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The worst part is...it was good throughout because I was blind in love

[ruhaniya]

I’ll always remember that you saw me having a hard time and chose to make it harder.

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Adjusting

All my life I've been told by everyone around me that I'm very adjusting, very understanding. And it made me happy to make everyone happy. But for the first time, I made a decision purely for myself—not a career switch, not my passion, but a man. I fought with everyone for that man because for the first time in my LIFE, I was choosing for myself.

He left me.

But for the first time in my life, I can guarantee on my heart that I didn't make a single mistake in that relationship. I was in it with all my heart. I was good at it. I really tried to be the best girlfriend he could ever have—authentically myself, completely vulnerable.

And it really hurts that he left. But at least I know... man oh man, I can really love something that much. I just need to find what.

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If one suic*de was allowed in this lifetime I would've used it when u left me.... just to show u that I meant when I said to u that I would fucking die if u leave..........

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I just want to go back to his arms. I don't want to teach some stranger how to hold me. I don't want to start over.

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I prayed for you in every single one of my prayers, and you still fucking left just because…

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Used

I thought people were genuinely pure. Like, I have no malicious intent behind my actions—I thought people were like that too. But boy oh boy, was I wrong. People can live with you, be in love with you, talk about proposing to you, promise you their everything, and still only think about themselves. So everyone, be fucking selfish. Do not for one moment stop being selfish, because this world truly doesn't care about nice people. I used to say 'be the change you want to see'… but that's the worst advice to give in this world. Everyone is sick of everyone's bullshit. They openly admit to using people, to being in it for themselves. So just fuck it. It's just you and your work. That's it. Be an asset to this world instead of being someone's love. Because this world really doesn't respect love.

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How low can it get? I asked. Life said 'let me show you' and went lower. Hahahahaha fuck

[a-mind-in-ruins]

"You didn't deserve that". Actually, yeah I did. I stayed in places I had no place being. I had 0 self respect and love for myself. I let people treat me so badly. I knew better.

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Maybe

Maybe he protected me for three years, maybe he really was keeping me happy and I just couldn't be maybe he got tired trying to make me happy so he left, but he was 28 and I was 21, I expected him to protect me maybe so much that I forgot that I could be left in a minute so he just had to remind me that I am worth nothing and it was his love which made me special.

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BEHENCH*D PARESHAAN HOON

[mydarkawaits]

i'm actually doing worse than before not better

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How long are we supposed to keep doing this? Keep trying to love? Keep asking 'what's your favorite color?' to someone new every few months? Is this it? Is life just about being alone?

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I don't understand… in this life, what exactly is the definition of sane? Is it being rich? Or is it being kind? Or is it being yourself....? Do tell if u know

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Thank god you left me. I would've chosen you every single time and never myself.....

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Aisa lagta hai mera bachpan cheen liya tune, har choti baat jo badi lagti thi itna bada sitam kar diya ki ab vo baat betuki lagti hain.....

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I could go anywhere in the world now, and nothing feels special anymore. Because it was never the place—it was you