ᴇꜱᴛᴇʟʟᴀ ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

If you marry me would you bury me?

[bitemyfazzee]

haii, i’m finally back on shedblr after trying to be in recovery (everyone boo me)..i did have another account but i want a new one!!

my (secret undercover) name is estella !

i am 5teen almost 6teen ˙𐃷˙

I am borderlineee and have lowdsss of other issues /ᐠ - ˕ -マ Ⳋ

I always reply to dms !

[bitemyfazzee]

when i was still talking to that girl, i asked her to be mean to me just so i could be upset about something that wasnt him

[bitemyfazzee]

I’m sorry, i said i wasnt going to post about this anymore but i never posted anything public about our ‘private’ relationship? I post on a cryptic account on tik tok, where neither of our names are shared, with very vague scenarios so that other people can relate. Our relationship didnt seem to be very private when you were telling her every detail of our sex life 😪. And also, i think that, as im using posting to cope, i should be allowed to? I am really struggling, still, with what happened, and grief, and i dont think i should have to be silent about it

Its so cringe to post about this on tumblr, but i am blocked on everything so i can only hope this is seen

[bitemyfazzee]

if i wasnt blocked so quickly, i would have loved to just talk

[bitemyfazzee]

I’m sorry, i said i wasnt going to post about this anymore but i never posted anything public about our ‘private’ relationship? I post on a cryptic account on tik tok, where neither of our names are shared, with very vague scenarios so that other people can relate. Our relationship didnt seem to be very private when you were telling her every detail of our sex life 😪. And also, i think that, as im using posting to cope, i should be allowed to? I am really struggling, still, with what happened, and grief, and i dont think i should have to be silent about it

Its so cringe to post about this on tumblr, but i am blocked on everything so i can only hope this is seen

[bitemyfazzee]

I like it when my depression manifests into debilitating horniness intsread of feeling sick

[bitemyfazzee]

I would have just liked to have a conversation

[bitemyfazzee]

talking for the last time felt like speaking to my dad

how i had to make myself cry to try and make him sympathise with me when i was younger, just for him ti be angrier

[bitemyfazzee]

i dont have anyone to talk to i dont know what to do

[bitemyfazzee]

im so alone and im so scared i just cant do this anymore and i feel so awful because i have let myself become such an awful person

[bitemyfazzee]

My brother got this photo of me and i dont wanna sound #cringelord but genuinely this sums up how i feel when my depression gets bad 😓 everything is just so still

[bitemyfazzee]

because im a bad person because im not a good person and people who arent good dont deserve nice things and there is no point in keeping alive a bad person i am a bad person

[bitemyfazzee]

ive actually hit rock bottom and i need to be gone as soon as possible

If i smashed a glass and used the smashed bits, would that be sharp enough to cut with?

that’s probably a stupid question but i just need somebody to tell me

[bitemyfazzee]

went through my mums wash bag to try and find my eyebrow razor and found a condom instead of right im going back to sleep

[bitemyfazzee]

i went to the liverpool cavern club today and some girls adopted me and danced with me and ut was so perfect

[bitemyfazzee]

psychiatrist told me i have major depressive disorder thanks mush so basically youre saying i shouldnt have even been born 👍🏻

[bitemyfazzee]

feeling nauseous because im anxious and then feeling anxious because im nauseous boy can you just go away

[bitemyfazzee]

i called him yesterday in the bath and i told him different bugs and told him to react if they landed on him….and the airbnb im stayinh in is so nice boi liverpiol tomorrow