[betrayael]

ㅤ                if i have to be the world's whipping boy ... 

independent , mutually exclusive ev.a s.tratt of p.roject h.ail m.ary , film & headcanon based with some book inspo , reading the book. not spoiler free  ( under co. ) low activity, about , temp rules under the cut.   tracklist

inspired themes: being the scapegoat , doing what needs to be done at the cost of your own humanity , betrayal , the trolley problem , isolation.

ㅤ                then that's my sacrifice to make  ...

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no drama, dont pressure for replies, don't be a dick. activity may be somewhat low.

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racists, zionists, homophobes, transphobes, antisemites, islamophobes etc are not welcome here.

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i would love to establish dynamics, whether it be romantic, antagonistic, platonic, etc. however i reserve the right to be selective. shipping or dynamics may require plotting or interaction beforehand. the likeliness of writing smut is low but not completely impossible. i am open to fade-to black & plots with kissing. i am always open to write wlw content but have not settled on a sexuality for this muse so nothing is set in stone aside from that.

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i'm currently reading the book so will be mainly movie & headcanon based while taking things from the book here and there until i actually finish the book. i dont mind spoilers.

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psd: a combination of venuscommissions & calisources. edits/gifs are made by me.

[betrayael]

just got hit with family death news so i likely wont be around as much as id like before i go on vacation

[betrayael]

btw i’m going on vacation in a couple days so will be gone during that time for the most part.

[heliosphage]

✦ An independent Ryland Grace from Andy Weir's Project Hail Mary. Please read rules and about before following. Promo PSD Credit & Art Credit.

My seat finally gives out. I hear the pops as the anchor points shear off. I fall forward, into the screen, still strapped to the metal seat, which crushes me from behind. The chair probably doesn’t weigh much in normal gravity. Maybe 20 kilograms. But with this much centripetal force, it’s like having a cement block on my back. I can’t breathe. This is it. The weight of the chair is so much I can’t inflate my lungs. I get dizzy. Mechanical suffocation, it’s called. It’s how boa constrictors kill their prey. What an odd thing to think as my last thought. Sorry, Earth, I think. There. Much better last thought.

[betrayael]

no exactly sandra your mind

[betrayael]

my wrist started acting up but hopefully it’ll be better later

[martyirize]

           BUT THE DARK IS WAITING TO SEIZE ME, SHRED THE MOAN NESTLED IN MY THROAT.    / once, i asked the walls / if they would help be nothing / help me vanish & never reappear

[he1ste]

ㅤ                where i became larger than myself and the day could NO LONGER CONTAIN ME

[betrayael]

was sick so didn’t end up getting any drafts done but its the weekend finally so i wanna catch up

[betrayael]

that moment when stratt finishes watching the logs from grace & looks so beyond relieved. one because life was on the balance & there was a chance they would fail but they didn’t & the earth & its inhabitants will survive. she sacrificed so much, knowing she would likely serve a prison sentence for everything she did so it was finally worth it. but also betraying grace was the thing that haunts her the most & i think seeing him become the person she believed in & maybe not necessarily forgive her but understand on some level why she did it let her let some of that guilt go

[betrayael]

i'm just thinking a lot about how similar (in some ways) eva & ryland are, they're both somewhat isolated from the rest of the crew (self imposed imo) and thinking about how much potential they had, i do think in a big way eva doesn't have a lot of friends and i think her & ryland could have been really good friends, which is why her 'it doesn't really' is thrown out the window when she's practically begging ryland to go to space willingly. because suddenly actually it is hard to ask ryland to die to save the world, suddenly it is hard to do what she ends up doing.

[betrayael]

seeing phm on the last imax day tonight!

[ohisms]

𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃  &  𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄    (a  series  of  nonverbal  prompts .   mature  themes  present ,   ‘ my ’  muse  belongs  to  the  one who  posted  the  meme  -  send   “ + REVERSE ”   to  reverse  the  prompts .)

→     𝐈 .    GENERAL

❛   hush .   raise  a  finger  in  a  gesture  to  silence  my  muse . ❛   sit .   gesture  for  my  muse  to  sit  down . ❛   door .   hold  a  door  open  for  my  muse . ❛   tap .   tap  my  muse  on  the  shoulder  to  garner  their  attention . ❛   hunger .   give  my  muse  something  to  eat  /  drink . ❛   cook .   present  my  muse  with  home - cooked  food . ❛   brush .   work  a  brush  /  comb  through  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   read .   silently  read  a  book  alongside  my  muse . ❛   hand .   hold  out  a  hand  for  my  muse  to  take . ❛   dressed .   help  my  muse  put  on  an  article  of  clothing . ❛   note .   give  my  muse  a  note  saying :   [ content ] . ❛   amplify .   turn  up  the  music  in  the  car .

→     𝐈𝐈 .    ANGST

❛   patch .   help  my  muse  patch  up  a  wound . ❛   night terrors .   hold  my  muse  after  they  wake  up  from  a  nightmare . ❛   company .   silently  sit  with  my  muse  to  comfort  them. ❛   hospital .   my  muse  is  told  that  yours  is  in  the  hospital . ❛   revelation .   show  my  muse  evidence  of  a  lie  they  told . ❛   indulge .   find  my  muse  drinking  to  cope . ❛   downfall .   find  my  muse  collapsed  on  the  ground . ❛   console .   comfort  my  muse  as  they  cry . ❛   nurse .   give  my  muse  company  in  the  hospital .

→     𝐈𝐈𝐈 .    AFFECTIONATE

❛   wink .   wink  at  my  muse .  ❛   wrap .   wrap  an  arm  around  my  muse’s  [ shoulders  /  waist ] . ❛   caress .   gently  caress  my  muse’s  face . ❛   tousle .   mess  playfully  with  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   chest .   place  your  head  on  my  muse’s  chest .    ❛   comb .   comb  fingers  through  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   grasp .   run  to  my  muse  &  jump  into  their  arms . ❛   lean .   lean  on  my  muse’s  shoulder . ❛   tender .   kiss  my  muse  on  the  [ forehead  /  cheek  /  nose ] . ❛   abrupt .   kiss  my  muse  out  of  the  blue . ❛   chaste .   chastely  kiss  my  muse . ❛   good morning .   kiss  my  muse  the  morning  after . ❛   volumes .   gaze  at  my  muse  in  a  way  that  silently  says  ‘i love you’ .

→     𝐈𝐕  .    VIOLENT

❛   strike .   [ slap / punch ]  my muse in the face . ❛   gun .   wield  a  gun  at  my  muse . ❛   twist .   twist  my  muse’s  arm  behind  their  back . ❛   throttle .   aggressively  wrap  your  hands  around  my  muse’s  throat . ❛   parch .   burn  my  muse  with  a  hot  object . ❛   take down .   forcefully  bring  my  muse  to  the  ground . ❛   gouge .   wield  a  sharp  object  at  my  muse . ❛  shunt .   shove  my  muse  backwards . ❛  stickup .   yell  at  my  muse  to  put  their  hands  in  the  air. ❛  shoot .   [ fatally  /  non-fatally ]   shoot  my  muse . ❛  stab .   stab  my  muse with a  [ knife / other object ].

→     𝐕 .    NSFW

❛   surprise .   send  an  unexpected  nsfw  image  to  my  muse . ❛   pin .   push  my  muse  against  a  [ wall,  table,  other ] . ❛   go down .   go  down  on  my  muse . ❛   choke .   intimately  wrap  your  hands  around  my  muse’s  throat . ❛   belt loops .   pull  my  muse  closer  by  their  belt loops . ❛   skinny dipping .   go  skinny  dipping  with  my  muse . ❛   rip .   tear  a  piece  of  clothing  from  my  muse’s  body . ❛   mark .   leave  a  mark  on  my  muse’s  body  [ specify where ] .

[betrayael]

  @heliosphage « "do   you   always   push   buttons?"

"if it gets the results we need, it's too important," eva speaks the words as if they're obvious, arching a brow before glancing back at the forms she'd been looking over, almost as if dismissing grace without saying it out loud. it’s been the same justification she’s used before when she’s gone over the line and one she will keep using. she has the authority to do what needs to be done to save humanity, to get the hail mary and it’s astronauts where they need to go so they can do their job, and until the deed is done she is determined to reach that goal regardless of the consequences. a few bruised toes she stubs along the way are of little consequence. even if said toe is a government official looking for some benefits for being involved in the project or one of the scientists.

she glances up at grace finally eyes meeting his, almost searching for something — understanding perhaps. "if we want to make this work, and i mean really make this work... we can't concern ourselves with bruising an ego or two, yeah?"

[betrayael]

my drafts were eaten so i have to rewrite a few memes

[betrayael]

ㅤ              what are your plans for the next 20 years ? ... we all have to make sacrifices. if i have to be the world's whipping boy to secure our salvation , then that's my sacrifice to make  

[gloomglimmer]

›       TENSION   LINER   PROMPTS     

"I   dare   you   to   try."

"Do   you   always   get   close?"

"You’re   pushing   my   limits."

"Stop   looking   at   me   like   that."

"I’m   losing   control   here."

"You   have   no   idea,   do   you?"

"I   can’t   resist   you   anymore."

"Stay   back,   or   don’t."

"I   know   what   you   want."

"This   is   getting   dangerous   now."

"You’re   too   tempting   for   me."

"I   shouldn’t   want   this,   but…"

"I   don’t   play   fair,   remember?"

"Careful,   you’re   testing   me."

"You’re   just   making   it   worse."

"You’re   too   close   for   comfort."

"Do   you   always   push   buttons?"

"Stop   before   I   kiss   you."

"You’re   making   it   too   hard."

"I   can’t   stop   thinking   about   you."

"I   want   you   too   much."

"You   know   exactly   what   you’re   doing."

"I’m   not   playing   games   here."

"You’ve   crossed   the   line   now."

"Keep   pushing,   and   you’ll   regret   it."

"This   is   dangerous,   isn’t   it?"

"I’m   trying   not   to   care."

"Don’t   make   me   regret   this."

"You’re   playing   with   fire."

"You   don’t   know   what’s   coming."

"I   shouldn’t   be   this   close."

"We’re   getting   dangerously   close   now."

"I   can   feel   the   heat."

"Don’t   test   me   right   now."

"I   want   you   too   badly."

"Don’t   make   me   chase   you."

"You’re   distracting   me,   you   know."

"I   won’t   fall   for   this."

"I   want   you,   but…"

"What   do   you   want   from   me?"

"I’ll   never   give   in."

"I’m   trying   not   to   care."

"You’re   playing   with   my   patience."

"Don’t   make   this   harder,   please."

"I   can’t   stop   this   feeling."

"I’m   already   in   too   deep."

"You   won’t   walk   away   unscathed."

"You’re   walking   a   fine   line."

"I’m   trying   to   stay   calm."

"What   are   you   doing   to   me?"