My Borderline

BPD, Depression, Anxiety. This blog is my outlet. I do not promote self harm in any way.

[okay]

me right now 

[traumathoughts]

[chxngefate]

[hype]

[imposer]

[musiccuresthepain]

i’m tired

[goodreadss]

“It’s all too much and not enough at the same time.”

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[amargedom]

“But even when I am afraid, I keep on trusting you.”

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[pessimisticandrealistic]

I promise you this now: I won't choose you.

When the time comes to choose between myself and you, I will choose me.

Many people have tried to tie me down,

To make me commit,

To get me to stay.

I never do.

I won't allow myself to.

You could be the greatest thing to happen to me and it wouldn't change a thing.

I choose a life of loneliness over a lifetime of happiness with you because loneliness is all I know.

I don't know how to match my expectations to reality. In the beginning I will want too much too fast before I won't want it at all.

That's how my mind works.

That's who I am.

And I would rather save you the trouble of getting your heart broken by me.

e.s. // a promise never to be broken.

[justapeiceofshit]

[fluffynips]

[br0ken-and-lost-deactivated2018]

6:26 AM

[thepersonalquotes]

[goodreadss]

“So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both sad and happy and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.”

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[peccados-deactivated20160225]

[goodreadss]

“I think it’s important to realize you can miss something, but not want it back.”

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[iamquietlydrowning]