Tagger: @tacetnix! thank youuuu
Name: manfred
Pronouns: he/occasionally they
Most Active Muses? -- on tumblr its just bido, but i also play greed a lot on discord!
RP PET PEEVES: i love complaining
godmoddings a freebie, but it does drive me up the wall. dont make me tell you "he would not fucking say that" about the character IM playing. dont auto-win a combat thread in a single response with zero prior communication. nobody likes this but everybodys encountered it in some form or another and unfortunately i doubt it will ever fully come to an end until the universe explodes
on the other hand, not everything is a contest. i normally operate under the premise that my characters will react to their situations based on... well. common sense. we're not playing a tabletop rpg where everything requires a dice roll, we're playing toys with our imaginations, but ive still encountered several situations where pointing out that a character has some ability that would put them at an obvious physical advantage over another has been a problem, for some reason. if you dont want brad from accounting to lose to goku you dont have to make him fight goku! he is not going to beat goku! there are way more interesting ways for brad from accounting and goku to interact that dont involve fighting!!!
lack of communication about roleplay in general, and this one i come at through a lens of compassion because ive BEEN there and i get it. its hard to communicate. its hard one on one, its hard in groups, and the less you communicate the more alienated you feel from the people around you and the more out of wack everything gets. But You Gotta
a more specific type of lack of communication that makes me go "man": when people constantly demand rp into the void but never explain what their characters are like and what to expect from them. how am i supposed to know if i want to rp with you......
one time i joined a server that made everyone who wanted access to the nsfw channels dm the mods a picture of their face and the birthday on their real life drivers license to prove they werent faking their age and im sorry but thats insane
LEVEL OF RP EXPERIENCE: id say a lot!!! i got my start on warrior cats in middle school more than a decade ago and ive come back to the hobby a couple times since then, but ive also never gotten super into the ooc community side of things aside from discord groups, so theres still a lot that goes over my head on that end.
FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT? i am a sucker for "deep conversations about complex feelings" and i dont know if that falls into any of those three categories. i guess angst is closest because the Troubled Emotions are there but when i hear angst in the context of rp i think of characters getting kidnapped and tortured and almost dying in each others arms and whatever? which to be clear im not opposed to. like im perfectly open to all 3. i have never actually done smut before though
PLOTS OR MEMES? plotting is great but ive never actually managed to see any kind of plot through for very long, and i blame that on tumblr dms just being really bad for expressing longform thoughts. the little box doesnt give me room for big ideas. bido is also hard for that kind of thing because canon puts a lot of constraints on him and his movement and im always loath to break them (i am Arbitrary Self Restrictions Man). i need more aus where i can just put him in a sandbox and figure something out with somebody else
so. i guess the answer here is "memes are great and easier in the short term, but in the lonely hours of the night i yearn to plot"
LONG OR SHORT REPLIES? i love short replies. can never manage to keep them short. allergic to brevity overexplaining is my best friend
TIME TO WRITE? it. varies. its going to be either 20 minutes or a year.
ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE? in some ways definitely! i cant claim i havent done some projecting to flesh him out, and i also relate (albeit in somewhat abstracted ways) to a lot of what hes been through. themes of limited freedom and dehumanization and institutional abuse are very personal to me, and when i write his feelings about his experiences, it helps me solidify and work through my own shit at the same time.
but theres also many parts of him that are very much Just Bido Things and i do consciously try to maintain that separation between the me out here and the character in the writing because a) getting too emotionally wrapped up in your own character usually sucks, and b) hes a fascinating person in his own right and i shouldnt have to relate 100% to everything he does and thinks to be invested in what happens to him. hopefully i can continue to hone my portrayal as time goes on!
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