[blackcarriebradshaw]

I put a copay and new medication on my credit card again. $130 gone with barely anything to show for it. Just another medication that might help again. For some reason, I had hope for this appointment today. I keep telling myself that having decent PPO insurance should mean access to quality care. But I’m still trapped in this endless cycle of referrals. “Someone else can deal with that.” Meanwhile, I’m the one paying for every visit.

Rarely anything gets resolved. All I walk away with is vague advice I could’ve googled or found on reddit. When I do get help, it’s usually because I’ve already done the work myself. Researching my symptoms, laying out options for tests, imaging, medications, or procedures I’d like to try. Sometimes I'm informing them about approaches.

Sometimes I honestly hate this world. I just want to round up every healthcare worker, med school, researchers insurance company, and the U.S. HHS department into a convention and scream at them to get their shit together. To actually have answers for sick people instead of wasting our time. At least make it affordable or free. I went from "the worst" insurance to "the best", and it's all the same quality. Just better looking offices in the upscale parts of towns. I don’t have money to keep booking appointments that leave me with more questions than answers. That money could’ve gone toward gas, groceries, or something essential. Hell, even a new outfit would’ve done more for my wellbeing.

I haven't even covered the time and energy it consumes. Rearranging my schedule, anxiety in the days leading up to the appointment, sitting in the waiting room. And for what? Nothing but less hope. Just specialist after specialist, referral after referral, appointment after appointment.

I’m so fucking tired. Tired of repeating my entire case history to new faces. Tired of being touched, probed, poked, sampled, stretched, and examined inside and out just to be dismissed or gaslit in the end. Tired of watching dermatologists look uncomfortable or turn me away because they don’t have the technology or knowledge to treat my black skin. Tired of having to self-advocate just to receive the bare minimum.

[weltenwellen]

Joy Sullivan, from "Late Bloomer", Instructions for Traveling West

[heaveninhelll-deactivated202505]

[dustorange-moved-deactivated202]

[blackcarriebradshaw]

I've created a GoFundMe to help cover my summer tuition as I pursue my dream of becoming a Speech-Language Pathology Assistant. I've been working almost full-time in special education during the day and a full-time student at night, but without summer income, I could really use some help. Any support, no matter the amount, means the world to me and brings me closer to my goal of helping children communicate and thrive.

Thank you so much!

[mysharona1987]

[blackcarriebradshaw]

ugh this is how I feel about music! back then, artists and labels couldn’t change album covers, tweak production after release, or remove tracks because of regional/licensing restrictions or label disputes. genuinely feel bad for younger generations who are missing out on permanency and assurance. like we already can't afford to own homes, can we please at the very least own media?

[dreamgirlvibes]

[heterophobicdyke]

Yes I do say “I’m not on TikTok” with an air of arrogance intended to assert dominance

[justwildman]

Willful ignorance, refusal to adapt to where the culture is happening, pride in non-participation.

You can see how conservative ideology takes hold in every generation.

[heterophobicdyke]

[aidashakur]

[blackcarriebradshaw]

a reminder like this cant be tucked away in the notes app. posts like this need to be stapled to my frontal lobe.

[blackcarriebradshaw]

white people love to call black people "dei hires" and ignore how white privilege gets them everything.

[blackcarriebradshaw]

naked by doja cat must be what mdma feels like

[humansofnewyork]

“We’ve been dealing with invisibility. We started realizing we’re kind of fading. So many of our friends say that: that they’re becoming invisible. Everybody needs a welcome from somebody else so that they can feel useful. It’s a real source of energy. And when you realize you’re not getting that as much, what happens is you get scared. And you also say: maybe we could do something a little different. So at some point we came up with the idea of the cute older couple. We were hoping to find some younger friends. We’ve always been attracted to younger people. You know, young people struggle. So we like to support them and wish them well and give them a lot of approval. And young people need cute old couples. They love cute old couples. So we decided to play it up a little bit. That’s what it is: ‘play.’ It’s really play. Have you ever seen two dogs greet each other? One dog will drop down, and bam, suddenly they’re playing. I think that’s what we’re doing. We’re inviting a play response.”

[aidashakur]

[389]

Fossil sink

[discodeerdiary]

I still think that a key function of the way we think of the concepts "adult" and "child" is to separate the human population into "people who deserve autonomy but no protection" and "people who deserve protection but no autonomy" and in the process dehumanize both groups of people. We ignore the fact that all people need both autonomy and protection, and that our society could easily be set up to provide everyone a healthy mix of both.

[discodeerdiary]

And to be honest much of what we label as "protection" for children and "autonomy" for adults is merely the appearance of such. We act as if dictating what children are allowed to say, think, or feel is a form of care, and as if cutting away all social safety nets for adults is a form of empowerment.

[enyafans4communism]

sorry my family didn’t teach me that i have a place among others so now i’m weird . sorry

[hollowmaison]

reminders