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Background: I got into the habit of drawing way back in grade school, until it became more of a hobby/daily thing for me between middle and high school. My main dream is to become a graphic novel and to share my art with everyone to show who I am and what I can do with it. Art became my passion ever since and I still practice my skills everyday.
Slight AU I guess, in which Neo gets to spend more time on the Nebuchadnezzar before he goes to the Oracle and everything goes to shit, so the crew is the one from the first film but most events are yet to occur. I just think they're neat.
English is not my first language, I'm sorry if i made some mistakes!
Summary: You're the first person he sees when he wakes up in the real world. He's fascinated.
Warnings: none, vague descriptions of medical procedures
Gif not mine. I don't remember from where I downloaded it, but credit to the original maker.
You're there when Neo's being picked up from the sewers. He slumps against you and Tank, staining your sweatshirt with all the slime and water. They all do, when they stand up for the first time. You've helped quite a few of them by now.
Born and raised in Zion like Tank and his brother, you boarded young with them on the Nebuchadnezzar. All you've ever known is the war against the machines, and the struggle of getting people out the Matrix. Not able to log into the Matrix, and not good enough as an external operator, you drifted towards the medical bay and learned how to treat most wounds your crewmates came back with.
You also took to helping newcomers like a duck to water. You're there when they board and you follow their recovery, up to when they acclimate and get to Zion. You even try to keep in contact with most of them, in the short breaks you get in the city, at least until you're sure they found their place. It can be sad when they finally find their new family and friends and don't need you anymore, but it never shadows the satisfaction of helping them in the first place.
With this being your job and dedication, you've seen quite a few of young men that Morpheus believed to be the One, and seen them all fail. And even if this time he really seems sure of it, Neo right now looks like all of them did: weak, disoriented, all hooked up to a machine to get his muscles to work and develop. It's in that moment that he actually sees you for the first time.
He groans softly, and you immediately stand up to hover over him. When Neo finally opens his eyes, they zero in on you. You smile kindly at him and greet him in a low voice, knowing his ears are probably still ringing. He tries to talk, but you shush him.
"I know everything hurts, but I promise it'll get better. You should rest some more." You chide him as he tries to move an hand. With a move that you know works with everyone, you rub slightly between his eyebrows to get him to close his eyes again. Yeah, he's not too different from the others. You still hope Morpheus is right this time.
A few weeks pass, and Neo is up and about, training and living with the crew. He seems to have taken to it well, after that first fainting at being told the truth about the world. And, he seems to have taken to you well too, following you around as you do your tasks, much to the amusement of everyone else.
"I'm telling you, he's like one of those ducklings. You're the first person he saw when he woke up, and he has imprinted on you. Don't you know that about ducks?" Mouse whispers not so subtly over a bowl of that bland porridge one morning.
You raise your eyebrows at him as you chew slowly. You already looked over at Switch and Trinity for help, but they're both hiding matching grins behind an hand.
You finally answer, "I'm not even sure what a duck is."
"It's a... water bird."
"Never seen a bird."
While you hoped that would've shut him up, it just makes him go on a long rant in between mouthfuls of slop. He's talking about birds and nature and all things you've never seen, which he apparently learned in a documentary when he was very young and still in the Matrix. You're half hoping he chokes on the porridge, when Neo comes in. He serves himself his breakfast, and sits down right next to you, oblivious to the glare you send to Mouse when he snickers. The topic of conversations changes and thankfully steers away from birds and you. Neo still hasn't said a word other than a soft greeting, but you can feel his eyes on your exposed arms as he eats. It should be a little creepy, but it's somewhat endearing. He's been fascinated by them, ever since he saw that you don't have any rough plugs on them.
It had happened after a long day for him, the first of many busy with training. He wandered the ship, too wired to sleep but too tired to do anything meaningful. He found you in the medical bay, where you spent most of your time. You turned to him and waved him over.
"Hi there. Did you get hurt during training? Need some patch up?" you asked as you were already taking out the medical kit. He shaked his head no, but still perched on the cot next to you so you can check him out. He'll do anything for a scrap of attention.
"No, it was rough, but..." he trailed off, distracted as you rolled up the sleeves of your sweater. He gaped and reached out, trailing his fingers down your forearm. The light touch tensed you up, but it was so soft and reverent you knew he meant no harm. He finally glanced up at you seemingly as bewildered as you felt, "You don't have plugs?". Oh, that's what it is, you nodded and stepped closer so he could feel up your arm easily. He was rubbing your wrist with a thoughtful expression, just over where his is sporting a plug.
You noticed then that he had a cut on the temple facing you, not concerning but deep enough to need some care. Keeping him distracted with your arm, you dressed it up one handed as you briefly told him about your early life in Zion. He hissed at the sting of disinfectant, but his eyes never strayed from your forearm that he was now traveling with both hands.
After that, he started following you around more than he already was, and you got closer, way closer than what you'd usually allow with newcomers. You can't help but let him though, when he looks at you like that, touches you so delicately. He's charming but quite shy, and on the rare occasion you tease him back he stammers around a grin, just proud you're reciprocating.
It keeps going like this, and while you're usually fine with it, you're having an awful day. You keep thinking about what Mouse told you, and maybe he's right about ducks. About Neo.
And if he is, aren't you taking advantage of him? Sure, he's a grown man, definitely stronger than you and probably the savior of humanity, but he was also lost in a world he didn't understand and you were the first one to treat him kindly here. You know that the novelty of it will soon wear off and he'll move on, like everyone does when you're not useful anymore. This strange fascination he has with you will probably end before anything comes out of it, and you know this time it's gonna hurt you badly.
You hoped to have some time alone to ponder about this, the mechanical and repetitive work of fixing a panel in the medical bay almost soothing while you think. But, you're not alone, and Neo is standing way too close as you work, which is making everything harder with the added task of dodging him.
It's the fifth time you've bumped into him in the last fifteen minutes, and it went from slightly endearing to extremely irritating. You reach next to you for a wrench, and elbow him. He huffs from the impact, and that does it for you. You turn around on your heels angrily and put your hands on his shoulders. He visibly perks up at having your attention, which does make your irritation almost vanish. Damn him, especially as he leans down a little to get closer and puts his hands over yours.
You see he's opening his mouth to question you, but he shuts up when you push him backwards. His sweater his soft under your fingers as you guide him until he's sat down on a chair near where you're working. You look down at him with a sigh, and you have to squeeze your eyes shut and cover them for good measure to gather yourself for a minute, when you see the look on his face.
He's looking at you adoringly, like you're the best thing he could ever have in front of him. Like a puppy or, how Mouse oh so kindly suggested, a little water bird. When you tilt your head in consideration, trying to find a nice way to word what you need to say, his head follows suit tilting too.
"Why are you being so..." so cute, you want to say. So pretty. Devoted. And all the adjectives that you should not associate with the One. The pause you take makes him fidget on the chair and he misunderstands.
"Sorry if I'm being annoying, I..." he starts worriedly with a frown, but you stop him immediately raising your hands in a placating gesture.
"No, no, you're not annoying" you huff, looking everywhere but at him, "it's just...you need to stay back when I'm working. I can't keep bumping into you, it's slowing me down", your voice is as kind as possible, but it still makes him pout a little. You don't mention that the distance would help you sort out your jumbled thoughts.
"I could help you? I won't get in your way" he asks hopefully and, coupled with the way he's still squirming under your gaze and gawking at you, it makes you finally relent. He can see the defeat in your eyes before you name it, and he smiles shyly and stands up. You start to work again, this time including him in the process.
Well, there goes your alone time. But, you think, you should enjoy his company while it lasts, even if it might hurt more in the end. You'll deal with it when the time comes.
The nickname slips from you as you order him around, but he doesn't mention it since it flusters him too much.
"Pass me the screwdriver, duckling".
You're turned away from him, a grabby hand over your shoulder awaits for the tool.
He passes you the wrong one. He's lucky he's cute.
homelander doesn't technically need to sleep, but he will when he absolutely has to. especially when it gives him a chance to snuggle up with you.
he mostly doesn't like being clung onto, but when you're in bed with him he prefers you clinging on to him. some nights it's the only way he can sleep.
he likes being the little spoon more than he lets on, but his favourite way to sleep is with his head on your chest so he can listen to your heartbeat. (bonus points if you've got boobs and they're big enough for him to feel on either side of his head when he's lying face down on you)
he has nightmares way less frequently when you're sleeping next to him. if you feel him jump awake you're right there to give him the comfort that he dearly needs. even if he doesn't exactly want it.
the same can't always be said when you have a nightmare. most of the time he'll be patient and understanding, holding you until you stop shaking and wiping your tears away if you cry. but there are times when he's not in the mood for any nonsense and will just snap at you to stop being stupid and go back to sleep.
you can't take it personally, but it does sting in the moment. he does care about you, he just has a strange way of showing it.
if you fall asleep somewhere in his place, he will just pick you up and carry you off to bed, whether you planned on staying over or not. he'll even get you undressed if your daytime clothes are too uncomfortable to sleep in.
he prefers the both of you to sleep naked, the skin-to-skin contact is both comforting and stimulating at the same time. plus, it allows for a midnight roll in the sheets if either of you wake up in the mood.
he will pout if you go to bed wearing pyjamas and he gets the horn while sleeping nude, but that doesn't mean that he isn't going to unwrap you like a present.
the first time the two of you slept together, he assured you many many many times that he wasn't going to crush you in his sleep. even when that wasn't even a concern you had.
A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?
Silas just likes to lay with you on the couch, cuddling and enjoying each other's presence. He also enjoys when you read books to him or when you watch movies together. In summary, Silas appreciates every moment spent with you, especially when you're alone and nobody can bother you.
B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?
In physical matters, Silas wouldn't be able to decide what he likes most about you. He got used to avoiding thoughts that admired human body and for many years he treated it mostly as a meaningless vessel, source of sinful desires. But now when he looks at you, Silas admires every inch of your body. He especially likes softness of it, how perfect your body is to hug.
As for character traits, Silas loves how you're treating him. He went through a lot in his life, other people were usually only a source of his suffering. Silas didn't get much love in his life. He likes that you treat him with respect and at the same time you look at him with affection as if he was the most amazing person in the world. He loves when you take care of his wounds or when you comfort him in the moments of doubt. He simply loves that you're staying by his side.
C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?
Silas isn't the best in comforting you or especially helping you during a panic attack. He barely deals with his own problems and traumas so well... you will have to cope alone.
D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?
He would love to live with you in your own house, preferably on the countryside or in the suburbs. Silas would like to forget his past and live far away from suspicious organisations and murderous missions. He wants to spend the rest of his life with you, and his dream reminds a bit these picturesque families from cheesy catholic family movies on religious channels. Though Silas doesn't want to have children. He feels unsure around them and he doesn't want to repeat the mistakes of his father.
E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?
I have the feeling that Silas is a dominant person or at least he would be such in a romantic relationship. Like, he's very devoted and loving for his s/o but he's the one who holds the control in your relation and makes most decisions.
F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?
Damn, you don't want to have an argument with Silas. When he's fighting, he became really stubborn and fierce and he can be really terrifying in such moments. Silas doesn't give up easy, it's unlikely for him to admit you're right. If he lost control over himself, he may even use violence. After a fight, Silas might be reserved and distant for some time, either if he's irritated or embarrassed that he hurt you.
G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?
He may not notice all the things you do for him but you can't complain that Silas underestimate you. He makes sure that you know how much he appreciate your presence in his life.
H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?
If we're talking about Silas after leaving Opus Dei, then no, there's no secrets in your relationship. You're together and you can trust each other completely.
But if you have some kind of relationship with him when he works for "Teacher", Silas doesn't tell you about murders.
I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?
Well, you didn't change his behaviour much... Silas may became a little less fanatic and a bit most emphathetic but mostly you improved his well-being and made him feel loved and less lonely.
J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?
Surprisingly, Silas doesn't get jealous often. Like, he may be suspicious of other men that can flirt with you but it's only irritation that they bother you. He believes you completely, Silas knows that you're faithful and loyal and he would never suspect you about anything so he doesn't have any reasons for being jealous.
K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?
This is a very subjective matter so it's hard to judge him but his kisses are possessive, he holds you tightly in his arms while kissing you and he does it very passionately so you barely have time to breath.
L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?
He doesn't feel good with words so one day when you we're talking, Silas just kissed you unexpectedly.
M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?
If Silas found in himself enough courage and decisiveness to leave the convent, he would undoubtedly propose to you. He's a traditionalist after all, and he can't imagine living together without marriage. You would have a small modest wedding in church near your house, inviting only your closest family, maybe friends (though Silas would prefer if there were nobody except you and priest). Silas would invite only Manuel Aringarosa.
N icknames - What do they call their s/o?
He usually calls you by your name, sometimes Angel, darling or my love
O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?
Silas is very reserved person and it's hard to find out what he's thinking. Moreover he has nobody to tell about his feelings because he has no friends and bishop Aringarosa - whom Silas treats like father - wouldn't approve his love for you.
P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?
To be honest, you rarely go out together, preferring to spend most time in home. But when you go out - even after leaving the Opus Dei by Silas - he doesn't act very affectionate and may seem a bit cold.
Q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.
He's strong. Like it's canon that Silas is big and strong so in case of need (or your ask) he can easily carry you in his arms. Also it's probably just my size kink showing up but when he hugs you and holds you in his arms it's a great feeling, like he makes you feel protected as you never felt before.
R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?
Silas wouldn't know romance if it hit him in the face. He is ISTJ after all, a very rational, straightforward, down-to-earth person. All these romantic cliches don't make sense to him, moreover he doesn't like to dig in all that... emotional stuff. Like, he will always help you and stay by your side but don't expect Silas to be romantic.
S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?
Yes and no.... Silas doesn't always have similar views to yours and he may not approve all your actions, even if something is important to you. But if he appreciates your plans and they are "compatible" with his values, Silas will do whatever he can to help you. But first of all, he really believes in you and he's convinced that your able to achieve anything you want.
T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?
Silas hates changes. You're life together is well organised and stable thanks to him and you shouldn't suddenly introduce any new things or you'll give this man a heart attack.
U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?
As I already mentioned, Silas isn't good with feelings and he has problems with noticing and respecting your emotions. He often say things that may be hurtful but at least he doesn't lie. Silas always tells you the harsh truth and gives you his advices about solving your problems, even if you don't want them. Well, at least he tries.
V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?
Silas has this "all or nothing" attitude towards life and though he doesn't care about most things or people (some of them he outright treats as sinful and evil), there are exceptions, people for whom he would do anything. Like bishop Aringarosa who once saved his life and gave Silas a home. Or you. So, in short: you are everything for Silas. His love, his hope, his strength. You support him and show him things he never knew before. Silas can't imagine his life without you.
W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.
I'm not sure whether it counts as fluff but Silas was constantly worried about your safety so he started teaching you how to fight so you can defend yourself when he isn't with you. Possibly he gave you a gun.
X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?
Though - as I mentioned before - In public Silas usually stays reserved and cold, when you're alone, he likes to cuddle or to nuzzle his head in the crook of your neck or when you gently stroke his head etc
Y earning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?
When you're apart, Silas doesn't show his sadness but he misses you deeply and put all his feelings in his prayers. He always pray for your health and asks God to save you from any evil but at such times Silas also ask in prayer that he can see you as soon as possible .
Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?
As we know from Da Vinci Code, when Silas is devoted to something - or someone - he can go extreme lengths for this. He's like Gomez Addams when he said "I would die for her. I would kill for her. Either way, what bliss"
