♰ 𓈒 dikke ⚢ 𓈒 ⊹

— ㅤㅤ 𐕣 she¹ hx² thou³ (うまま さーま SO HIGH) ᚷ 20 . DID/BPD/TISM 𒋲 butch lesbian system Klan Children of Bhaal : 11ish

[bhaalitsm]

⠂⠀⠀⠀Hero show 醒めないでよ DOKIDOKI 抱きしめて oki doki 視線は heart Hit する sing a song LA LA LA love⠀⠀⠀ ⠂

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⭒ .⠀Klan Children of Bhaal⠀⠀ㅤㅤ⟢ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤshe/he/thou ⠀ㅤ⏖⠀ㅤ20. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀BPD ﹒ DID ﹒ AUT

⠂⠀⠀⠀Hibikaseru izure sumikko no innen o subete Hazama nureru hodo ni imi o koboshite tsutaeta Nokori tamae...sono "shimi" ⠀⠀⠀ ⠂

══╬  Hi! You can call me Dikke or Di, please don't use plural terms unless prompted, I prefer to see myself as a person with DID rather than just as a system. My disorders are influential but I don't want them to define me ─ I am only interested in interacting with 17+ people who are not chronically online, if the discourse can't exist in the real world I really don't want to hear about it . . . my system is very persecutor heavy, introjects are not their sources, etc etc etc. I am an OA cult survivor so tag content around that for me if we're muts!   🌾    ) I have a lot of interests, some of them being : anything horror related, dead by daylight, attack on titan, attack on time, uma musume pretty derby, fear and hunger, atarashii gakko, baldurs gate, skylanders, hotd/got, the boys, idv, coryxkenshin, reverse 1999, brain rot mascot horror, dandys world, cod, figure collecting, until dawn, mouthwashing, and more obviously 𓂃🚬 I kin Brian and Stewie Griffin and I'm kinda like if Charlie from smiling friends was mentally unwell, my friends describe me as "a frat boy if he was a lesbian." I'm also a wasian jew and do talk abt sinophobia in online western spaces sometimes so erm . . . . my prns.cc and carrd

⠀⠀⠀⠀ꕀ some frequent frontiers of mine are ; 🍾 Avery, me, the host ︵ she/him Levi, the addicted one, trauma holder ︵ he/him Emil, the dogist boy, trauma holder ︵ he/wag Acunín, 11 year old elf, prpr ︵ he/thon Merithe, my nicest alter, cohost ︵ she/hx Homelander, exactly how he sounds, trauma holder ︵ he/him ᛝ🧺 I am diagnosed, my alter count is around 11. I'm not here to debate syscourse I'm more interested in making sure misinfo for CDDs isn't spread- yes, this includes the 'I'm 12 and have 1400 distinct alters and also have hcdid' this isn't meant to be mean, I support self diagnosis but some of the claims I see, mostly said by minors who aren't very educated in the disorder they claim confidently to have bother the hell out of me, like just don't include the disordered part PLEASE if you parrot antisemitic conspiracy theories as opposed to using updated terminology like OA just don't interact with me, I'm a cult survivor and I'm not gonna surround myself with peoples who's main source of info is satanic panic.

𐏐With the serious stuff out of the way, here's some more abt me! My flags are below (ask if you don't recognize any) as well as some user boxes that are silly I also occasionally reblog terms/flags I identify with check #⚢ My IDS

If you made it down here let's be friends! I need to interact with more adults w DID/OSDD etc ♡⃕ ⠀⠀⠀  🧟‍♂️    ) I do NOT have a DNI, if anything makes me uncomfortable I will just block and move on like a regular person <3

[draculungs-deactivated20241214]

Y'all eatin up that weirdo4weirdo? freak4freak? creep4creep?

[bhaalitsm]

type shit I be on

[rare-average-system]

Hey you,

Remember you don't have to stick to words like alter, parts, fragment, gatekeeper, ANP, ect.

Use whatever terms you feel best with. Hell, call them "doodle bops" if that's what feels right.

The only important part is to remember what they are. Be conscious that you aren't using labels/names as a way to further distance yourself from your reality.

Whether your goal is functional multiplicity or final fusion, remember that all of this was created to serve a purpose for yourself. Your mind works this way for a reason, and staying aware of that is how you begin cohesive living.

[bhaalitsm]

PROMO POST TIME!!

Hi everyone, small promo post cause I'm looking to make friends/talk to more people ^^

You can call me Dikke or Di for short! I'm 20 so 17+ interactions only please : ) I have a lot of interests so I'll only list a few: IDV, mouthwashing, league of legends, uma museum pretty derby, skylanders, attack on titan, BG3, fear and hunger, all analog horror esp vita carnis, and like anything horror or horror adjacent!

I have DID, BPD, autism, and schizophrenia so please take that into consideration because obviously that will affect how we interact.

For more info about me and some of my parts you can look at my pronouns.cc but for a good overview of me please read my pinned! It goes into a lot more detail

[rosestraumablog]

I think people tend to forget that alters are part of you

not entirely separate people.

[dreamergraveyard]

The online representation of DID is so watered down and catered to fictive-heavy 5000+ alter systems at times it feels like people are just trying to have The Worst DID so it's like, oh, I don't belong here bc none of wht I experience matches w what y'all are talking about like its normal and I low-key feel like other systems feel the same??? Idk do y'all feel out of place in ur community too? Bc I'm like not relating to anything in the community lately and its so frustrating

[catholisis]

୨୧⠀︶ ⠀   SEXED UP ABUSIVE LESBIAN。⠀ ︶⠀୨୧

♡ — A flag for sexed up abusive lesbians ^_^ Ones who perhaps would put a cigarette out on another girls neck and lick the wound , coined by Us ˳

[PT: Sexed up abusive lesbian. a flag for sexed up abusive lesbians. ones who perhaps would put a cigarette out on another girls neck and lick the wound. /END PT]

[PT: DNI: Endogenics and supporters, Anti good faith identities, Radqueer, Proship, Pro-harmful para or neutral. /END PT]

[sailorgundam308]

how you end up with your fav ship?

Oh god. Honestly, it creeped into me in an unintentional but sure way.

First time I played I didn’t know about the origins at all and went in with a “no prejudice/expectations” vibe. Romanced Astarion because he propositioned my tav first. My tav was a… buff berserker barbarian. Met Karlach only when I was almost leaving act 1 cause I couldn’t find her. When I did I was like “OMG ANOTHER foul mouthed, strong, barb lady!”

She quickly became one of my faves. However I truly thought I had fucked up her questline when it ended at the start of act 2. So I was kinda “no, it can’t be JUST this?!” sort of horrified and began an origin run with her to see for myself if her questline was actually that short and lame.

So even before I finished with my tav I was already playing Karlach. And as I played her I noticed more how she and Astarion interacted and how similar their traumas were despite how their appearances/body language/background differed. The contrasts and similarities struck me like a goddamn truck. I realized I was already noticing that in my original tav play, and things started falling into place.

The fact that they see eye to eye on some things, but not on others - in ways that you wouldn’t expect- and their dynamic being complicated, gritty, and so SO layered is insanely interesting to me. The more you dig the more layers and depth you find. It’s like, a ship that keeps on giving.

Also, there’s the “fuck your heteronormative expectations” of their relationship. Heard some folks say theirs is a “straight” relationship and, honestly, that’s so absurd I have no interest in replying. Also, if you are looking at them through a CONFORMING (or, to be honest, gay-but-heteronormative) lens, you will read Karlach as masculine - as a butch lesbian or whatever - because of her body language and appearance. The exact same labeling occurs with Astarion, who, if seen through a similarly heteronormative-coded gay lens, is a “twink”, who in a conforming gay world would be expected not only to be gay but to pair up with a bigger guy and be a bottom.

As a bisexual person, all this reads wrong to me. Both characters are pan. And I hate these heteronormative labelings especially when based off someone’s appearance. I like pairings who’ll breaking those expectations and Astarion and Karlach romancing each other throws not only the “straights” but the heteronormative code that pervades the queer community into a loop.

TLDR: it was because of SPITE and NUANCE

[sarehime]

How much time is needed to block non Karlach x Astarion shippers?

I DON’T WANT TO SEE OTHER SHIPSSS!!!

[sailorgundam308]

Things in my head this week:

Astarion thinks that Karlach’s yellow glowing eyes look like the sun. He likes it.

Karlach is canonically very worried that her touch will inflict pain - because it does. Not only she burns others, but the only touching she’s done in the last decade was to hurt, maim and kill. Because of that, when Astarion’s finally ready to accept being touched, Karlach is actually pretty insecure, worried about it.

That’s all. My social exhaustion only lets me write short bits atm. My bad.

[bhaalitsm]

One of my personal Astarion headcanons is that he has burn scars on his lips from where he’s kissed Karlach; his lips and hands, once smooth and soft have grown harder and calloused, he’s been transformed by love

[audacityinblack]

hellspawn cured my depression

[ben-marco]

It is okay to mourn the child that you were, or the child that you could have been. It is okay to be sad or angry that no one protected you like you should have been protected. It is okay to grieve.

[vilea777]

i’ll love you like a dog and you’ll betray me like a man

[unknowinglydeceasedlol]

I genuinely mourn the person I could have been.

[familiarrplace]

[familiarrplace]

[nymphadoriann]

Having dissociative identity disorder and wanting to heal so bad is [for us] wishing people would realise that you’re all one person, different parts that make up one person. But not purely singular or explicitly Plural all the time.

Wanting them to treat you as a mix of plural and singular. Do not deny us our disorder. Do not deny my parts their individuality if they wish for individuality.

Recognise we are one. Instead of focusing on the “who are you”, focus on the “what do you need at this moment” if it’s clear we aren’t in the best headspace, you might ask if someone else has switched out, but let it be on their time that they tell you their identity, if they tell you at all.

Expect us to take system accountability, as we all make up one person, but do not deny us our disorder and understand if it is a personal issue that sometimes system accountability is not going to work out. Abusive or hateful behaviour? Make all of us accountable, we’re all one. A problem with something one of us said and you don’t know who? Explain the situation to whoever’s fronting and allow us to work through it with you. A problem with a specific alter that’s personal to you both? The beef is purely between you two.

Let us talk about our innerworld experiences, let us talk about ourselves, our identities, if we wish to. Let us develop identity, if we wish to. Do not stifle individuality. But do not *expect* us to, some parts view themselves as purely a part with a job and nothing more.

Recognise that all alters will have different thoughts on you. Recognise that some alters do not wish to have the same relationship with you that other alters might. Recognise that some alters wish to be seen as the collective way you view us, some wish to be seen as their individual selves.

We *need* this deep understanding between us and friends and family that we are ONE but also MANY… and treating us as if we are singular or plural may be based on the circumstances.

This has come with recognising it within ourself that we have based our identity on being PLURAL for so long that we are failing to develop identity even past that. And it’s causing a lot of issues. Self doubt, dissociative tendencies spiralling, etcetera. We focus so much on who we are instead of what we need even when triggered and becoming frustrated at ourselves when we can’t work out who it is whose fronting leading to us doubting we’re even a valid system in the first place. And we focus so much on being plural that it’s causing us MORE dissociation rather than healing and eventually coming together and integrating, possibly fusing.