Ynken's Blog

Just a little queer person trying to find their place in the world lmao

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queer shitposts abt my life #1

There's smth homoromantic about her saying she smells something really nice and fruity and it being my chapstick

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I've only now realised how awful the walk is without you

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Pretty Boy

I met this pretty boy, his eyes are deep green. Well sometimes they're brown. The prettiest eyes that I've ever seen.

He has locks of dark hair that curl more than mine. And he has this belief that everything is a sign.

He's the perfect combination like when it's raining in the sun.

He's Fall in September, and he might just be the one.

Pretty boy is very tall, well in comparison to me. And he has this belief that some people are just meant to be.

I wonder who he thinks of when he says stuff like that.

I met this pretty boy, he's creative and quite funny. Oh I'd do anything to be his honey.

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oh no

you know its bad when its been a 3 day crush so far and you've already written poetry about them

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face reveal 🗣‼

This is literally me yall so many of my friends have tagged and posted me saying this is me

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My (not) love life update??

So basically I had this massive crush on this guy and he ended up liking me but we ended up having like an open ended breaking (not really bc we didn't date?) up and I wanted to get over it so I wrote a story of us "breaking up". Should I post it?

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Guys decide what BL series I should watch next!

which series?

Bed Friend

The Eclipse

Voting ended onJul 6, 2023

Pls choose for me, I can't pick 😫

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My Haikyuu Crushes

Who I started the show for:

Who I ended up staying for:

and a few others...

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Tao: *talking about Charlie* OH NO HE'S DYING CALL 911!

Nick: WHAT'S THEIR NUMBER?!

Tao and Elle:

Charlie: Are you for real-

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AHHHH I'M SO EXCITED

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Drew Sara Lin during English class

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Charlie: Did you guys ever want to stick your fingers into the pencil sharpeners at school? Like just to see what would happen?

Tao:

Tao: Starting the intrusive thoughts at a young age, I see.

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Friendship is like a toasty warm hug after heartbreaking news. Friendship is like eating your favourite meal and immediately craving it again. Friendship is like hearing your favourite song for the first time. Friendship is like a cold rainy day spent at home reading under the covers. Friendship is like seeing the beautiful sunset sky in awe. Friendship is like overwhelming all your senses with love.

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KEEP CALM EVERYONE

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Being a burnt-out gifted kid is working extremely hard on something you like and being proud of something you made for the first time in ages and then getting a horrible grade on it which causes you to lose motivation for all future projects.

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A poem of sorts that I wrote when we first started dating

Love?

What is love And why do we fall in love Everything that falls breaks So why do we risk everything for it.

Why do we risk our happiness and sanity for it Is it because of the tiny moments that make you smile to yourself Is it because of those memories that even if you guys fall apart you will remember fondly Maybe I know why we risk it all to fall in love and be happy But I'm afraid.

Afraid of the pain that will come along if we ever fall apart Afraid of the pain that makes me cry myself to sleep every night The kind of cry where you are sobbing hard into your pillow and it hurts so much that you can feel the pain in your heart Maybe it's all worth it.

Maybe the risk is all worth it when you are smiling with that one person Maybe it's all worth it when you're happy with that one person who makes you so giddy and feel happy inside Maybe it's time to stop doubting and start moving forward.

It's time to start loving with all my heart It's time to let go of the past and move on to the future, ready to risk it all for a new chance at love I'm finally ready and happy.

And now we're over.

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A Short Dystopian Story

The Stars Above

The dashboard sat in front of me, tempting me, lights strobed at different intervals. I couldn't understand a thing, yet I knew it had to be destroyed. Just like how they destroyed us. But the other one must go first. Sweat beads trickled down my face, glinting in the light. The cold, green steel door is ready to defend the control room from any attack. "Almost any,” I reassured myself. I had planned the perfect crime but everything is easier said than done. The light started fading and the stars of Hydra sparkled as I took one last look at the outside world through the window.

As I entered my eyes darted to any corner or crevice, completely expecting to find a petrified worker who had nothing but the adrenaline coursing through their veins, ready to attack at even the slightest sign of movement. But it was empty, devoid of life. No people, no decorations, nothing. The only thing there was the main dashboard. Screens, levers and buttons of all types adorned it. My brain fried at the sight of advanced technology. I’ve never seen anything like this before. They didn’t have these outside the company. It would be too much of advancement for civilization. Like reaching the stars above us.

Green fog billowed into the room just as my hand reached the cold metal of the dashboard. A blaring loud alarm overwhelms the area, bursting my eardrums. The fog makes its way into my lungs, drugging my mind and body. Rough, scratchy heaves wrack through my body. The metallic taste of blood floods my throat. The heat engulfing the control room frizzes up my hair. Deep, loud shouts can be heard commanding troops into the room. As the drug gets further into my body, a cloud of unwelcome thoughts floods my brain. I no longer see the glowing green of the room and the bright metallic furniture, instead, all I see is the looming shadows of the factories polluting the sky with dark, heavy smog. The stars circle around my head rocketing me to my subconscious. 

My thoughts drifted as I collapsed to the ground, forcing myself to take deep breaths in and out. A stinging feeling erupts through my arm as I scratch the area. Large green pustules protrude out of my arm. The metallic smell of blood and pus waft into my nostrils as I lift my arm up to my hand. A sob tore from my throat. Tears welled up in my eyes as I remembered the days of helping my mother heal my sister of the chemicals released by the chemists. The chemicals they used to control the population. The chemicals they used to destroy the environment. The chemicals they used to murder whole rebellions. The chemicals they used on my family. The chemicals they used to make the constellations practically invisible. The chemicals they used to destroy me. 

“But not before I destroyed them,” I thought to myself, slamming my hand down on the frosty and forbidding button. Frustration welled up inside of me. Would the world be safer now? The deafening sound of bullets and shouts from the guards overwhelm my mind one last time. Toxic fumes swamp the room, loud, heaving thuds could be heard as the guards dropped like flies. The world would be safer now.  Sliding down to the carpeted floor, I stare at the ceiling above wishing for a guardian angel to be sent to me. To take me to the stars above.