Compost in Training

"My breakfast is straight out the medicine cabinet" -Misanthropic Drunken Loner by Days n Daze Hello. Alex He/Him

[biblicalcataclysm]

I know I shouldn't do this because I know I hurt you. You may not even think about it anymore. You may not even think of me anymore either, but that's okay. The universe keeps giving me signs pointing back to you, and God works in mysterious ways... by the way I'm not an atheist anymore. An astrology post said March 12, 2018 would be an important date for Cancers. I saw you that night in downtown Laurel wearing Castiel's trench coat. You saw me too, but neither of us said anything. (1)

Im so not over this??? This bitch??? "God works in mysterious ways"???? BITCH um?????????

Also Castiels trenchcoat wtf its my trench coat and i can barely stomach watching spn in passing bc of u,,,,, also its almost like i was avoiding you for a reason and you couldnt take the fucking hint

You came on my blog and said that astrology led you to a half assed apology for the abuse you inflicted im???? This is Peak tumblr culture

[biblicalcataclysm]

I'm sure you've changed a lot since we last knew each other, but when I randomly came across your tumblr, I knew it was you. I hope I didn't ruin Supernatural for you. It's a good show, even if a shitty person recommended it to you. I know this may sound strange, but I feel like you're the only person who understood me in the way I wanted to be understood. I realized that too late, and I will regret that until the day the sun dies. (3)

Also here's a partial list of things being around you ruined for me

Supernatural

Sherlock(i kept the metal bit on the bracelet you gave me for a while because i was scared to let it go. Because i couldn't shake the feeling that no one would ever love me if they knew me well enough and i would have to ask for your support one day. I was scared if i got rid of the bracelet completely, I'd have no hopes of being loved and known again.

Hamilton

Emotional intimacy

Physical intimacy (i couldn't hold anyones hand or kiss anyone or handle any tender physical touch, my heart would race and my stomach would churn)

countless bands/songs

[biblicalcataclysm]

I hope this can bring you some kind of closure. I don't know if it will me, but I guess I'll find out. I wish you all the best in life and death. You deserve it more than you know. Here's to the future. -A

Wow, it isn't every day you see messages your former abuser left on your blog. As much as i do hope this long apology is truly indicative of change, it doesn't change anything regardless. When everyone else was hurting me and you knew life was fucking me over more than i deserved, you hurt me more. You traumatized me, and i still have issues because of you. You told me i was unlovable and it took so fucking long to get past that. The fact that you apologized doesn't heal or bring closure to the years of trauma and how damaged i still feel. I'm glad you believe in God. I hope your heart freezes at the thought of what He'll have to say about your treatment of someone as broken and disadvantaged as i was. I hope you spend the rest of your damn life trying to make it up to Him.

[momlonde-deactivated20130315]

do you ever see a photograph of someone really attractive from like the 1800s and you suddenly get pissed because they’ve been dead for like 200 years and you probably don’t have a chance with them

[taelusive555]

“probably”

[lazuroleplaypersonal-deactivate]

can’t spell romance without necromancer

[unflatteringcatselfies]

SHOW US,,,, , THE LONGEST BOY,,,,,

the one, the original

[rkl3]

when you shake laminated paper and it does the thing

[urulokid]

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[somewhereguaranteed]

exactly

[ultravioletmoon]

[hannigram-hell]

@funkyracoon 😂

[wyrm-wolf]

Yup thats me XD

[westernlariat]

pretty sure my soulmate is a bag of sour gummy worms

[armorgan66]

I just ate a whole bag of those, no joke

[westernlariat]

u piece of fucking shit that was the love of my life

[unflatteringcatselfies]

Fog is dumb but he gets by

[unflatteringcatselfies]

there he go

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[lyjerria]

no but in all seriousness, don’t force relationships and don’t force friendships. if these things aren’t flowing into your life naturally, you can do without them until they do.

[1010ll]

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