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making a pinned for this account!

yall know who i am if youre here but regardless:

i'll be using this account as a diary of sorts to log general thoughts and rb hopecore or vent stuff to. i want to be private about it while still sharing it to my friends if that makes sense?

i want to post about the amazing life im going to have without exposing anything to creeps who want to stalk me. and i like that <3

as a reminder though i may vent abt heavy subjects here. they'll be tagged with #vent . i will be organizing on here based on poster/who a post is about (i believe im only letting 2 people in here anyway) but will still be vague. ill also be tagging things with The Disorder if they apply

ill post about system shit and personality disorder shit primarily since those affect my life the most

i love you. i love you. i love you.

#pinned #poster: tob

twistedangelboness

having friends is cool until they worry too much and get in the way of your self-destructive tendencies

anarqueeen

Maybe I'm not mentally ill and I'm actually just feeling anxious and guilty because I'm evil inside

hauntedselves

Functional and Structural Domains of AVPD

- From Millon, Personality Disorders in Modern Life (2004)

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oops I accidentally separated myself emotionally from everyone to avoid feeling any bad feelings & it worked but at the expense of my sense of connectedness and belonging

json-derulo

"you were always such a good kid! we never had to worry about you :)" thanks! you actually should've, though. like about this specifically

json-derulo

i'm sorry i didn't respond to your DM for 23 days. the number on the notification icon got really big and i began having irrational anxious thoughts such as "what if people are in there trying to contact me"

retrodynamics

Honestly if you say or do something strange, an employee probably WILL tell all their coworkers about it all day, however they’ll basically never remember it was you specifically and instead just a faceless “customer” amalgamation of every time someone said something to them. Plus you’re giving them enrichment and something to mutually bond over. So really you’re doing an important service by being a little awkward.

flowergirlmiwa

ending a social interaction with a friend and thinking "I think we grew a little bit closer today." in my head as if I'm a dating game protagonist

one-in-a-nestillion

people always describe the system experience as either the host makes all the decisions with input from their headmates, or the headmates vote and come to a collective decision, but what i experience is more closer to a dictatorship where whoever’s fronting at the moment does whatever the fuck they want until they leave and then it repeats with the next fronter and the one after that too.