Hello Blind Spot

Thoughts.Drabbles.Stories                       P.S A journey that you might want to join.

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Vent

Hello Blind Spot 

A lot of people vent things out when they have something to really get out. something that is often important to them or strongly view about but I guess sometimes they can also be about things that aren’t of great importance but seem so in the moment, you know?

I think I vent or ramble about quite artificial things but when it comes to something that is of importance to me that I wish to vent about then... well, the words become letters that I can’t even unscramble to make any sense. So most time, maybe all the time who knows, I end up saying something short and stupid and then I feel like an idiot for a while. Eventually, I do forget about it but I guess ‘venting’ is one of these that doesn’t come easily to me when it’s something I truly care about. I don’t even have people that will listen to me about anything... well it feels like that anyway. I start talking and that’s when people usually, well, not listen and as I come to the realisation of that, I stop talking mid-sentence and they go off to do their thing and I just go back to what I was originally doing. 

Is this irony? Am I venting about not being able to vent? I don’t know if this is venting but I do know that nowadays I just prefer to be a little bit quieter and not say anything unless I need to. I find it more comfortable. Do you do that? Do you vent easily or prefer to stay quiet or deal with your issues a different way? I wonder if you ever feel anything like this? I mean there must be someone else that feels like this as well right? Yeah, there must be, there definitely is, because as much as one likes to believe they are the only person in the world they are actually surrounded by too many, so many people its honestly fascinating at times... and I’m going on a tangent. 

Well, that’s it for today. 

Till next time

Yours truly. 

P.S It’s an odd day today, I feel quite odd...I wonder, do you ever feel like this?

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As short as the daylight

Hello Blind Spot 

Today was quite an unusual day. It was very simple actually. I think it was me that made it unusual.

Waking up with no alarm by my side and getting ready in a haze to start the day, I felt similar to a windows computer starting up in the 1980s. It has been a while since the only thing that filled my day was just my thoughts. Did that make sense? I don’t know. 

The sun rises and sets too quick nowadays. Don’t get me wrong, I love winter and the chilly morning air that always manages to make my ears resemble Rudolph's nose but... It also makes me feel as if I want my days and thoughts to be as short as the daylight. Is that too depressing of a thought? It’s not meant to be. 

How was your day BlindSpot? Anything you missed today? Was your day interesting? I wonder when you’ll write back... I’ll be looking forward to that day. 

Anyway, It’s only the beginning, this is only the beginning of our long conversation right? So I don’t want to drabble on for too long as we are only getting to know each other, bit by bit. So I’ve decided to only send you some of the thoughts that I have in a day. 

I must go now, I have a lot of work to do. I don’t think I’ve mentioned it but I’m working quite hard nowadays, at least I’d like to think I am, to reach a goal. I’m not quite sure if it’s my goal but it’s a goal and every passing thought is filled with the worry of if I’ll ever reach it. It can be very draining actually. I wonder if you’ve experienced anything like this. 

I hope you didn’t mind this low mood of mine tody. I’ll try and write more positively next time, hopefully, I’ll be in a better place than now. I also hope that you don’t go through any similar worries but I guess it’s life and one must go through things like this to grow and move on and mature. 

I really must go now. 

Till next time. 

Yours truly.

PS. I get lost in time when I write to you. 

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Hello Blind Spot

Hello Blind Spot.

Today, December the 1st is the day where I make my stand and start anew with no knowledge of what might or is to come. Perhaps, but most likely, this is silly but I wish to inform you of the details that I am missing. Now I'm not quite sure of what these details truly entail so you may think this is a sort of journey to uncover these ‘details’. Well, I suppose it is; A journey of which I don’t know what I am doing, what I am uncovering or where it will lead me. 

So I suppose I am writing to inform you that I wish to share with you my journey. I wonder what you will think of it, I wonder what I will think of it as time passes. I hope that you will be able to see what I am missing and guide me on how to do better on this journey. I hope to make an alliance, a friend, with you of who I currently think of as my weakness. 

Wish me good luck. 

Truly yours

PS. ...I’m nervous