongoing.
Whip = conflict, repetition, arguments, friction, mental loops, controversy, repeated discourse.
This ending combo is basically the future consequence piece of the question.
It reads like:
a choice point happened (or was activated)
and it affects something long-term
while also feeding repeated conflict/discussion if not handled carefully
Tree + Whip is especially interesting because it can be:
something that keeps coming back
repeated stress pattern
a long-running tension
an issue that is not solved in one day and has to be managed over time
So this tells me the birthday situation / visible follow behavior was not the whole story â it was a branching point in an ongoing situation.
And yes, this matches what I've been pulling in previous readings:
not a clean ending
more like a shift in how people are positioned
with ongoing consequences in how the story keeps repeating online
âł Bottom of deck: 3 Ship
Ship at the base is distance, movement, travel, separation across space, emotional distance + timeline movement, things unfolding away from the original point.
This is such a good base for this question because it says:
the meaning of what happened yesterday stretches beyond the day itself
this is part of a longer movement
distance (literal or emotional) is part of the whole story
what was done was connected to what happens next
It also reinforces the overall arc from prior readings:
they were not together that day
movement is happening indirectly
the story progresses through signals, timing, and distance, not direct display
Lenormand conclusion
If I put the Lenormand into plain language:
The cards say a stable pattern hit a stop/reset (Anchor + Coffin), a protective/controlling force was under real pressure (Bear + Cross), and a highly visible communication signal happened (Sun + Letter) that was strategic and important, not random (Fox + Key + Man). This action sits at a decision point that affects a longer-running, conflict-heavy situation (Crossroads + Tree + Whip), and the whole thing is part of a broader distance/timeline movement (Ship).
So yes, the Lenormand strongly supports the idea that the follow behavior was:
intentional yet impulsive
visible by design (or at least knowingly visible)
tied to pressure and positioning
part of a longer unfolding situation, not a one-off
Putting both decks together
When I read both side by side, I get the same story in two systems:
Rider-Waite (pairs) gives me the emotional/behavioral mechanics:
trigger
withdrawal
strategic visible adjustment
stress
disappointment
unresolved stalemate
Lenormand gives me the practical/narrative mechanics:
stable pattern interrupted
pressure on control/protection
visible message
strategic male action
decision point with long-term conflict
ongoing distance/timeline movement
If I had to say it plainly: I donât think sunshineâď¸ âdid one huge thingâ to trigger canadian snoopyđ â I think he made a private choice, stayed unreadable about it, and handled it through silence/containment instead of reassurance. And because the situation already has pain + triangle-like public confusion under it, that hit canadian snoopyđ right on the loyalty/reputation nerve. The Lenormand confirms it for me: this was a sharp reaction to a shift (Scythe + Stork), with a very real emotional undertone tied to loyalty and image (Moon + Dog + Bouquet), plus a lot of fog around the woman/feminine factor because something is still not fully known (Clouds + Woman + Book). So no, this doesnât read random at all â it reads like a triggered response inside a blocked, messy situation.
i think that was the closest our lines blurred between who we were in that moment and where they are in that moment. it was really beautiful, actually. i think we said a lot of things like, "i can't believe we've done this." i remember a lot of "i love you"s and "wow-i can't believe we've done it. i can't believe this happened."
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