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Well I wistfully sighed when I was talking about my dentist so my dad might figure out I'm queer now when he meets her tomorrow ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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Peanuts

not :) everything :) in :) life :) is :) good :)

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“When it feels scary to jump, that is exactly when you jump. Otherwise you end up staying in the same place your whole life. And that I can’t do.”

hearingthebeatofmyowndrummer

I know I’ve said this before and I really like the quote but this dude definitely died right?

No one here inspires me. Everyone settles. No one is pushing for more.

Fuck that.

I want to be a fucking tycoon and do shit and own businesses-- multiple businesses because I’ll be damned if I’m gonna get pigeonholed into one thing for the rest of my life.

I have so much energy and drive and I need to do something with it.

It’s National Coming Out day and my feeds are full of people who are out and visible and happy. Every one of them as queer as can be.

I’m not out. I’m not even sure what I am.

A few weeks ago my friend Jeremiah asked me, “So, I know you don’t like labels, but like, have you decided what you are?” Miah’s always been pretty tone-deaf (white dude,) so it didn’t really phase me that much, but it was a bummer to hear it phrased that way.

I’m a person. I like people. I like a lot of different kinds of people. My sexuality is just a part of me-- it isn’t all of me. It doesn’t define who I am. It’s a thing about me.

A thing I’m working on is that I feel like a fraud CONSTANTLY. If I’m attracted to a dude, I feel guilty and like a fraud for thinking I’m queer or for ever having said it out loud. If I’m attracted to a woman, I feel guilty and like a fraud for ever having considered dating men.

I’m paralyzed, because I don’t want to have a relationship with someone and then have a relationship with someone of the other gender and have people think that the ex turned me gay or straight. I know it’s a stupid thing to worry about, but it’s been gnawing at the back of my mind.

I don’t want to hurt anyone. I don’t want to hide-- and I guess I don’t, not actively anyway. But damn. Society puts a lot of pressure on people to define themselves in very specific terms.

So what. Am I a pan-romantic demisexual? Am I a homoromantic sapiosexual? Am I just bi?

Fuck all that noise. I like humans. I think they’re interesting and lovely and occasionally sexy.

It’s National Coming Out day and my feeds are full of people who are out and visible and happy. They fill my heart, and make me a little teary eyed. My name is Bethany, I’m a twenty-four year old cisgender female, I’m queer, and I’m closeted.

The really fun thing I’m learning about being queer is constantly feeling like a fraud LOL

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this picture makes me feel like I am capable of anything

mrsaxlrose

What’s Happening In My Country: Turkey

People, I’m reporting from Ankara, Turkey, from my thankfully safe home… This is one of the strangest events in the Turkish history, and no one knows if it’s a real military coup, or a “fake” one organized by the government so that they can get stronger than ever. Right now, there are tons of jet planes flying above the city and bombing different places, such as the “palace” of Erdogan, the parliament, the building of the political party AKP, the national intelligence agency of Turkey.

Erdogan literally told people to get out, to the streets, and protest the coup, and “stand in front of the tanks”. And, shockingly, they did. Now, people are out in the streets, chanting “Allahu Akbar!” and attacking the soldiers. Everyone’s gone crazy, I’m so afraid that this will lead to a war.

The military took over the national channel of Turkey and forced a reporter to read out a declaration about the martial law. Now, the government has taken the channel back. The soldiers are getting arrested one by one. They declared that they had taken control of the coup, and I’m sure that everyone will consider them (the government, Erdogan, etc.) “heroes” from now on.

There are deaths, deaths of policemen, civilians… It’s scary, I’ve never experienced something like this. I don’t know how this happened, I don’t know who did this, I don’t know what’s happening and what’s gonna happen. I don’t know what kind of a country I will wake up to, if I can convince myself to go to sleep in this chaos. I don’t know if it’ll be martial law or Sharia law, or Erdogan declaring himself a dictator. I’m confused as hell.

But there is one truth: whoever did this, and for whatever reason they did this, this is not okay… I, and all the other people of Turkey, do not deserve to experience this fear, violence and chaos. Whatever happens, happens to the innocent. Let this be heard from all around the world, something strange, and something COMPLETELY CRAZY is going on. Let this be heard, this shouldn’t be forgotten. The world shouldn’t forget how a group of people literally played, and are still playing, with us like we’re toys.

In the following hours, they may cut off our internet, they may ban us from sharing the news with the world, they have done it before. For the sake of the people of Turkey, and for the sake of our world’s future;

Help us, let this be heard…